 I am speaking to myself through the Corrie Malone and Atlas costumes. I have already spoken to myself through the Corrie and Atlas costumes on a previous episode called a Bidas Infinity, which was a great one. At the retreat, shift into permanent alignment, Bintino Massar on the team where we met, which was great. Yes, that was awesome. The whole thing, the retreat and the podcast was crazy, fun. Our friendship, our reuniting. Yeah, it's a breath of fresh air, like I told you earlier today. When I saw you on Telegram, it was fresh. It was a breath of fresh air. It was really nice. Really nice to just communicate and chat with people that have the similar intention. Because the seeking impulse dominated the costume's life to the extent at which then the costume recognized that it is not just a costume, but it is that which makes all costumes endlessly. And is that process of costume making itself is also illusory. Yeah, exactly. So it of course is just one thing. Of course, we would just get together and it feel good. Yeah, so of course, these vibrations of people that get that, instead of we've been talking about this through the last couple of episodes, when the I am meets itself through costumes that know their nature, it sounds like warm, warm, warm. And when the egoic contracted energies of person consciousness meet, it's like... Yeah, it just rubs against each other. It doesn't really fit. It doesn't fit because you haven't molded it yet into... Well, it's like you haven't molded it yet into who you truly are, but then again, you haven't allowed it to be who you truly are. So it's a back and forth of becoming who you are, but then again, just shedding more of who you're not. Yeah, we just talked about that with VG yesterday on the episode where it's both this onion where so if you're not raised by a already enlightened parents or by, for example, an indigenous tradition that raises the child right into infinity from the beginning, you accumulate all of the onion layers if you're born by ignorant parents raised by them. And so what happens is you gain all these onion layers and so that's why the process for many people is like shedding the layers of identity and form down to the nothingness. And then also it's the process of expanding from person consciousness to the cosmic consciousness to the subtlety of the great I am awareness as well as I am the creator. So it's the bothness of that. Right, which is awesome and crazy at the same time. And it's, I feel like it's designed that way to help you understand the paradox of it. What are the two poles? The two poles are nothing and everything. You can't go any more absolute than nothing and everything. And you know what is such a good feeling is when you accept that that it's nothing and everything and you stop questioning like why is it this or why is it that or where are we coming from? Where does the absolute come from? Like that's just a human way of thinking. So when you really accept this and that and that's it. It's really liberating. Yep. And to know that I am that I am the absolute. I am not separate from the absolute. This right here timeless perfect being is the absolute endlessly expressing itself as everything possible and is also an illusion that anything's even being expressed just like in your dream at night. When you dream at night and you simulate out a reality and you simulate out an observer to experience it and then you wake up in the morning. Did the dream happen? Did the dream exist? Was there a separate dreamed reality that existed? Yeah. Or was it literally nothingness appearing as a dream just like this? Yeah. Yeah. I love that dream analogy of how to apply that to your waking life. That helped me a lot to actually experience and to realize that how you're not the body because when you dream you're just consciousness experiencing that. You don't actually feel like you're a body doing these things and flying around or whatever. You just experience it. So apply that to your waking life and realize that's actually what's happening. It's literally a dream. Literally super relevant but a dream. And so that can help you kind of unhook from the body. That was a big one for me kind of not identifying with the actual body. That's who you are. And the dream is for the great I am. It's for the eternal shared impersonal awareness right here. You, I, all eight billion of these units costumes are experiencing together the shared collective dream. Yeah. And when you expand yourself out of your person consciousness into the subtlety of awareness and into the subtlety of us sharing our source and sharing our awareness, that's when you really get to these more elevated states of being able to recognize oneself as everything, as nothing, life flowing between those two, being beyond even both of those just perfection, free, timeless, ineffable. Yeah. Yeah. And then you just laugh because you know you're on that illusory eternal river. Yes. Yes. Exactly. You're on that just flowy illusory river. And you just laugh. Honestly, I think that's my favorite part is just you laugh. You just lighten up and it's just, yeah, it's everything's okay. It's not serious. It's fun. It's fun. But also there is an intention for that to come through. To what you're meant to hear in your calling, like the calling work we did at the retreat, the permanent shift into alignment with Ventinio, that was the most profound thing I've ever experienced was accessing your calling as a vibratory thing as a unique essence of who you are in this moment, what you want to give as a energy. That was powerful. So there's this balance between the illusory eternal river, which is literally trying to find, I was watching today Osho talk about this thanks to Viji, he sent this over, but he goes, I take your trouble seriously, but deep inside I am giggling. Another one, another one, he goes, when I look at you, I am searching for a joke. So be a joke onto yourself, but at the same time, like you said, there's this divine transcendent process of identifying what is my calling, how can I purify myself so that I'm coming from God's love light, coming from a place of pure service to others, and then bringing that gift, that firework and its greatest purity to the collective. Yeah. Yeah, I think that's what makes it rich. That's what makes it juicy. You have that illusory eternal river of flowiness and realizing the I am and the absolute and it's wonderful and it frees everything, it heals everything. But then you have this crazy calling and this crazy anchor of why you're here, which makes it super rich and super just insanely powerful. And I love both of those expressions. It's phenomenal. Which are ultimately one, it's very similar to the, yeah, which is very similar to the graphic that I was talking about with Bentino on the very first night, which is the graphic of Atlas that carries the world as Buddha is just chilling nirvana on top of it. And so the, you know, and then Bentino cracked the joke and he goes, so I'm Buddha and you're Atlas carrying me. And I go, well, ultimately the two are one. And then, and then he's like, ah, you got me there. And so it was, it's good because he is also Atlas in that sense. And I'm also Buddha in that sense. And you're also Atlas and Buddha in that sense because we're both liberated from the cycle of birth and death. We are beyond coming and going yet, yet we are also purifying ourselves towards this calling of God's love light in service to other people at the same time. Yes. At the same. Yes. At the same time. At the same exact time. Man, you got to send me those quotes from Osho. That's phenomenal. I, I've experienced that a lot lately with talking to, talking to anybody. And you know, if you hear any, anybody's problem or complaint, you just love them for who they are. Okay. So here's, here's one of them. Yeah. Oh, nice. Yeah. I love that. Osho, when I look at you, I am searching for a joke. And then here's, here's the other one. Okay. Here's the other one. Oh, wait, let me hide that one and let me add this one. There we go. I take your trouble seriously, but deep inside I am giggling. That's so good. That's so good. Those are the two quotes. And then here's another way to, in a sense, for what we're talking about. Let's see if I can, if I create a banner for this. And then if I click S-E-R, yeah, this is right. Okay. Let's try this. Nope. This one. So in a sense, it's like Buddha is like, this is a dream joke. And the Atlas is like serious calling. And ultimately, the two are one. It's probably better. Like this is probably better where you, where you can actually see I tried getting a little hyphen in there, but I didn't show up. But yeah. So there's stuff like that. So good. Nope. Still didn't show up. Okay. But anyway, yeah. So there's that, that was a really good point though, because that's ultimately the, the illusory eternal river is your cosmic joke, everything and nothing simultaneously, beyond coming and going, just absolute timeless ineffable perfection. And yet there's this, you do have this process of these individuated fractal secretions that emerge as these costumes, aka the Corey Malone and Atlas costumes that then end up figuring out, well, what is my calling? What's my purpose here? How do I bring that gift firework purely as God's love light and service to others? And so I love that. That was a, that's a cool little, you know, balance that's ultimately one. Yeah. I, I'm in love with that balance. It's, it's, it's fantastic because they both work and well, it's both the truth. So once you experience it, let me ask you something. The calling that you left with at the retreat a couple of weeks ago at Bentinia's retreat, is that still resonating with you or has it changed at all? Yeah. For me, it's just so perfect because it allows me to be a Jedi across all of the layers. So for me, my calling is people experiencing truth. And because of that, it enables me to be across the spectrum from anywhere from person consciousness to somebody experiencing themselves as the creator, right? So I, I, I get that ability to sort of navigate from the self actualization side, as well as the self realization side, right? I get that, that that's what's cool about people experiencing truth. Yeah. So that, that's for me why it's so spot on. How about you? What was yours? And how do you feel now? I'd still very much resonating. And I've checked in with it a lot. Mine is, my calling is people experiencing magic. And I just, I get lit up by that. I just love that feeling. And I just love carrying that around. I love being not even like a self image thing, because I don't care about that. It's a question mark. Just be a question mark as you roll through your life of magic, of, of wonder. Just, I just want to light myself up as much as I can and offer that to people. So yeah, that's exciting to me. And that was a huge moment for me to connect with that. And it's cool because it's another one of those that people experiencing magic is a lot like experiencing truth. Because in a sense, it enables you to be across everywhere. You can do self actualization, self realization, everything from upgrading person consciousness to cosmic consciousness, from becoming aware of awareness to becoming aware of oneself as the creator. And that's what's really cool is the ability to say that people experiencing magic is literally any way, anywhere, any time. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's really cool that you said that because you're right. It's synonymous with truth because magic is the nature of reality. Yeah. Is it not? You know, it's so it's just funny, you know, it's not funny how different words resonate with that word specifically resonates with me. So yeah, the way that magic resonates for the Corey costume is the way that truth resonates for the Atlas costume. Exactly. And I'm also excited to, I'm sorry, for, you know, I'm sure it'll change, you know, because your calling is ever shifting. It's not going to be a one thing for the rest of your life maybe, but it's exciting to just know that you, you know how to access that. Yeah. Yeah. That's why that's why right away when I came back, the first video that I made is what is your calling on our channel because I wanted to share with myself to inspire myself across all these other costumes that are me on the channel that watch me on the channel to me watching myself getting me inspiring myself on the channel and that the capital S self across all these costumes. And so because now you get a whole suite of costumes that then recognize the importance of this word calling and the importance of this process with recognizing what the calling is. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely. Yeah. And I think that can help a lot of other cells or other quote, unquote people really to just check in and see what resonates with them see what that unique essence is why you're here what what really lights you up what what excites you what what is that feeling really what what do you want to experience most what do you want to see other people experience most and you can do that now you can do that anywhere you can meditate on that you could think about that and that could be something very powerful for you to shift into so that's cool. I'm glad you made that video that's really cool. I would say that calling is probably also a little bit more self actualization driven and then the illusory eternal river is more self realization oriented but they're all again ultimately both are are one but if you pursue calling without knowing your true nature you may pursue something for a egoic kink for a distortion like you you want to get a watch to be able to show off to other people that this unit has a material item type thing there's all these weird distortions that come from the process of self actualizing when you don't know your true nature. Definitely definitely because that gives you the the foundation to build on that and it's great because it's your calling isn't a thing so if you want to be an entrepreneur you have that dream like Bentinio was saying let that be in your wake of the water let the let the expression of the entrepreneur happen but your calling is coming through always you're living that calling and whatever needs to express will be in that wake whether it's entrepreneurship or music or whatever that expression is so it's not you actually being a musician or being an entrepreneur yes that's the expression of it but check in with your calling as a vibrational sense that that that's what will carry you there. Yep so that's really it's really cool and that's the breadcrumbs trail of the highest excitement yeah yeah Bouchard and Bentinio and so many others have talked about is that even Tony Robbins and all of the self-help psychology self-actualization literature talks about that same thing but again you have to come from a place of knowing your true nature otherwise you and like even a Simon Sinek the infinite game are you playing a finite game or are you playing the infinite game because if you're playing the finite then you're going to want something from Maya you're going to want peace or happiness from Maya from the illusion from the intoxication from the dream from a substance or experience or relationship but if you know your true nature as infinite if you know yourself as the subtle formless awareness that I am that is shared in eternal or even more so as that which even uses awareness as its agent that that absolute you as the creator then you no longer see Corey Malone as a separate entity I see Corey as one of the costumes of I am and that we are two costumes of the same source talking to itself and so then then everything I do comes from a place of purely and again it's the purifying process it's not overnight I decondition all of my bullshit right so yeah so we're going through a process right now basically as Bintini when the team talked about Anurag and Richard talk about this too which is basically like it's a fucking Navy SEALs boot camp it's not it's not a gym membership this is some Navy SEAL shit because you basically have to become vigilant about every single frame of your life like earlier today like I made the declaration at the retreat right I made this declaration where I said that I will no longer experience selfish gratification when helping people experience truth and that was a big fucking deal for me because I wasn't aware of the fact that that was happening until I really made the declaration and now guess what today while I was helping people I I recognized the two the two timelines where I saw on one timeline the conditioned Atlas unit I was watching that conditioned Atlas unit receiving selfish gratification from helping somebody experience truth and on the other timeline I witnessed my shift into permanent alignment which is that whoa this is what I want from now on which is that I see my bullshit I see my fraudulence I see that fraudulent ass conditioned timeline and that's bullshit and I'm not that anymore I am just the god's love like timeline I am just recognizing that I'm serving myself to know the true nature and that it's coming from a place of purity so that subtle distinction it was such a subtle fucking distinction yeah it was so subtle and it just continues to happen like that now after the declarations what was your declaration too my declaration was um I declare to live from my heart because I think I had a lot of bullshit stories and full of shit about just a lot of things just how I come off to people wanting to be this way or that way or you know and it just I don't it doesn't matter like whatever is true for my heart which is true for the creator coming through me and then that's what I want because it'll be better for everybody or be more beneficial for everybody in the sense of what we're talking about here so that was my declaration to live from the heart instead of from any goic sense instead of from well how could how could I show up or how do I look to this person or am I looking cool right now or but all these stupid thoughts that are so silly um so yeah it that was mine and and it's been really nice checking with that but I like what you said about it being subtle because it really is it's not like a profound ooh I'm living by this now it could be sometimes it is but it's super subtle when you deepen these layers it's like wow it's just like a thin layer of fucking bullshit that I'm dealing with that I want to purify what we both declared was basically the same intention worded differently just like people experiencing truth first magic just like yeah really cool because you described this hyper similar process where when there's there's only one of you and that one of you is declaring that I'm only gonna live from God's love light which is the exact same thing that I was just declaring and talking about versus that slightly that one onion layer that's left of that egoic conditioned psychology that that impurity that's left that wants to like you said that it wants to have Cory Malone be something special for other people to see or something like that and that's very similar with what I was saying was feeling gratification when helping people experience truth yeah definitely I think on this uh road of finding you know the nature of reality finding who you are self realization because it's such a process of unlearning the ego gets to that point where like well I've done so much work that I need to be validated for that or I need to be special for all the work I've done the years I put in for this the years of awakening and all this stuff whatever you want to call it whatever word you want to say I need to feel special so that's where I think it becomes subtle you're like no it's not that's not it and there's more at least for me I experienced that I was like I put in so much work into it but you know I need to yeah that was perfect too we had been to you at the retreat say that to purely be in service to others you're gonna have to deal with a lot of not being seen right so you're gonna have to deal with a lot of not being validated for being in pure service to others good fucking deal with it me me too I'm on that same train where it's like I don't need your validation for me to just like the sun does the sun get thank yous from the trees you know no no does the sun stop shining if it goes oh well that person or that tree is not appreciating me that tree isn't ashamed so I'm not gonna shine anymore no it's just constantly shining no matter what that is like one of the best analogies for this it is yeah just keep shining without expecting any fruits that's the key karma yoga right no fruits no expectations and just keep going at the roots endless roots endless roots endless roots and naturally harmony will unfold just so unbelievably ineffably perfectly that if you focus on the fruits you will feel so much disharmony you will feel so much yeah yeah it's like the carrot dangling in front of your face you can you know if you can get stuck in that loop but you realize you are the fruit you are you are it yeah you are also that which is going to enjoy what ends up being the fruits as you work on your roots nonstop but you have absolutely zero attachment to the fruit yeah which you're yeah which in which in this case it's this mission of we we catalyze this planetary enlightenment and we do so with zero attachment whatsoever to the process uh and to the outcome and that we just surrender to the hydrological cycle that we are we are that fractally romanesco broccoli happening you know have you seen you know you're aware of that yeah no but i love that you said romanesco broccoli it's this yeah here i'll i'll show i'll show it to the romanesco like a sauce oh romanesco you you you are basically this yeah like the i am is basically this and then you have like the little kori malone one and the little atlas one and the little bentino and yeah and whatnot like these are these are the little costume expressions all of these endlessly costume expressioning and you're also that's the eternal river and then you recognize that there was never even a romanesco broccoli fractaling um yeah it is hilarious oh my wow uh yeah so that's that's it and there's there's so many other um little examples of the the golden ratio in nature right and if you start if you really start uh let's do this one again you know if you really start looking let's see if i can zoom in on this oh yeah there we go this one oh there you go right like this is your endless emergence as galaxies and hurricanes and nautilus shells and sunflowers and romanesco broccoli and also as humans like we are the same secretion we just have self-awareness and choice which is what makes human experience so dope and highly sought after and basically the playland of creativity and creation and at the same time this is all a dream so yeah i love these images here it's so cool to see that it's like the shell sunflower it's just all reflecting reality you know what's really the truth it's beautiful hurricane too that's cool yeah this is the this is the eye here's another sort of way of viewing it it's like the universe logarithmic scale it's when you look up uh you know universe logarithmic scale right what does what does what what you know what does that what does that scream to you you know that's a fucking pupil and iris right there yeah that's a fucking yeah wow that's a pupil and iris baby i love that see if i can get that yeah cool cool and you'll never come to the end of all of the different ways that you create universes and then immerse yourself into them as different costumes and yet at the same time you always recognize that these are just dreamed explorations and that you're also absolute void shunya stillness behind and beyond at all definitely that's such a cool image i love this i love this so cool yeah it's like you're looking at your it's looking somebody and i and then you can just see that yeah this as above so below so you have the phenomenon of the universe logarithmically that looks just like our own below as so below the pupil and the iris this is the this is basically the great i am this is the first attribute of the absolute awareness this is it that's it's yeah first attribute the sprout from awareness boom we go out from absolute from the absolute and then it sprouts out from that great i am into all of these focalized i am's you have all of these costumes that are part of this grand great i am that literally has the pupil iris just like we have the pupil iris so at this scale just like you know you and i our costumes share the same pupil but we have different irises that's why you have your unique kori malone costume and i have this atlas costume that's the iris right which is the difference the uniqueness but the pupil is the sameness does that make sense definitely and then yeah and then similarly at the universal level you have the pupil stays the same always it's awareness but the iris is like the unique coloration of the universe as in the universe here took on this role as this planet with eight billion units orbiting the star with the specific civilizational history with dna carbon based life forms that have two eyes and four limbs and shit like that and that it's just constantly changes so the iris also changes endlessly on the universal level wow yeah i like that that's really cool man it just it's just so many layers to the illusion because at the same time it's like there's not even any densities because if if the the atlas costume the kori costume we're just one there's really no anything there's no evolution really it's just to put it into context it's just yeah yeah that your that just got me thinking a lot about uh how many layers of the illusion is actually occurring subtle yeah like this is a pretty this is a pretty bold you know you let's put it on the screen right there boom you know this is a pretty bold statement and it's really difficult for people to grapple with it when they haven't experienced nothingness simultaneously with everythingness because there is both no evolution from the place of absolute stillness void shunya nothingness and we're just putting life into context by explaining evolution and densities and yet at the same time there is i went from a zygote to a 30 trillion celled adult that's wearing this atlas costume and that that is also my direct experience of being this firework that's went through the this process so that's the simultaneity and can you go beyond both yeah and yeah definitely that's like this again buddha cosmic joke atlas serious calling buddha cosmic joke which are ultimately one they ultimately merge into one just one i take your trouble seriously but deep inside i'm giggling that is so good i love that quote let's hide that one oh this one's a ticker when i look at you i am searching for a joke and then this one is also from the episode we did with gilad hillary and gina there is only one intelligence present we put that one up i love that i love that it's such a good one that's so good so good it's only one and i think that part of that reason why people may find it difficult for the the oneness the oneness and the no evolution thing we just were talking about is because of the conditioning of hierarchy conditioning of this and that conditioning of your life going from this to that you know when when like bashar talks about we're shifting through billions of parallel realities that are static every second so if they're static then how is there any sort of this then that or any sort of continuities what very nonlinear static shifts yeah everything that we do is a permission slip yeah shift into the reality we shift into by both of us going to the shift into permanent alignment retreat we shifted into a completely new reality yeah 100 and that's the insanity of all of these simultaneous timelines because you can literally watch you know the little atlas unit in its timeline that was you know let's say you've gotten rid of you know the bottom decisions and you're left with just these sort of two that are aiming up towards this north star over here this calling and one of them one of them is this one which is a lot more directly pointed at it and this one is like also pointed at it but a little bit lower and you can watch the quarry Malone unit you know go renaig on this on these commitments and like there that quarry Malone unit like you can watch that timeline go and you you're left with just what your higher self your higher your highest excitement is in this specific exploration that you're undergoing definitely yeah definitely when did you book the retreat did you book it a while out or was the last minute thing for you oh it's like yeah like 10 days or something out yeah you yeah it's like it's honestly about the same it was like two weeks two and a half weeks before yeah I woke up with this feeling like wow this like in my chest I could feel it this unfulfillment feeling and instantly it was like you need to go this retreat and so I booked it that day yeah exactly yeah that's crazy and amazing for me for me it was not necessarily like a feeling of something that needed to be fulfilled it was more it was more like I wanted to further refine that already incredibly refined understanding of the nature of reality and that I had been watching Bantino for quite some time and I wanted to get a darshan as I said you get the direct sort of enlightenment transmission and then also the surrounding that container all the retreated all this type of stuff and it was basically just this unbelievable sort of like this is exactly what like okay let's you know and it was just the perfect amount of of you know financial you know right back down to you know you go from like having like just out of out of the out of the blue you get you know your when you've normally been at like 500 bucks in your account you get your 4500 bucks and then you spend boop 4000 on their retreat and you're back to your 500 and like it's just like the perfect increase to be able to spend it all on that type thing and it was just like ridiculously aligned it was just perfect oh perfect absolutely it's just like you take this step and the floor appears that's such a beautiful way of just looking at it and living just just follow your excitement and then the the step will appear for your foot when it's placed right there for you instead of going well let me go to do this way or these stairs or that no no don't calculate anything just do it from what resonates with you yeah yeah just true trust yes yeah yes look at your shirt man i was gonna say that's the multiverse and then here's all of your your potential colors of all of the expressions oh my god amazing let's wrap with a little abiding session okay all right cool all right everyone we invite you to relax use your breath relax back into the very fact of i exist into your very timeless being use the breath as the tool for your gym repetitions to bring yourself back to awareness itself venus itself stop describing your experience stop symbolizing your experience and recognize how you become more formless immediately you become more formless you drop the identity the descriptions the symbolizations the form the costume the separation and you melt into this formlessness and that formlessness that is shared that is eternal that very source fullness and check in with yourself like this throughout the day dropping into that source fullness itself the perfect timeless ineffable the background nectar omnipresent the eternal river that is also not happening know yourself as beyond coming and going know yourself as beyond birth and death know yourself as beyond nothingness and everythingness just ineffable perfection beautiful do you have some thoughts you'd like to add kory i think that was perfect that was perfect perfect illusion i love that i feel good about that the the i am is playfully blissfully joyfully peacefully excited about the interaction between the atlas and kory costumes we all right beautiful yeah so beautiful yeah okay okay let's let's close it out all right thanks everyone we love you love everyone thank you alice i appreciate it thank you thanks for joining us and let us know your thoughts in the comments the other costumes in the i am i'd love to hear from you and like the video if it brought you value helps the algorithm subscribe if you haven't share the video with those that you feel like this would resonate with my gosh there were so many good things in there we had so many so much good as above so below in there the buddha and atlas ultimately won how you take your serious calling and you simultaneously hold that along with the cosmic joke and there's so many good things in there that was such a good combo all right infinite love thanks everyone awesome all right you and i will stay in here hold on i'm gonna end it perfect