 before it starts to make sense to me maybe something like that you know and so I I've been told to really try to pay attention you know listen to everything I am and going on and taking little bits and pieces and I agree with you you know I mean it eventually but I read something in the day of course it says we all have our part in a hole you know and so if I'm a banker somewhere and I'm gonna have a part and I just happen to the means that I just happen to have is that I'm a teacher you know and so I still have to take that part you know and practice these principles in that you know that part I mean I could be you know anything you know but if I don't practice you know the non-compromising in all the all the way across transfer don't mean it'll be you know it's a stepping thing I see too because in my life there's one of the early levels of the stages of development of trust where it says the teacher of God learns that every situation is helpful that all changes that take place all of them are helpful and that's yet that's one of the early stages and then like the next one that goes like I think the third one right after that it's kind of like then the teacher of God has to go on and decide what is most helpful having already learned that everything is helpful you see so so that's one of those things to where it's like is it really takes that internal guidance of being guided okay where do I go from here God where what Holy Spirit what's the next step because people will literally take will take that first step which is a very big step that all learning situations are helpful doesn't matter beyond a factory line if you're hang gliding if you're what country you're in what doesn't matter but but not to get too much anchored to that and use that as a justification how that works I mean there was a woman that I know to who who kind of is like who had problems at her job and she just for years you know kind of like I'm gonna get it I have to be able to get it at this job you know I know it's not the job I know it's in my heart so I'm gonna stay there you know and it's like I'm gonna it's just gonna be battle year after year after year because I know I should I should be able to get it here but but that's not how it works either I mean there are times when there's a there's a time for a shift where in a relationship or a job situation whatever sometimes where the Holy Spirit you know we get that internal guidance it's time to move on so that's that real fine line there between you know not getting so identified with a particular situation or role and then turning that around and using that as a justification you know because the ego will do that as well but just being in touch with that intuitive voice that it's time to move on with it I'd have those relationships too it's a big question is how do I know whether I should stick it out you know with this partner or if it's time for me to to move on you know it really comes back to the intention am I trying to run from something or am I really being guided on to something else that's really helpful sometimes even our language should come all those qualifiers are just right for me go every time we look at but hear those that's a good place to do the examining it's again a form content I thought I know that that comes out in my literature and yet I've gone through the course and I've seen Jesus use the word should so once again you don't don't make the blanket statements with the word because it's truly the intention you know it's behind that word should that doesn't mean in Jesus' time what it meant today I mean in the course so he's actually used it in the course so so it's one of the things about buzz words or whatever it really comes down to what's my intention because if we start to try to use specific words as these are ego words may I'll give you a good example there's a line that's in the Bible that Jesus has used in the course which is vengeance is mine say at the Lord now you know you could jump right in right away and you could say well that's the Tegos state it's in the Bible you know what Jesus does though if he takes it's just a bunch of words and amazingly in the course he takes that vengeance his mind at the Lord and he turns it around and gives it a different interpretation and when he's where he says it's like the Holy Spirit saying my little child then she's his mind that idea does not belong in your holy mind give it to me wow thank you or you know we do the same things with song lyrics you know I mean you hear a song and you go special relationship song I can't live this living is without you or something like that that's an ego statement if I've ever heard well then a little more than my mind goes turn it to God I can't live this living is without you it's like you know that's it's kind of a big example of form versus content you know that it's like there's a way of reinterpreting a lot of different things that the spirit can do where we don't have to get into saying that's an ego form or that's a holy spirit form but just trying to stay with that attention I was getting back to that moving on or that going from one level to the next that you're here and I was in a factory didn't want to be there and then I got into a and then Sermon on the mountain a lot of Emma Fox's things and it said well you got to make good at what you're doing at the time you're doing pay attention to what's happening now well then I changed shifts and I did all kinds of things that look at what and it took two and a half years doing changing shifts and listening to because I didn't want to be there but I tried and then finally it came from the outside I mean there was a call for another job and then I realized that I didn't have anything to do with it although I tried to deal with the situation at hand I mean I didn't make any I couldn't make any moves I couldn't quit the job and walk from because I had responsibilities at home now I never thought about those responsibilities while drinking but I know I was a new man the thing I think that the mind is so conditioned into forms and roles and concrete that at the beginning it's like that's all it knows I mean it's you know because my mind is where the mind watching the judgments go in and so it starts to pull away from form and move more to a sense of mind and another way of saying it's kind of like I can the song of prayer where Jesus talks about asking for specifics and in the beginning that's all the mind that's the only way the mind can pray because Jesus says your prayer is a desire of your heart and if you believe in specifics you're gonna ask for thanks you know please help me pay the rent please help me get a better job please you know it's in form asking for form Jesus says all to believe that yes you keep moving in where to start to ask that question what is the will of God for me you start to ask that question in all aspects of your life you can see how it's a fundamental shift from asking for specifics now it's not to say that there's nothing anything wrong with those early things because those are all stepping stones that there's a big thing like I've heard a lot about abundance and manifesting and using the power of your mind to bring you know certain results whether it's houses cars better jobs parking spaces any way you want to talk about it and what what we really see when we look at that is that that is a big stepping stone for the mind if the mind believes that it's this powerless little victim helpless you know helpless in the face of the world that it can be a great witness when you do have that that goal that seems to be achieved that car that that house that money that so on and so forth it can be a step to say gee I'm not this puny little powerless thing I do have a mind and it is powerful it could be a good re affirmation of that and the only thing that the course does is it's like okay now right you have a powerful mind instead of trying to now run with the ego with that and get as many possessions and collect as much stuff as you can have to build up your self concept why don't you use your powerful mind for a goal as high as peace of mind or eternal peace and so to me it's like oh it's it's all perfect you know even the things everything that we do along the way is all kind of a step towards coming to that thing of what what is the will of God beyond in everything you know just asking that it's just there's a real gentleness and ease that comes and I think of it that way in terms of you know the panic of am I doing it the right thing should I should I change relationships you know should I you know those do-do-do what do you want me to do kind of things where the mind gets into a panic about you know am I doing the right thing Jesus is kind of saying are you thinking are you thinking of the Holy Spirit or the ego oh oh yeah that's right that's why I'm supposed to have my attention at my thought earlier but living in the now the first thing that came to my mind was he said how do you live in the now first thing that came to my mind was when my son comes up to me and says I want to do this with you and immediately I'm right now because a lot of times I'm off doing other things and I said that was that's the perfect way that I get in the now is I've been reminded by those things in my life that need to be attended to right in the year now and we said that they take me right right at that point that's those those something I've shared this came to my mind that way and to me it runs really deep that question about living in the now because is that the more I look at the course and I've looked at my my ways of thinking and going about things in the way the world does it's basically it's assumed that here's the world of course as is on the screen and that there's causes in the world and there's consequences you know you don't water a plant it's a hot sunny summer it dries up and dies cause sun heat consequence dead plant you know if you don't use birth control and you continue to have sexual activity you know the whole world is based on causes in the world and consequences and when you really when I really have looked at the course the course is basically saying that the world is just an effect and that the that it's just like a screen or just a bunch of images that are dancing on a screen shadows you know they're there but that's a phenomenal idea because it's kind of like it totally turn overturns the way we do everything all of our professions all of our thinking and all of our planning and the way we go about things is based on fear of consequences in other words that if I don't do certain things these things then these things are gonna happen if I don't pay the rent if I don't pay the mortgage payment or everything ah eviction cause consequence now and here comes the course along it is such a radical thing because it's basically saying that that's very much tied in with the ego's use of time that the ego says you have been guilty in the past you know it doesn't matter it's just look at the closet full of things that you said you were gonna do that you've never done or that you did that you shouldn't have done you know that's that it's that guilt and it's basically saying and you're gonna have to pay for that you know you pay for it in the future that's where fear comes in I mean that's where the ego's use of time is very fearful you've been guilty in the past and you're gonna pay in the future you know you can it can be simple things as if fear of consequences like I have to keep my head above water because the world is gonna get me in the future or you know just the fear of God or for a lot of people they take that out to a final judgment day that they'll pay at the last the final judgment day but but when I really started to look at my life it's like what would it be like to live with the complete relinquishment of fear of consequences you know the old thing like if you could do anything that you wanted to and you could really just tune into spirit what would you do how do we turn it around how do we how do we turn our life into wanting to gain pleasure and love people and just enjoy life rather than facing my lifetime avoiding pain yeah well the basic thing with like pleasure pain for example or looking for enjoyment in this and that is basically we still have identified it as being in the world and so we're still seeking and the course is teaching us that the world is past that the ego system and it's a pretty tough I mean if you've just done the first time lessons you probably came to number seven I see only the past yes which is gonna be a starting lesson because it's like and that's I was gonna mention that earlier when we were talking that's why I mean everything my mind is all based on everything that I've already seen yes everything and that's how I base my future on yes in which that's an illusion because my future never turns out the way everything is a series of organized drifting with unexpected opportunities along the way opportunities are paying at times you know but they are beautiful and wonderful miracles at times as well and I've had many of those and you can see where this linearness is ego needs linear time to keep it going because the holy instance or coming to live in the now kind of let's go of worrying about the future and feeling guilt and regret about the past so the ego's use of time is literally holy encounters where we literally try to see our brothers without the past and the past is all these judgments in other words judgments about male female what were my reactions do I have a good relationship with this person or a bad you know you were mentioning your your issue with all those are like memories and ego is saying yes that's who that guy is all those bad memories you know and that's why you should be afraid of him whenever he comes close but it's really starting to live at the moment of trust and it does take a lot of trust because all of our seeking for to avoid those fearful consequences in the future is based on past learning and