 Just remember everything is happening at once time is an illusion. This is what the sharpest physicists think in the world They call it the block time theory. You have presentists that think everything's in the present and only the present's real And you have eternalists. These are branches of thought and philosophy and Physics and so let that be your consolation when things are happening That feel outside of your control everything's happening at once our brains just aren't smart enough to Comprehend anything but the passage of time Everything is scheduled What is meant to happen will happen you must try to research your free will don't get me wrong, but You are not fully in control and that can be good news That could be good news. You can take that both ways, but that can be great news, you know Everything is scheduled your time to shine your time to fade