 Guess I could put on a little foundation or something instead of just lipstick. Huh, you know, I'm not here to look good I'm here to feel good and I'm here to see if anybody wants to feel good with me I have the fan on behind me. So if it's too loud, you guys let me know 1110 about 130 everybody else's time Come in and say hi say hi need it. Let me know how you're feeling be it positive be it negative be it neutral I Want to know right when I came on my boy. He's Waking up. I have a lot to talk about but it's mostly Hi Lou. How are you honey? How's things going? You know what? Lisa Lisa I always mean to ask Brianna, and I always mean to ask you the Pronunciation of your name because I like to get the pronunciations correct. Is it Lisa or Lisa? Hello Bev Bev Are you the Bev that sent me something because a Bev sent me something. Hello Betty Short eye. It's short for Melissa. Oh, Lisa. So I was right. All right. I'm so glad I asked Hi Kristen Deborah I'm well, and I've got a lot going on. Look at all you guys coming in here. You got you tea I have my let me show you what I have. I'm talking slow because I Haven't been awake a long time, but when I talk fast I often skip over things that I want to talk about Okay, I haven't got I haven't gotten my post office yet today Bev But I wanted to ask you. Okay, I explained it in a minute. So I have my water. Do you guys have your water? Hide your main? Really awful smoothie, huh, Lisa? Okay, so I have my water and I have my iced coffee, and I'm all prepared to sit here and drink up Lou the thing is is what I want to talk about today is so important and while I look and I have the demeanor of Not jolly. I'll it's a jolly all day with me. You know, I'm really in a good mood because Steve and I had a talk last night and Let me get this adjusted here We've made some You know, we just talked over things and I want to share them with you guys to see if anybody is having Or was having the same problems as me and we can Tackle them together. Let's see. Kristen says I have my coffee and water bloody married later Lou says hi to Jermaine. Hey Lou mine either Lou and it gets me in trouble So how how are you guys doing? Are you? Are you still just kind of existing? Are we still each? waking up day-to-day One I open. Okay Is the world back to normal yet? Second I open. No, it's not Um So I want you guys to hear me out because I have to start With kind of like yeah, we don't want to hear that Nina, but it gets better. Okay. I need to drink coffee fast So I can talk a little bit faster Okay, the good news is it's 1030 and I'm up I'm gonna come and I'm gonna tell you guys hi Janet Yay, everybody's here and again, let me preface by saying that my Broadcasts lives whatever it is. We're doing here are for all of us. They are not just for me They are for all of you anything anybody needs to talk about Mental health is today's issue Today's issue is mental health combined with our weight and our weight gain and Getting back to our weight loss We all know all the stuff I know all of you guys all of you guys know me We've been doing this together for a long time people like Lissa have been doing it with Brianna for an even longer time You know what I'm saying burn We know all the stuff but sometimes we tend to Put it on the back burner I can't really be that important, right? Okay, so here's the thing. I have been Shoot I didn't want Oliver to hear me and he's up now But I think he's in the bathroom. I have been Extremely depressed. Okay Depressed to the point you guys where I am sleeping. I Will bev bev what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna go after we're done here I'm gonna go over to my post office box and then I'll be in touch with you I promise okay. I'm gonna actually I'm gonna walk over there Okay, so I have been So depressed that I have been sleeping all day long Literally all all day long Steve didn't know He would come home from work. I would be laying in bed to the best of his knowledge I had been up and about and doing the thing and No, I never ever Oliver wasn't here He was with his dad because I text his dad and I said look not in a mental capacity to take care of this little boy right now Because all I can do is sleep When I'm sleeping, I'm not eating because it's kind of hard to do I'll get up maybe with Steve in the morning and I'll get an overnight oats and I'll eat that and maybe I'll grab a banana But I have not been Nutritionally sound I have not been mentally sound. I have to say I am pretty good on my water And while doing all this I'm thinking well have to be able to lose some weight, right? Because if I'm not If I'm not eating I'm not I'm not eating anything to make me gain all this to say that you're your mental however, you're feeling mentally and In your headspace it does affect everything and Steve and I talked last night and today we're starting over We're starting over. We're getting up at a certain time. It doesn't matter if we have Everything in the world to do or nothing to do during the day We're gonna go. I fell off my bike last night. We were in the garage And Oliver and his dad were riding their bikes and I thought I'll get on my bike, too I fell right off my bike right on my knee, but I'm okay So I'm just here because you know I like I've said in the past I failed to believe that I'm the only one that has fallen into this hole this This depression well, I'm crawling out today Today's the first day. What is the day today? And I know somebody would argue and go Nita You cannot just have control over depression like that and I know that because I am a depressant. I've been a depressant Since I can remember Today is the tenth I'm gonna start doing things differently. I'm gonna start eating at different things. I'm gonna stop drinking certain things I am going to stop acting like life has just stopped existing and I'm going to delve back into my WW now I'm gonna make a plan with shorty so that I can't go walking when he doesn't want to go walking and I'm gonna do all this stuff and I wanted to come on here and see If anybody's in the same place as I am and from the Reactions of comments that I'm getting it doesn't seem like anybody is I'm all alone Looses I get it. I've been fighting depression anxiety too. Some days are worse than others of course, but I'm with you and absolutely lose some days They're like, oh What was I so bummed out and sleeping all day you guys when I say I'm sleeping all day How does somebody sleep all day without being you know Having nightcliff or sleeping pills or anything. I'm telling you nothing Just I just would wake up peek around go back to sleep again Get up have some dinner with Steve and just go back to sleep again and just sleep sleep sleep crazy I mean, I didn't think anybody could sleep like that, but I guess they can And you know, I'm tired of Excuse me, you know, this is the same bite. I got last time I was on talking to you guys I'm tired of getting on the scale and having it go up I'm tired of it. I didn't do all this work over all these years to just Gain all this way back. I Haven't been to a zoom meeting and I've tried and I just can't get into it as much as I want to try to I just I can't do it captain Captain Kirk would say you're Scotty or whoever it was. I just kept do it captain Let's see what a total chaos homestead you are not alone along With pandemic life has decided to dump more on top of my house so full anxiety depression or full force here And Robby's Robby's so good to see you more is like apathy All right, let me say first of all, I'm glad I'm not alone that makes that gives me a little bit of relief because a lot of times I Feel like I am on a desert island I feel like I am the only one because it's not like I don't have the woe is me I want people to feel sorry for me. I feel Sheer complete to my gut depression and I'm sorry for you guys that are feeling the same way as me I'm so sorry because it's the worst feeling my dad was a depressant and he used to say Nita He'd say if I could tell you one thing in the world that you could have right now go right now Anything in the world the world is your oyster. What oyster do you want and your answer is I? Can't think of a single thing dad. He'd say then you're depressed and that's how I gauge my depression and that's how it's been But I'm going to turn it all around today Let's just says I'm currently working on overcoming multiple mental health conditions including three anxiety disorders and depression girlfriend, you're in the right place here because I really to all of those I have my whole life I've been on medication. I've been off of medication. I understand it You know some folks don't understand it and for those of us who suffer for it and From it and we're close to people who do my mom my mom didn't really ever understand it. She's still alive I make it sound like She's in the past, but she you know my dad Depressant me depressant mom not the present mom doesn't understand it So mom would be my dad's name is Chris, right? My name is Anita Chris need a snap out of it. Come on You know, you know, she just didn't understand it and we did you know at first I would fault her for it because it'd be like dude. This is my mom She you know, she's not feeling but she's not making me feel much better But then you know as I got older and I came to realize that she just really didn't understand it Then I really feel bad for my dad and that's when my dad and I came together and talked about it Um, I don't have the woe was me either. I just don't get excited about anything. Oh My gosh. Hi, darling Hello, darling Lindsay All the work you've done. You're not helping me either. You guys check out Lindsay down at the mom logs She's like a go-getter. She's just been working like a little All weekend long while I haven't but go check out her channel the mom logs. She's lovely She's lost how much weight have you lost in what program are you on? I'm gonna ask you every single time you're on here Um Chaos I'm just gonna call you chaos because I forget between there's another chaos and I get you guys confused and I apologize for that Wouldn't it be so great to get excited about something again? Just share it You know, okay, and let me touch on this. I used to get excited over Making videos. Oh my gosh, I get so excited I wake up every morning and I'd come on with bed head And I'd have something to talk about Rihanna. What a beautiful name and there's another I think the other homestead or chaos is Jen Hi, Soph What are you doing? Hey girl, I'm gonna order that stuff today. Thank you for reminding me But I would get so excited about making videos It's like I bugged the hell out of Steve and Oliver and everybody we're gonna do videos And now it's like I Can't think of a single thing to do a video about because my passion was Weight Watchers, right? my passion was waking up every morning and spreading the joy and and Trying to get everybody in here with me and I don't have any joy So what I'm gonna do is I'm just gonna slowly work on getting some kind of joy back some Normalcy and I have to start with normalcy in order to get to the joy I have to start with the normalcy and that means pulling my you know If you're new here, you guys occasionally I'd like to throw a little teeny teeny tiny cuss words in now and then nothing that would make you clutch your pearls, but nonetheless, you know, I You know set my alarm and get my happy-ass out of bed by nine at least at least eight Then at this 12 o'clock caca la toro, you know Get dressed. I'm dressed today. I got up. I got in the shower. I washed my hair I I cleaned my pits and you know, it's almost a little bit of normalcy right now Also, I think what might Be helping is that we got I got Oliver's Chromebook on Friday anybody who may not know Oliver is my grandson. He lives with me. He's 10 years old He's going into the fifth grade virtually That is gonna bring normalcy into my house So we will be getting up at a certain time He will be sitting his happy-ass at the table with this Chromebook and we will be eating normal breakfasts and We've got to do the best we can out of it. Thank you, Lou. Thank you for putting Sophie's Channel here you guys go visit Sophie even though everybody always knows her. Let me scroll down and say hi to everybody and See what's going on? Popping in between work meetings. I'm so glad you did. Here's to you. Do you have your water or your coffee so? Avoid work to stay here with me. I'll write you a note. I'll be like Epstein's mother, okay? You might be too young to even know who Epstein's mother is Jermaine says now you've told us your tensions and I for one plan to keep checking on you and hold you to today's declaration You quite literally are not alone Thank you, Jermaine, but that means that I get to keep you guys Mom logs lose the best. I hope You did finally make it to a live video. How goes it lady? How goes it with the kids? And I'm so you know, I keep thinking about you having to quit WW and I just want you to know if there's anything I can do to help if there's any information I can get your way that you don't already know you've been doing this long enough Please please reach out to me. Hi Susan I didn't go to work today because my anxiety is through the roof. My co-worker came to work coughing Sore throat on Thursday and Friday. I'm terrified. Don't go. We all here are telling you not to go stay home It's therapy being part of your videos. Let's be therapeutic together. That's the highest compliment. You can you can pay me? Because I sit here and I think Should I talk about this stuff because you know it for the people who don't feel it it freaks them out They're like that's freaky stuff, man. What's wrong with their brains? When we're just as normal as they are we just have a little imbalance, right? If I came on here, and I said I broke my arm. Oh, I feel a little mouse Squeaking by good morning, mission. I came on here and I said, oh, I broke my arm over the weekend You guys you'd be like, oh my gosh, Nina. I'm so sorry. What can I do for you? How you feeling better? I mean, is it her bad? Did you break it in 10 places? But when you come on here and you say, you know what I Have a little bit of I have mental mental health issues people get like That's kind of creepy why does it have to be like that? When Carrie Fisher passed away, I promised because I was doing videos when she passed away I promised that I was going to speak up Louder stronger and more about it and then I was feeling better because I was doing my weight watchers And I was losing weight physically. I was feeling well and when we feel well physically we feel well Mentally so it wasn't on the front burner, but it is now And I'm going to address it and it may not be popular. You know, I may not A whole bunch of subscribers But the 5 10 15 23 of you who understand It's totally worth it to have somebody that you can relate to right I know when I find somebody I can relate to I just want to hug him I want to squeeze him and I want to put him in a bag and take him home with me Okay, so we give it we've given Sophie her shout out for her channel. Hi Patricia Somebody was talking about you the other day We do need some joy and we need to find Some joy within ourselves and joy in this wonky world And it's hard too because you know, it's hard is when you're watching all the people have all the joy while they're out canoeing and rafting and boating and Hiking and doing all the fun stuff while you're sitting at home making another haul on your couch Do you want me to Don't talk to Hannah says and neither there's a strength and joy and strength and giving joy. That's part of why I watch your videos Hannah, thank you So many of us are in the same boat But on our journey Diet Coke. Do you have it in aluminum or plastic? So So yeah hope being back on this normal schedule Is gonna greatly help and you know what I what I need to do because what I tend to do is I want to jump in All at once I want to go walking right now I want to ride my bike while I'm walking while I'm eating my watermelon while I'm drinking my water while I'm doing all the healthy stuff. I'm supposed to be doing right I need to just take it a little bit at a time Let's see. Let me go back here Hi, Jennifer. Oh, that's right. So I've got her a peloton Hi, Tony see. Hi, Cheryl Every yeah, everybody who's on here who has A channel if I'm yikity acting let Lou know that she so she can put your link up for you Sophie's gonna tell everybody about her peloton Which I could never ever do Yes through therapy, I have learned that it's okay to talk about it growing up that That is a gas growing up that gas and no no It doesn't have to be the way it doesn't have to be that way And this is how it changes folks like you and me talking about it just as though it were a broken arm I love that germine. Thank you because It's just different parts of our body Reacting in different ways, correct? I'm getting a note here Okay, it's baby Ice ice baby one day and one thing at a time Thank you for being so receptive to what I had to say you guys because I think that once I get This in order I'm gonna get all back this this all back in order I don't want to buy any more shorts. I've had I had to buy two pair of shorts since the pandemic I don't enjoy I don't enjoy feeling like this. I don't enjoy coming up my stairs And having it be a struggle We're just gonna get it all back together to the best of our ability And we can't get it all back together like we would if times were normal But we can do the best of our ability and I know that since day one people have been saying all the smart people make um a Schedule right out. What time you're gonna get up set your arm caught get dressed get out of your sweats Well, you know a lot of that stuff is easier said than done Oh my goodness. Can I hold a poop for two hours and be alive all over? You don't want to be the troll wacker Okay, okay. All right, Lou. You got it Thank you But I think the answer to that question would be yes Does anybody here want to try it out for this this swell troll and get back to them on that? Sophie welcome to live trolls Have you gone live yet? I'm trying to think if you've gone live yet I love going live because I love talking about what's on my mind At this particular moment. It's always different. It's always good. I'm always pushing water They can be entertaining and you know what it's just some My grandson once told me Nana. It's just some 35 year old man sitting in his mother's basement being an idiot and he's right It's okay. How do you invite people or do you just tell an instagram like hey going live? I don't do anything. Sophie. I just come on and they find me What is what am I'm trying to think? What did the troll say the troll asked if he held his poop in for two hours when he still be alive Probably a little kid So to answer your question, Sophia, I just come on and and and if you build it they will come I don't know how people find me to be honest with you I guess you have to be um Subscribed to me. I don't know because like I'll come on and I'm trying to think of who I subscribe to that goes on live Brianna always sets hers ahead of time. I just you know what I do. I just I get lonely I want to talk talking make you get a notification Janet Okay, so everybody set your notifications and then when I come on you can come on And if anybody would like to give me a ding-a-ding thumbs up, I would just greatly enjoy that What's your main doing that? She's so great So, yeah, uh my my best mental outlet My best feeling is walking drinking water and talking and um I don't have anybody here to talk to well. I could talk to my dog She doesn't talk back too much my grandson's busy doing his thing grandpa's at work Yeah, see I don't ever ever plan mine. I just come on like today. I'm on really early I thought let's go on early for coffee because for me it's early. What time is it 10 to 11? I was showered and I smell good Don't I smell good you guys? So I just wanted to come in and talk about this subject because I know that I cannot be the only one suffering from it And let's let's lift each other up That's I know it's hard because we're not physically together, but we in me technology we have so much Communication anything you guys need to talk about we can all talk about because we can all read it right here Granted I'm the only one you guys can hear but I can repeat anything that needs to be repeated When life was normal didn't you go live on Thursdays Kristen me? Um, no, I've never really done anything normal I would come on Fridays either recorded with my weight loss or Live with my weight loss or game and guys I'm up right now Um, my my goal this is my goal and I don't make goals so you can't stick me to this goal. This is just jibber jibber Lou you cracked we have a marat you're right This is just a goal for a goal It's not a real goal Because I I'm not a goal maker. I don't I don't write actually because my hands are breaking out again you guys Go go go go go go go What I would like to see happen Is I would like to lose three pounds this week and I'm going to work on that what germans is what's normal Wasn't there something always disrupting normal that is just a mass disruption? Let's not think abnormal. Let's think disruption We got you need a thank you Susan. It's so funny because I have people say The opposite it's like, uh We hate lives don't do lives ladies stop and then I have other people like you that say I think more of us who like to interact at the same time And you know what I have to say to my lives right now are really only it because again I don't have the passion because I I remember when I was like really successful at w w My passion was through the roof man I'd get on here and and I would make videos and Steve and I and and I'd look back at him. Oh my gosh. My face was so thin But you know what I can get there again and if anybody out there is in the same boat Oh, we can get there together, right? Uh, and again something else that I have touched on before on this subject is is embarrassment It's like, oh my gosh. I'm embarrassed. I I can't go on a video. Those guys can't see me looking like this especially the official 35 who saw I was so thin and and You know what it's life and it got to me and the pandemic Whoever thought we were gonna have a sinking pandemic. I mean, did it ever did it ever cross anybody's mind? Ever that we were just gonna have to stay home and do nothing because it never crossed mine Even if I saw it on the twilight zone it I never gave it a thought I miss seeing people that I love. I miss doing things that I love disneyland disneyland disneyland Hope says yes, we can we can do this together one step at a time Less rehearsed and edited. I love it You know what? I don't rehearse anything and I don't script anything The only thing I edit germane is if I I'm a lot That drives me It drives me crazy um That's when I edit the most for for the most part. I don't I don't I've never written anything down Then I'm gonna say because then that's not being me I gots to be I've got to be me So yes And you know, even if it just takes us some time because who knows we're how long we're gonna be doing this I tell steve, why don't we just Bring up the christmas stuff now, man. What do we got to lose? I'm gonna start listening on the christmas music Hey google put on some bean cross be christmas music Because why the heck not? I know janet, you know, I just never ever imagined such a thing Could happen It'll be just so nice like my last video when I was out for a walk and I was looking at the flowers And I was looking at the crosswalk to oliver's school and I was looking at an oliver's school And literally when that all comes back to be I'm gonna cry while I do it and I'm not gonna be embarrassed and I'm not gonna care Because I'm a crier and I'm gonna be so grateful To say hello to the crossing guard And say hello to the other parents that are walking their children or the grandchildren And to be making his lunch again and to have him Get in trouble have the principal call You know any of those things This is real life around a wild world coast to right of emotions best to share the good times and the tough times Absolutely, and you know what? What good does it do anybody? To be during this time for me again i'm speaking for me maybe for a couple of you During this time of discontent great discontent great We just don't know To just pretend everything's normal. Hey everything's normal. No, it's It's not and I refuse to believe Or pretend or come on here and like it. I'm gonna go make a cake Let's go make a weight watchers cake. Shall we now? I will be making weight watchers cake because a weight watcher gal's gotta have cake But do you know what I mean? I'm not doing it. I'm not gonna sit in my car and make a video about My zoom meeting and my this and my that because you know, it's not normal for me right now So anybody else who is not normal Come sit here next to me Oh christin, I know and we're gonna miss they're gonna miss you too. But when they see you again They're gonna be so so happy to see you Uh-oh, what kind of Pandora's box? What did I do? Come on you guys. You got to laugh with me not at me. How you can laugh at me? Abby normal abby normal There you go Lou You guys One thing that I've been doing and I've I've set it on my instagram I don't know how many of you guys are over there and over here I have been going to turner classic movies And I have just been recording the heck out of all the 40s and 50s movies And the dancers and Doris stay and everybody's dancing and singing and doing all that stuff I record them all And then when I sit here, I'm done with my dishes I don't ever do my dishes. Don't let me fool you Uh, and I'm done with my laundry Nobody has clean clothes. That's a lie, too I turn it on and instead of watching the news Instead of hearing the gloom and the doom, which is all true and we should know what's going on in our world We absolutely should but not hour after hour after hour I turn on these movies that are recorded and I'm getting so much joy out of them It's terrific. It's a great idea that it came up with myself So if anybody wants to borrow it Knock yourself out I should get off of here and make him something to eat. I need to make him some protein We're all sitting here in a funk together, but we're gonna try to laugh about it So what we're doing I am gonna wrap this up because I need to feed my boy. I let my dishes soak in hot water overnight Our dishwasher broke and I keep hoping Steve will say let's get a dishwasher But Steve hasn't said let's get a dishwasher. I need a dishwasher I just do I have too much crap on my counters All right, so here's the plan if anybody wants to join me. I'm gonna go over it one more time just because I'm gonna try I'm not gonna say I'm going to because if I say I'm going to do something and then I don't I feel like a loser and that's the last thing I need to feel like is a loser For me for my life Let's see Oliver starts on the 17th. So that's monday, right? So this week we'll kind of just Walk and ride around and do our best, but then we're gonna get up I wonder what time he's gonna go to school And we're not gonna have a full schedule like we normally would But we're gonna we're gonna have our water Coffee if we need it. We're gonna do what we need to do for us And if that means getting in the shower washing your hair that needs to be cut Oh, guess what? I have big news. Hold on. Hold on to your hats everybody. Hold on your hats. I have big news Steve's getting your hair cut after work today Oh my gosh, you have no idea You have no idea Oh my gosh, the man may just get lucky again in this lifetime now. I don't know. We got to see what kind of job is done Because when his hair is cut he is one and some guy with those big blue eyes So I'm telling you You know, he this is what he doesn't realize I tell him get a haircut. He comes up with this cock and I thought or he says Oh, I have a headache after I get my haircut. I'm like, you're so full of crap Go get a haircut. Okay. Well now his excuse is that I'm not allowed to get a haircut There's nobody else I got a haircut. Well, I did some delving into the black market of hair cutters And I have like yesterday when he was taking a nap I found one. I made an appointment when he got up out of bed. Hi sunshine He got out of bed. I said, guess what? I have present for you. He goes, what? I said Tomorrow 515 you're getting your haircut I can't wait. It's going to be the greatest thing ever So if anybody needs a black market haircutter person, let me know I'll give you their name He knew what he was doing when he went to get a haircut Oh, I get a headache from getting my haircut. Okay. Well, let's talk about this for a second All of you who have met Steve know he doesn't have that many hairs He killed me right now He just doesn't he's the most handsome man with the most beautiful eyes And those big cheekbones and that sweet mustache and his beard But he doesn't have a lot of hairs. Okay. The pasture is not full His head he doesn't get a headache when he gets the two three four hairs cut. Okay. So when he gets home tonight Maybe I should make a special dinner. Maybe I should open a can of beef aroni Light a candle Tell him how handsome he looks Oh, but there's nowhere to send all over The But he doesn't realize how handsome he is and how I just kind of get tickled if you know what I mean When he's all nice and coughed but when he's got these hairs sticking up Like Cindy Lou who and they're coming out of here and they're coming out of his ears and they're coming out of his neck and it's like He looks like a human toothpick a gray human toothpick. It's like dude you know You want to see any action you might want to do something about that It's that plain and it's that simple We're old, but we're not dead. I'm gonna go through my little leapson. I'm gonna give him some eggs something protein No cereal. I love you guys to death. Thanks for popping in Set your notifications like subscribe. I always The human great human party style toothpick I'm not toothpick Q-tip Oh speaking of q-tips that poor man How can somebody be so hairy? All over their body except for where it counts. I just don't understand Sophie I'm gonna be in touch with you over the moisturizer And I'm gonna feed this boy. If you're new here, please like give me a like Subscribe. I always feel funny saying this I feel like I'm saying I hope you like me. I really hope you like me like subscribe hit that notification bell And then when I come on and I feel like talking Or you feel like talking We can do that smash that like button like Lou says I'm gonna feed the boy go to my post office get in touch with Bev And also, please anybody if you guys ever need to talk I can be found man. You can find me anywhere instagram Anywhere I mean email instagram messaging with my stomach's growling Say nita. I'm feeling down. I'm feeling blue. I'm eating too much. I'm not eating enough And we'll get on here and we'll talk as a group because that's what we do right and I totally dig it I love you guys I'll talk to you later on Drink your water and know where your bathrooms are Thank you Lou for all that you do Excuse me. I'm sure you want to stop streaming