 If you still have the thoughts, still have the beliefs, and yet you still make conclusions about how you think a spiritual person would act, and so you kind of try to act like a spiritual person would act or should act, and there's still going to be a sense of fear or there's an awkwardness about it, trying to play the role or act it out. And so what's interesting is a lot of times I would just have people, I would talk with people who would say things like, oh I really am feeling more and more fearless and so I don't lock my car anymore and I'd say, well how's that experience going for you? When you go to town and you park your car and you don't lock it, how does it feel? And they say, well, I'm still a little concerned. Well, what does that feel like? Well, when I go about to the bank or to the grocery store to do my errands, I still think about the car. And I think about it just sitting there unlocked, almost like it's an invitation asking somebody to come in or something like this and everything. So I said, so that's where you have to really start to take a look at it. If you have continuing concern and you keep thinking about the car that you didn't lock, then there is a fear underneath and then that fear has to be looked at because you don't get any brownie points. It's not like Jesus is one. Very good. You've been away from that car for 15 minutes. Like, oh, extra brownie points for you. You don't get any brownie points. It's more like self honesty. How do I feel? How do I really feel? That's our barometer. We still have continuing concern. There's another part in the course in the manual for teachers where the question comes to Jesus, should healing be repeated? And basically it's the same thing. As long as you pray for a healing and then you have continuing concerns about whether the healing has actually happened or you pray for a healing and you keep watch out with your five senses, your eyes, to keep a close look out for symptoms, then he says, you know, you need to come back inside and it's not the patient that needs more healing. It's your own mind. If you have continuing concern about a healing then it's your opportunity to go to the Holy Spirit and ask for help. Ask for another way to see this. So when we talk about fear or subtle concerns and so on and so forth, that's the subtlety of the beliefs that there can be gradations of happiness or gradations of peace or gradations of fear. And really it's much, much more direct. What is not love is fear and there aren't all those degrees and gradations and when you notice yourself in a sense of minor fearfulness, that's the same opportunity as intense rage and fury. Just a little bit of annoyance, a little bit of upset is a perfect opportunity for healing. It's a perfect opportunity to just, you might say, fine tune your mind watching and realize that if you're a little bit annoyed or a little bit upset, that's still not peace. And the ego will tend to just minimize that and say, oh, it's not that bad. But it's worth, you're worth it. The message is underneath it. You're worth that mind watching, mind training. There's a line too of Jesus says, beware of the temptation, beware of the shabby belief he calls it. The shabby belief that neither you or anyone else is worth constant effort. So it's a call into vigilance. So when it's a big drama thing, it's easy to feel the fear that it needs to be resolved and everything because it's right in your face and you feel it bodily. It's these neighboring little things and I'm sensing that around me, these little things. How do you work with the fear in that regard? Because it's not as big, it's very small. How do you work with it when it's that small? That's my question. Yeah, if it seems small, it seems maybe we'll say it's more subtle. But you start with the feelings and then you take it down. Do you have an example of something that's just very subtle? Yeah, it's interesting because we were talking about the car. I was in the group. I was the one that locked my car up and I noticed I'd been doing that but there was nothing really a value in there just some clothes and shoes. So I put my purse in there, unlocked the car and rolled down the window to let it air. But like you said, my thoughts are with the car still. So I'm thinking about that and there's fear there. It's nothing big, but it's also like I'm thinking about my wallet, about my visa. If somebody stole it, I'd have to do this, I'd have to do that. So this is a very practical experience for me. But there's nothing big, there's no drama. But it is small. It's the same as you were saying between a big drama and a small little thing. But it's activated that concern. So how do I now work with that? Yeah, I could say there's a line that comes to mind from the course that says whenever you feel the need to become defensive about anything, you have identified yourself with an illusion. So when we feel, even if it's a little bit of just a thought that comes every once in a while or a mild concern or a little bit of mild worry, nothing intense. Just a little bit of minor worry. If you follow that, those thoughts, then what you will follow them down to is a self-concept or an image that was made to take the place of the spiritual reality or the spiritual self. So the guidance and the prompts that we receive from the Holy Spirit are designed to unwind and to unravel us from that make-believe self-concept, to really wash it away through the rinse cycle, just wash it and wash it and wash it until the stain is gone. An example is years ago I was taking a trip east from Cincinnati through Ohio and through Pennsylvania towards the east coast and I had two friends with me and we stopped on our way up Ohio from Cincinnati. We stopped around Columbus and had lunch and then we drove across and I think we were just getting ready to head over to the next state which I believe is West Virginia and we pulled in to get some gas and the two ladies I was traveling with went inside to go to the restroom or whatever and then I paid and when I came out to the car I could just see it on their faces. It was not a happy sight at all but they both looked concerned and worried and so forth. I said, well, what's happening, what's going on? And my friend Resta had said, well, I lost my purse and I don't know where it is. She was kind of trying to go back in her mind to the different places we had stopped. We had stopped maybe for gas or a rest area and stopped for lunch and we probably had been driving for maybe four and a half hours. She had quite a lot of concern and so we were just getting ready to pull out of the service station, the gas station and I said, well, I think we just, I'll just pull the car over and let's just go into prayer and meditation because it seems to be the most helpful thing. So we pulled over, we went into prayer for two or three minutes and then she just burst into laughter after a few minutes of the meditation and I said, what happened? And she said, well, Jesus appeared to me in my meditation and he was wearing my purse. It was a green purse and Jesus had it on his shoulder and so she laughed and so that was the symbol of the opening to healing in the sense that it was kind of like the symbol for her was, don't worry, I got your purse. Don't be concerned at all. On his shoulder, I got literally I'm wearing your purse, I got your purse so don't be concerned. Go on your trip and shine your light and enjoy it. And then I said, okay, was there any other feelings that came with it and she said, I can't think of any and I said, I'm getting a feeling that you're to call your husband back in Cincinnati and she said, oh, ooh, her face kind of winced at the thought of calling her husband. She was in the process, she was in the process of separating and this is the very thought of calling him and saying, the purse isn't here, I don't know where the purse is. My feeling was just inform him so that if somebody finds the purse or whatever and they call with the contact information in there that there'll be somebody there that knows what's going on and she was like, oh, because that's where it started to get at how the purse could be used is that there was a bit of a distance I don't want to call him, I don't want to be embarrassed, he'll tell me, if you've done me, he'll give me the third degree if I call him and just tell him about this and yet that seemed to be those were the niggling little thoughts that had to get exposed that she didn't want to expose with her husband and so when we prayed on it the guidance was to do that she did call, she did kind of share share of all with him and everything and then we continued on the trip and we made it all the way to the east coast I think to do a Course in Miracles retreat gathering there on the east coast and sure enough she had left it at a Wendy's in Columbus and somebody had got in there and there was some piece of information had called her husband and said, we found this person yet it was used as kind of a backdrop for exposing private thoughts that's how it works it's not that things happen to us good or bad in the world it's just that everything's an opportunity for us to expose the fears expose the doubts, expose the beliefs and learn to not judge the form which we've been accustomed to taking things on, taking it personally feeling bad feeling like we're not worthy of being and so these things are just real backdrops so in that sense it's good, you can see that it really serves because there's one level which is what seems to be happening in form and then there's the level of the mind which is where you have to pay close attention to those thoughts and feelings and emotions and if you do it enough then you'll find that they merge that it seems like there's a world outside the mind but it's actually not out there it's actually it's synonymous with mind it's like when the Course in Miracles when Jesus says all illness is mental illness he's really saying that all problems are out of the mind that you actually do not have any physical problems you don't really have interpersonal relationship problems you don't really have health issues with the body you don't really have issues with what could happen to you with the environment or whatever it's all mental but it takes a lot of mind training to experience that it's all mental and yet that's what you want to do is practice with whatever is arising because that's how you're convinced in the end that it's all mental so that's good.