 It is 12 16 p.m. on Sunday the 30th of January. I have decided not to do any YouTube today. What does that mean? I'm not editing or filming for YouTube today. I am not going to write the weekly Facebook posts for social media. Obviously I'm doing this little film clip but I'm doing what I need to for my mental health and well-being and it's Sunday and I'm taking the day off. I just finished a book by one of my favorite authors that I've actually read before but I checked it out from the library. J.R. Ward is the chosen. I like her books. She's a favorite author. So anyway I'm going to do a little sketching. I'll be sharing the pictures later first with the patrons and supporters. They get an advanced preview of the work and I think the husband's watching football later. I don't know if we'll have time to go walking as if you heard the rumbling in the background that was his barracuda and he is fiddling with the car. It's needed a little bit of work done to it and he's doing that and you know what I'm gonna let him. So anyway that's it for the minute. Something just fell down. I'll be the rumbling from downstairs made the pin cushion fall off that was up here and it hit this which had two beads in it which fell down. So yeah uh yeah coming. Good morning everybody at least I think it's still morning yeah 11 a.m. Monday January 31st. I only know that because I looked at the computer. I've been editing for a little while now the vlog from last week and it is loading to YouTube as we speak. So we talked about my mental health situation we are going to be talking about that in the next few consecutive hours probably it's going to be coming up. So if you don't want to hear about it you might want to skip them for a while. Anyway I am thinking of doing something draft today and deactivating most of the listings in my Etsy shop except the digital ones and filling up a bunch of purge boxes because there's merchandise in the store that has been in there for quite a while but hasn't moved and or have original artwork and other things they just need to move on to a new home and then to be honest I need to raise funds. I'm not the only Etsy seller that's noticed that like sales have died with the pandemic and you know I probably don't do the best job advertising the fact that I am a rubber stamp and stencil designer and all of that stuff so that may be something I work on today we'll see I'll be back. So I got about an hour of quiet just reading time in uh after I got all of my Monday work done uh I already sold two of the purge boxes on Etsy. Thank you Donna and um so we're gonna go for a walk and go walk by the mailbox and drop those off and uh yeah go get some steps in and some fresh air I haven't done that in a few days so yeah kind of miss it. All right I'll be back. Good afternoon everybody it is Tuesday February 1st it's 12 o'clock just after 12 I think it's like 12 or 9 or 12 10. I have a vlog yet this morning because it's just been a busy morning um our friend and cleaning lady Letty is here helping us get the house cleaned up um making arrangements for somebody to pick my dad up at the airport tomorrow because I am as you all know on new medication and until I really get used to it I probably ought not to be driving too much um until my body adjusts and I'm no longer dizzy or loosey or yeah any of those things anyway so Becca I think is going to get him and um sorry hands are very full oh and I'm dropping me a little over making arrangements for my telehealth appointments I have one tomorrow two on Friday it's just gonna you know I just want a week can I have a week without any of that without my anxiety anyway I have been doing some sketching I haven't had the camera on the phone on but I do think I'm going to turn it on for you a little bit here for the vlog so you can see me do something other than complain because yeah that's a thing anyway I'll be back did I vlog yesterday because I don't even know I think I did it's Wednesday morning it's just after 10 a.m. Wednesday February 2nd um health update we'll do that first so I have been on the antidepressants and the mild sedatives for about a week I don't take the sedative every day um only as needed when I feel like I'm having a panic attack uh so I've taken it three times in the last week when I take both together I get an upset stomach and some lower GI issues that's all I'll say about that um nothing I can't handle but yeah um just on the antidepressant I've only been a week um I feel mildly better the family is already noticing a difference so I think that's a good thing I had a telehealth visit this morning early with my doctor to go for some labs everything's good um I need to make a six-week follow-up check-up to talk to him about how I'm feeling on the antidepressants and I'm probably due for a bone scan you know nothing super scary and then of course I've got the annual colonoscopy coming up that's a scary one so you know it is what it is but I'm going to take it one day at a time um my dad comes back from California today because I am on new medication and I'm not super comfortable yet driving my daughter's going to pick him up at the airport and bring him here to get his car we'll visit for a little bit and then he'll probably head home um so that's all happening this afternoon after lunch in the meantime I think I'm going to try to film mission inspiration because I am behind again or it's only February 2nd I'm behind already anyway hey guys good morning it is what time is it 10 46 a.m. Thursday February 3rd um yeah there's anyway I am getting some patron and supporter mail snail mail together to send out today or tomorrow I'm going to sit and hand write cards to each of them um while I have some youtube playing in the background yes I said each of them um and I have a couple of paperwork things on my desk I've got to take care of have to make sure I'm ready for my virtual doctor visits and council visits tomorrow those are all tomorrow um there's always chores to do and yeah otherwise it's a decently quiet day which is okay because again I have visits tomorrow which means my anxiety is like like anyway um things are going okay though decently well getting used to the new medications and all of that stuff so anyway yeah I need to do these if you want occasional snail mail from me um or special content access to the private patron and supporter channel on youtube um or any of that stuff previews of drawings and things I've done then join my patreon um the link is in the link tree list of links uh in the video description down below um we do have youtube membership here um they get some things for me too occasionally but less so than over on patreon it's easier if you don't for me if you join patreon so anyway uh check it out see what you think and yeah I'm gonna get that taken care of I'll be back since bob has his meeting tonight I'm gonna go out for a walk might need to put some classes on and maybe cloudy but it's a little bright anyway um I got another journal page done today and I got it filmed and I got it edited and it scheduled out on youtube that's the fifth one in two days which is pretty good I am having some annoying side effects of the cetraline and but they should resolve themselves in time which is annoying but what are you gonna do nothing serious just annoying ones anyway we're gonna go for a walk we're gonna get some steps in gonna see what I can see take some deep breaths I may take a few pictures but other than doing that I won't be turning devices on aka the phone um but yeah the february 4th 11 30 ish am today is a day brought to you by telehealth appointments so I had one already early this morning for some just routine stuff and then I have a counseling appointment at three o'clock for my anxiety and stuff so anyway I got some art done I got today's daily drawings and doodles done already um checked up on all the socials on the computer upstairs and all of that stuff doing you can hear that noise in the background working on laundry so now I'm trying to decide do I sit and read or do I go for a walk both would be good for my anxiety but I do have a couple of hours well three hours before my next appointment so I need to do something with myself I'll figure it out and I'll be back obviously we're going to go for a walk so I have an Etsy order that needs to go out well I could send it tomorrow but I'm going to send it today there's a mailbox not too far away it's on our regular routine walk anyway so I'm going to walk it over there and come back get some steps in get some fresh air it's in the high 30s though so it's cold so I'm going to put the phone away and we're going to go see what we can see and get some fresh air right all right I'll be out for an evening walk with the family after pizza and take okay and we are taking a dog for a walk poor Becca just had to pick up her business we're going to walk by the holiday house I'll show you guys they're all set up for Valentine's Day it's pretty cute they do I've said before they do all the holidays a bunny Easter is the bunny why can't it be a frog because you know Prince Charming and all you got to kiss the frog I don't know so even when even when it's simple it's still cute all right I better catch up with the family I think we're headed over towards the book box we have one of those little library box things in the neighborhood so yeah anyway it's Saturday morning February 5th it's about 8 30 in the morning we are headed over to cars and coffee I am on so I've been on the antidepressants for a week so it was time to double the dose it's normal consult your physician um so how am I feeling this morning my body's still not used to them yet so yes there are some side effects um it's box barracuda I'm feeling them but I'm okay so we are going to go out to cars and coffee then we'll come back drop the barracuda off and then we gotta go run errands we don't take the barracuda to go grocery shopping I don't think so I'll be back I think she's hungry I don't think she's going far all right we're gonna go run errands I'll be back got to close the vlog again so we as you saw if you're watching this clip we went to the car wash and we went for a drive we just went for a drive we went and got coffee we haven't done that in a while I'm feeling better I'm still feeling side effects from metamedication but it's it's doing good I've gotten five journal pages on this week I think I said that already um and I've got some stuff here next to me on the sofa I'm gonna work on tonight so I I'm feeling much better it's all good anyway if you're struggling don't be afraid to get help um that you need I'm talking to the camera yeah if you're struggling don't be afraid to get help to ask for help there's no shame in that all right I hope you're all having a great week don't forget to like share and subscribe check out the video description for relevant links ways to support the free content here on youtube maybe if you want the occasional mail from me handwritten notes some artwork some ephemera sign up for patreon so you know because that's a thing all right that's it for now go out and have a great day have a great week do something nice for yourself because you deserve it we're going to have dinner I'll see you next week bye guys