 So I was making this cute little get ready to go to the hospital with me video where I was gonna pack, show you what I bring to the hospital. Let's pack my bag for the hospital, but I can't do this, but I have to, and I'm going to. I do not have it in me to undergo another major f***ing painful surgery where there is a chance, like a decent chance it'll make things better, but there's also a chance it can make things worse long term, but there's like no other feasible option. And the amount of stuck and powerless and really scared that that makes me, it sucks. This is not what I want for my life, but this is what life is right now. So I'm gonna be upset and angry and scared and deal with those emotions and also get it done. I've done it before, I can do it again. Not alone, I have a lot of support. Scared as s***, trust my doctors. So let's get it done. See you on the other side, guys.