 I'm in a weird mood today. I hope to you guys, welcome to my channel, if you're new here, hi, hello, my name is Lydia and I make mental health videos in here, I'm pretty much every day. Today I'm doing a Q&A slash assumption video. I asked everyone on Instagram and Twitter for some questions and you guys came through. Wow, this question, this question, do you ever find you're ever narcissistic when it comes to filming? No, I don't think I am. Am I? Am I? I don't think I am. I am, I don't mean to cross like that. Do you ever sometimes enjoy the intention you get from your illnesses? No, hate it. Because like when you're walking in the street on a crotch and someone's like, why do you need that? It's like, that's the like, that feels like it's the only thing people ever notice about that. And it's like, oh, I'm sorry or you're struggling. I'm so sorry. You're ill. I'm so sorry. All you hear all the time is, I'm sorry. You know, yeah, it's unfortunate, but there's so much more to me than my illness. That's why I'm trying to make this channel show, like I know a lot of my life and a lot of my time goes into my health and working on my health and appointments and all of this. I know I said once that I enjoy. How's your day? Well, here's a bit of vlog. I'm just using this rug as a blanket until we put it on the floor. Oh well, you've got a nice background as well. Oh. Like, you look swell cool. Oh, does it? You have half a gift. Half a gift. No, open me first. It's another little mini self-care box. Oh, that's cute. I love the foam stuff. Oh, oh, that's so cute. Because you know, we both like colouring. We do. And then that's the rest of the collection. That's the collection. Just lots of little notes. The limit of the heart is don't know really. Oh shit, slow. Slow, slow, slow, shit, it's just literally, okay. 46, 45, 43, 41, 46. Your blood pressure is systolic, 64 millimetre of mercury, diastolic, 39 millimetre of mercury. Your pulse was 102. Hey, who knew at that? That's how many it is. More assumptions. We have some assumptions, guys. Assumptions! Care more about your friends than you do yourself. You can't go into uni due to mental health. You'll have to drop out. No. My university are very understanding. The fact that I have very intense anxiety and mental health issues. And because I have already done an issue over this degree, I am able to do the work from home. I've actually finished now until January, pretty much. I just need to film one more thing and then I'm done. And I'll get it done. It's not due until January. I'm good. And then in January I am planning on going back into uni. I just need, like, this month to work on myself. Another question is, what does a mental health nurse or practitioner do for a patient? It depends on the circumstances, the team, what you're being treated for, your diagnosis, your medication. For me, I'm under the home treatment team at this current moment in time and I see a different person every time they come out. They monitor overall stability and whether or not I'm taking my medication, whether I'm sleeping, whether I'm eating, I'm showering, how I'm dealing with things. They just ask basic questions and that's it for me. Under a community mental health team, it's more of a longer term thing. So they ask long term questions. Home treatment teams are short term and they are literally there for short term use. Do you have any chronic illnesses? So I'm diagnosed with arthritis. They are currently looking into hots, which is a tachycardia condition. Makes sense with a lot of my go through. And me and Becca was discussing something earlier that I don't know, I don't know if I'm getting criteria for it or not. I'm going to mention it to my GP and then that'll become a thing. It is a chronic condition. I have ongoing heart problems. I used to have seizures as a kid. I have damaged ligament in my ankle, so I can't walk below. Because I have arthritis. Arthritis is horrible. I won't watch out on anyone. Did you feel like you couldn't take your meds again after an overdose? I couldn't after a while. I can't swallow capsules and I can't take parts of the I have a lot of anxiety around medication anyway. So when I'm taking my medication, I have anxiety about taking the medication because I'm scared of getting stuck in my throat and even though it's just as old. That's why I can't take capsules. After my last overdose, honestly, I couldn't take another one. I haven't even spoke about the last overdose because it happened while I was in hospital. I'm just not ready to talk about that one. Overall, no. It didn't really impact when I could take meds or not. Are you planning any meet and greet in the future? I love meeting people. Despite all my anxiety and everything else, I absolutely love meeting people. When I've traveled around the UK making friends with people that watch my videos, it's been incredible and I've made so many like long friends from YouTube. So, oh yeah, I want to do meet and greets. But I wonder, I couldn't do like a big meet and greet. It has to be like what's my people at the time? Because otherwise I'd be having a fucking breakdown. I don't know. But yes, I am. Probably in the new year now. Skulls, skulls, skulls, skulls. Skulls, skulls. How do you balance mental health and uni? I don't. So a really bad thing that I do is I prioritise my studies over everything. I hate this thing about me. I literally hate it. And if I could, it could not do it. I would give anything to not do. I prioritise my education above everything. I always have. At the moment, I'm getting a first in uni and I don't even go in. I'm getting a first in every assignment I've had a day. At the same time, my mental health just declines because I get so preoccupied with uni that I'm like, oh, I'll just miss a dose. I'll just miss a dose of my medication because I don't want to sleep, I need to do my work. Or, oh, I'll just miss a dose because, you know, someone didn't want to draw a roll. Or, and then I just stopped taking it and my mental health just deteriorates. I have no skills at balancing my mental health when it comes to uni. I'm not the best one to go into advice with that. Hi, just a plan to say hello. Hello. Hello, Lord of Cowles. Like, you know, how have you been doing since leaving hospital? I've been doing really well, actually. Like, I've been doing, like, my sleep's a bit off and my anxiety is insane. I'm not as depressed as I was. It's like, I'm not as, I'm not so excited at all. That is to that's biggest difference. Apart from anything but here, if you could have been in the world, where would it be? I would like to live in New Zealand. I think it is such an interesting country and I'd love to live there. So that's all the questions I could find for this video. My camera's about to run out of storage anyway. So thank you for watching this video. If you do have any questions, please leave them in the comments down below and I will try to answer them as soon as I can. Have any video requests? Leave them in the comments below. If you have anything you'd like to say, comment on or add to anything I have said in the video. Also, add that in the comments down below. If you are new, subscribe and I'll see you guys tomorrow with a new video. Peace.