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London gangster convicted of murder sentenced to 20 years in prison Cav This is from the taboo room man shots out to the taboo room, man. I'm telling y'all man. You're low-key Taboo won't be dropping, you know, I'm saying be going crazy Make sure I hit the like button because I want y'all to hit the like button and I'm already subscribed to the taboo room So it's nothing to me How many years and total did you serve? 20 convicted of contract killer The convicted contract killer kevin lang shares his story after serving at over 20 years for murder he he For a murder he didn't commit kevin has been battling tirelessly to clear his name despite being publicly labeled as a hitman and contract killer by the media kevin is determined to Set the record straight and reveal the truth About his past and troubled and troubled and trouble. Oh about his past Why is there a comma and an and right? All right, truth about the past and trouble he's faced with the justice system And he's in his unwavering commitment to clear his name You good Be for the murder I was in the special secure units. It's been shown on whitemore documentary recently the severe Oh I've seen him be pretty of how I was held What I had to go through whilst I was held people have no idea And restrictions and the implications of the grade I was held at triple category eight The only man in this country at the time whilst on remand Unconvicted to be placed on those conditions Unconvicted on remand triple category a Okay, I was born in the countryside in hair field middle sex I had a beautiful surroundings to grow up in but very violent uh Paris Split up so for a beautiful area hair field middle sex and what was your education like have? I'm a clever kid But messed around at school I got expelled at 14. I went to a special well went to another school and then I went to um Education's good, but I I just love to mess around. I had too much energy. But like same as me man I got I got expelled my senior year high school But they've been wanting to expel me from freshman year at that school never liked me Tension deficit order I'm a lot better now than I am because when you're used to sitting in a cell Walking back and forth back and forward eventually you get control of the brain and your hypersensitivity It's okay. Tell me about how your life took a turn and you went down the life of crime Well, I didn't go down the life of crime. It took me on that path from my childhood Factors in my childhood As you're going up into life, I then met a young girl in a new school when I got expelled I started working security doors on the doors, but I That took me off into areas that I shouldn't have really gone into kidnappings and things like that I'm not proud of that Kidnapping people who deserved it. I'm proud of that. I'm not kidnapping I'm not proud of excuse me kidnapping people who Didn't deserve it. I've done that a couple occasions Got the wrong person, but I was not for my own fault for They were put forward. Um, so crime As an early age started when I was does he got Tourette's? No, this is a real question. I'm asking curious really proper crime about 18 What was the first thing you ever got arrested for? Smashing up A building site when I was a kid and then violence when I was 15 of an older boy I got done for a GBH on that got down to a broke his nose to punch up with him And then How did it get so serious? So tell me as well Kevin about the incident that changed your life The incident that changed my life I'm quite a look you can imagine what I looked like when I was 18 Slim faced Lemons down seven boxing. So security doors That then ventured out into other areas Working for a lot of older men Like capable men Back in the day when you had dorm when you needed dorm and not because the country's now of national policies to have security staff everywhere So I was working some real rough else's when I didn't look like I would have to be in the gaff With that came I went away for a kidnapping two years. We should have got a lot more, but the judge who took the law into my own hands Uh, a young girl and a baby was threatened with a knife and I went and the police were called. They couldn't do nothing about it. The people came back again It's a bit more to the story than that. So I took Okay Okay, you were saving a day low key So there was a hundred thousand pounds worth of equipment that was stolen The girl in the business one of the ladies who worked in the business told The owners one of the owners was my friend They went to the police. The police had no enough evidence to do anything the gentleman that stole the Goods came back and shaken the doors of the officers and trying to get in So put a knife to a girl and a baby and said we cut you and the baby if you go back to the police again So I then came onto the fold of all I'm having that and I took away the gentleman who was involved in that Gang, but he wasn't he was his mate, but he was put forward So I did some terrible stuff to him which I regret I've since met him in restorative justice But it's massive transformation for me and seeing seeing someone in front of me and hearing how he felt after what I'd done to him All I thought when I was beating him up and Doing stuff to him Is that he'd put a knife to a girl and a baby So that was all I see I ain't gonna lie that's respectable kev But it was the wrong person, but I get I get morally where he was going And then I see this man years later. I didn't it wasn't the man There's a massive transformation for me um I went to prison for that jury Said they made a wrong decision. They came back. Judge said immediate bail Application and an appeal I said I went downstairs. They don't appeal Don't have a don't apply for bail. I'm happy with the sentence. I've done six months remand I got released on uh, uh hearing whilst I was on my mind because the police got caught out lying again Chief counsel of police writing down statements wrong and Witnesses being phoned up at the end of their road saying meet at the end of the road There's a picture of Kevin Lane can write a statement out and name him So I got bail six months after being remanded for that and then I went back to court 40 months later And I was found guilty Like I say the jury came back said they made a wrong decision I've never heard of that before And I told my bailster not to apply for bail and don't apply for appeal I'll go to person. I did it. I didn't give evidence I'm happy with the sentence and then I I got out and I went to live in spain because I had enough of england Wait a minute, man The jury came back said they made a wrong decision. You told your lawyer don't even appeal it Let me just do the time like hell no Appeal it let me out So that didn't work Okay, the mother of my children, uh, she came out with the children And then I'm falling out of people on the island. John Palmer brings Matt bullion not him per se, but some of his workers Uh, again, I used to have massive problems because I looked so young And sweet-faced but I had a pretty girl on my arm That caused his trouble, unfortunately Yeah, and he caused trouble that an evening when I was on the golf disser in the steakhouse private golf club I lived on there It was a problem people were talking about drugs Uh, I complained next thing I got three people in front of me Great big bulldog of a man Been quite aggressive towards me and he says you want to calm down. I said, well fuck all do you stay out of it Your arms size on my legs Big bull dead big old chest, right? He must have thought who's this cheeky little bleeder But I weren't frightened of anybody and I say that respectfully. I just thought don't tread on my toes I want to stamp on yours do not try to threaten me because I will react I don't care if there's 10 of you in front of me. I will react to you So leave me alone And that stems from my childhood and my brother having a car accident Having to wear a big Mr. McGoo crash helmet when I was in the infants three or four He nearly died helicopter Ambulance and all that But then with that comes a lot of abuse from children So I was always fighting as a child for my older brother And then my mum and dad split up when I was a kid and then of course it escalates and you go through school fighting for your older brother and younger sisters But I was happy go lucky kid always happy always Thanks defensive personations normal wisdom. You will remember normal wisdom. Would you want mr. Wigsby? And doing stuff all that ventriloquist acts so the happy go lucky child Started going off on another path for a tragedy for my brother an accident And then it spirals out of control And you're on that spiraling on you. So then I got released came back from So I got released and that I went to Tenerife came back to England if I'm not living out of here So I can mini England too much trouble. I came away from England to get away from that type of carnage um And unfortunately He implicated in a murder And that murder Ended up taking me to prison for 20 in total now 22 years nearly I served 20 I was in the special secure units. It's been shown on whitemore Documentary recently the severity of how I was held. Oh, yeah, I think I remember that What I had to go through whilst I was held people have no idea At restrictions and the implications of the grade I was held at triple category eight The only man in this country at the time whilst on remand Unconvicted To be placed on those conditions and Michael Howard. He's I believe he's dead. No, so I don't want to be killed of him but he introduced Restrictions permanent closed visits permanent. You don't get to touch anybody All massive security implications legal bugging of your legal visits Legal bugging past it bug their legal visits listen to what they're saying Naturally in sales and as well as social visits I went to court had a hung jury For murder Can I just call back a step there? So how did that all begin the this the charge of murder? Oh, I came back from tenor reef. Um, I had a car It was stolen the first night quite unnatural because I put a There was an immobilizer on it and I took a piece off the engine and they still managed to take my car off air drive and get it and off they go as if I don't know they seem to know a bit about cars Travellers did that local travellers in the area and I managed to get the car back On to their side and said look, I know you've had the car. I want the car back. I've got a load of petrol I'm not having it. I'm like you're in caravans. I'll just sit. Oh, you're a tough dude He went to the travellers campsite the gypsy travellers campsite with a petrol and they do nothing This fucking campsite I like Give me then fuck that car back And they were very respectful. He said I don't need trouble with you mister. No fools don't get me wrong No fools, but they respected that I went on today. I said, I know you've got my car You've come round in the daytime to look at it that evening It's been nicked and it's been used in a round raid the police said it's been used in a round raid by gypsies Two and two you've got my car now. I want it back No egg. No problem. We get your car back paid for the damage and they deliver the car back Little while after a week or so after I can't remember now Um, but we're through that. I I was loaned a car I went out in that car for a weekend took it straight back An old banger or had the kids in the car mother of my children So I took that car back That car was then seen by being driven by another male Who is the police officer knows me who said that car being driven off? See see see This is my whole thing man. I'm not written. I'm not using nobody car unless it's coming from Hertz Hertz rental, you know what I'm saying a rental car service You know what I'm saying? You're not gonna convict me or somebody else's kind. Well I'm a no no no no there's record that I have rented this car and I did not have it on that day After I dropped it back and said it was not Kevin Lane driving that car Give a description of the man with dark hair and that and the car was subsequently Duplicated the number plate was duplicated and a rep another car was used at the scene using that number plate So that then tied it into me But the car that was used at the scene was a 323i The car that I use with 320 and there's factors in relation to this. They're all in the book Fitting up and fighting back And there's no black order on my book. He's been out for two years now and all the facts in there are genuine factual um so I was tied brought into the the conviction as a result of being tied to that car And then the corrupt police officer was brought into the case. He subsequently went to prison for four years Two police informants who were working with the police who was originally arrested for the murder Bragging about it showing off a gun They actually gave a card that was used in the murder to somebody else and asked him to burn it Uh, he'd give a statement his statement would have held for me for 12 years Otherwise the original suspects would have been in a dock And that's because they were going around admitting to the murder saying call them yourself wonny in reggie I wonder which one was wonny look right and then uh Uh, well, I think they might have both been so fair play to them uh They They were showing off the gun in the pub Uh, they still was using the murder or at the scene As well as bragging to be in the murder So they got arrested and then they brought in the police handler who's worked with them previously on other cases And they've molded the case around me a story of corruption. That's crazy It's not around and said I was a prolific contract killer killing people in this country There's many unsolved murders like many there was three police forces waiting to dock arrest me if I'd have gotten not guilty Now I say this hell the bloody hell You be at my door Based on what this fella's turned around and said Why don't you go back and ask email coming know so much about the murders because until I'm at this point I've never been arrested for a murder Please explain to me Of course what he was telling them was so severe that I was committing murders for Uh Chechen government the prime minister of the Chechen government in this country And other people in this country hundreds thousand pound a hit So of course they thought we're cleaning the books up here Doesn't matter what the evidence showed about taking the in another direction and the book shows that Now I've got I've had law lords. I've had MPs. I've had all sorts of people right across the board So how is your conviction still standing? What is going on here? Panorama covered my case last chance for justice mark daly and louis short here Trace Alexandra shoes unsure for the friends against the institution of science So the evidence used in my case had never been used. It's false And it's wrong Yeah, I got found guilty based on that So when you're in court and I guess all this has gone against you and inevitably you are found guilty How do you feel? Well, I was in court two of the old Bailey, which is a high security court And it's the lot of old word dark and dingy and this He's got an ear ear about it the old Bailey and The first chapter in my book I keep going back to it, but it says W promo keep going back to it. You're doing the right thing Don't judge me. She's walked a mile in my shoes And I'm in the dark and the jury have come back and they came out with a guilty And I thought god, this is it. No my life's over The police had asked for 30 years to be imposed on me sentenced At 30 years. I thought are you kidding me? I was 27 at the time And then the judge never sentenced me. You found me guilty. I'm sorry the jury found me guilty and you said stand up I sentenced The only one sentence I can sentence you to in that is life take him down and I never knew the difference between a Recommended sentence, which means the judge gives you a sentence in court and he specifies in court You will serve a minimum of 30 years all right Which was happened in in the uh In connected to my case. I'll tell you about in a minute. So he never gave me an open Recommendation and I got the tariff three years later Which is a tariff. He's from the home secretary and he said I have to serve 18 years I was having a moon. I got it going down to lunch and there was a screw. I didn't really like no one liked him Lane, I mean, what is it? What do you what do you want? Because I've got saying for you new years eve Give me this bit of paper my tariff. It's an 18 years away. What a result and he's gone So I'm telling you what about him I thought I've just got 18 years. I was expecting to get 30. I've got 12 years off my sentence Oh, no, it was innocent imagine being innocent and getting 30 But being innocent and getting 18 you thought boy, there's light at the end of the tunnel Oh man, that's a messed up even mindset. I'm innocent I'm thinking I'm going to get 30, but I'm celebrating because I got 18, but I'm innocent And it's clear. It's clear corruption and In my case day and night day and night no tv Of all I'm not having this you're not going to do this to me and I had my own prison censor And I let us let us let us out all the time So mail coming in was quite a lot And I brought the criminal justice to the negotiating table and I I finally won my case and got out and they said you Well, I said I won my case. I haven't back to the court of appeal yet Because the criminal justice system is corrupt to the courts like the canteen culture You've got people working in the ccrc in the criminal cases review commission They were connected to my case the chief cuntsworth police at the time of my arrest was one of the 14 ccrm seemed commissioners They also turned around and said that their staff are in the ccrc That it's inevitable that they were no staff or someone who's involved in my case, but this does not cause the Cause us to form the view of biased. Well, it does doesn't it? I mean, let's have it right You're not going to be in and further to that there was barristers working in there that was It's a trust called the callitia trust and the callitia trust was set up By lord chief justice rafiti lord chief justice rafiti was sitting with callitia his deathbed That was a prosecute in my case about four weeks after he was found guilty. So he was on his last legs Bent the rules quite a bit in my case and stuff like that. Um In that When lord chief justice rafiti was sitting at his bed She said we're going to set up this trust to help trainee barristers But the trainee barristers are working in the criminal cases review commission So I had three reviews and each time it's going to find the trainee barristers As well as What are we doing here? Like that's messed up I don't know how since all the magic in fact, what chance do you stand? I don't want to know so I go up on a pill I don't want no trainees doing nothing with my life Don't put my life in no train. No, I want professionals that's been doing this You know, so even though it might it could have worked in his favor like man, they might see like They might see things different because they knew her So they not maybe they might not be as seasoned as And stuck in their ways as other people but like it's like no, no, no, no, no. Give me somebody Two weeks before I go up on a pill because I got released from the prison system Two weeks before I go up on a pill lord chief justice rafiti steps into my pill and lord chief justice huge steps down I go up in front of the appeal and get just told to go away And my barrister was he actually He he he he he swore I'm doing he likes that Don't care about We're now on journalists and so on and so forth. Many people I can't believe I'm still sitting here convicted because my conviction goes right to the top within the criminal justice system in many departments CPS Halfship police criminal case review commission forensic institute, etc, etc, etc But if the case Gets back to the court of appeal Which it should do I've got to get a new barrister because my barrister now become a judge. I've had covid I've had to go through covid with my case my drafts my papers are meant to be rewritten So I'm gonna so you fresh out you just getting out get a new barrister Why does it keep and a new solicitor because my assistant mazlin merchant is unobtainable If you are watching this mazlin, please return my calls Because you don't and I don't know if you're real or but I don't know what's going on Or if you've been spoken to by my six or am I five? Because it's very bizarre that you've Thought for me for all these years and now you're not returning my calls And I've been told by somebody else that they're getting pressure from other departments He alive still How many years and total did you serve 22 20 for the murder? Yeah, a mazlin merchant was with me since 2004 fighting all the way Great had to just use and be a great solicitor But I don't I believe is either something happening personally in his life Or is that he's been spoken to because it doesn't make sense Do you think that changed you in any way because I feel like doing 20 years for a crime that you've never committed Can change someone massively To come out the other side though with compassion and and sense of fair play still Uh It has changed me in that I I believe that gray areas in life And not everybody who's in prison are bad just because they're in prison A lot of people unfortunately Things happen in their life, but doesn't make them bad people And who was actually killed in that murder? um There was a villain Uh Gentleman called Robert McGill local villain hard man And he was executed Yeah, did they ever find out did they they know we've done it You can't go if you've got people going around breaking it. They done it I mean the fed this the two fellows in my book who got caught with a car Like so they gave it to someone asked him to burn in dispose of it Showing the gun off admitting to murders, but further to in the book They've engaged in confidential chats with the police Well, they want to assist the police with this inquiry And they know they decide I give them a number of facts now if you're I ain't gonna lie. They sound smart and dumb at the same time You know what I'm saying, but most nowadays police know like most killers If they get over and most people if they're overly involved in the case Then they probably did it, you know what I'm saying, but like back in them days. It's like Y'all want to give all this evidence like what's what? How y'all know, you know what I'm saying, but charge with joint enterprise The new are involved in that murder So whatever that involvement is Well, you'd like that roll round mouth fellas. There's an Asian lad He came in to frankly got 20 years for taking a bit of food to him But he won a criminal. He just went along for the ride Stupid mistake for 20 years. You've got a university in all sorts Just an Indian kid out of duck out of water 20 years. So The the conviction Do you see this war behind me me and my twin brother It's now seen massively The the conviction is now seen massively It's a grave miscarriage of justice, but I'm still fighting It's changed me. It's changed me a lot now having in that I've come home. I've won my freedom. I was given natural life and said you shall remain in prison And definitely at one point because I wouldn't do the offending of over courses You wanted me to speak about the index offence that I'm not doing that Anyway, I won a court case to address my offending behaviour based on other crimes that I've committed And it's affected a lot of people in prison now because they can go along the same path and hopefully when they're they're released But prison changed me It changed me now that I'm fighting for my Conviction to be overturned and there's so many stumbling blocks in front of me Even down to being recalled recently and they've accepted that they've recalled me wrongfully Let me out of prison. There's been some heads that have rolled as well. Have you like what's going have you given any payment for this? Like I'm somebody's getting sued That's all over what happened to me When you get released by the secular state or the seven o'clock on a Friday night You've got to be gone. We want you out of here. The secular state's going mad. It's like chuck me out So if you've admitted defeat they've offered me turn off brand or something like that compensation for four months I think it starts just 30 and goes up Yeah, I've now got Man, it's like chuck me out. So if you've admitted defeat they've offered me turn off brand or something like that compensation for four months I think it starts just 30 and goes up. Yeah, I've now got to pay a solicitor To act for me privately because you can't get leader laid Although they've admitted defeat by releasing me and offering me money Because I haven't got the funds to take that further that case just sits there Because it won't be a thousand it'll be 1500 could it be two and a half grand and then there's It keeps going and going and going barristers costs and things like that. I've already had that once 24 grand got me nowhere So life's a little bit difficult in a minute That must build up a lot of resentment surely I guess all these times that well the position that you've been putting Um, I guess it seems almost as hurdle after hurdle after hurdle Is hurdle after hurdle and if you Going through the courts for access to a child and you are A criminal based on paper not that you are an excellent father Who's never missed one visit drives two and a half three hours sometimes more to see your son for an hour and a half visit They're all through that for the courts to lambast you because of your conviction and treat you differently as a result So I'll see my son as this is by way of an example separate from the mother of my children One I was with her four months. She felt pregnant. I mean gays in a relationship didn't work separated. I want to see my son Stop start sort of the control stuff and I've literally it's going in my favor now. I've got um, so because of my conviction Kafka's had an investigation a year Didn't see my son. I said, but I've been seeing him. How come you just stop? Is there any harm come to him? Is there any any allegations that I've harmed him or anything like that? No Well, can you stop me seeing him for you? It can't be any interest in my son. They did Yeah, and it came to nothing. They closed the case and social services said he's an excellent father It's just he's a handover because him and the mother can't get on Been a call One access just to get weekends here. I am now five months I've been waiting for another emergency hearing because the mother stopped the Contact again because I'll get osman warnings on my life But people threatening to kill me based on my conviction. I've tried to overturn it Well, sorry, what was that you get osman? Oh an osman warning is a threat against your life The police have received information that someone's going to try to kill you or or such and I've been receiving them since 2006 I'd fall in prison stayed in the same cell in the same landings No one ever tried to kill me. Why do you think that would why would someone want to kill you? Well, the people in the book that I mentioned of trying to get me killed to shut me up Because he quite clearly shows that they were working with the police and fitting me up Going around bragging about the murder and so on and then they subsequently get found guilty of another murder another contract Killing once their handler gets sent to prison for acts that he did in another case They don't want me to keep publicizing the miscarriages of justice And there's other people as police officers come forward to the BBC and said they've seen statements that were written out by the corrupt police officer and he said you had to think carefully how to word them and had to sign it Stuff like that, you know my conviction is so corrupt It's it's unbelievable, but Well, I was about to ask, um, what was the craziest thing you've seen in jail in the last 20 years? Gotta have a lot of stories number one governor sitting in my cell dressed in suspenders No, that happened, but That made a good snatch video, wasn't it? Oh, I've had Can you remind me of Jim Carrey a little bit? He needs to start acting. Somebody need to get this man acting real low key I've been sitting in my cell sitting on my bed woman gov into an hole Here we go, but I was iriske at the time so everywhere in my cell was You know every time I walked in a cell I was recorded names gone in that cell what are you doing in there? Uh, this craziest thing I've ever seen in prison People go down to the violence all the time, you know the sheer Violence with atrocious People slashed the pits knives stuck in them and Bought in on fact tipped over their heads. He is falling off I see uh, I seem blokes battered to pieces battered Sexual deviants Shagging people El pork dagger or the old black sausage sucked Wow So Give a bit of air in if you know you gotta do something can you? Not me I've never given or I've never taken That ain't happening But I've seen a lot of things in there sad things where you I've seen People were in on the landings from mental health hospitals because they were so full at one time coming into the landings Real severe difficulties Immensely unstable should not have been on them landings And then I've seen people shagging them not actually seeing them do it, but No, they are in prison. So there's that side of things that I thought my god that's brutal Oh this one Because I believe it or not a lot of the old school criminals like Kenny Collins. He's a very good friend of mine and They have a real old school set of principles where you definitely go have respect for your fellow interns If you lose that respect for them, then you've got nothing left principle wise. You've committed crimes But there's certain set of rules and guidelines that they used to hold on to That's all now gone They're sticking spoons up people's backside to get their drugs out of their bums and things like that in prison now Burning their feet and tipping oil over the feet of hot water to get money sent to their an account It's atrocious what's going on in there now so Hmm, I've seen a lot of changes in there and prisons ain't the same as what they once were and the clientele aren't the same And with that comes a lot of problems So anybody that's thinking about going to prison now you are going into a mugs game You're losing your life. This isn't a dress rehearsal One chance at this If you want to get in there be abused will be welcomed into the fold one minute and then Robbed and stabbed the next because you don't fit in with the crowd or something's gone on or you don't get on with that Moral of the story is stay out of prison I thought you know what I was saying stay stay a free man A free man going over there or someone has come in or he stabbed Your brother's mate and you don't you're wherever loads of implications If you think you're going into prison now Do you have a great time? Oh, no, I don't think nobody thinks that right You're a fucking mug clearly a mug Because there's no way of life. I don't mean that to insult people No, I mean it to insult people Individually but collectively it's a mugs game why the gangsters get seen as heroes when they're not Angels with dirty faces He was asked to cry at the gallows and he told the Vic could clear off But he started crying at the gallows so the young kids could see you as weak But he wouldn't he wouldn't have done that otherwise I like that film watched it with black and white when I was a kid The heroism Should be looked at the soldiers in the in the special services of this country the nurses the fire brigade And right across the board in the criminal justice system. We were doing very difficult jobs and overstretched services for the better of this country in other countries And they're the real heroes But criminal was or not So Kevin when I was researching your story I often saw the the words contractor killer hit minus soul shattered real name Do you think that was a fair label to have next, you know? I'll always say it's not fair, but the the the rest in the charge sheet said uh contract killing That has an implication That you know this murder someone through anger. You're you're killing they say you're killing someone in cold blood for money Which make you a psychopath But you go to Worth using the army They're killing people trying to kill a psychopath. So I don't quite agree the terminology not that I'm so not I did the murder But to be labeled a psychopath or contract killer And it still continues now So trial by media Was great for the media number one contract killer in the country in the times and all these other papers and now The positive of that as crazy as that seems is on free And I'll say well meet me talk to me see what I do in my life today See what people have said about me as a person and the people have come forward in relation to my unsafe conviction And judge me Kev, what would you say is the worst memory of your life apart apart aside from the conviction? the conviction My mother and father separating Not having my father as a child Now having your father does a lot massively massively I would be get to the football ground an hour or two hours sometimes probably two hours Earlier just sitting there imagining my dad turned up case he gets there early thinking the game's early They'd know I did he really knew about me playing football But there's people in the village who knew my dad and Blah blah blah and I thought he never know so I have to get there case he gets the wrong time I'll get there early And I've heard us now that affected my life Which is why I've always wanted to be a strong part of my children's life Because I feel the pain of what I felt facts same I can never be a deadbeat dad That's the biggest regret biggest pain I ever have or not even a deadbeat. There's not in my peep daughter life I have had the similar sort of pains now where I don't get to see my youngest son That's been stopped for five months ago because I get osman warnings The mother used that to stop me. I've been getting them. She knew I was getting them. We're not she's all pregnant just just the act of nastiness I feel that really bad in a moment because I feel the pain that my son's feeling I know he's feeling that pain Because when I was seeing him he would squeeze me around the neck and wouldn't let go just kept squeeze him He'd squeeze him he'd squeeze me as hard as he could Not just a quick squeeze, but just kept his head in there I thought this boy's trying to tell me something. There's something he misses and loves his dad, but he's telling me something I've just found out these mums have been out and her been seeing a fella for over a year getting family orders with him She's telling the call. She's a struggling single parent Far from that could assure you met a botox in her head She ain't struggling And as well, um, okay, if you had one wish what would that be? I'd one wish For myself or for the world For yourself I've returned this conviction If I ever turn this conviction, well, if but when I've returned this conviction My life will change and many other people's lives will change massively How come I never got a slice of cake with my cup of tea? Oh, it's wrong with this tea. I don't even like comment subscribe turn your post. I'm gone, man