 Hello, good afternoon everyone. I hope you're all doing well. I'm doing very well. I am in the final week before I can start campaigning for local elections in May. And I know full well that for two months my focus, my time will be on campaigning for election. And I'm really looking forward to it. I really am. It's like spending two months at a gym for a start. It's not that I particularly enjoy a gym, but I do enjoy getting out and about and getting some exercise. So I'm looking forward to it. And this week I've spent a great deal of time and I still have a small amount to do stuffing envelopes. It's quite a job I have. I love, I say it all the time, but I absolutely love my job. And you never know quite what you're going to be doing. And on that, the last, it was two weeks ago when I last did this video, I talked about something, I think I'm going to need this even more, though my time is going to be a lot more limited in the next two months. I think I'm going to need these things even more because of it is the, this, the art of Japanese living something I'm absolutely fascinated by. So I sent away for, what's it called? I mean just kintsugi, which is the repairing of old and broken things. So I sent away for a little kit to do this because I love this idea that the beauty found in imperfection and how if you put something back together again, it makes it more, it makes it unique and obviously it does. So I sent away for this little kit and it arrived and the bowls you're supposed to break and put back together again were like this size. And I thought, that's going to be way to, what's the word, finicky? Is that a word? Too small basically for me to work with. So I decided I was going to take a bowl out of my own kitchen and do that instead. And I found you, it's taken me, it's taken me until today to actually break the thing. I did get a hammer to one of these little bowls and it wouldn't break. And I thought, this kintsugi kit comes with unbreakable little bowls. So today I instead got a hammer and the poor dogs, the poor dogs ran upstairs. I'm sure they thought I'd gone mad that I'd taken a hammer to plate out of the kitchen, a bowl out of the kitchen. And I thought, well if I smash it to smithereens, you smash it to dust, it's highly going to work either. So I got the hammer and much to the dog's dismay, this is what I ended up with. It's not too bad. It's got a couple of little bits here that is going to be somewhat jigsaw-like in putting back together. But now my worry is that the glue that comes with the little kit won't be strong enough to get on here. Oh the trials and tribulations. But I am, despite having no time, I know I'm going to have basically no time in the next couple of months. I am determined to stick with these little challenges that I've set myself. And what it will require is time management. And time management is an important skill in itself. So I'm going to have to up my time management skills to make sure that I don't abandon my little challenges of putting bowls back together. And my little van Gogh painting-y things that I got and started all this stuff during lockdown. And I've loved it. I have loved it. I've got my gloves here for gluing back a plate. But I'm determined to stick to this stuff. And to challenge myself to the time management that will be required to give the vast bulk of my time to campaigning, spend a little bit of time every day with my dogs, eat well, sleep well, and have some escape hobbies, little things to escape into. So I'm determined to improve my time management during this time as well. I just, there's something I'd love to say and I can't. And I was, I just, just before I sat down, I was subjected to, and subjected to is the right phrase, I was subjected to a video clip from a Politics Live episode. And it was a Scottish MP, not MSP, MP, from the SNP who is on this programme and had made statements of fact, which are not facts at all. And for which there is absolutely no scientific basis whatsoever. But we're still stated as fact. She pretended that the Scottish government is consulting. I'll give you a clear what I'm talking about. It's about, it was about the Gender Recognition Act and changes that the SNP wanted to make to the Gender Recognition Act, to make it easier for people to get these certificates that certify you've changed sex. And as it stands, you have to go through quite a period of time living as the other sex, whatever that means. The SNP want to make it easier. Essentially what they want to do is introduce self identification. So if I sit here and say, I'm a man, then I have to be treated. Everyone has to accept this. I think I've probably said too much as it is. So I'm sitting there and I'm listening to this, these statements made by an MP, by an MP, which are completely devoid of any objective study, any objective truth, any scientific, any medical backing whatsoever. And she's stating these as if they do have all of that backing, as if this is a proven objective truth. And was pretending that the Scottish government was consulting on this. And there was another lady who was speaking in expressing concerns about this and essentially saying, well, you're not consulting us. You're telling us that this is what we'll accept. And anyone else can go take a long walk off a short period. And that is the way this these consultations are undertaken. So there's a starting point, according to the SNP, according to the Labor Party, according even to the Conservatives, the starting point is that one can change sex. That's the starting point. After that, we can debate. The point is, of course, that that is the debate. And the debate is finished, as far as they're concerned, before the consultation takes place. So if you dispute this at all, you are excluded from the consultation, and yet they will still call it a consultation. But what drives me absolutely insane are these, we have MPs stating things that are just not true, the statement being that people can be born in the wrong body. I don't know when this became a thing. I don't know when we, as a society, were meant to accept this as fact when there's no scientific or medical backing for it. But that was that was the statement being made. And if you don't agree with that, then you're excluded from the consultation. And they still call it the consultation and steam coming out of my ears. And I thought to myself, I'm going to go now and do my stream of video rather and give a piece of my mind about this. And as I was coming down the stairs, I realized I can't give a piece of my mind about this. I can't actually say what I want to say, because this is the party's YouTube channel. And I can't risk, can't risk it. My own channel, I get back in April sometime, which if I said what I want to say, I will probably lose it again in quick succession. I did an article yesterday about how we have lost freedom of speech in the UK. And I don't think that that is necessarily a debate. I think that's actually a fact. I think we have lost freedom of speech in the UK. And if I can't say what I think, I'm not trying to harm anyone. I'm not. I just want to express an opposing view to something that a member of parliament expressed as a fact. And I would like to do so without risking losing the YouTube channel. And I can't. That's the loss of free speech. And to me, it's a simmering problem, something that if people are not allowed to speak, they may react in different ways. And I see this bubbling under the surface, because I know how many people don't accept what they're being told by politicians and by the media and by soap operas. And yet they can't respond. They can't express themselves for fear of, as I described it yesterday, there are three ways that our free speech is being taken away. One is through legislation. Another is through social conditioning and another is through public humiliation. And you will see people be humiliated in public, for example, on social media. It's probably the most prolific example of this. And I read last week about a woman, an elderly woman, and she'd said something. She'd said, you die the same sex that you were born. And some lefty went on Twitter and saw that this woman was followed by a drinks company and wrote on Twitter to this drinks company saying, did you know that you are following a hateful bigot, transphobe, et cetera, et cetera. The drinks company responded by saying, thank you for the heads up and unfollowed this woman. As if saying what she said was so unforgivable that she deserves this kind of public rebuke and this public humiliation and this public treatment as if she has done something terribly, terribly wrong. And legislation is similar. And we've had the courts rule that anyone who disputes the official narrative, for example on the transition, but not only on that, don't have democratic rights. And there is actually a judge who said that there is no place for a dispute with the mainstream trans narrative in a democratic society. That's the opposite of the case in a democratic society. We ought to be able to dispute this. We ought to be able to debate it, discuss it. But we can't. And even our judges are saying that the open discussion on this has no place in a democratic society. It's enough to make you just want to tear your hair out. It's absolutely infuriating. And it's so, so, so important that we get free speech back. On less infuriating matters, what have I, what have I been doing? I haven't caught up with, as you know, with my plate fixing. I will, I'll be back doing this again in two weeks time and I will show you my attempt at fixing the plates and my hope that the glue will work. But I am going to continue with that, though I'm not entirely sure the glue will be strong enough. I've been reading quite a bit and that's something that I intend to do, to continue to do. You might remember there was an ITV drama on a while ago about Dennis Nilsson and there's a little bit of controversy surrounding him lately in that he's written an autobiography and you can get that autobiography on Amazon and other major sellers. And people are arguing and complaining that he shouldn't be making money out of this and I actually quite agree, if you're honest with you. However, it, I perhaps, I don't think I'm going to read his book. I don't think I could stomach it, to be honest. Now I'm wondering whether I'm being a little bit, no I don't think I will read it. I don't think I could read it. But isn't it interesting to hear, isn't there something we could, well this is debatable and it's a genuine question, is there something we can learn from hearing from a person directly from someone like Dennis Nilsson. If you don't know who Dennis Nilsson is, this is a book that I've been reading lately. And what prompted me to read it was this drama on ITV and I'd heard that David Tennant had done an incredible performance as Dennis Nilsson. So I decided to watch it and it was an incredible performance. I did think that, you know, this is such an interesting and horrifying story that why don't, why doesn't anyone make a movie out of it? Over the weekend I was watching a three-part drama made by the BBC about John Christie who was a, who murdered a series of women back in the 40s and 50s. Excellent drama and Tim Roth incredible performance. Actually that was the second movie made about John Christie who, the first one was made in the 1970s and Richard Attenborough played him and also an excellent film and excellent performance and I do love to watch good acting. I'm fascinated by acting. At some point in my life I would love to take part just in a play, a local play, whatever it might be. I really do find acting fascinating. So when some gives a really strong acting performance I want to watch it just for that reason and Richard Attenborough, incredible. It was 1971, it's called, the original was called Ten Rillington Place which is the address which these modus took place and the BBC three-part drama I think was just called Rillington Place. Excellent. So I'd heard about David Tennant's performance as Dennis Nelson so I watched it and that prompted me, prompted me to read this book and on reading the book there's actually a warning in the book. When you get to a certain chapter there's actually a warning. What you're about to read will thoroughly horrify you and when reading it I realise why you can't make a movie out of this because it wouldn't get past censored. Astonishing, astonishing story and I often think that we should pay attention to these things in honour of the victims. Dennis Nelson was a serial murderer in London in the, he was arrested in 1983 and his catalogue of horrors became public and he's now written an autobiography and there are complaints about his ability to write it or not. He is of course in prison. I find the whole thing thoroughly fascinating and I read this and I'm interested in these things for the same reason that I watched the documentary Earthlings and that documentary genuinely haunted me for weeks afterwards. People have asked me, do I recommend that they watch it and I usually say no because it's horrifying and Earthlings is a it's a documentary showing video footage of cruelty to animals and I remember seeing an interview with the producer and director of Earthlings and he said I want people to watch it for the animals. It's the same thing. I think in the name of the victims and to honour the victims if you like, of people like Dennis Nelson, let's not let them fade into memory, let's not ignore what happened to them, let's recognise their lives, recognise the horrific way that they died and keep their memory alive in some way. I had some time ago, I've never told this story actually, I had before the UKIP leadership election started and my life changed beyond all recognition forever. I and a friend of mine were going to do a Ripper Walk and a Ripper Walk is a walk around and there are several of them in East London. A walk, a guided walk around sites involving Jatharipa, I'm telling the story of Jatharipa and what we had, myself and my friend, what we decided to do because most of these Ripper Walks don't go to all five motor sites. We were going to be the first and only to, I don't know if it's the first but the only certainly that we knew up that was going to go to all of the five motor sites and we rehearsed this many, many times and walked from site to site to see if we could get into an hour and we could and we'd written scripts for it and what we were going to say and one thing that we had decided to do was talk about the victims as well as who might have been Jatharipa. I think I'm fairly convinced about who Jatharipa was but we were going to talk about the victims and bring them into the equation and talk about who they were and where they came from and how they ended up as prostitutes in the East End and that was going to be a unique flavour for it. And we rehearsed it many, many times and we had it fairly well polished, I did lots of research into the victims and their lives and then along came the UKIP leadership election and my life has never been the same again and I, well lots of things went out the window at that time. So yeah, I mean that's why I'm interested in these things, I'm more interested, well I'm a horror fan and these are real life horrors aren't they and I don't clearly understand the, well there are theories around why people are fans of horror, it's adrenaline or the security of knowing that in this fictional account that the good usually win and this is a, it's almost a reaffirming thing of you know fighting evil and that good conquers evil and that's, I actually spoke to a psychologist friend of mine about this years ago, we talked about being a horror fan. Anyway, part of the reason I'm so interested in this is because I'm so interested in victims and victims and who they were, where they came from and in remembering them. So for that reason I'm a little bit conflicted about the notion that Dennis Nielsen should publish his own autobiography and fully understand both sides, I don't think he should make any money out of it. However, money aside, should we hear from him? It's quite an interesting question, I didn't actually intend when I sat down to do the stream to consider that question, let me know what you think, I'd like to know what people think about that. Okay, as I say next two months I'm going to be campaigning and campaigning and campaigning and campaigning and I am really looking forward to it, I feel completely differently going into this campaign than I ever have before. I feel so much more prepared and confident and optimistic and ready, if you like, ready. It's going to be a lot of hard work and I'm up for it, I'm really, I'm really, I'm excited about it, I'm excited about the challenge and I intend to knock on every door in the ward that I'm standing in and to speak to the people out there and more importantly to listen to and now it sounds like political politicians waffle, it's not, I really do want to hear what people are thinking because I'm, you know, we are living in an era of mass widespread censorship and I often find that when people talk to me, when they find out, you know, that I'm politically incorrect and that I myself won't go along with the agenda and I insist on saying what I really think, at least in person, I'm not going to, as I said, I'm not going to risk the party's YouTube, it was my YouTube, it can't be different, but I will be bullied into thinking what I don't think and when people, when I get into conversations with people about this, about controversial subjects or political correctness or whatever it may be and that becomes apparent, it's amazing how people then feel like they can open up and say what they think because they know that they're safe to say these things to me and that's when the reality comes out and there is a hidden majority in this country who are thinking the same things but afraid to say so and I'm looking forward to going out there knocking on doors, making it clear to people that they are safe to tell me what they really think and I am looking forward to hearing what people really think. So I'm going to keep up all of these things, oh I just, I did my first Facebook stream, I'm on Facebook now, I'm getting to grips with it slowly, it is a little bit of a minefield to me, I'm someone who was my only real social media experience as Twitter and I find Twitter really, really different to Facebook and much easier to use than Facebook, no longer of course and I was thrown off Twitter for questioning the police but there you go. So I'm on Facebook now and making the most of it and I did my first stream on there this morning, live stream and I'll be doing it again next Wednesday so do join me on there next Wednesday at 10 o'clock and every Wednesday at 10 o'clock from now and I've never talked about mostly Hartlepool and local issues here but these issues are the same issues that people have all over the country and how common sense policy can solve a lot of these problems but this morning I had some some guests, some lefties, they are a pleasant lot aren't they? I wish, you know, you think that they would try to prove me wrong occasionally instead of constantly proving me right, I'm sorry but they do, I mentioned this morning that the left, I was talking about my uncle, somebody had asked me what my political journey was so I thought well given it's the first stream I'll take the opportunity to do a bit of an introduction so if there are voters in Hartlepool who don't know where I come from what I stand for I think this the first stream was the appropriate time to do that so I covered my own political history and of course that includes my time in the Labour Party and I talked about how the extreme left had begun to dominate the Labour Party and with that you have censorship and you have bullying and you have people afraid to say what they think and it has now gone from the internal of the Labour Party to wider society and for the same reasons bullying tantrum throwing by the left and the absolute insistence that everybody think as they do or if they don't then at least pretend they do and the absolute insistence on shutting down everybody who even just wants a debate just wants an open honest debate about things who has a different perspective on things they won't allow it the extreme left won't allow this they they censor and in when they can they kill they kill their political opponents you know you only need to look at China or the Soviet Union to know what actually happens to people who dissent in a communists for example society an extreme left society so I've no doubt at all that the extreme left here in Britain would if they could and I don't think I'm being alarmist or dramatic or or exaggerating I think they would if they if they could they would they would kill their opponents and the reason I think that is because the absolute dripping angry hatred that is expressed and that was expressed this morning in some of the comments on my facebook stream and the irony is of course that they accuse me of hatred when I don't express hatred to anyone because I don't feel hatred I feel hatred for certain things I feel hatred towards cruelties and and oppressive and and but a hatred is an emotion and I think when you're confronting evil it can be a healthy one if you you we must be able to hate cruelty and oppression and rape and child abuse and I do hate those things and I it's an emotion it's a strong emotion that I feel but I don't hate people and I certainly don't hate people who are simply because they disagree with me politically but if you watch these these comments that people throw in they are dripping dripping in anger and hatred and I said on the stream that you can't debate you know these people will not debate they won't engage in an honest debate they will try to censor you and one of the ways will be through public humiliation which is part of which is being labeled a racist or a fascist or far right or bigot or hate monger oh you know pick one and just as if you know as if I aren't cute aren't cute you know I've said these people don't debate they won't engage in open discussion all they try to do is smear and attack and call you scary names and then shut you down and that is the that is the that's their their their portfolio that's what they do and as if on cue they start up popping up and saying the usual stuff with anger and with venom and I don't feel those that I'm not I just I would never lower myself to go on to someone else's stream and start spewing this nonsense again I I wish I wish they knew how much they they motivate me I wish they knew how much I understand that I must be doing something right when I get responses like this and people do you say to me after I get a tirade of hatred like this you say you are right you know you I it's so reinforcing to me if people like this are trying to shut you down you have got to be doing something right if they cannot and will not engage in the points that you're making and instead just throw names of angry vitriol around you've won you're winning you're winning and when they do this I know I'm winning and it reinforces my optimism and my confidence and all of that so please lefties keep it up keep making a public spectacle of yourselves it does nothing but make me feel stronger and reinforces the truth of what I'm saying because if you had any argument and response you'd use it you don't and that's the point okay and finish as I always do on these with my inspirational quotes I do love these this is from the book I do this every week as well words of wisdom inspirational quotes on I'm going to give you the full title inspirational quotes and thoughts on optimism success fear overcoming failure persistence and resilience that will change your life that's the name of the book info so we're on to number 28 it says here okay so we'll do three as we do this is from Aristotle onus it is during the darkest moments that we must focus to see the light you will see more of what you concentrate on that's why once you listen to a song it seems to be played on all the radio stations or when you want to buy a new red car of a certain type you suddenly see that car everywhere use it to your advantage you control your life experience by controlling your focus by controlling where you put your attention if you want to see more light focus on the light if you want to see more happiness focus on everything you can be happy about right now if you've fallen focus on your future goal and get up and go for it in the darkest moments focus on how you have overcome problems and have been strengthened by them focus on growth as you can probably guess i agree with every word of that it's not always easy in times like the times that we're living in and what a time to be alive when uh an mp on television can make a statement and make it sound like a statement of fact when it is never been debated the science has never been looked at the science has never been agreed it's not science has got no part in this and yet it sounds like a scientific fact and is presented as a scientific fact and you're not allowed to dispute it yet you'll be called a fascist probably what a time to be alive but it's not always easy in times like that when you are a truth seeker or a dissenter against the mainstream narrative but you've got to keep yourself you've got to keep yourself positive and it kind of chimes at what i've just said about the hate that and the vitriol that is thrown at me or was thrown at me this month was regularly thrown me but was thrown at me this morning on facebook it is such a it's it's it's it's such a an empowering thing for me because i know i know i must be on target if i am attracting that kind of vitriol from people who know they have no argument who know they can't defeat me in an open and honest debate so all they've got left is this and some of it is quite obscene and and you know decent person would behave like that in public i get so much strength from it and i think that's kind of in in tune with with that focus on on the positive even in the darkest moments okay this one's from brian tracy i confess i don't know who brian tracy is but it's a similar one optimism is the one quality more associated with success and happiness than any other more than a decade of research in the fields of positive psychology and neuroscience confirms what brian tracy told us years ago we become more successful when we are happier and optimistic optimistic salespeople for example sell a whopping 56 percent more than their pessimistic counterparts although studies show that optimism can make ceo is 15 percent more productive they also have healthier teams that perform better but it doesn't stop there happy and optimistic managers can also improve customer satisfaction by 42 so yes learning to interpret events optimistically leads to much higher success and more happiness and it strengthens our biological and psychological immune systems optimists even live longer the best thing is that optimism can be learned i think that's quite a kind of obvious really if if a person i'm not suggesting for a second that any of this is easy but what's worthwhile isn't really easy and if you can find the silver lining i think it's obvious that you'll probably be more we're happier um and you'll enjoy challenges more undertake them with more positivity and more confidence and with that far more likely to succeed okay anatole france again i'm not sure who this is uh here's the quote to accomplish great things we must not only act but also dream not only plan but also believe if you want to accomplish great things then acting is not enough you must also dream the dream will keep you going when things become difficult but dreaming is not enough because dreaming alone doesn't get things done you must also act the best the best plan is not enough if you don't believe you can achieve it and believing by itself will not get you there if you don't know where you're going dream act plan and believe every single action by itself is not enough if one of the ingredients is missing now it then it will be difficult to achieve your goals it's the sum of the four that will get you anywhere i have since i started for britain i have maintained both in my own head and in speeches that if you don't believe you can do it you want you have to believe that you can achieve things and while it's easier said than done it is absolutely necessary to to be optimistic and to believe in things and i i'm going to keep going with this book the messages are similar but i think that they're the kind of messages that should be repeated over and over and over again and and repetition is actually how your brain accepts things through repetition it becomes part of your of your brain and your subconscious mind and then it becomes the foundations in which you operate so repetition is important okay and that's it for me for the season oh tonight i am on myself and future for britain meghan and alex are on wake up uk tonight at nine o'clock tune in if you can to that tomorrow i'm going to be filming a manifesto and policy video so there won't be any stream as i said on my live stream on monday because of the election things that have been weekly are now going to be fortnightly so like this video um the economics blog um the thursday night stream book review not giving any of them up but they are going to be fortnightly now to give me a little bit more time to to campaign and to focus a little bit more on but but things like for example i'm going to be producing a lot more policy output videos articles um live stream on facebook on wednesday mornings so be changing what i do for the next couple of months to focus a lot more on the election monday night's live stream will stay that's going to stay now permanently wednesday morning's stream will also stay permanently other things may come and go but these things that have become a bit of a staple of mine throughout the lockdown will become fortnightly instead of weekly to give me a bit more time to focus on campaigning okay that's it thank you very much for joining me join me tonight at nine o'clock on wake up uk uh and i shall see you on my live stream on monday take care of yourselves until then bye