 Yeah, I got the truck camping accessories all ready to go cooler waiters camping gear All the good stuff I showed you in one of those videos as it turns out bad weather thunderstorms coming through Nasty cold front. Well, what did I decide to do? I decided to go up north up north of the wall into, Oklahoma And do some trout fishing so right now you and I are going to investigate the waters and see how they look I see a duck flying Look at that sucker go Off into the distance he goes boy. It looks like some flow Hello flow Progressive you're here nice to meet you Flow and muddy water that's not what we want to see quite honestly Putting them in the box Little sort that's This water so muddy. This is not the jam That was a trot. I would this is like last time I was here the second day It's terrible. Oh my gosh. There's ice It's ice on my guides What am I doing here? Okay, okay, okay pause it right there. That was me about eight hours ago Attempting to make a trout fishing video. I was wanting to go back. I know a lot of you watch the trout fishing video You like the camping and everything and I've been all set It's been on my mind to go back there But this is also the day after getting back from seeing the brain surgeon Obviously, you know what I'm about to get into but for me getting just back from the doctor This is an escape for me to just go out and this is my mechanism whenever I have issues I go into the outdoors. I'm like an outdoor hermit And it gets things off my mind except this thing. I can't really get off my mind loaded up with lures I'm giving it a dangle. I'm enjoying the river I'm enjoying just being out there. I'm camping. I'm doing all these things making delicious coffee and I'm doing everything I can To try to get what is going on off my mind, but I started getting phone calls and texts About this this issue that I'm having and some other issues that are going on and Suddenly I realized like I'm basically just out here trying to Not really go through the motions But I'm trying to make a video and I'm not I'm not myself at this moment And I never want to not be myself on video And just go out there just just to just to make videos and put them up you know the reason I make Fishing videos and all these videos that I do is to When I get excited about something I want to share that and I want others to get Inspired to go do it or help others and I enjoy it myself I want to share that experience just being out of meet-up a few meet-ups meeting people Hands down. Hey, I watched one of your videos. I got excited to go out there and do this It's changed changed my life or I got back into this after not fishing for 20 years and man I'm so happy right now and hey, I'm using this to cope with this and it just it helps me out so much that Is it might be my life's purpose? So I don't know how many of you watch the lake life family channel But recently we had a video where I went to the doctor vlog the experience and then we found out that Willis is back He is growing so if you haven't watched that video you can go check it out But I'm here to tell the rest of you Willis. Well, he never really left It's just he's like Respond and started growing again And I think I always knew that that was going to happen and I was gonna have to deal with it I just wasn't ready to do it this soon I have to go get my checkups every few months and then hey no growth Okay, we'll deal with it. You know five ten years down the road if something happens, whatever But the reality is it's here right and now and I have to deal with it right here and now and what I realized Be out there in the outdoors Even though I was escaping it's like I Don't need to be here right now. I need to be back home. I need to be with the family I need to be with my girls and Resolving this issue and kind of talking this out a little bit more because Literally, I just got back to the doctor and I'm like, okay got brain tumor growing. All right I guess I'm going in the outdoors mom. So as OSG my wife Stephanie was calling me texting me and relaying information about you know insurance and doctors appointments and all these things I just decided I needed to come home and deal with it. The fishing was not good I would have been out there all day trying to just catch fish and I realized it was it was just me Excaping really it was terrible conditions of 28 degrees. I mean snow was falling It's just one of those days where you know, I don't need to be here. It was like God was telling me You don't need to be here. You need to be dealing with this situation and kind of resolving what is going on with the fam And now I'm here to relay more information Intel to you guys and resolve this so I can go back into the outdoors with a clean conscious of okay I have vented. I've talked about it. I've dealt with the situation And and move on so for those of you that are just tuning in This is like one of your first videos watching me or you've been here for a little bit You've seen some fishing action or some outdoor action hunting whatever and they're like whoa this guy's a tumor What's going on? I had a tumor back. This was a year and a few months ago I had surgery on a tumor named Willis and it was around five centimeters Wide if I remember correctly and the doctor reminded me of this, you know five centimeters wide pretty good size, but then Imagine the circumference of that all the way around. I don't know how big a golf ball is But you know probably around ping pong or golf ball size. That's actually not a huge tumor There's there's a lot of people that have like base ball size tumors Somehow your body absorbs that your brain like absorbs it and you don't realize the growth because it's just slow and Your body just gets used to it over time and my case I found out because it was bumping into some important wires in there The crotted artery and the optic nerve the reason I named the tumor Willis was because of the bundle of nerves It was around it was called. I think the bundle of Willis or it had something to do with Willis anyway, so there's a lot of important circuits there It's kind of attached like a tick to My carotid artery which is the main artery going up and down all the way, you know through your spine into your brain And it's one of the most important not it probably the most important artery in your body So when pressure starts forming on that carotid artery you can have stroke. Thank God I was just having the The headaches and the extreme I mean the extreme and you guys I documented it But but a stroke happens when your arteries cut off your brain's not getting enough oxygen and then starts starving and anyway That's a real thing could happen. So thankfully through all of your support amazing doctors great people in the hospital system With all sorts of other issues with insurance and the whole the buckle I was able to have brain surgery get Willis not removed But reduced dramatically can't really give an exact measurement. They're really looking at MRIs and then using these all these great digital tools that they have to the digitally Measure it's crazy the technology. They have so but it's just enough to know. Oh, yeah, it's growing. So Problem so will this went down to about a quarter in size Which is livable? Definitely you can live with that size to bring your brain your whole life You never even know problem is when it starts bumping into things growing into things that shouldn't That's where you really start having issues. So for me. That's the carotid artery It's on my left side behind my eye currently it is about four millimeters away from my Optic nerve before it was actually pressing on the optic nerve. That's why I was having just my eyesight was off For about eight months, and I didn't really know why I've always had really great vision when that pressure came off my optic nerve My vision came back, you know, it's better the part that is on the carotid artery. It's never gonna go away That's why you can't touch it. It's just one of those things. You can't touch it no matter how good you are As brain surgeon you go in there and start fiddling around It's not like they fiddle around they take it very seriously and they're extremely good, especially My doctor dr. Kim However, you just can't touch it. It's too dangerous. So that has to stay and then Branching off it was bumping into my optic nerve. So treatment-wise they want me to go ahead and Schedule a treatment. It is called gamma knife Radiation and it's amazing technology. I believe this is correct GPS coordinates I remember thinking when I heard this out of the surgeon's mouth, I was like, he's just saying GPS because you know I did with GPS all the time but GPS coordinates of basically think of your your head as a Earth a globe and then it is putting precision coordinates where the tumor is and then attacking it with Multiple laser beams of radiation. I shouldn't say laser beams. It sounds bad multiple beams of radiation I think up to like 190 beams of of light radiation Not like right. I mean like light radiation radioactive and then going in and Then when it hits the spot all together, I mean, I wish I could form like a like a you know graphic of this But then it becomes concentrated when it all hits that center target then Taking effect, but it's not immediate. Honestly, I still have to do my research on Radiation treatment, but for anyone out there that's wondering what radiation treatments used for it's basically to kill anything You know, they use it in cancer treatments all the time I don't know how long this gamma knife procedure has been around, but it's used to kill The tumor and shrink it basically and prevent it from growing any more radiation in your body never did the problem with being a young younger person and using radio Radio treatment it goes into your body kills the cells kills pretty much everything but then Morphing can happen later if that makes sense like teenage mutant Ninja Turtles, you know when they got in that green sauce Not immediately over over time Cancer advances and all that's the only thing that scares me about this is I don't think there's any long term Research on on this thing. So it's like, yeah, we kill your tube now, but hey my good cancer 20 years and great Yeah, like no one really knows, but it is definitely different Then other forms of radiation like people with pancreatic cancer Take and then like you're personally radioactive like you can't be around small children babies like probably cats or anything I just use cat as an example. I probably have a dog. I won't have that issue but what they recommended is Definitely go in within 12 months get the procedure done more likely six You know just because if it grows outside of that area where it starts to bump up against the optic nerve then the radiation affects your optic nerve then, you know, you could lose vision and Where where else happens on your your eyeball nerve pretty important little little dangler there So that is basically what I know about the prognosis and the treatment and Basically trying to just relay that message to you guys the best I can And hopefully help someone out there my previous experience with this has definitely helped people in fact I know one person for sure that got diagnosed because of the same symptoms and went to the same doctor and had the same treatment and Maybe even saved their life phishings awesome phishings, you know, that's that's how I've Made it into the outdoor career that I have if you want to call it that but being able to share information On this platform that could potentially help someone else. I believe that is even more important I feel like I'm a steward of these of these Terrible health stories and what I was feeling today was I want to be over it Like I was already over the tumor the Willis. I was already over it now. We're here again guys So it's time to do battle once again. One more thing about the treatment. Well, it's crazy I mean, you know, yeah, you think you're gonna be like in the hospital for a while No, it's it's just a one like you're there all day from what I know of And then you can go home outpatient procedure have to do my research But I think the radiation doesn't take effect for quite a long time like many months maybe a year So my fellow phishing freaks and anyone else here. I started today's video thinking I'm gonna go catch some trout. I'm gonna fill up the cooler and I'm gonna go home My mom really wanted some trout family wanted some trout and I'm gonna do this outdoor video. I got out there conditions were terrible phishing sucked home life was calling and I Believe that is the most important thing is taking care of a family family first got to tell you without without her I would be lost especially in these situations sort of shut things off and that does my problem that I'm getting back to today I just went in the outdoors and I was struggling Dealing with having to do this all over again. The lady upstairs Taking care of baby emi right now She also takes care of me quite a bit more than you guys see on camera and not that I'm Not that I'm like handicap. She might think otherwise sometimes, but just things around the household Think other things with business taking care of the family. She's there. She's there She's the rock at home. So now we have gone to battle stations to deal with the issue Stephanie again She is scheduling out appointments surgeries and talking to different insurances currently we don't have Coverage on that we should we're trying to get an exemption, but I will keep you guys abreast of that I think I've updated you on everything. I possibly can about Willis officially back You know 2.0. It's like a shriveled little like a like a Voldemort, you know like an Harry Potter when he comes back For like one of the first ones. He's he's like, you know, it's like trying to go back But he's like struggling like doing everything you can but you know We all know what happens in the end one more thing on a personal note that I'll add Meeting some of you at these meetups and then you say like man I've watched your story with the brain tumor thing. You're like, how'd you keep a good attitude through that? Well faith Just positivity family like just just putting a smile on and just going for it Honestly, like you can really choose to deal with it in two different ways You can get down you can get depressed and then it causes even even more issues You can like kind of feel sorry for yourself or you can just attack it be positive. I think that's a better approach personally Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for all your support guys I will keep you updated as as we learn more, but here we are again 2019 outdoor season dealing with Willis Hopefully he will be shriveled gone dead over the summer and never to be found again And that is all I have for you today. What a doozy, but I do hope wherever you are You're having a blessed day in the outdoors or maybe it's freezing cold You're inside spending some time with family good should cherish it most important thing in life your family I love you guys and I will see you on the next one