 Hey, yo, what's happening? It's your boy Nick Shay coming back with a new video today. We're gonna be talking. I'm just kidding guys Today is not, you know more video as you can tell by the title It's something I kind of just want to get off my chest and something I've been dealing with over the past few weeks in the past few days when I've realized that like I'm burning out and it kind of hit me when I realized that like the quality of my content was suffering and the Consistency that I've been uploading wasn't so much like what I wanted to be doing and so I will get into that much later But first off I just want to say a huge. Thank you for 40,000 subscribers. That is an absolutely insane number to me I started this channel just about a year ago at this time just making vlogs making, you know Videos to you know capture some memories and relive and look back on and purely for fun purely for me My friends it was never to you know grow this big channel or make money or anything like that So I'm super thankful and very honored and humbled and everything to have your support and for my og day ones Like you guys know where I've started like you guys have seen this progression of the channel grow And I'm always thankful for the people who have stuck with me since my first day of starting this whole thing Almost a year ago today like I've probably uploaded I think at least over a hundred hundred fifty videos Minimum because I was just so focused on pumping out content and delivering stuff to you guys that I thought that you guys Wanted to see and of course that's the whole reason of having YouTube channel is to make content for you guys But the more I started doing it the more I realized You know the point I'm at now is I Just kind of like offside of like what I want and why I'm doing it and the whole reason I started this whole YouTube journey and you know looking back at my old vlogs and just reminiscing on like how fun they were to make Compared to now where I feel like it's almost like a chore or like oh crap I didn't put out a video today like puts a lot of stress and a lot of burden on me Which you guys don't realize at all But you know when I'm like not uploading on Monday Wednesday Friday. I'm like crap I need to do something I need I just put something out there and that is where it gets to the point Where the quality of my content starts to suffer because I'm just so focused on like putting out a video that I don't put thought I don't put effort in like you guys don't want to see that and I don't want to make that So I mean the whole point of this kind of thing is I need a break Burnout is a hundred percent real right now. I've lost all my creative Juices and like I just feel like my battery is completely drained and I need some time to recharge and you know being home for the holidays It's obviously very important and spending time with my family and friends is you know something I really want to prioritize this next few weeks before I have to go back to school That being said that doesn't mean I'm permanently not making videos I think this week off will just give me some time to really reflect on what 2019 has in store and you know plan out a lot Of different ideas that I want to develop not only for this channel But you know just for my own personal growth my Princeton academic career and a lot of other things I just need time to like sort out and figure out so I hope you guys will understand I really do appreciate the support you know a week or a week and a half you guys gonna miss me so much But if you are new to the channel and you haven't looked at my old videos I mean this now is a perfect time to just start binge watching them if you haven't already and as far as the topic of burning out And how to get over burning out I mean I really don't know the answer like that's kind of like what I'm on a quest to find right now But I mean you talk to any creator content creator influencer photographer any really creative person who makes content for a living and Does it continuously like burning out is you know it it happens to all of us it and in complete honesty It may be good for us because right now like I I've lost sight of like what I need to be doing or how I'm gonna make better Content or make better videos and the stuff I've been doing is just the same thing over and over You know I think 2018 was a great year for me to just dip my toes into the water figure out a workflow figure out This is viable to do with you know a whole fucking Princeton degree also But 2019 is about to be on another level like a hundred percent all in it's go time So you know so taking some time awful just give me some headspace to you know figure out some more ideas Recharge my creative juices and get back to creating cool shit. I truly with all my heart appreciate the support I love reading your guys comments. They literally make my day and seeing you guys just like being inspired and motivated and Appreciate the content that I'm making just pushes me to you know, keep striving keep moving forward Merry Christmas. Happy holidays. Happy New Year's because I sadly won't be making any videos I will be active on Instagram. So go hang out with me down there and yeah, I think that's about it I know this break is weird for me too Like I'm gonna be trying to not even look at my YouTube studio app not look at the analytics and force myself to just Really decompress and take a step back from all this because it has been really taking a toll Not only on my mental health, but like my physical and you know emotional health as well So it's gonna be good for all of us and so yeah, I mean I will see you guys in 2019 as always don't stress finesse