 Nick in the north spaces, know him now that I'm not alone And you're all around, and I have four to nine places All lined up while I'm stumbling around With a spilling car singing This and another way that I am I know he can't stay in the crowd Down by the water, singing all songs My darling, my loving song's going down Crooked up in my waist, I know you But I know myself like I know you're too And I see a lot of faces Just like us and they're going fast And they're speeding, carpooling This and another way that I am Welcome back to another YouTube video I'm super excited to be vlogging for you guys today It is Saturday and I'm gonna do a little weekend vlog at home So this week I actually already filmed a video I filmed a what I eat in a day which is going to go up this coming week So there'll be another video up very soon Autumn is just the best in New England and in the east coast I'm just so happy that it's fall And I want to get all the home vlogs in While I'm here and I really really enjoy these videos They're really fun to make and I just really enjoy them I just personally like watching chill home cozy content Just like long format relaxing content So I've been trying to be really consistent about uploading the vlogs that are my personal favorite So that's why we're here again for another weekend vlog So today I'm just hanging out I have some errands to do I just had a little relaxing morning by myself But I have some friends coming over So now I'm just gonna pick my outfit for the day It is raining a little bit I feel like every time I vlog at home it's raining It's been a bit of a rainy fall But it is raining today I kind of wanted to wear a long sleeve shirt with a vest And then probably just like a casual denim Maybe even leggings Hm Okay, one second Has anyone figured out how to put tight tops on without getting your makeup all over? I have not figured it out Especially with a slick back Okay, just put on the shirt from Adonola The only stuff I have from this active wear brand is from my brand deal That I did with them and this stuff is so cute I did get makeup all over the shirt I got these two mugs from Terrain And then these dried hydrangeas That I thought would be really cute for a fall The girls Like bad girlies Like bad girlies I have a hot take I have a side note I'm scared I'm scared What if we like went out in Fairfield? No No I think... Well, I unfortunately blew my candle out pretty hard Living in New York City But Get your bag This just changed the plan We are going to buy this And do this Because this sounds like the best idea Ever Is this anything unlike anything you've ever had? It's really good Let's get in here That is a thick Hannah doesn't like it Okay I'm going to stop you Let me just Let me just like What the fuck are you going to say? I know I was going to say wow Give me your nose on it It's giving like mine It's giving candle Okay It's giving taste like candle I think you just don't like fall I think you don't like pumpkin spice It smells really good Like a candle I'm going to call Tommy And see what he thinks of my PJs You like them? What you been doing? Yeah, I like them I've been I've been hanging with the girls We made fondue Fondue look Fucking fire Yeah, the fondue was so good My morning has been pretty good Just got some breakfast With the guys And then Just got back to the room It always won The dodgers are getting their ass whooped And I'm Just planning to get to our little bit Nice, Bean Say goodnight to the vlog See you vlog How late? My team is depending on me to be on time What time is it there? It's like the morning there Good morning vlog Happy Sunday I just put on A little outfit from Brandy This is the outfit that I got yesterday We are about to run out And grab pop up bagels This morning Okay guys I got a new pair of sunglasses I really like them They're from Bonnie and Clyde Bag has been secured Just bagging the rest of the bagels Freezing them And then you can kind of Pull them out individually Eat them Okay In a Q&A We decided When are we gonna do that? Tonight Okay We're heading to the barn now Hang And then we're gonna make dinner I think we're gonna make chicken dumpling Okay guys We bought this cheese yesterday When we are at the cheese shop To do the fondue And it's called Shneedle horn But we don't know if that's actually true Comment if you don't think it's Shneedle horn It's not Shneedle horn What is it? We need to get Shneedle Wait What do you just say? Shneedle Pretty close Wait We'll look it up This is the best cheese I've had in a while Shneedle horn That was right Shneedle horn Yep, it was raw cow's milk With notes of garlic That adds up I'm gonna clean up the kitchen a little bit And then we're gonna get started on Dinner I think my parents are coming For dinner We're making chicken stew Kind of with Dumplings Which are basically just biscuits And then I'm gonna do a cucumber salad That's actually like more Asian inspired By looking at this Start with a B Start with a B End with a B Biscuits So I decided that I wanted to End this weekend vlog With A little Q&A Amanda and I used to do these Back in the day I don't know if I've archived them or not But okay guys If you don't know who Amanda is Amanda is my oldest best friend From my hometown Okay Are you scared? Yeah What was the most unexpected compliment You've ever received? Unexpected compliment Yeah I don't know how you go first No, you go first Okay Can we come back to that? People saying I have nice hair Because I have fried my hair off Into oblivion Mm-hmm Like I do naturally have nice hair Yeah But my blonde has been fried To the core for four years Mm-hmm And I have extensions Like I think people know I have extensions But when people say Oh my god I'm obsessed with your hair Or they Yeah That always surprises me Because I think my hair is my Now it's not But I think that prior to now My hair was my weakest link Mm-hmm Okay Like it's the thing that I think I like Serving the least looks through I totally agree with him For maids as well Really? Yeah, I served the least amount of looks With my natural hair Yeah Okay I don't even know the answer Listen, I'm already laughing Okay A memory that will always make you Laugh that only you guys went through There are so many Yeah, there's a lot A lot, a lot, a lot Oh my god You swinging from the We won We won? We were in Vermont Oh my god I was pro-net And we went on a weekend trip to Vermont At my old Vermont house Mm-hmm And I unprovoked Stripped naked And swung on a rope swing Like full tarzan Full tarzan Into the water Into the water And it was cold That was funny That was really funny Yeah, it was like Around this time of year We have a lot of really silly memories together We have a lot of stuff we cannot share Yeah, definitely But that tarzan one is really funny That is funny Most embarrassing story of each other That you're willing to share When I shot on the beach in Nantucket That's like not even embarrassing Like I feel like that's just like a vibe You filmed it Instantaneous food poisoning When we were in Nantucket And we were on the beach On a moped Or when you threw up on me I took a shot This is actually coming up At Thanksgiving At the bars in my hometown Projectile bomb and it on Amanda I was wearing a white shirt by Jackie And then we continued Continuing on with the night It's like the last time I ever danced Or drink We like don't drink anymore Exactly Advice for someone who's been single for a while And is watching all of her friends Get married and have kids I think that obviously we've seen The data shows that divorce rates Are higher than they've ever been People are finding a really hard time Finding people to commit to them In general like the age of marriage Is being pushed back I think for a lot of reasons So many people are getting divorced That wait until you find your person Like you don't need to rush into getting married I also think it's like with anything else In life Like everyone is on their path At their own pace Totally Like don't compare yourself Yeah It's not like a race Like you're not competing against anyone You need to find your person And even if that takes into your 40s Like Totally Find your person How do you manage to let go of grudges You may hold against those who have wronged you You don't This is a really good question This is a good question for you Because I know that you I'm a grudge holder You're just like You're so loyal What is it you have to say You're so loyal And your circle is so tight I think that if someone were to wrong you enough For you to actually have a problem It would be really hard to come back from that With us Yeah You know I also feel like since we have We obviously have our friendship That's been our whole lives We have a lot of friends That are like hometown friends Long-term friends That our expectation for friendships are higher Like I have such a high expectation I don't really have a lot of new friends I have a lot of old friends That's because you have such good friends We don't really fight though No We don't Um Depends on what they did Right? Mm-hmm Like I've had people I would say the past year Let's just say Do things that were not cool And that made me feel shitty Or whether it was them being a bad friend Or not being a girl's girl They weren't my people So I just like let it go I'm like okay that person's like shitty But moving on Like I have my girls So I think that focusing on Nurturing and maintaining your core group Because if they're your people You're not going to hold a grudge As I've gotten older I held less of a grudge Like I'm easier Because you're more understanding To forgive And I'm like do I really want to like Throw away this friendship Over something so small Right Just because I'm like stubborn I think also realizing that like We all have our flaws Mm-hmm We all can be annoying friends Mm-hmm We all can be selfish Like caring I think less And caring more about the important things And letting the like small things go Resentment is like drinking poison And then hoping it will kill your enemy Like I always feel better when I have peace With everyone 100% Like when I know I have like something Going on with someone Like I don't feel good inside No it's you know I feel like people Who have like vendettas Or hold onto grudges Yeah are the most like miserable people Advice to find your people We've been friends for so long Because we value similar things Yeah Like when I think back at the friends that I let go Like I just didn't feel comfortable around them Like Right it's like a comfort thing Yeah I've met some people in my life That I'm like wow you're so special And I feel like I was able to meet them Because I was myself around them Yeah Being yourself People will only meet you where you're at So if I show up like as 100% page Better chance of me finding like my people Mm-hmm But one person that in my adult life That some of you guys might know Her name is Shannon Ford And I don't like I don't honestly spend that much time with her Just because we live in different places But the times that I see her It just feels like home Mm-hmm And she sent me this text I can't find it But she basically texted me after we hung out once And she was like Being around you is like Makes me feel like I'm at home Mm-hmm And I feel like that is a really good Description of like when you find your people Like no matter where you are You feel like you're at home Yeah You know Like whether it's a partner Or whether it's a friend Mm-hmm What scent makes you feel nostalgic Wood Like wood burning Like a cedar pine Mm-hmm Reminds me of Vermont And like ski lodges It kind of makes me sad too Nostalgia in general makes me like Really, really sad That's why I think I don't like watching Movies very much Like old movies that I used to love It like creeps me out I totally wasn't listening to anything I was saying I like Don't really like nostalgia Yeah I know I hate it Because I get freaked out That like I'm not young anymore And for me it's not about age I've like loved getting older I'm not scared of aging It's more like Like I just miss like coming home From like 7th grade And like eating granola bar on the couch Right It is kind of sad Like you're mourning like a part of your life That you'll never get back Yeah And that reminds you of somewhere That like You'll never really be again in that way What's your goal in the next 5 years To be a slay boss A slaying boss Mm-hmm Amanda's going to start a jewelry company Start a YouTube channel Paige is my life coach Guys there's not enough creators on YouTube Yeah And Amanda needs to do it She's gonna do it I'm just scared Aw No I'm not scared I just feel like I have nothing to talk about But it'll get better right now It'll get better And people like that Like personally for me I like the chill vlogs Yeah same Like people who are running around And traveling and like It's cool sometimes But it's kind of exhausting Mm-hmm Like the people that are You know what I mean Like the busy, busy videos Yeah Like people like the chill At home relaxing Cooking Mm-hmm Chatting videos And for me I want to Reach a lot of business goals And I want to Do less social media stuff And more Business oriented stuff Still leaning into my video content Because I really love video content Maybe get back into like Podcasting And like be married Do you think you'll be married in 5 years? How old will I be? 30 I better be I better be 5 years I'll be 30 Oh my god Yeah I'm crying Maybe I'll have a kid by then That would be, oh my god that's crazy Just because Drew's a few years older Oh my god when you have a kid It's gonna be crazy I know That's so crazy Like another little Amanda Do you think you're gonna have a kid before me? I don't know We should have them at the same time Same time, I agree What's the best thing you learned so far in your 20s? Not to care what anyone thinks honestly So true Like the freedom of that The freedom of And that's not even online Like obviously my job is public So Don't care what people think Like we're not talking about Real life Like not caring about what people Think or say And also like I think deflecting people Like staying in your own lane And like allowing like Other people's hard times And negative energy to not affect Yeah Your life Totally One word to describe each other I would say you are very giving Aww Aww That's sweet You're very loyal But you're not one word Like loving and loyal I would say you're very loving too What's something that people wouldn't expect about People think I'm really serious Yeah you're not serious No No we love the jokes You're silly Maybe they don't know that you're giving Like you are super giving Yeah I guess I would never go online and be like I did this I just yeah I just did this to them and that Yeah I feel like some people think I'm cold That's not like a general consensus But my hairdresser Who I love dearly Does a lot of girls' hair Who follow me And they're always like Oh like is she actually nice Is she You know whatever And she's always like Yeah she's just like what What you see on camera is also What's in person Okay bye guys Signing off Signing off