 Chapter 32 of A Sun at the Front. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Riley McGuire. A Sun at the Front by Edith Wharton. Chapter 32. Heavily the weeks went by. The world continued to roar on through smoke and flame, and contrasted with that headlong race was the slow dragging lapse of hours and days to those who had to wait on events inactively. When Campton met Paul Dastry for the first time after the death of the latter's nephew, the two men exchanged a long hand clasp and then sat silent. As Campton had felt from the first, there was nothing left for them to say to each other. If young men like Louis Dastry must continue to be sacrificed by hundreds of thousands to save their country, for whom was the country being saved? Was it for the wasp-wasted youths in sham uniforms who haunted the reawakening hotels and restaurants and the frequent intervals between their ambulance trips to safe distances from the front? Or for the elderly men like Dastry and Campton who could only sit facing each other with the specter of the lost between them? Young Dastry, young Fortanles Clues, Renee De Vril, Benny Upsher and how many hundreds of more each day and not even a child left by most of them to carry on the faith they had died for? If we're giving all we care for so that those little worms can reopen their dance halls on the ruins, what in God's name is left? Campton questioned. Dastry sat looking at the ground his gray head bent between his hands. France, he said. What's France with no men left? Well, I suppose an idea. Yes, I suppose so. Campton stood up heavily. An idea, they must cling to that. If Dastry, from the depths of his destitution could still feel it and live by it, why did it not help Campton more? An idea, that was what France ever since she had existed had always been in the story of civilization. A luminous point about which striving visions and purposes could rally. And in that sense, she had been as much Campton's spiritual home as Dastry's. To thinkers, artists, to all creators, she had always been a second country. If France went, Western civilization went with her. And then all they had believed in and been guided by would perish. That was what George had felt. It was what had driven him from the Argonne to the Ains. Campton felt it too, but Daly threw a fog. His son was safe. Yes. But too many other men's sons were dying. There was no spot where his thoughts could rest. There were moments when the sight of George intact and immaculate his arm at last out of its sling rose before his father like a reproach. The feeling was senseless, but there it was. Whenever the young man entered the room Campton saw him attended by the invisible host of his comrades. The fevered, the maimed, and the dying. The Germans had attacked at Verdun. Horrible daily details of the struggle were pouring in. No one at the rear had really known except in swift fitful flashes about the individual suffering of the first months of the war. Now such information was systematized and distributed everywhere daily with a cold impartial hand. And every night when one laid one's old bones on one's bed there were those others the young and their thousands lying down perhaps never to rise again in the mud and blood of the trenches. Even Boylston's preparedness was beginning to get on Campton's nerves. He tried to picture to himself how he should exalt when his country at last fell into line but he could realize only what his humiliation would be if she did not. It was almost a relief at this time to have his mind averted to the dissensions among the friends of French art where at a stormy meeting Harvey Mayhew as a member of the finance committee had asked for an accounting of the money taken in at Mrs. Tauquette's concert. This money, Mr. Mayhew stated had passed through a number of hands. It should have been taken over by Mr. Boylston as treasurer at the close of the performance but he had failed to claim it had in fact been unfindable when the organizers of the concert brought their takings to Mrs. Tauquette and the money knocking about from hand to hand had finally been carried by Mrs. Tauquette herself to Mr. Campton. The latter when asked to entrust it to Mr. Mayhew had refused on the ground that he had already deposited it in the bank but a number of days later it was known to be still in his possession. All this time Mr. Boylston, treasurer and chairman of the financial committee appeared to think at quite an order that the funds should have been as he assumed deposited in the bank by a member who is not on that particular committee and who in reality had forgotten that they were in his possession. Mr. Mayhew delivered himself of this indictment amid an embarrassed silence. To Campton it had seemed as if a burst of protest must instantly clear the air but after he himself had apologized for his negligence and not depositing the money and Boylston had disengaged his responsibility and a few quiet words there followed another blank interval. Then Mr. Mayhew suddenly suggested a complete reorganization of the work. He had something to criticize in every department. He, who so seldom showed himself at the office now presented a list of omissions and commissions against which one after another of the active members rose to enter a mild denial. It was clear that someone belonging to the organization and who was playing into his hands had provided him with a series of cleverly falsified charges against the whole group of workers. Presently Campton could stand it no longer and jumping up suddenly articulate he flung into his cousin's face a handful of home truths under which he expected that glossy countenance to lose its luster. But Mr. Mayhew bore the assault with urbanity. It did not behoove him he said to take up the reproaches addressed to him by the most distinguished member of their committee the most distinguished he might surely say without offense to any of the others a murmur of assent. It did not behoove him because one of the few occasions on which a great artist may be said to be at a disadvantage is when he is trying to discuss business matters with a man of business. He, Mr. Mayhew, was only that nothing more but he was that and he had been trained to answer random abuse by hard facts. In no way did he intend to reflect on the devoted labors of certain ladies of the committee nor on their sympathetic treasurer's gallant efforts to acquire amid all his other pressing interests the rudiments of business habits. But Ms. Anthony had all along been dividing her time between two widely different charities and Mr. Boylston, like his distinguished champion was first of all an artist with the habits of this studio rather than of the office. In the circumstances, Camden jumped to his feet again. If he stayed a moment longer he felt he should knock Mayhew down. He jammed his hat on, shouted out, I resign, and limped out of the room. It was the way in which his encounters with practical difficulties always ended. The consciousness of his inferiority and argument the visionaries bewilderment when incomprehensible facts are thrust on him by fluent people, the helpless sense of not knowing what to answer and of seeing his dream world smashed in the rough and tumble of shabby motives. It all gave him the feeling that he was drowning and must fight his way to the surface before they had him under. In the street he stood in a cold sweat of remorse. He knew the charges of negligence against Ms. Anthony and Boylston were trumped up. He knew there was an answer to be made and that he was the man to make it and his eyes filled with tears of rage and self-pity at his own incompetence. But then he took heart at the thought of Boylston's astuteness and Ms. Anthony's courage. They would not let themselves be beaten. Probably they would fight their battle better without him. He tried to protect his retreat with such arguments. And when he got back to the studio he called up Madame Lebel and plunged again into his charcoal study of her head. He did not remember having ever worked with such supernatural felicity. It was as if that were his victorious answer to all their lies and intrigues. But the Mayhew party was victorious too. How it came about a mind like Camptons could not grasp. Mr. Mayhew, it appeared, had let fall that a very large gift of money from the world-renowned philanthropist, Sir Cyril Jorgensen, obtained through the good offices of Madame's de Dolmesche and Beauxite, was contingent on certain immediate changes in the organization. Drastic changes, was Mr. Mayhew's phrase. And thereupon several hitherto passive members had suddenly found voice to assert the duty of not losing this gift. After that the way was clear. Adele Anthony and Boylston were offered ornamental posts which they declined. And within a week the Palais Royale saw them no more and Paris drying rooms echoed with the unusual rumors of committee wrangles and dark discoveries. The episode left Campton with a bitter taste in his soul. It seemed to him like an ugly little allegory of Germany's maneuvering the world into war. The speciousness of Mr. Mayhew's arguments, the sleight of hand by which he had dislodged the real workers and replaced them by his satellites, reminded the painter of the neutrals who were beginning to say that there were two sides to every question. That war was always cruel. And how about the Russian atrocities in Silesia? As the months dragged on, a breath of lukewarmness had begun to blow through the world, dampening men's souls, confusing plain issues, casting a doubt on the worth of everything. People were beginning to ask what one knew, after all, of the secret motives which had impelled half a dozen self-indulgent old men in sconce and ministerial offices to plunge the world in ruin. No one seemed to feel any longer that life is something more than being alive. Apparently, the only people not tired of the thought of death were the young men still pouring out to it in their thousands. Still, those thousands poured. Still, the young died. Still, wherever Campton went, he met elderly faces, known and unknown, disfigured by grief, shrunken with renunciation. And still the months wore on without result. One day in crossing the Touliere, he felt the same soft sparkle which, just about a year earlier, had abruptly stirred the sap in him. Yes, it was nearly a year since the day when he had noticed the first horse chestnut blossoms and been reminded by Madame Lebel that he ought to buy some new shirts. And though today the horse chestnuts were still leafless, they were already misty with buds, and the tall white clouds above them full uttered with spring showers. It was spring again, spring with her deluding promises, her gilding of worn stones and chilly water, the mystery of her distances, the finish and brilliance of her nearer strokes. Campton, in spite of himself, drank down the life-giving draught and felt its murmur in his veins. And just then across the width of the gardens he saw beyond a stretch of turf and clipped shrubs, two people, also motionless, who seemed to have the same cup at their lips. He recognized his son and missed his talk it. Their backs were toward him and they stood close together, looking with the same eyes at the same sight, an Apollo touched with flying sunlight. After a while they walked on again, slowly and close to each other. George, as they moved, seemed now and then to point out some beauty of sculpture or the color of a likened urn. And once they turned and took their fill of the great perspective tapering to the arch, the arch on which Rude's main ad, Marseille's, still yelled her battalions on to death. End of chapter 32, recording by Riley McGuire. Chapter 33 of A Sun at the Front. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Riley McGuire. A Sun at the Front by Edith Warden. Chapter 33. Campton finished his charcoal of Madame Lebel. Then he attacked her in oils. Now that his work at the Palais Royale was ended, painting was once more his only refuge. Adele Anthony had returned to her refugees. Boylston, pale and obstinate, toiled on at preparedness. But Campton found it impossible to take up any new form of work. His philanthropic ardor was exhausted. He could only shut himself up for long, solitary hours in the empty and echoing temple of his art. George emphatically approved of his course. George was as insistent as Mrs. Brant on the duty of business as usual. But on the young man's lips, the phrase had a different meaning. It seemed the result of that altered perspective which Campton was conscious of whenever, nowadays, he tried to see things as his son saw them. George was not indifferent. He was not callous. But he seemed to feel himself mysteriously set apart. Destined to some other task for which he was passively waiting. Even the split among the friends of French art left him, despite have his admiration for Boylston, curiously unperturbed. He seemed to have taken the measure of all such ephemeral agitations and to regard them with an indulgent pity which was worse than coldness. He feels that all we do is so useless, Campton said to Dastry. He's like a gardener watching ants rebuild their hill in the middle of a path and knowing all the while that hill and path are going to be wiped out by his pick. Ah, they're all like that, Dastry murmured. Madame Labelle came up to the studio every afternoon. The charcoal study had been only of her head, but for the painting, Campton had seated her in her own horsehair armchair. Her smoky lamp beside her, her sewing in her lap. More than ever, he saw in the wise old face something typical of its race and class. The obstinate French gift, as someone had put it, of making one more effort after the last effort. The old woman could not imagine why he wanted to paint her, but when one day he told her it was for her grandsons, her eyes filled and she said, For which one, sir? For they're both at Verdun. One autumn afternoon he was late in getting back to the studio where he knew she was waiting for him. He pushed the door open and there in the beaten down attitude in which he had once before seen her, she lay across the table, her cap a rye, her hands clutching her sewing and George kneeling at her side. The young man's arm was about her, his head pressed against her breast and on the floor lay the letter, the fatal letter which was always nowadays the key to such scenes. Neither George nor the old woman had heard Campton enter and for a moment he stood and watched them. George's face, so fair and ruddy against Madame Lebel's rusty black, or a look of boyish compassion which Campton had never seen on it. Madame Lebel had sunk into his hold as if it soothed and hushed her and Campton said to himself, These two are closer to each other than George and I because they've both seen the horror face to face. He knows what to say to her ever so much better than he knows what to say to his mother or me. But apparently there was no need to say much. George continued to kneel in silence. Presently he bent and kissed the old woman's cheek then he got to his feet and saw his father. The show Sir Alpe, he merely said picking up the letter and handing it to Campton. It was the grandson she counted on most. Madame Lebel caught sight of Campton, smoothed herself and stood up also. I had found him a wife, a strong, healthy girl with a good dot. There go my last great-grandchildren for the other will be killed too. I don't understand anymore. Do you? She made an automatic attempt to straighten the things on the table but her hands beat the air and George had to lead her downstairs. It was that day that Campton said to himself we shan't keep him in Paris much longer. But the heavy weeks of spring and summer passed the inconclusive conflict at the front went on with its daily toll of dead and George still stuck to his job. Campton during this time continued to avoid the Brantz as much as possible. His wife's conversation was intolerable to him her obtuse optimism now that she had got her son back was even harder to bear than the guiltily averted glance of Mr. Brant between whom and Campton their last talk had hung a lasting shadow of complicity. But most of all Campton dreaded to meet the talkets the wife with her flushed cheekbones and fixed eyes the husband still affably and continuously arguing against Philistineism one afternoon the painter stumbled on them taking tea with George in Boylston's little flat but he went away again unable to bear the interminable discussion between talket and Boylston and the pacifists reiterated phrase to borrow one of my wife's expressions while George with a closed brooding face set silent laughing dryly now and then what a different George from the one his father had found in silence also kneeling beside Madame Lebel once again Campton was vouchsafed a glimpse of that secret George he had walked back with his son after the funeral mass for young Lebel and in the Porter's Lodge of the Avenue Marignier they found a soldier waiting a young square-built fellow with a shock of straw-colored hair above his sunburned rural face Campton was turning from the door when George dashed past him caught the young man by both shoulders and shouted out his name it was that of the orderly who had carried him out of the firing line and hunted him up the next day at the Doulan's Hospital Campton saw the look the two exchanged it lasted only for the taking of a breath a moment later officer and soldier were laughing like boys and the orderly was being drawn forth to shake hands with Campton but again the glance was an illumination it came straight from that far country the Benny Upsher country which Campton so feared to see in his son's eyes the orderly had been visiting his family fugitives from the invaded regions who had taken shelter in one of Adele Anthony's suburban colonies he'd obtained permission to stop in Paris on his way back to the front and for two joyful days he was lodged and feasted in the Avenue Marignier Boylston provided him with an evening at Montmartre George and Mrs. Brandt took him to the theater and the cinema and on the last day of his leave Adele Anthony invited him to tea with Campton, Mr. Brandt and Boylston Mr. Brandt, as they left this entertainment hung back on the stairs to say in a whisper to Campton the family are provided for, amply I've asked George to mention the fact to the young man but not until just as he's starting Campton nodded for George's sake he was glad yet he could not repress a twinge of his dormant jealousy was it always to be Brandt who thought first of the things to make George happy always Brandt who would alone have the power to carry them out but he can't prevent that poor fellows getting killed tomorrow Campton thought almost savagely as the young soldier beamed forth from the taxi in which George was hurrying him to the station it was not many days afterward that George looked in at the studio early one morning Campton over his breakfast had been reading the communiqué there was heavy news from Verdun from east to west the air was dark with calamity but George's face had the look it had worn when he greeted his orderly dad, I'm off, he said and sitting down at the table he unceremoniously poured himself some coffee into his father's empty cup the battalion's been ordered back I leave tonight let's lunch together somewhere presently, shall we? his eye was clear his smile confident a great weight seemed to have fallen from him and he looked like the little boy sitting up in bed with his lavender after ten months of Paris he added stretching his arms over his head with a great yawn yes the routine stammered Campton not knowing what he said yet he was glad too yes and his heart of hearts he knew he was glad though as always happened his emotion took him by the throat and silenced him but it did not matter for George was talking I shall have leave a good deal often or nowadays he said with animation and everything is ever so much better organized letters and all that I shan't seem so awfully far away you'll see Campton still gazed at him struggling for expression their hands met Campton said or imagined he said I see I do see already though afterward he was not even sure that he had spoken what he saw with an almost blinding distinctness was the extent to which his own feeling during the long months had imperceptibly changed and how his inmost impulse now that the blow had fallen was not of resistance to it but of acquiescence since it made him once more one with his son he would have liked to tell that to George but speech was impossible and perhaps after all it didn't matter it didn't matter because George understood their hand clasp had made that clear and an hour or two later they were lunging together almost gaily Boylston joined them and the three went on together to say goodbye to Adele Anthony Adele for once was unprepared it was almost a relief to Campton who had winced in advance at the thought of her warlike attitude the poor thing was far from warlike her pale eyes clung to George's in a frightened stare while her lips a little stiffly repeated the stock phrases of good cheer such a relief I congratulate you getting out of all the paper asery and red tape if I'd been you I couldn't have stood Paris another minute the only hopeful people left are at the front it was the formula that sped every departing soldier the day wore on to Campton its hours seemed as interminable yet as rapid as those before his son's first departure nearly two years earlier George had baked his father to come in the evening to the Avenue Marignier where he was dining with the Brantz it was easier for Campton nowadays to fall in with such requests during the months of George's sojourn in Paris a good many angles had had their edges rubbed off besides at that moment he would have done anything for his son his son again at last and their hand clasp that morning the old George had come back to him simple boyish just as he used to be and Campton's dread of the future was lightened by a great glow of pride in the Avenue Marignier dining room the Brantz and George were still sitting together about the delicate silver and porcelain there were no flowers Julia, always correct had long since banished them as a superfluity but there was champagne for George's farewell and a glimpse of rich fare being removed Mr. Brantz rose to greet Campton his concise features were drawn with anxiety and with the effort to hide it but his wife appeared to Campton curiously unperturbed and the leave taking was less painful and uselessly drawn out than he had expected George and his father were to be sent to the station in Mr. Brantz's motor Campton, as he got in remembered with a shiver the gray morning before daylight when the same motor had stood at the studio door waiting to carry him to Doulan's between himself and his son he seemed to see Mr. Brantz's small suffering profile to shake off the memory he said Your mother is in wonderfully good form I was glad to see she wasn't nervous George laughed No! Madge met her this morning at the New Clairvoyance It does them all a lot of good he added with his all embracing tolerance Campton shivered again that universal smiling comprehension of George's always made him seem remotor than ever It makes him seem so old a thousand years older than I am but he forced an acquiescent laugh and presently George went on about Madge you'll be awfully good to her won't you if I get smashed my dear boy there was another pause and then Campton risked a question just how do things stand I know so little after all for a moment George seemed to hesitate his thick fair eyebrows were drawn into a puzzled frown I know I've never explained it to you properly I've tried to but I was never sure that I could make you see he paused and added quietly I know now that she'll never divorce talk it you know Campton exclaimed with a great surge of relief she thinks she will but I see that the idea still frightens her and I've kept on using the divorce argument only as a pretext the words thrust Campton back into new depths of perplexity a pretext he echoed my dear old dad don't you guess she's come to care for me awfully if we'd gone all the length she wanted and then I got killed there would have been nothing on earth left for her I hadn't the right don't you see we chaps haven't any futures to dispose of till this job we're in is finished of course if I come back and she can make up her mind to break with everything she's used to we shall marry but if things go wrong I'd rather leave her as she is safe and her little old rut so many people can't live out of one and she's one of them poor child though she's so positive she isn't Campton set chilled and speechless as the motor whirled them on through the hushed streets it paralyzed his faculties to think that in a moment more they would be at the station it's awfully fine your idea he stammered at last awfully magnanimous but he still felt the chill down his spine oh it's only that things look to us so different so indescribably different and always will I suppose even after this business is over we seem to be sealed to it for life poor girl poor girl Campton thought within himself allowed he said my dear chap of course you can count on my being my doing of course of course old dad they were at the station father and son got out and walked toward the train Campton put both hands on Georgia's shoulders look here George broke out there's one thing more I want to tell you that I know what a lot I owe to you in a dowel you've both been awfully fine did you know it you too first made me feel a lot of things I hadn't felt before and you know this is my job I've never felt sure of it than at this minute they clasped hands in silence each looking his fill of the other then the crowd closed in George exclaimed my kit bag and somehow in the confusion the parting was over and Campton straining blurred I saw his son smile the smile of the light hearted lad of old days flash out at him from the moving train for an instant the father had the illusion that it was the goodbye look of the boy George going back to school after the holidays Campton as he came out of the station stumbled to his surprise on Mr. Brant the little man as they met flushed and paled and sought the customary support from his eyeglasses I followed you in the other motor he said looking away oh I say Campton murmured then with an effort shouldn't you like me to drive back with you Mr. Brant shook his head thank you thank you very much but it's late and you'll want to be getting home I'll be glad if you'll use my car together they strolled slowly across the station court to the place where the private motor is weighted but there Campton held out his hand much obliged I think I'll walk Mr. Brant nodded then he said abruptly this clairvoyant business is there anything in it do you think you saw how calm or Julia was just now she wished me to tell you that that Spanish woman she goes to her name is Olida I think had absolutely assured her about about the future the woman says she knows that George will come back soon and never be sent to the front again those were the exact words I believe never to be sent to the front again Julia put every kind of question and couldn't trip her up she wanted me to tell you so it does sound well at any rate it's a help to the mothers end of chapter 33 recording by Riley McGuire chapter 34 of a son at the front this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org recording by Riley McGuire a son at the front by Edith Wharton chapter 34 the next morning Campton said to himself I can catch that goodbye look if I get it down at once and pulled out a canvas before Madame LaBelle came in with his coffee as sometimes happened to him the violent emotions of the last 24 hours had almost immediately been clarified and transmuted into vision he felt that he could think contentedly of George if he could sit down at once and paint him the picture grew under his feverish fingers feverish yet how firm he always wondered anew at the way in which at such hours the inner flame and smoke issued in a clear guiding radiance he saw he saw and the mere act of his scene seemed to hold George safe in some pure impenetrable medium his boy was there sitting to him the old George he knew and understood essentially vividly face-to-face with him he was interrupted by a ring Madame LaBelle tray in hand opened the door and a swathed and voluminous figure sweeping in on a wave of musk blotted her out Campton exasperated at the interruption turned to face Madame Olida so remote were his thoughts that he would hardly have recognized her had she not breathed on the old familiar guttural Juanito he was less surprised at her intrusion than annoyed at being torn from his picture didn't you see a sign on the door no admission before 12 he growled oh yes she said that's how I knew you were in but I'm not in I'm working I can't allow her large bosom rose I know my heart I remember how stern you always were work work my work it was always that even in the first days but I come to you on my knees Juanito imagine me there she sketched a plunging motion of her vast body I rested it in time by supporting herself on the table and threw back her head intriguingly so that Campton caught a glint of the pearls and a crevasse of her quaking throat he saw that her eyes were red with weeping what can I do you're in trouble oh such trouble my heart such trouble she leaned to him absorbing his hands and her plump muscular grasp I must have news of my son I must the young man you saw him that day you came with your wife yes he looked in at the door beautiful as a God was he not that was my son Pepito and with a deep breath of pride and anguish she unburdened herself of her tale two or three years after her parting with Campton she had married a clever French barber from the Pyrenees he had brought her to France and they had opened a beauty shop at Buritz and had prospered Pepito was born there and soon afterward alas her clever husband declaring that he hated grease and cooking or an woman and after my Pepito's birth I became as you now see me had gone off with the manicure and all their savings Madame Olida had had a struggle to bring up her boy but she had kept on with the beauty shop had made a success of it and not long before the war had added fortune telling to massage and hairdressing and my son Juanito was not my son an advertisement for your beauty shop I ask you before he was out of petticoats he brought me customers before he was sixteen all the ladies who came to me were quarreling over him ah, there were moments when he crucified me but lately he had grown more reasonable had begun to see where his true interests lay and we had become friends again friends and business partners when the war broke out I came to Paris I knew that all the mothers would want news of their sons I had made a great deal of money and I've had wonderful results wonderful I could give you instances names that you know where I have foretold everything oh, I have the gift my heart I have it she pressed her hands with a smile of triumph then her face clouded again but six months ago my darling was called to his regiment and for three months now I've had no news of him none, none she sobbed the tears making dark streaks through her purplish powder the upshot of it was that she had heard that Campton was all-powerful that he knew ministers and generals knew great financiers like Jorgenstein who were so much more powerful than either generals or ministers and could, if he chose help her to trace her boy who from the day of his departure for the front had vanished as utterly as if the earth had swallowed him not a word not a sign to me his mother who have slaved and slaved for him who have made a fortune for him Campton looked at her marveling but your gift as you call it your powers you can't use them for yourself she returned his look with a tearful simplicity she hardly seemed to comprehend what he was saying but my son I want news of my son real news I want a letter I want to see someone who has seen him to touch a hand that has touched him oh don't you understand? yes I understand he said and she took up her desperate lit me clinging about him with soft palms like Medusa lips till by dint of many promises he managed to detach himself and steer her gently to the door on the threshold she turned to him once more and your own son Juanito I know he's at the front again his mother came the other day she often comes and I can promise you things if you'll help me no even if you don't help me for the old days sake I will I know secrets magical secrets that will protect him there's a more solve infallible against bullets handed down from King Solomon I can get it Campton guiding her across the sill let her out and bolted the door on her then he went back to his easel and stood gazing at the sketch of George but the spell was broken the old George was no longer there the war had sucked him back into its awful whirlpool once again he was that dark enigma a son at the front in the heavy weeks which followed a guarded illusion of Campton showed him one day that Boylston was aware of there being something between George and Madge Tackett not that he's ever said anything or even encouraged me to guess anything but she's got a talking face poor little thing and not much gift of restraint and I suppose it's fairly obvious to everybody except perhaps to Tackett that she's pretty hard hit yes and George Boylston's round face became remote and mysterious we don't really know do we sir exactly how any of them feel any more than if they were he drew up sharply on the word but Campton faced it dead transfigured say no trans what's the word in the theology books a new substance somehow ah you feel that too the father exclaimed yes they don't know it themselves though how far they are from us at least I don't think they do Campton nodded but George in the beginning was frankly indifferent to the war wasn't he yes intellectually he was but he told me that when he saw the first men on their way back from the front with the first mud on them he knew he belonged where they'd come from I tried hard to persuade him when he was here that his real job was on a military mission to America and it was think what he might have done out there but it was no use his orderly visit did the trick it's the thought of their men that pulls them all back look at Louis Dastry they couldn't keep him in America there's something in all their eyes I don't know what Dulce et decorum perhaps yes there was a pause before Campton questioned and talk it poor little ass I don't know he's here arguing with me nearly every day she looks over his shoulder and just shrugs at me with her eyebrows can you guess what she thinks of George's attitude oh something different every day I don't believe she's ever really understood but then she loves him and nothing else counts Mrs. Brandt continued to face life with the parent Serenity she'd returned several times to Madame Olidas and had always brought away the same reassuring formula she thought it's striking and so did her friends that the clairvoyance prediction never varied there was reason to believe that George's regiment had been sent to Verdun and from Verdun the news was growing daily more hopeful this seemed to Mrs. Brandt a remarkable confirmation of Olidas' prophecy apparently it did not occur to her that, in the matter of human life victories may be as ruinous as defeats and she triumphed in the fact it had grown to be a fact to her that her boy was at Verdun where he might have been in the psalm where things, though stagnant, were on the whole going less well mothers prayed for a quiet sector and then she argued what happened the men grew careless the officers were often her away your son was ordered out to see to the repairs of a barbed wire entanglement and a sharpshooter picked him off while you were sitting, reading one of his letters and thinking thank god he's out of the fighting and besides Olida was sure and all her predictions had been so wonderful Campton began to dread his wife's discovery Madame Olida's fears for her own son every endeavor to get news at the pitot had been fruitless finally, Campton and Boylstein concluded that the young man must be a prisoner the painter had a second visit from Madame Olida in the course of which he besought her without naming Julia to be careful not to betray her private anxiety to the poor women who came to her for consolation and she fixed her tortured velvet eyes on him reproachfully how could you think it of me, Juanito? the money I earn is for my boy that gives me the strength to invent a new lie every morning he took her fraudulent hand and kissed it the next afternoon he met Mrs. Brandt walking down the Champs-Élysées with her light, girlish step she lifted a radiant face to his a letter from George this morning and, do you know, Olida prophesied it I was there again yesterday and she told me that he would soon be back and that at that very moment she could see him writing to me you'll admit it's extraordinary so many mothers depend on her I couldn't live without her and her messages from her own son are so beautiful from her own son yes, didn't I tell you? he says such perfect things to her and she confessed to me, poor woman that before the war he hadn't always been kind he used to take her money and behave badly but now every day he sends her a thought message such beautiful things she says she wouldn't have the courage to keep us all up if it weren't for the way that she's kept up by her boy and now, Julia added gaily I'm going to order the cakes for my bridge tea this afternoon you know I promised Georgie I wouldn't give up my bridge teas now and then, Campton returned to his latest portrait of his son but in spite of George's frequent letters in spite of the sudden drawing together of father and son during their last moments at the station the vision of the boy George the careless happy George who had ridiculed the thought of war and pursued his millennial dreams of an enlightened world that vision was gone sometimes Campton fancied that the letters themselves increased this effect of remoteness they were necessarily more guarded than the ones written before George's wounding from an imaginary HQ but that did not wholly account for the difference Campton, in the last analysis could only say that his vision of his boy was never quite in focus either as in the moment when George had comforted Madame Lebel or greeted his orderly or when he had said those last few broken words at the station he seemed nearer than ever seemed part in substance of his father or else he became again that beautiful distant apparition the winged sentry guarding the unknown the weeks thus punctuated by private anxieties rolled on dark with doom at last in December came the victory of Verdun men took it reverentially but soberly the price paid had been too heavy for rejoicing and the horizon was too ominous in other quarters Campton had hoped that the new year would bring his son back on leave but still George did not speak of coming meanwhile Boylston's face grew rounder and more beaming at last America was stirring in her sleep oh if only George were out there Boylston used to cry as if his friend had been an army his faith in George's powers of persuasion was almost mystical and not long afterward Campton had the surprise of a visit which seemed in the most unforeseen way to confirm this belief returning to his studio one afternoon he found it tenanted by Mr. Roger Tockett the young man as carefully brushed and equipped as usual the pale with emotion clutched the painter's hand in a moist grasp my dear master I had to see you to see you alone and immediately Campton looked at him with apprehension what was the meaning of his alone had Mrs. Tockett lost her head and betrayed her secret or had she committed some act of imprudence of which the report had come back to her husband do sit down said the painter weekly but his visitor remaining sternly upright shook his head and glanced at his wristwatch my moments he said are numbered literally all I have time for is to implore you to look after my wife he drew a handkerchief from his glossy cuff and rubbed his eyeglasses your wife Campton echoed dismayed my dear sir haven't you guessed it's George's wonderful example his inspiration I've been converted we men of culture can't stand by while the ignorant and illiterate are left to die for us we must leave that attitude to the barbarian our duty is to set an example I'm off tonight for America for Plattsburg oh gasped Campton ringing his hand Boylston burst into the studio the next day what did I tell you sir George's influence it wakes up everybody but Tockett I'll be hanged if I should have thought it and have you seen his wife she's a war goddess I went to the station with them their farewells were harrowing at that minute you know I believe she'd forgotten that George ever existed well thank God for that Campton cried yes don't you feel how we're all being swept into it panted Boylston breathlessly his face had caught the illumination sealed as George says we're sealed to the job every one of us even I feel that sitting here at a stuffy desk he flushed crimson and his eyes filled will be in it you know America will in a few weeks now I believe George was as sure of it as I am and of course if the war goes on our army will have to take short sighted officers won't they sir as England and France did from the first they'll need the men they'll need us all sir they'll need you my dear chap and they'll have you to the full whatever your job is Campton smiled and Boylston choking back a sob dashed off again yes they were all being swept into it together swept into the yawning whirlpool Campton felt that as clearly as all these young men he felt the triviality the utter unimportance of all their personal and private concerns compared with this great headlong outpouring of life on the altar of conviction and he understood why for youths like George and Boylston nothing however close and personal to them would matter till the job was over and not even for poor talk it he reflected whimsically that afternoon curiously appeased he returned once more to his picture of his son he had sketched the boy leaning out of the train window smiling back signaling saying goodbye while his destiny rushed him out into darkness as years ago the train used to rush him back to school and while Campton worked he caught the glow again it rested on brow and eyes and spread in sure touches under his happy brush one day as the picture progressed he wavered over the remembrance of some little detail of the face and went in search of an old portfolio into which from time to time he had been in the habit of thrusting his unfinished studies of George he plunged his hand into the heap in George's of all ages looked forth at him round baby George's freckled schoolboys a thoughtful long-faced youth the delicate George of Saint Maritz but none seemed quite to serve his purpose and he rummaged on till he came to a page torn from an old sketchbook it was the pencil study he had made of George as the lad lay asleep at the Creon the night before his mobilization Campton threw the sketch down on the table and as he sat staring at it he relived every phase of the emotion out of which it had been born how little he had known then how little he had understood he could bear to look at the drawing now could bear even to rethink the shuttering thoughts with which he had once flung it away from him was it only because the atmosphere was filled with a growing sense of hope because in spite of everything the victory of Verdun was there to show the inexhaustible strength of France because people were more and more sure that America was beginning to waken or just because after too long and fierce a strain human nature always instinctively contrives to get its necessary whiff of moral oxygen or was it that George's influence had really penetrated him and that this strange renewed confidence in life and in ideals was his son's message of reassurance certainly the old George was there close to him that morning then somewhere else in scenes how different he was sure that the actual George at that very moment was giving out force and youth and hope to those about him I couldn't be doing this if I didn't understand at last Campton thought as he turned back to the easel the little pencil sketch had given him just the hint he needed and he took up his palette with a happy sigh a knock broke in on his wrapped labor and without turning he called out damn it who are you can't you read the sign not in the door opened and Mr. Brandt entered he appeared not to have heard the painter's challenge his eyes from the threshold sprang straight to the portrait and remained vacantly fastened there Campton long afterward remembered thinking as he followed the glance he'll be trying to buy this one too Mr. Brandt moistened his lips and his gaze detaching itself from George's face moved back in the same vacant way to Camptons the two men looked at each other and Campton jumped to his feet not not Mr. Brandt tried to speak and the useless effort contracted his mouth and a pitiful grimace my son Campton shrieked catching him by the arm the little man dropped into a chair not dead not dead hope hope was shaken out of him in jerks of anguish the door burst open again and Boylston dashed in beaming he waved aloft a handful of morning papers America you've seen they've sacked Baronstorff broken off diplomatic his face turned white and he stood staring incredulously from one of the two bowed men to the other end of chapter 34 recording by Riley McQuire Chapter 35 of A Sun at the Front this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org recording by Riley McQuire A Sun at the Front by Edith Warden Chapter 35 Campton once more stood leaning in the window of a Paris hospital before him but viewed at another angle was spread that same great spectacle of the Place de la Concorde that he had looked down at from the crayon on the eve of mobilization behind him in a fresh white bed George lay in the same attitude as when his father had stood in the door of his room and sketched him while he slept all day there had run through Campton's mind the clairvoyance promise to Julia your son will come back soon and will never be sent to the front again ah this time it was true never never would he be sent to the front again they had him fast now had him safe that was the one certainty fast how safe how the answer to that had long hung in the balance for two weeks or more after his return the surgeons had hesitated then youth had seemed to conquer and the parents had been told to hope that after a long period of immobility George's shattered frame would slowly re-knit and he would walk again or at least hobble a month had gone by since then and Campton could at last trust himself to cast his mind back over the intervening days so like in their anguish to those at doulain yet so different and all that material aid and organization could give evacuation from the base now so systematically and promptly affected had become a matter of course in all but the gravest cases and even the delicate undertaking of deflecting George's course from the hospital near the front to which he had been destined and bringing him to Paris had been accomplished by a word in the right quarter from Mr. Brandt Campton from the first had been opposed to the attempt to bring George to Paris partly perhaps because he felt that in the quiet provincial hospital near the front he would be able to have his son to himself at any rate the journey would have been shorter though as against that Paris offered more possibilities of surgical aid his opposition had been violent enough to check his growing friendliness with the Brandt's and at the hours when they came to see George Campton now most often contrived to be absent well at any rate George was alive he was there under his father's eye he was going to live there seemed to be no doubt about it now Campton could think it all over slowly and even calmly marveling at the miracle and taking it in so at least he'd imagine till he first made the attempt then the old sense of unreality enveloped him again and he struggled vainly to clutch at something tangible amid the swimming mists George George George he used to say the name over and over below his breath as he sat and watched at his son's bedside but it sounded far off and hollow like the voice of a ghost calling for another who was George? what did the name represent? the father left his post in the window and turned back to the bed once more searching the boy's face for enlightenment but George's eyes were closed sleep lay on him like an impenetrable veil the sleep of ordinary men was not like that the light of their daily habits continued to shine through the chinks of their closed faces but with these others these who had been down into the lower circles of the pit it was different sleep instantly and completely sucked them back into the unknown there were times when Campton thus watching beside his son used to say to himself if he were dead he could not be farther from me so deeply did George seem plunged into secret traffic with things unutterable now and then Campton sitting beside him seemed to see a little way into those darknesses but after a moment he always shuttered back to daylight benumbed inadequate weighed down with the weakness of the flesh and the incapacity to reach beyond his habitual limit of sensation no wonder they don't talk to us he mused by and by perhaps when George was well again and the war over the father might penetrate into his son's mind and find some new ground of communion with him now the thing was not to be conceived he recalled again Adele Anthony's asking him when he had come back from Doulan's what was the first thing you felt and his answering nothing well it was like that now every vibration had ceased in him between himself and George lay the unbridgeable abyss of his son's experiences as he sat there the door was softly opened a few inches and Boylston's face showed through the crack light shot from it like the rays around a chalice at a sign from him Campton slipped out into the corridor and Boylston silently pushed a newspaper into his grasp he bent over it trying with dazzled eyes to read sense into the staring headlines but America America America was all that he could see a nurse came gliding up on light feet the tears were running down her face yes I know I know I know she exalted up the tall stairs and through the ramifying of long white passages rose an unwanted rumor of sound checked subdued invisibly rebuked but ever again breaking out like the noise of ripples on a windless beach in every direction nurses and orderlies were speeding from one room to another of the house of pain with the message America has declared war on Germany Campton and Boylston stole back into George's room George lifted his eyelids and smiled at them understanding before they spoke the 6th of April remember the date Boylston cried over him in a gleeful whisper the wounded man held fast in his splints contrived to raise his head a little his eyes laughed back into Boylston's you'll be in uniform within a week he said and Boylston crimsoned Campton turned away again to the window the day had come had come and his son had lived to see it so many of George's comrades had gone down to death without hope and in a few months more George leaning from that same window or perhaps well enough to be watching the spectacle with his father from the terrace of the Tullieres would look out on the first brown battalions marching across the Place de la Concorde where father and son in the early days of the war had seen the young recruits of the foreign legion patrolling under improvised flags at the thought Campton felt a loosening of the tightness around his heart something which had been confused and uncertain in his relation to the whole long anguish was abruptly lifted giving him the same sense of buoyancy that danced in Boylston's glance at last random atoms that they were they seemed all to have been shaken into their places pressed into the huge mysterious design which was slowly curving a new firmament over a new earth there was another knock and a jubilant nurse appeared hardly visible above a great bunch of lilacs tied with a starred and striped ribbon Campton as he passed the flowers over to his son noticed an envelope with Mrs. Tauket's perpendicular scrawl George lay smiling the lilacs close to his pillow his freehand fingering the envelope but he did not unseal the letter and seemed to care less than ever to talk after an interval the door opened again this time to show Mr. Brant's guarded face he drew back slightly at the sight of Campton but Boylston jumping up passed close to the painter to breathe today sir just today you must Campton went to the door and signed silently to Mr. Brant to enter Julia Brant stood outside flushed and tearful carrying as many orchids as Mrs. Tauket had sent lilacs Campton held out his hand and with an embarrassed haste she stammered we couldn't wait behind her he saw Adele Anthony hurriedly coming up the stairs for a few minutes they all stood or sat about George's bed while their voices beginning to speak low rose uncontrollably interrupting one another with tears and laughter Mr. Brant and Boylston were both brimming with news and George, though he listened more than he spoke now and then put a brief question which loosened fresh floods suddenly Campton noticed that the young man's face which had been too flushed grew pale but he continued to smile and his eyes to move responsively from one illuminated face to the other Campton, seeing that the others meant to linger presently rose and slipping out quietly walked across the rue de Rivoli to the deserted terrace of the Toulières there he sat for a long time looking out on the vast glittering spaces of the Place de la Concorde and calling up with his painter's faculty of vivid and precise visualization a future vision of interminable lines of brown battalions marching past when he returned to the hospital after dinner the night nurse met him she was not quite as well satisfied with her patient that evening hadn't he perhaps had too many visitors yes of course she knew it had been a great day a day of international rejoicing above all a blessed day for France but the doctors from the beginning must have warned Mr. Campton that his son ought to be kept quiet very quiet the last operation had been a great strain on his heart yes certainly Mr. Campton might go in the patient had asked for him oh there was no danger no need for anxiety only he must not stay too long his son must try to sleep Campton nodded and stole in George Lee motionless in the shaded lamp light his eyes were open but they seem to reflect his father's presence without any change of expression like mirrors rather than like eyes the room was doubly silent after the joyful hubbub of the afternoon the nurse had put the orchids and lilocks where George's eyes could rest on them but was it on the flowers that his gaze so tranquilly dwelt or did he see in their place the faces of their senders or was he again in that far country where no other eyes could follow him Campton took his usual seat by the bed father and son looked at each other and the old George glanced out for half a second between the wounded man's lids there was too much talking today Campton grumbled was there I didn't notice his son smiled no he hadn't noticed he didn't notice anything he was a million miles away again whirling into his place in the awful pattern of that new firmament tired old man Campton asked under his breath no just glad said George contentedly his father laid a hand on his and sat silently beside him while the spring night blew in upon them through the open window the quiet streets grew quieter the hush in their hearts seemed gradually to steal over the extinguished city Campton kept saying to himself I must be off and still not moving the nurse was sure to come back presently why should he not wait till she dismissed him after a while seen that George's eyes had closed Campton rose and crept across the room to darken the lamp with the newspaper his movement must have roused his son for he heard a slight struggle behind him and the low cry father Campton turned and reached the bed in a stride George ashy white had managed to lift himself a little on his free elbow anything wrong the father cried no everything all right George said he dropped back his lids closing again and a single twitch ran through the hand that Campton had seized after that he lay stiller than ever End of Chapter 35 Recording by Riley McGuire Chapter 36 of A Sun at the Front This is a LibriVox recording All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain For more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org Recording by Riley McGuire A Sun at the Front by Edith Wharton Chapter 36 George's prediction had come true at his funeral three days afterward Boylston a new-fledged member of the American military mission was already in uniform But through what perversity of attention did the fact strike Campton as he stood a blank unfeeling a tomaton in the front pew behind that coffin draped with flags and flanked with candle glitter Why did one thing rather than another reach to his deadened brain and mostly the trivial things such as Boylston's being already in uniform and poor Julia's nose under the harsh crepe looking so blue-red without its powder and the chaplain's asking O Grave where is thy victory in the quarrelous tone of a schoolmaster reproaching a pupil who mislaid things It was always so with Campton When sorrow fell it left him insensible and dumb Not till long afterward did he begin to feel its birth pangs They first came to him those pangs on a morning of the following July as he sat once more on the terrace of the Toulières Most of his time during the months since George's death had been spent in endless aimless wanderings up and down the streets of Paris and that day descending early from Montmartre he had noticed in his listless way that all the buildings on his way were fluttering with American flags The fact left him indifferent Paris was always decorating nowadays for one ally or another Then he remembered that it must be the 4th of July but the idea of the 4th of July came to him through the same haze and indifference as a mere far-off childish memory of surreptitious explosions and burnt fingers He strolled on toward the Toulières where he had got into the way of sitting for hours at a time looking across the square at what had once been George's window He was surprised to find the rue de Rivoli packed with people but his only thought was the instinctive one of turning away to avoid them and he began to retrace his steps in the direction of the Louvre That at a corner he paused again and looked back at the Place de la Concorde It was not curiosity that drew him heaven knew He would never again be curious about anything but he suddenly remembered the day three months earlier when Leaning from George's window in the hospital he said to himself by the time our first regiments arrive he'll be up and looking at them from here or sitting with me over there on the terrace and that decided him to turn back It was as if he had felt the pressure of George's hand on his arm Though it was still so early he had some difficulty in pushing his way through the throng No seats were left on the terrace but he managed to squeeze into a corner near one of the great vases of the Boulastrade and leaning there with the happy hubbub about him he watched and waited Such a summer morning it was and such a strange grave beauty had fallen on the place He seemed to understand for the first time he who had served beauty all his days how profoundly at certain hours it may become the symbol of things hoped for and things died for Although stately spaces and rain distances witnesses of so many memorable scenes might have been called together just as the setting for this one event the sight of a few brown battalions passing over them like a feeble trail of insects Campton with a vague awakening of interest glanced about him studying the faces of the crowd old and young and firm and healthy civilians and soldiers Ah the soldiers all were exultant confident alive alive The word meant something new to him now something so strange and unnatural that his mind still hung and brooded over it for now that George was dead by what mere blind propulsion did all these thousands of human beings keep on mechanically living He became aware that a boy leaning over intervening shoulders was trying to push a folded paper into his hand On it was penciled in Mr. Brant's writing There will be a long time to wait Will you take the seat I have kept next to mine? Campton glanced down the terrace saw where the little man sat at its farther end and shook his head Then some contradictory impulse made him decide to get up laboriously work his halting frame through the crowd and insert himself into the place next to Mr. Brant The two men nodded without shaking hands After that they sat silent their eyes on the empty square Campton noticed that Mr. Brant wore his usual grey clothes but with a morning band on the left sleeve The sight of that little band irritated Campton There was, as Mr. Brant had predicted a long interval of waiting but a length of murmur of jubilation rose far off and gathering depth and volume came bellowing and spraying up to where they sat The square, the Champs Elysees and all the leafy distances were flooded with it It was as though the voice of Paris had sprung up in fountains out of her stones Then a military march broke shrilly on the tumult and there they came at last in a scant, swaying line So few, so new, so raw So little in comparison with the immense assemblages familiar to the place so much in meaning and in promise How badly they march There hasn't even been time to drill them properly Campton thought and at the thought he felt a choking in his throat and his sorrow burst up in him in healing springs It was after that day that he first went back to his work He had not touched paint or pencil since George's death Now he felt the inspiration and the power returning and he began to spend his days among the young American officers and soldiers studying them, talking to them, going about with them and then hurrying home to jot down his impressions He had not, as yet, looked at his last study of George or opened the portfolio with the old sketches If anyone had asked him, he would probably have said that they no longer interested him His whole creative faculty was curiously, mysteriously engrossed in the recording of the young faces for whose coming George had yearned It's their marching so badly It's their not even having had time to be drilled He said to Boylston, half shame-facedly as they sat together one August evening in the studio window Campton's seldom saw Boylston nowadays All the young man's time was taken up by his job with the understaffed and inexperienced military mission But, fagged as he was by continual overwork and heavy responsibilities his blinking eyes had at last lost their unsatisfied look and his whole busy person radiated hope and encouragement On the day in question, he had turned up unexpectedly inviting himself to dine with Campton and smoke a cigar afterward in the quiet window overhanging Paris Campton was glad to have him there No one could tell him more than Boylston about the American soldiers their numbers, the accommodations prepared for their reception their first contact with the other belligerents and their own view of the business they were about And the two chatted quietly in the twilight till the young man, rising, said it was time to be off Back to your shop? Rather, there's a night's work ahead but I'm as good as new after our talk Campton looked at him wistfully You know, I'd like to paint you someday Oh, cried Boylston, suffused with blushes and added with a laugh It's my uniform, not me Well, your uniform is you It's all of you young men Boylston stood in the window, twisting his cap about undecidedly Look here, sir, now that you've got back to work again Well, Campton interrupted suspiciously The young man cleared his throat and spoke with a rush His mother wants most awfully that something should be decided about the monument Monument? What monument? I don't want my son to have a monument Campton exploded But Boylston stuck to his point It'll break her heart if something isn't put on the grave before long It's five months now and they fully recognize your right to decide Damn what they recognize! It was they who brought him to Paris They made him travel when he wasn't fit, they killed him Well, supposing they did Judge how much more they must be suffering Let him suffer He's my son My son, he isn't Brantz Ms. Anthony thinks And he's not hers either That I know of Boylston seemed to hesitate Well, that's just it, isn't it, sir? You've had him You have him still Nobody can touch that fact Or take it from you Every hour of his life was yours But they've never had anything, those two others Mr. Brantz and Ms. Anthony Nothing but a reflected light And so every outward sign means more to them I'm putting it badly, I know Campton held out his hand You don't mean to, I suppose But better not put it at all Good night, he said And on the threshold, he called out sardonically And who was going to pay for a monument I'd like to know A monument They wanted a monument Wanted him to decide about it Plan it, perhaps design it Good lord, he didn't know No doubt it all seemed simple enough to them Anything did that money could buy When he couldn't yet bear to turn that last canvas out from the wall Or look into the old portfolio even Suffering, suffering What did they, any of them know about suffering? Going over old photographs Comparing studies Recalling scenes and sayings Discussing with some sculptor or other The shape of George's islands The spring of his chest muscles The way his hair grew and his hands moved Why, it was like digging him up again Out of that peaceful corner Of the new ye cemetery Where at last he was resting Like dragging him back to the fret and the fever And the senseless roar of the guns that still went on And then, as he'd said to Boylston Who was to pay for their monument? Even if the making of it had struck him as a way of getting nearer to his boy Instead of building up a marble wall between them Even if the idea had appealed to him He hadn't a penny to spare for such an undertaking In the first place He never intended to paint again for money Never intended to do anything But these gaunt and serious or round and baby-ish Young American faces above their stiff military collars And when their portraits were finished to put them away Locked up for his own pleasure And what he had earned in the last years Was to be partly for these young men For their reading rooms Clubs Recreation centers Whatever was likely to give them temporary rest And solace And the grim months to come And partly for such of the protégés Of the friends of French art As had been deprived of aid under the new management Tales of private jealousy and petty retaliation Came to Campton daily Now that Madame Bauxite administered the funds Adele Anthony and mademoiselle de Ville Bursting with the wrongs of their pensioners Were always appealing to him for help And then Hidden behind these more or less valid reasons The old instinctive dread of spending Had reasserted itself He couldn't tell how or why Unless through some dim opposition to the brand's perpetual outpouring Their hospitals, their motors, their bribes, their orchids And now their monument Their Monument He sought refuge from it all with his soldiers Haunting for hours every day One of the newly opened soldiers and sailors clubs Adele Anthony had already found a job there And was making a success of it She looked 20 years older since George was gone But she stuck to her work with the same humorous pertenacity And with her mingled heartiness and ceremony Her funny resuscitation of obsolete American slang And her ability to answer all their most disconcerting questions About Paris and France Montmartre included She easily eclipsed the ministering angels who twanged the hometown cord And called them boys The young men appeared to return Campton's liking It was as if they had guessed that he needed them And wanted to offer him their shy help He was conscious of something rather protecting in their attitude Of his being to them a vague unidentified figure Merely the old gentleman who was friendly to them But he didn't mind It was enough to sit and listen to their talk To try and clear up a few of the countless puzzles which confronted them To render them such fatherly services as he could And in the interval to jot down notes of their faces Their inexhaustibly inspiring faces Sometimes to talk with them was like being on the floor in George's nursery Among the blocks and the tin soldiers Sometimes like walking with young archangels in a cool empty heaven But wherever he was he always had the sense of being among his own The sense he had never had since George's death To think of them all as George's brothers To study out the secret likeness to him and their young, dedicated faces That was now his one passion, his sustaining task It was at such times that his son came back and sat among them Gradually, as the weeks passed The first of his new friends, officers and soldiers Were dispersed throughout the training camps And new faces succeeded to those he had tried to fix on his canvas An endless line of many upshires, baby George's, schoolboy Boylston's they seem to be Camptons saw each one go with a fresh pang Knowing that every move brought them so much nearer to the front That ever-ravening and inexorable front They were always happy to be gone And that only increased his pain Now and then he attached himself more particularly to one of the young men Because of some look of the eyes or some turn of the mind like George's And then the parting became anguish One day a second lieutenant came to the studio to take leave He had been an early recruit of Platsburg And his military training was so far advanced That he counted on being among the first officers sent to the fighting line He was a fresh-colored lad with fair hair That stood up in a defiant crest There are so few of us and there's so little time to lose They can't afford to be too particular He laughed It was just the sort of thing that George would have said And the laugh was like an echo of George's At the sound, Camptons suddenly burst into tears And was aware of his visitors looking at him With eyes of dismay and compassion Oh, don't sir, don't! The young man pleaded Ringing the painter's hand And making what decent haste he could to get out of the studio Campton, left alone, turned once more to his easel He sat down before a canvas on which he had blocked out a group of soldiers playing cards at their club But after a stroke or two he threw aside his brush and remained with his head bowed on his hands A lonely, tired, old man He'd kept a cheerful front at his son's going And now he could not say goodbye to one of these young fellows without crying Well, it was because he had no one left of his own, he supposed Loneliness, like his, took all a man's strength from him The bell rang, but he did not move It rang again Then the door was pushed timidly open And Mrs. Tauket came in He had not seen her since the day of George's funeral When he had fancied he detected her in a shrunken black veiled figure Hurring past in the meaningless line of mourners In her usual abrupt fashion, she began, without a greeting Have come to say goodbye I'm going to America He looked at her remotely, hardly hearing what she said To America Yes, to join my husband He continued to consider her in silence And she frowned in her perplexed and fretful way He's at Plattsburg, you know Her eyes wandered on-seenly about the studio There's nothing else to do, is there, now, here, or anywhere So I sail tomorrow, I mean to take a house somewhere near him He's not well, and he writes that he misses me The life in camp is so unsuited to him Campton still listened, absently Oh, you're right to go He agreed at length, supposing it was what she expected of him Am I? She half smiled What's right, and what's wrong? I don't know any longer I'm only trying to do what I suppose George would have wanted She stood uncertainly in front of Campton All I do know, she cried with a sharp break in her voice Is that I've never in my life been happy enough to be so unhappy And she threw herself down on the Devon in a storm of desolate sobbing After he had comforted her as best he could and she had gone away Campton continued to wander up and down the studio for lornely That cry of hers kept on echoing in his ears I've never in my life been happy enough to be so unhappy It associated itself suddenly with the phrase of Boylston's that he had brushed away on heating You've had your son, you have him still But those others have never had anything Yes, Campton saw now that it was true of poor Madge Talkit As it was of Adele Anthony and Mr. Brandt And even in a measure of Julia They had never, no, not even George's mother, had anything In the close and extricable sense in which Campton had had his son And it was only now, in his own hour of destitution That he understood how much greater the depth of their poverty had been He recalled the frightened and embarrassed look of the young lieutenant Whom he had discounted by his tears And he said to himself The only thing that helps is to be able to do things for people I suppose that's why Brandt's always trying Julia too It was strange that his thought should turn to her with such peculiar pity It was not because the boy had been born of her body Campton did not see her now As he had once had in a brief moment of compassion As the young mother bending illumined above her baby He saw her as an old, empty-hearted woman And asked himself how such an unmanageable monster as grief Was to fill the room up of her absent son What did such people as Julia do with grief? He wondered How did they make room for it in their lives? Get up and lie down every day with its taste on their lips It's elemental quality, that awful sense It communicated of a whirling earth, a crumbling time And all the cold, stellar spaces yawning to receive us These feelings which she was beginning to discern And to come to terms with in his own way And with the sense that it would have been George's way too These feelings could never give their stern appeasement to Julia Her religion? Yes Such as it was, no doubt it would help Talking with the rector would help Giving more time to her church charities, her wounded soldiers Imagining that she was paying some kind of tax on her affliction But the vacant evenings at home, face to face with Brant Campton had long since seen that the one thing which had held the two together Was their shared love of George And if Julia discovered, as she could hardly fail to do How much more deeply Brant had loved her son than she had And how much more inconsolably he mourned him That would only increase her sense of isolation And so, in sheer self-defense She would gradually, stealthily, fill up the void with the old occupations With bridge and visits and secret consultations at the dressmakers About the width of crepe on her dresses And all the while the object of life would be gone for her Yes, he pitied Julia, most of all But Mr. Brant too, perhaps in a different way It was he who suffered most For the stellar spaces were not exactly Mr. Brant's native climate And yet, voices would call to him from them, and he would not know There were moments when Campton looked about him with astonishment At the richness of his own denuded life When George was in the sunset, in the voices of young people Or in any trivial joke that father and son would have shared And other moments when he was nowhere Utterly lost, extinct and irrecoverable And others again, when the one thing which could have vitalized the dead business of living Would have been to see him shove open the studio door, stock in Pour out some coffee for himself in his father's cup And diffuse through the air the warm sense of his bodily presence The fresh smell of his clothes and his flesh and his hair But through all these moods, Campton began to see There ran the life-giving power of a reality Embraced and accepted George had been George was As long as his father's consciousness lasted George would be as much a part of it as the closest Most actual of his immediate sensations He had missed nothing of George And here was his harvest His golden harvest Such states of mind were not constant with Campton But more and more often, when they came They swept him on eagle wings over the next desert to the next oasis And so, gradually, the meaningless days became linked to each other In some kind of intelligible sequence Boylston, after the talk which had so agitated Campton Did not turn up again at the studio for some time But when he next appeared the painter, hardly pausing to greet him Began at once as if they had just parted That monument you spoke about the other day You know Boylston glanced at him in surprise If they want me to do it, I'll do it Campton went on, jerking the words out abruptly And walking away toward the window He had not known, till he began, that he had meant to utter them Or how difficult they would be to say And he stood there a moment struggling with the unreasoning, rebellious irritability Which so often lay in wait for his better impulses At length, he turned back, his hands in his pockets Glinking his change, as he had done the first time that Boylston had come to him for help But as I planned the thing, he began again In a queer, growling tone It's going to cost a lot Everything of the sword does nowadays Especially in marble It's hard enough to get anyone to do that kind of work at all And prices have about tripled, you know Boylston's eyes filled, and he nodded, still without speaking That's just what Brantle liked, though, isn't it? Campton said, with an irrepressible sneer in his voice He saw Boylston read him and look away And he too flushed to the forehead and broke off, ashamed Suddenly, he had the vision of Mr. Brant of facing himself At the foot of the hospital stairs when they had arrived at Doulan's Mr. Brant drawing forth the copy of the orderly's letter In the dark fog-swept cloister Mr. Brant always yielding, always holding back Yet always remembering to do or to say the one thing the father's lacerated soul could bear And he's had nothing, nothing, nothing, Campton thought He turned again to Boylston, his face still flushed, his lips twitching Tell them, tell Brant that I'll design the thing I'll design it, and he shall pay for it He'll want to, I understand that Only for God's sake, don't let him come here and thank me At least not for a long time Boylston again nodded silently and turned to go After he had gone, the painter moved back to his long table He had always had a fancy for modeling Had always had lumps of clay lying about within reach He pulled out all the sketches of his son from the old portfolio Spread them before him on the table And began Paris, 1918 Sainte-Brice Souffleuré, 1922 The End End of Chapter 36 Recording by Riley McGuire End of A Sun at the Front by Edith Wharton