 For my brain to just believe that what it's experiencing is okay is a really unusual experience for me because I've been told my entire life that my experiences are not normal. And I don't want to be typical, but I would like to be accepted and part of the tribe and have that emotional experience of people thinking that my experience is okay. And I don't like being singled out as the different one in a group, all the time, which still happens. You love it? Yeah, I'm fine with that. I'm a bit of an attention whore. I love it. So I'll take that. But no, I agree with you. I think there's a lot of expectations that people pour on you. And there's sometimes just the most bizarre things, like if you don't have a car and you don't drive to work every morning and do a nine to five job and come home and relax and do something relaxing or wake up and go to the gym in the morning, it's like anything else or I'll have a house and have independent living and all of those kind of things. If you don't have all of those separate aspects and you don't go out socializing, you don't have all these these crazy, very restrictive like life norms that people identify with, they ultimately always like label you as either not achieving or doing too much. And I had these these situations many times in my life, because people around me would be like, you need to take it easy on yourself. You're having a tough time. Like, you know, if I'm going through something, or even just in general, like you are a workaholic and you do do all these stuff all the time. Like, you need to take a break, you need to step back, you know, the therapist might say that every time without fault, every time I do that, I always feel worse, always feel dysregulated. Like, it's funny to me because I'm typically not like I don't really fit anywhere in those kind of norms that people have. You know, I if I'm able to I will wake up midday and work into that and work and do my things up until, you know, perhaps a bit later in the evening or early in the morning. I'm very happy with that. That works for me totally. I'm happy to work all day. I'm happy to do my social media stuff when I'm in bed. I'm happy to get up and do podcasts now and again. I love all of that stuff that works that works for me. But it's not what people kind of want to to push on me those those expectations like, me, you know, maybe I don't want to drive everywhere. Maybe I want to get a train or a bus or, you know, even things around food. Maybe look, it's probably not the ideal, but you know, I don't want to be cooking and meal prepping and stuff. I'm happy just to have basic kind of healthy microwave meals I can have in the evening, protein shakes, lots of very, very healthy snacks and fruit. I'm good with that. That works for me. Or even going so far as interests, like most of my interests are productivity related, like to do work or to do the gym or watching YouTube videos. Those are all things that make me feel whole, make me feel good, but they're not typically things that kind of fit into this very, what do you say, distinct idea for what an adult life should be like. But then ironically, we have all of these novels and movies about people who are living their boring normal life and then have some big weird experience, right? Either it's a midlife crisis or like realize that they're miserable. So I don't even, like what you're just, I totally get what you're saying about, you know, this is the life that we're expecting to have. And yeah, like we're told that that's good. But then we have this media about how eventually you're going to get tired and you want to go pursue an interest. News articles about how people are depressed with life and they have this kind of capitalist it's not working productivity related system. And it's so restrictive. And like, we'll just don't do that. Like try not to find something that's not like that. And like, but it's so socially reinforced as well. Like people, I think we're talking about it on your podcast that kind of people very much reinforce this particular way of being and if you deviate in any way from what they think an adult should be like, they're very quick to just make like little jokes, like little necks now and again, they'll just kind of poke you, you know, and people do it to me. Even though I achieve and lots of lots of different areas of my life, people still make those comments. It's quite bizarre sometimes. You kind of just want to be like, shake them and say like, you don't need to fulfill all of these things to be an adult. Hey, YouTube, hope you have enjoyed this podcast clip so far. And if you have, why not check out the full episode which you can find on my YouTube channel or on other streaming services like Google, Apple, Spotify, you can find it pretty much anywhere you want to. If you have enjoyed this, make sure to like, subscribe, drop a comment down below. Even if it's something simple like sending me a heart or an emoji, it really, really does help me with the algorithm. All of my links to my socials like my daily Instagram blog posts are down in the description. But other than that, I hope you enjoy the rest of this clip. You don't need to like daytime, not daytime telly, reality TV shows. And I really love scrolling on Instagram and TikTok and just doing all of the things that most people do that you don't need to have those interests. You can be interested in Nintendo, Nintendo Game Boy games and love playing that or Pokemon or Dungeons and Dragons or Warhammer or, I'm listing off very stereotypically geeky nerdy things. But it could be like fresh metal. You could love just going to raves on your own and having a dance. It's like they want to fulfill these social expectations to be accepted, but then they're not happy with their lives. They're like, why do I feel happy? It's because you're not following what you're interested in and what you want to do and what you want your life to look like. I feel like that's one of my main messages for all the stuff I make, all the content I make is just do what you want because if you can be happy, if you can feel good day to day and feel okay, a lot of the anxiety that I had was about feeling that I was making the wrong choices, that the things I was doing with my time were not the correct things and that they were not moving my life in the right direction. And as soon as I just decided to ignore, I mean, not that the anxiety disappeared in that moment, but when I realized, oh, this is not intrinsic to me. This is being put on me by outside forces and that's not cool and I don't want that. So being able to just be like, okay, I'll do what I want. It can often be people that want the best from you as well and the neurotypicals, then they just want you to succeed and they want you to feel good, but they don't really get it. They don't really get what it's like to be you. It's one of those difficult situations where you might have to go against what people tell you is best for you, even close ones and people that you care about. I had situations perhaps when I was just starting off making YouTube videos that my dad was like, why are you doing this? Why are you spending all your time on this? You should be going and having a job or you should be doing this and that and I'm like, well, I like doing this and this is going to be, I'm going to grow it and I did and I have grown it to a point where it's enviable to a lot of people that I meet and now my dad's like, oh, hey, this is great. You're doing amazing and I'm like, yeah, I know. I know that exact experience. Yeah. Well, you should have listened to me about this.