 As long as you have 100 million different purposes, you're going to see a very wobbly, discombobulated world of victims and victimizers and pain and pleasure, duality. But, as you start following this single purpose, your judgments of the world will fade away, because the duality literally doesn't exist on the screen. The duality is the split in the mind between the right mind and the wrong mind. So, every time, that's the way that the mind dealt with the split. I mean, if you come back to the metaphysics, I would imagine that in the kingdom of heaven the mind is whole, singular as one. It has nothing but integrity and union. And once it believes in this crazy idea of the ego, now there are two completely irreconcilable thoughts of the Holy Spirit's thought system of love and the ego's thought system of fear, and they're in the same mind. This mind is used to union. Now it's got two completely... there's not one single point where the Holy Spirit's thought system touches the ego. They're completely unlike each other in every way. So the mind can't stand this, so what does it do? It projects it out onto the world. That's where the world of duality came from. That's why we've got hot and cold and fast and slow and big and little and male and female and high and low. I mean, it could go on forever. The world seems to be a world of duality and extremes. And really, what it comes down to is when you can pull it back and you can start to see that the conflict is just within my wrong mind, that the conflict just comes about when I'm trying to hold on to the ego's thought system, then you don't project. Then there's no longer a need to project. You can let go of the ego. So let's take a... we can get into real theoretical stuff here. Let's bring it back to a real concrete example, because we need to keep doing that so we can be clear. I had an experience a while back where I had agreements and I wouldn't let go of it. And if I had this inner dialogue where it's like, you're gonna let go of this, you know, no. And you've always had the past, you know, no, you know, I couldn't. So I'm doing this with it and then it just came like that. Because it's grievance is my identity. You know, I'm this, I'm not that. You say this was one of that, I'm this. It happened to me yesterday. And it was like, I was like, whoa, it's been real sticky for me for a while. Yeah, once I start thinking that I've got it all set, well, I get it. Wonder why I'm depressed while I'm doing it. If you think that's the key chord is identity. I mean, that's what it really comes down to. But I've noticed all these years, every time I've had an upset, if I really sat down and gone with it, it's been my identity, you know, my identity attachment to being an intellectual, you know, my identity attachment to being a Cincinnati Redsman. Or being a good parent. Yeah, parents, brothers, this family kind of thing. I mean, identity attachments to maleness and females, you know, that's you could do a whole workshop on a male female, seeming struggles and everything, you know, the whole thing about equality. And what we do is we're still looking for solutions, again, out in the world of form and equal pay and quotas and everything. When really the solution comes from a whole different perception of the whole world. You can see where, as long as we're, as long as we believe there's this conflict going on out in the world, whether it's abortion or gun control, or, you know, the male female thing, or, I mean, just pick one of zillion issues. Those are all ego-distracted devices. The ego is saying, take a side, take one side, good. Soon as you're on one side, then you can be against the other side. You see how, like you're saying with identity attachments, as soon as it's me, this identity person against you, that other person, you know, it's important to be right. It's important to, you know, hold on. As long as I'm into that image, defending that image of who I think I am, it's painful. I mean, that's where the grievance comes in. Just think it would quit doing that. Think of how many talk shows we had of business. The world is bad business. Literally. I can, you know, there's so many things that, theoretically, I can really understand. And, but then, you know, at times when you think of the real application, I sort of drift in and out, you know, it seems like some days I, you know, as far as, you know, as far as forgiveness and everything, you know, I can, I can do that or I can understand it. And then when you get down to judgment and you think if you can't judge anything, it almost seems like it can't roll in there. I mean, you can't even be alive because you have to judge. You know, how do you just do away with all of it? You know, I mean, it's not just a decision to do away with business. I mean, there will be some way to apply. Yeah. Let's address that one part of your question where, you know, how do you live or how do you survive? I mean, that was my thing, was that as I went along and started really funding and the course and meditation and everything, you know, I was, I had some moments of fear because I was getting guidance, like one point I got guidance in line with the whole career thing was, was, for example, to delete my resume. Well, my resume was my security. My resume was my past, my image. You know, literally, it was kind of like, you know, and take it off the word processor. I spent 10 years of building that up, all the workshops, all the grade point editors, da, da, da, da. But, you know, I could tell at that point in my life that it was one of those trust issues things too that I didn't know. I mean, I had to trust that there was something greater than me that was going to run the show that literally would be able to judge through me and be able to tell me where to go, who to see, you know, literally be able to more and more even speak through me. But I had to trust that there was something else because otherwise that's my security, you know. If we give up our, our judgments, we believe that those, that's, that's what keeps us going in this world is, is our good judgment. That's why we go for more education. That's why we keep going for retraining and that's why we constantly watch the news, keep up with this, whoa, gotta move my house. Oh, gotta move to a better neighborhood because the crime's starting to grow over here. Oh, gambling on the river now. Let's move out. You know, that our judgment is always, the ego's judgment is always trying to say, change something on the screen to make it safer. And the Holy Spirit is just saying, trust me, you know, I'll guide you. You're in a maze, but every time you come to a turn, you gotta turn left or right. I'll be there. I'll tell you, go left here. Go right. Go left. You literally, I mean, that's how I feel in my life. It's like it's, it's, I've gotten specific kinds of guidances that when I've let go of all my investment on how it should go, something real clear has come through. And, and that's the only way that we can really go and follow the course is to really trust that that's there. The Holy Spirit, Jesus says, is evaluative. In other words, the Holy Spirit does, does judge for us while we believe we're here in the world. There are definitely, as long as you believe you're here in the world, there are definitely decisions to be made. There's no way. And usually lots of them. And so he's just, he's not kind of saying, go blank. You know, he's kind of saying, hold on to my purpose. Remember that your function is forgiveness. Try to, in every encounter, try to hold on to that. The reason I'm here at the laundry is for forgiveness. Clothes will get washed, but holy encounters, forgiveness is my purpose. The reason I'm here at the restaurant, here comes the waitress over, is for forgiveness. Is to really look at the, you know, waitress in the eye and to really connect. And yes, they'll still get food will be eaten, waitresses get tipped. You know, even when I go to my job, it doesn't matter what the job is. You know, what's my purpose? You know, am I a data processor? Forgiveness, my function is forgiveness. And you can tell that, that there's conflict that goes on in the mind, because the next thing that ego used to come up with, well, I work at such and such a job. You know, here, I'm different from most people. I've got a job where I get, I'm a manager. I gotta judge people. You know, the Holy Spirit takes us right where we are. You know, he doesn't say we have to go sit under the Eucalyptus tree for enlightenment. This is a course that's very practical. And wherever you seem to be, whatever your job situation, relationship situation, you know, if you just make a commitment, make a determination, that I'm going to turn my life over to you. I'm going to hold on to this purpose of forgiveness. You know, hold on to this purpose of healing. That will have immediate changes. I noticed when I first started doing it in the grocery store, that my whole agenda, I noticed they had a whole agenda of how I could quickly, how time was a big factor, price. You know, all these things that you see, you've got a whole little script, grocery store scenario. And Jesus is kind of saying, just hold it off there to the side. That's right. Forgiveness. It's really simple. It doesn't seem that way at times, because when you're starting off, once again, you have all these functions. You split your whole life into all these functions. But if you'll just practice with holding, you know, that one function, it'll start to grow and gain momentum. And then the more it happens, I mean, it's an adventure of a lifetime. I'll guarantee it when you start to follow that. I said, theoretically, again, I can follow all that. But then how do you apply, I mean, I can see how you apply forgiveness in a grocery store. You have to put, if you're standing in a long line, and you don't become impatient, you just, you know, forgiveness. But what does it have to do? How do you apply forgiveness as far as the fact that you have to chew, you have to know prices, and you have to chew, or get what you said. Contactor, how do you get in there? Yeah, how specifically, how does forgiveness come into play in that everyday situation, where you're not actually confronting someone who you're projecting on. These are items, or this is, these are just situational, you know. Yeah, if you run it down to the mind, like, suppose you have a real, suppose you're a real good bargain hunter, and you can price, we'll say, you know, to use a specific example. If you really get down to what's behind that a lot of times, if you really follow way down into the mind, there's the scarcity principle. What's the big deal of pricing, and if you believe you're, you're the holy Christ, and you're abundant, and you have everything, well, pricing kind of fades away, you know, as important. But you can see how the belief in scarcity is down there. That's something in your mind that has to be looked at. Green paper strips went, green paper strips came, you know, that's what Jesus calls money, and of course, you know, it's like the thing about, he's pretty candle, seems big time down here, and he calls it green paper strips. No metal disc, but you can see how when you really, when you get into the flow of it, to just hold on to forgiveness, yes, what's my function, what's my purpose, then that helps, everything kind of just comes, and the pieces of the puzzle just come together. So, you know, that's what makes it flow. And there's another part in the workbook where Jesus says that your happiness and your function are one. That by holding on to the Holy Spirit's purpose, and remembering your function, you will be indescribably happy, you know. Now that's not what the ego believes. The ego believes that if I get this better relationship, if I get this better job, if I get to live in a better place, you know, if I get my body built up better, if my carcass, my cholesterol level goes down, one of the things that I'll be happy, and the Course makes it so simple, it just says your happiness comes from filling your function, you know. That makes it simple. Now the ego will once again say, you don't want to do God's will, you know, because you'll, the ego tells us that God's will is pain and suffering, because it believes that God is a God, a vengeful God. And so it teaches us that if I do God's will, I'm going to have to sacrifice things. I'm going to have to, you know, you're really going to have to sacrifice. And it really is the flip side. Doesn't it make sense that if the Holy Spirit is going to use all the skills and everything we have in this world that he would, he would just translate our perception and just use our skills and abilities in a way that would be most helpful? It's not a matter of, you know, well, I learned how to drive a car. Now I'm going to have to unlearn how to drive a car, unlearn how to grocery shop in. It's not that he's going to take away the skills that we learn, but he's just going to, he's saying, give them to me. Give your skills to me. Give, if you have speaking ability, if you have writing ability, if you have artistic ability, you know, whatever the abilities may be, you know, if you, if you just shift purposes and get into the Holy Spirit, then it'll make you indescribable. And to me, that makes a lot of sense.