 Hello everybody welcome back. I've got my buddy Emmy here. Of course, my name is Bryce. This is Emmy I have to I was laughing with Emmy. I said this on Aquarius Rising Africa on Monday I see you guys know I'm in Florida right now and I'm kind of limited as to where I can film and I'm filming from the bed So I kind of look like a Victorian grandmother like in her bed her death bed right now But this is literally the only place I can film and I I do have a bra on so at least I have a bra on I Have to tell you guys sometimes the trolls are very annoying, but sometimes they make me laugh I think I also said this on Aquarius Rising Africa someone I filled with I had read a comment where somebody said that the person on screen Looks like a Victorian ghost child And so hopefully at least I don't look like a Victorian ghost child Oh No hard at that. I was like, I know that's a troll But that is I've never heard somebody like cut someone down by saying it looks like a Victorian ghost child Oh my gosh Have to use that because troll you're a total asshole, but that was funny So anyway guys Stephanie could not join us today as I blow my nose because she is Got a reading she got a client and so it's just in me and me today and I wanted to start this off We are going to be talking again about shadow work, but it's really important today because I Was just telling in me that we have over 200 people that I have since emailed a template for the 30-day challenge starting in November and That is unbelievable. I am so excited I've got a lot of you left me messages as I I've I got up at three o'clock this morning to start sending the emails out to people and You can still if you haven't emailed me yet you haven't till Monday So I'm still checking that account so I can continue to send the template away Once again, as I said before if you email that actual email shadow work challenge email Your name will go into a raffle for the end of the month to potentially win some prizes But if you do don't want to enter the raffle, but you do want to do the challenge Starting on Monday October 31st. I will be placing every day the day before the evening before I'll place the next day's challenge on my Community tab I sent a copy to Emmy as well and Stephanie Maybe they can post it on their community tab each day's to just to help you guys keep up with where we are in the challenge and What I wanted earlier this week I was telling Emmy and Emmy's got some incredible stories to share too But we talked a lot earlier this week about motivation and discipline and something I wanted to talk about again Is that I just the idea of discipline which leads to devotion which is your sadhana and something? I wanted to remind people especially if you're new to exercise Nobody likes exercise. Oh, I think I lost any Where'd she go? Can you hear me Emmy? It says you're still here. I Can I just have a child walking through my office? Damning powers that be Maybe maybe Emmy is the Victorian ghost child and she just left So I think a lot of people especially us in the West we're very lucky in the Western world because we live moderately Very comfortable lives, you know, and that's that that blessing isn't lost on me But I think sometimes we have this perception of other people that is not true And I think sometimes we think that we see a really fit person that they just must love Exercise well as somebody who is a really fit person who's been doing this for 16 years I'm gonna sit here and tell you I exercise six days a week probably five of those days I don't want to do it. I'm like, oh But my discipline I've gotten to the point of discipline and devotion of doing it because it needs to be done So I want you to understand like especially when it comes to the cardio portions Which even in yoga, there's little cardio when the heart rate starts to rise when the muscles start to burn Don't quit. You're not the only one feeling that even though the you know My dad used to laugh and say runners never smile Yeah, cuz they're it's uncomfortable They're not smiling. It's uncomfortable, you know, so so I just wanted to put that out there that don't and with that being said That should be liberating So when you're doing these exercises and you feel that sensation and your ego saying just stop to stop just stop Know that the you know, 200 other people around the world doing it with you are feeling the same sensation And I'm feeling the same sensation too And if you have to pull back a little bit pull back a little bit But don't give up and so Emmy I'm gonna let you since you've you've started the embarked on the new journey of ashtanga yoga So you're heading a whole new direction of pains and aches and New body-making old body-breaking Yes, yes ma'am Um Yes, I I'm grateful that I am doing the ashtanga in this stage of my growth and healing process Because I've had time to learn how to meditate Which there's a lot of misconceptions around meditation people get very very frustrated and they give up really quickly because I can't quiet my mind It's just racing. I can't do it. I can't do it The goal of meditation is not to quiet your mind the the goal is to observe Yes, so if you're mine if you've got monkey mind all of us get monkey mind even the ones who've done years and years of shadow work and Yoga everybody gets monkey mind. It's just part of being human The goal is to observe just look at it. Just witness it. Just be there be present So because I have that Established already When you're in the thick of it and yoga and you have sweat dripping in your eyes and off your chest and it's tickling you and Your muscles are burning and you're shaking and you just don't think that you can hold the pose for one more second And you're in ego like I want to quit. Oh, I don't want to do this anymore Be the observer. Okay. I'm observing myself saying I want to quit. I'm observing myself shaking I can't hold my leg up anymore. It's it's falling down I'm observing that I'm observing that I'm out of breath and that I'm sweating and that I want to give up and that this hurts I'm just observing that. Okay. Like it's a red ball on the floor. No judgment. No attachment. I'm just watching I'm just observing and When you can do the practice from that point of view, I see How it can become a meditative process, you know, I'm still very much in the intellectual phase of learning the flow learning the sequences So I'm not quite to that meditative state yet, but I have had periods and moments where I'm just in this other place and even though it's really difficult and really challenging and It's it's painful It's like I don't even know how to describe it. It's it's it's so amazing. It's otherworldly. It's very It's like a God moment and it's in it happens to everyone That's why I would ask on the yoga specifically now in a 30-day challenge I didn't put much yoga in but a little bit with the ashtanga nurse because you really do need a teacher because It's so funny. I mean there was a comment on the video the practice I did with you and Stephanie where you and Stephanie Allowed me to film you me teaching you and someone left a comment and I'm just paraphrasing I thought this is brilliant that this person's relatively fit But they tried it and their ego got an ass kicking because the practice challenged them in ways. They never been challenged yoga is going Traditional yoga proper yoga is going to challenge you in ways that the bar the kickboxing the other things aren't going to challenge you With that being said the bar the kickboxing everything else can be a model of the yoga practice and theory and that's what we're using in a challenge But that's why you I did very little yoga in this challenge because you need a teacher there to help you navigate Things because with the yoga also know the postures the way that they're Created and designed they're designed to be like a bulldozer and to dig deep within you and deeply pull out real It's it's cliche to say but you know a lot of spiritual practices will say your body is like an onion It's layered like your your emotions are layered, but it's true and with ashtanga Especially you'll get through the whole primary series, you know ten years down the road and you think you've conquered all these demons that you got And then you get to second series and it goes a little bit deeper and all of a sudden there they are again You know and so the practice is constantly bringing you back to review Your wounds and I'm gonna say this and I hope this makes sense The ego so it means right that ego is that voice saying oh just give up. This is painful. This is hard Well, why does the ego do that? Well, the ego is the part of you that will one day die Right that that ego will one day die with your body And so that's the part of you that fears death, but that ego is not the real you Does that make sense? And so that's why it doesn't want you. It's almost like that fear of not existing It's that fear of not being Who you think you are versus who you really are and so the exercise is my that's why I I I think it's one of the best modalities for anybody and really any exercise to really Explore themselves and emi's right and rom-doff says this all the time. I love the way rom-doff says that so let's say You're doing a kickboxing video or you're doing yoga or you're doing bar and all of a sudden you get to a certain pose or a Certain place in the exercise where you're triggered Where your ego is going? This is bullshit. I can't do this instead of buying into that narrative Observe it and be like well, that's interesting as rom-dos used to say just look and be like, huh? Well, isn't that interesting? That's how I reacted to this particular move Interesting and leave it at that. It's interesting because over time what's gonna happen and this is why I'm having you journal so much during this process and Amy is the rakey part of this. She can explain deeper. It's it's um The Saturdays in this challenge yourself study Saturdays the third Saturday is rakey You're gonna have to go research some rakey I've put a lot of in these videos up for you to watch to start to understand what this subtle body energy Actually is that that's really what's triggering a lot of stuff. Um, I Forgot where I was going with this Yeah, the energy that's movie when we're journaling what's gonna happen is with the exercises It's gonna the body. That's where I was going the body holds different pockets of information It's like your body is its own filing cabinet And so like we have like I remember now everything's computerized But I remember when I was a kid like my dad would have a desk and like one filing cabinet was for taxes another filing cabinet was our health reports another filing cabinets was this or that or business stuff and Your body does the same thing So like we know the chakras have different so there's different places where the body is gonna take in sensation take in memory and store it For you and so if there's a broken heart if there's something going on in the Mola Dara and something triggers that so opens That filing cabinet back up and pulls a file out for you to review That's where the journaling is gonna help you sort through this and figure things out about yourself And I tell my students a lot in my life students like in real life I tell them one of the hardest things about taking on a spiritual practice is Realizing the dark stuff about yourself the times when you're an asshole That you didn't even realize you were being an asshole because you're projecting your own pain that you didn't even realize was there because the Ego doesn't want to touch it. Does that make sense? Yeah, the ego to the ego is like I like to think of it as a Program a computer program. It's software. Yeah, and it's designed to gravitate toward pleasure and away from pain So when you're in the thick of your practice and it's hurting and your muscles are sore and they're shaking and your your ligaments feel tight And the tendons are burning and I mean I ended up with bruises on my shoulders I had these weird little cyst like bumps that would that came through they're gone now But they came through So the ego says, oh, this doesn't feel good. I Don't want to do this anymore. Please stop You know, so so you have to observe that Observe that like Brice said. Hmm. This is interesting and if you have an area of your body that is especially weak Or you have a lot of pain and you're going through these Asanas and postures It's important to understand what kinds of pain are okay to proceed with and what kinds you should pull back Like if you have any kind of really deep-seated pain in your joint Pull back a little bit if it's muscular or tendon or ligament and it's just burning and hurting and guys I have been so sore that I couldn't pick up a glass of water I've had to go like this to put my mascara on you know that that's not pain that you back away from you can still work Work through that and I've cried I've cried it hurts so bad But what that's telling you is that there is something stored in your tissues that you need to work through so I was journaling and Okay, I'm gonna give a little bit of a backstory so when I was I Don't even know between five and ten I had a traumatic experience with an irresponsible purchase that my dad had made He had taken the taxes and insurance money and bought this huge setup with a synthesizer and Speakers and all of this stuff So my mom then had to use bill money to pay the taxes and insurance because we were gonna lose our house They're gonna put they were gonna take the house and so we went without food and electricity for a time And so because I was in an impressionable age. I equated irresponsible spending with lack of basic human needs and And The shoulders symbolically and spiritually Can have stuff to do with your parents and when I was seven years old I was involved in an accident my mom was driving my sister and I were in the backseat I Was sleeping She got t-bone. She was turning the corner left at a red light. She got t-bone by someone who ran a red light We had minor injuries. I had a broken collarbone. I sustained the worst of the injuries. My mom and sister both had Cuts that they needed stitches for so we were we were very much protected and Shortly after that around that same time is when that happened with my dad So that experience and and all of that ended up in my shoulders and I've carried that my entire life And this is the first time in my healing journey that I have You know worked through this area and my physical body, you know, I've done a lot of work on resentments and that particular correlation between irresponsible spending and Going without basic human needs was something that came up in the resentment work that I did with the 12 steps, so this is another layer and it was just so incredibly profound having this stuff come up and having more insights come through and Just seeing the whole picture There's another thing that came through too We had a situation this past summer where we had someone staying at our house and They're not very healthy and they're an act of addiction and we're engaging in a lot of escapism and it was very very stressful for me because I Have worked so very hard to come out of codependent relationships And I didn't want to have I didn't want to be in a situation where I was allowing this Person to exhibit this behavior in my home. It was just it was so triggering But the reason why it was so triggering had nothing to do with the person which is what I thought I had to do with What I had to do with was my sister My sister died at the age of 29 from end stage liver disease from drinking and drugs she killed herself and I watched her die in a hospice house and It I was so helpless and powerless over this situation And I had no idea that the reason why I was so triggered when this person was living with us over the summer Had nothing to do with her had everything to do with my sister and that did not come out and I Was not able to address that or heal that until doing yoga Stuff is stored in our bodies. So now you know now I can go back and I can work through The ways that I felt powerless and helpless with my sister I can forgive myself I can forgive her So yeah, that's just that's the kind of stuff that will come up so journaling is really important Even if nothing specific is coming up if something is bothering you Just keep writing about it, you know automatic writing is really good, too There's another name for it, but I can't think of what it is Now let's say on top of that too like sometimes I tell my students this all the time like When we think about thoughts that come up sometimes we are automatically want to put a story to that thought But sometimes the thought that comes up is merely just an emotion Right so sometimes in this process, you're gonna hit a posture or hit a movement For the bar it's like the tucking of the pelvis for many people We're all the sudden you're flooded and inundated with this emotion. It's almost like someone popped the cap off of You know those silly strings were all sudden this emotion just pops up and takes every and you don't know where it came From you don't understand why you're feeling the anger or why you're feeling Whatever it is you're feeling and that's okay. Sometimes you will figure out where it came from Especially in the pelvic region of these exercises. I have to talk about this with women a lot For women when we get into the pelvic region of Mollabunda or any type of Visakhonasana stretching open the legs for women who have been Being careful what I say for you too, but have been a abu s e d in that area if that makes sense against their will RAPE are simply just touching in that area a Lot of times that will trigger itself and come up and sometimes I've heard people say it could be a past life experience That's still being held within your energetic because you have your physical fascia and you have your energetic fascia and And and that's okay if that comes up You have to write about it though And especially if you don't and here's the thing like my trauma therapist used to say this too Like if you never remember like a lot of times with those types of things for women and men too the brain will block out the memory and If the breath if the brain has literally blocked out the memory as my trauma therapist used to say It's not necessarily important for us to then try to recall it What's important to do is to work through your emotion the fear the anxiety Whatever it is. It's still left over. That's that the the but the story the body might have might have rejected But the sensation to survive the body kept All right And so if we think about like sexual stuff for example if for some people who are victims of that Maybe they don't have a healthy relationship with their partner when it comes to that. Maybe it's it's maybe it's just a trust issue They have with men and So that's what needs to be healed does that make sense? And so that's why the journaling is important too because it helps you filter through that Without necessarily having to go there now luckily for me She could remember and some people are going to be be able to pinpoint it back to certain things But if you don't that's okay, too. It's just working through that emotion Understanding I want to say this too and Emmy can attest to this because both envy and I have been on this journey of self Self-healing before we knew each other for many many many years with different modalities And I think Emmy can attest to this as well as me. It's not one and done is it? Oh No No Another thing too. I want to add to what you're saying Bryce is a lot of us who have grown up in abusive families Were abused or suffered abuse before We learned how to talk. Yes, so when when you have When you have things happen to you that is is pre-conscious memory or pre-verbal It's stored in the body just like everything else, but we have no recollection of it There's you know, it happened in a time of our life when there's no way that we could communicate back to someone else What's going on? Um So that's why the journaling is just so important Like back to the story that I was saying With my sister and the person that was living here this past summer for about six weeks I had worked through resentment that I had against her and I completely forgiven myself and her for What happened if I saw her today I'd give her a big hug, but every time I would think about I'd still be bothered I'm like, why am I bothered by this and then writing it down? It was like this epiphany And I wrote it down probably eight times. I was writing about this about eight times and then all of a sudden is Nothing to do with her. I had to do with my sister. I was trying to save her I was trying to save my sister through this other person You know, and it's just It's amazing. It's amazing what comes up. It is so much more than exercise So and I want to express that too and I put this in the opening to the challenge I just sent me the template what I like to refer to this as intelligent exercise and I'm not saying that, you know Bodybuilders or sports people aren't intelligently exercising. They're just intelligently exercising in a very different way. I Want to express to you guys I and I've said this I'll say this until I'm blue in the face I don't give a rat's ass What's your yoga practice looks like? What's your bar dancing looks like? You're not in competition with anyone The only reason why we're using exercise is for you to be able to understand What it is your body is trying to tell you Because when it's intensified when the body is brought to a point of intense heat and friction You're not going to be able to escape Sensations unless you quit unless you stop and so it brings you to a point of total total vulnerability to yourself So I don't I put you know at the beginning of the challenge I have a section where I tell you to take a picture yourself optional at the beginning at the end I'm not doing this about weight. Well, I don't care. I Don't want people weighing themselves anyway Like I'm not a believer in weighing yourself because I think sometimes the ego can take over and numbers are just numbers They're just numbers, you know and and but with the picture what I'm hoping people will see is Not just yeah, you're gonna see some changes in your body, but I want you to notice your eyes the changes in your eyes You had a picture you sent us Emmy from before you started your journey And you see the people look like different people and it's because and I said this with Shaunty wants and The more you allow your heart to break the more the light can shine through Mmm, so the more you allow yourself To go to that place of vulnerability The more you're gonna feel compassion for yourself Yes, and when you feel that oh Go ahead remember the goal of yoga is to free your mind Not to have perfect postures or asana's not to have a perfect flow not to look like Exactly at the goal of yoga is not that no it's to free your mind and Today, I fell eight times eight times. I fell today in my practice if we would have been recording He's planted so many times like it's David Green used to like come behind me and like because a lot of times a lot of these postures where we're supposed to build up Fender elbows we lock because of fear of falling and so and that's a psychological That's and that's why that that transition is in there to challenge that fear and in the bison of David Greek would come by and just push you down So that you would fall because sometimes that's what you need is to fall so that you realize oh If I fall I just it's like Marnie Alton says this and her Workouts every day and I love it and she tells you to touch the earth and feel the earth and Remember that she will always be there to catch you when you fall And so if we look at that perspective, we always have something to catch us when we're gonna fall Trust me. We're gonna fall the people who have beautiful practices Then you don't think that they have me mark Roberts put up a video of him falling out of shit Like it's just it's it's that's how we learn if we did not have the friction We would not have the growth You know, it's and it brings us I use this example with like a seed when we go to plant Let's say we're gonna plant a tree You know the tree is its roots are rising up to the Sun But first we have to take that seed and bury it deep into the ground We have to take the seed and go deep into the darkness of the earth for the seeds and grow up through the light and When you go into an exercise intelligent exercise to work to work on yourself, that's what you're doing You're taking that seed and you're intentionally Controlled demolition you're intentionally placing yourself in a place of and and there's nothing more vulnerable than exercise for a lot of people And so you're intentionally taking yourself to a place of vulnerability where the ego has stuck Eventually leave so that you can be honest with yourself pain is real. That's when we're honest with ourselves We're not lying to ourselves anymore It's you know Stephanie. I was talking about this today and we and I next time when Stephanie will go further into this a lot Of people are very confused by grounding They think that just going and standing out in the yard for a couple of minutes is grounding Barefoot that's really good for you to do on top of everything else. That's not grounding you Because it doesn't bring friction. Where's the friction? Go stand in the arm bear in the yard barefoot. Yes, of course But that shouldn't trump your exercise I was actually just reading the Hathor material and they talk about it You have to exercise and a lot of these ancient civilizations with these deep spiritual practices had Exercise that's why yoga so old yoga's like over 5,000 years old They knew this they knew this about the body and trust me guys back in those days. They weren't trying to look good in a bathing suit There was no Ginny Craig and weight watchers You know it was and it's so funny. I love Richard Simmons I think Richard Simmons is one of my favorite human beings. I just love him like even today when I see him I get emotional and on Saturday So our sorry Sunday Sunday is your Sunday fun day in the challenge and a lot of it I have his sweat into the oldies From the 90s. I did it the other night in the hotel. I did one of his I was laughing my ass off And it was so fun Um, and you guys know most of you guys know who Richard Simmons is if you don't look him up He was born with a foot deformity He had a foot deformity when he was born And he gained a bunch of weight and he took that he transformed it That's the alchemist and so you look at him and what he did the Empire he built and I was listening I was watching a documentary on him and how these you know Super famous guy and these people would email him when email first came out and explained their Situation and he picked the phone up and call him and Spent two hours on the phone with them because he genuinely cared and And that's what I mean by that compassion in that that when the heart breaks the light can come in Obviously, he had to learn to have compassion for himself through his foot issues through working through that from his food addiction And so that light came through and he had that compassion for other people as well And so that's the beauty. That's why you know, that's why Michael Jackson song man in the mirror If we if we want to ship this globally We're gonna shift ourselves first No one's gonna do it for you because nobody else is gonna be in your body, but you and your wounds I want to say this to your wounds those dark places Those are sacred Don't run from them. Those are sacred Because that's where you learn what you really made us And I think sometimes we do get stuck in that victim mentality and that victim low as me But when we start to work through and I said this last time we can only feel powerful until we felt powerless And something to with the exercise on a very physical level that happens And that's why we focus wrong with physical strength and the flexibility when your body starts to get physically stronger something in your psyche flips as well where you start to feel stronger as a person and you kind of Move from feeling like the victim to the survivor To the the person who beat it and When you start to realize that transition is happening and you've had the power all along to make that transition and Change that perspective you then go from feeling powerless To feeling powerful in a very healthy way. Does that make sense? Have you feel if experience that yet Emmy where all of a sudden you starting to feel stronger and things are perceptions are shifting. Oh Yeah, yes I was I was probably one of the Worst victim mindset people walking on this planet like I just I Could not find my part My part was allowing I allowed it. I did not I had no boundaries I didn't know what a boundary was if I had a boundary. I probably wouldn't have been forced it Therapy to figure out how to build that wall Yes Yes, so I mean even now I I'm still I'm still very sore I have been dedicated to my yoga practice I think this is the fifth or sixth week in a row where I have been dedicated to it I'm still very sore. It's it's getting better but When I look in the mirror and I can see different areas of my body starting to To tone up a little bit more and and slim down. It's very very encouraging and Even lifting boxes or groceries out of the back of the car, you know, it Yeah, yank something up that used to be really heavy and it's like, oh, oh I'm stronger. Okay, you know Yeah Well, you're lifting and yoga you're lifting your own body weight a lot And so you're you're literally Literally carrying yourself through the practice now. I want you to think about that guys watching psychologically When you think you can't support yourself when you think you're powerless and you're doing whether it's yoga or a bar Whatever you literally just carried yourself through the fire That's a pretty strong person And what is bravery bravery is doing something even when you're shit scared of it You know, it's the story of Hanuman the courage and so if you guys doing the challenge if you're nervous I've got a lot of emails people being very nervous about the exercise Then you're in the perfect place because that's the courage that's needed We all trust me every time my teacher says all the next posture. I'm like off fuck You know, like it's still like that. No, I'm good You know That new that that that newness that I fear as well and I've done been doing this for 16 years But we're constantly in that place of challenging ourselves and constantly seeing what we're made of and that in human beings We're resilient We're and I think I don't know. Maybe this is my conspiracy mind any but I feel like in the Western world Our controllers created a narrative around exercise So we wouldn't know the true power behind exercise If you know what I mean like they put a spin on it that it's for being sexy And you know for bathing suit season and it's about starving yourself and you know being a size zero and all this kind of stuff and and That's not that was never what exercise was for ever You know, it's about it's not moving. What's that saying or a rolling stone gathers no moss? So if we are constantly moving the body and moving the joints starting with our child and child If children do this just play with them. Don't make it intense Didn't make it a play play, you know, see children will stretch animals will kind of move and stretch but as adults We become sedentary and and so with that being said not only does that change our physical fitness level But it also allows the energy to get stuck and Gather that loss and build on itself But if we get into a habit of exercising every day or most days a week Not only are we keeping ourself physically healthy, but we're flushing and moving the energy Flushing and moving the energy constantly because it's never done the work is never done and with flushing to remember we store trauma and wounds in our body and when that comes out those toxins are Felt as pain and that's that's another kind of pain that you can feel when you do this practice And one thing that has been really helpful for me is Caster oil massages Thank you for bringing that up. That's going to be coming on your Friday. Yes I Get you some What is that? It's it's got to be the pure cold pressed the darker the oil and It make sure it's in a dark jar Not not like a plastic container like the real good castor oil will be in a dark bottle and that's um We move this over here a little bit. Yeah We'll be in a it'll be in a dark bottle and and that's so that the the light doesn't break it down So yeah castor oil is really thick. Yeah, it's really really thick So, you know, you're gonna be sticky and Full of yuckiness, but messy Yeah, yeah, if you We don't have a bathtub. We only have a great big shower in our bathroom. So I just put towels down And I'll just sit in there I'll just that's what I myself and sit in the bathroom So oil baths it's called oil bathing in India, but you're not literally sitting in a bath guys It's just what it's called and it changed my life when I learned this practice It literally changed my life now on the challenge I have you doing this optionally on Friday evenings before your rest day Okay, because it's gonna pull the inflammation out of your body and it's gonna knock you out You're gonna sleep for a long time So basically place towels on the floor of your bathroom cover your body and castor oil So your butt ass naked cover your body castor and castor oil is good for all doshas That's why I put it, you know If you want to get doshas as specific for me as about to I need like almond or sesame seed oil But castor I actually prefer castor oil. It's good for all doshas Sit on the top the towel and slowly massage the oil into your body The castor oil is used to pull the heat and inflammation out of your body Sit with the oil on your body for 10 to 60 minutes If you're new to oil baths only set for 10 to 15 minutes because it will knock you out After the time is up take a hot shower To remove the oils and then get into bed your nose may run due to the heat removing toxin You will sleep pretty hard tonight. Let yourself sleep so your body can heal itself So again, I'm doing this right before your Saturday rest day So that you can allow the castor oil to really work and allow your body to recover and recuperate But yeah castor I will warn you Especially if you got white girl hair. I wouldn't put the castor oil in your hair Now in India, they will if you have it you can go and have it done professionally in India Which is a whole another story for another day because man They just stick your their fingers right up your hoo-ha and rub around and you're like this is weird But we're just gonna go with it With the castor oil, but the oil in the hair for girl It's gonna be hard to come out of your hair So I what I do is I just pull my hair back and I massage my face even like all the size of my face But I try not to get my hair and It's if you can't put coconut oil in your hair coconut oil isn't good for vat as I put it in my hair though Because it's just your hair But you know, but yes castor oil bathing is amazing and I sit I actually sit sometimes up to 90 minutes in an oil bath or oil on me And some people get very spiritual with it They'll like meditate or listen to like sound bowl healing why they do it because I do it for so long. I Usually watch trashy reality TV shows well My oil But get get really nasty towels old towels to sit on because it is very very messy You can get some soap nut oil to help you get the oil or Soap nut powder to get if the oil is really thick to get it off of your body The oil I get in India I have to use the soap nut powder to get it off because it's so thick the oil I get here in America I could just get exfoliating soap to get it off because soap nut powder If you use soap nut powder will look someone look like somebody had explosive diarrhea in your bathroom when you're done Because it's very thick and it just goes everywhere. So I'm just warning you guys like You're in a very new relationship best not to use soap nut powder Just warning you so But yes and with this so I'm gonna warn you guys like the first week of this challenge is pretty basic You have a lot of journaling to do but as you get deeper into the challenge And part of you wants to tell you guys who got the template Maybe don't look too far ahead because I don't want you to feel around because I put the real hard challenges Kind of towards the end so that by that time you're getting more autonomy and you're getting your your perspective is gonna be different than it is in the beginning because we do have a lot of Journaling to do with betrayal. There's a huge section on betrayal childhood trauma My favorite exercise though that I have you guys do This is my favorite one. It's deeper into the I think it's day 14. Let me see. Let me see here. I Have you guys find somebody that you really really admire in your life. You're you're your real life Not you're you're not not like a celebrity like someone you actually know in your life That you really admire and that you really really love and what I'm gonna have you do is I'm gonna have you write a letter to that person as a party one of your challenges is to write here It is so you're gonna write Hand write not tight. It's important that you hand write because the hand is connected to the heart chakra You're gonna hand write a letter to the person that you admire Not someone you have a crush on not someone that you're infatuated with but someone you admire and you're gonna tell this person the letter How much you admire them what you love about them? How much you respect them and you're gonna hand write it you can sign your name or you can keep it anonymous You don't have to tell them it's from you and then you're either gonna mail them the letter Or you can stick it in their mailbox or put it on their windshield wiper of their car Whatever you want to do stick it under their door. It might be your roommate for all I know you can just tape it on the bathroom wall. Whatever give it to that person And then after you do that you're gonna come home and journal more and you're gonna how did you feel writing the letter? So how did you feel expressing that kindness to someone else? How would you feel if you received a letter like that or someone told you how much they admired you and Then I'm gonna ask did you sign your name or leave it anonymous and why and then I want you to list all the qualities You admire about that person in your own journal and I'm gonna have you read over those qualities by time So five times read over all the qualities then have you realize these are actually qualities of yourself? I knew it Emotional when I I know Exercise but I get emotional because sometimes I think what happens in the shadow work world is that we get so bogged down on The dark stuff the real dark stuff like we know that if some whatever pisses us off about like any any Emmy story For example, she realized she was projecting Her unfinished business with her sister onto another person and so she realized that that's what that person that came into her life Was presenting her with with some unhealed wounds and So we understand that in another case scenario if there's someone that really drives you crazy Usually that's a quality in yourself that you don't like But what we fail to realize is the things we love about someone else are actually things we love about ourselves That we're seeing in someone else and so we need to focus on that and a lot of this stuff with the hearts of I have you write five things down that you like about yourself So we're balancing out the hard work with the good stuff, too you know and One of the last days like what Emmy was saying and I have this at the very last I think it's day 26 the very one at the very end getting towards the end of the challenge I'll read it to you guys actually put it in red because this is kind of the whole point too of what Emmy was talking about We'll go ahead and look at it Let's see here I have you go outside today if the weather permits see if you can sit in nature for at least 15 minutes This is on your rest day. So you have an exercise today While outside see if you can observe all the stimulation around you if you're in a city Can you truly listen to all the sounds of the cars the conversation of those passing by and the sound of the wind moving between the buildings? If you're in a small town or out the middle of nowhere, what sounds do you hear? Do you hear the trees moving in the wind if it's cold is it cold where you are? Can you breathe into the cold? How does the cold feel on your skin? So recognizing the this is going to think oh shit It's cold actually feel the sensation of the senses picking up on the cold same if it's hot Can you observe the sensations of your nervous system adapting to the environment? Don't judge it as too cold or too hot just observe How does it feel not to judge the sensations? Do you relax more into what is when there is no held judgment as to how you personally feel about it? After the experience is over journal about it What did you learn from leaning into what is instead of holding on an opinion of what it should be? depending on your likes and dislikes and So and I say this is a huge practice in spiritual awakening your opinions are not you They are just reactions to experiences you've had Can you fully engage your senses to experience what is being presented to you without? Holding judgment So can you these experiences are things being presented to use the friction of the burning muscles? This is an experience as being presented to you. Can you observe it without opinion without judgment? Next step is to apply this theory to your daily workouts Can you feel the burning sensations of the muscles working the breath the heart quickening the sweat pouring without judging it? With the emotion such as a anger joy frustration Etc. Come up in your workout. Can you fully engage in that emotion? experiencing it learning from it without Judging it and so this I'm gonna have you do this exercise again at day 26 So you're gonna be pretty deep into your challenge by the time you do this exercise And I put that at the end close to the end because you will have had by day 26 You're gonna have gone through a roller coaster of emotions and a roller coaster of journaling about betrayal all this kind of stuff and so By the two there comes a point of time when you are in this spiritual journey When your opinions themselves Piss you off so much that you're ready to get rid of them And so that's the whole point of this whole experience is to allow you you are so much more than your body Your body is the Shakti. It is the expression of your soul, but it's not your soul It's not your soul and you're you're as it says it and I have the four material today like your body Your soul can exist without your body, but your body cannot exist without your soul And so this body is a beautiful instrument And it's something that can teach us so much about who we are and who we aren't So that our soul that feels more complete and that life and when you start to really practice this I mean looking back on my life last I'll say the last 10 years I've been doing this for 16 years last 10 years The way I react to things now are so different than 10 years ago because I've seen a different perspective Even though it still sucks when things bad things happen. It still sucks. So Christ will get angry But it's like okay What is being presented to me now? Because nothing is ever final Death isn't real. It's an illusion The what is being presented to me? So I'm super excited you guys and and of course we only have like a seat one seat left on our yoga course That we're gonna be doing so the yoga course and the 30-day challenge are two different things although Emmy get this I have multiple people that are doing both the yoga all night intensive and the 30-day challenge awesome I'm like Flow clap So we have one seat left so guys the 30-day challenge if you're new the 30-day challenge is totally free You just email me it if you want the template and I'll send it to you and all you need is your body Which you got a Journal the internet and castor oil if you want to do the oil bath that's optional anyway It's all you need and journaling can literally be you writing on construction paper from your kid's coloring book If you need to it doesn't have to be fancy I will there are gonna be times for the challenge where you're gonna have to go back and reread some of your journal entries to see And I don't know do you do that in me? Do you go back and reread stuff? I do that a lot to see how much I've progressed Mm-hmm. Yeah, I I've gone back and read things that I've written and I'm like I wrote this. Yeah Same I'll go back and look at stuff from like even a couple years ago It's our as I'm reading it about certain situations. I'll be like, oh, yeah, I forgot that happened But in the journalists like the end of the world Yes, you know and so that shows you cuts kind of funny It shows you all temporary stuff is and that this too shall pass So we're gonna have a lot of times during that the experience where I'm gonna ask you to go back and reread certain journal entries So you can see your own evolution. I know a lot of husband and wives. They're doing this together But if you feel like punching your spouse at some point just know that's projection Maybe go journal separately But that's incredible. It's incredible that people are doing this and I just want to say too and Emmy we can back this up I want you guys to know I in this 30-day challenge I'm giving you six days a week a week of exercise some of the days are only like 20 minutes But still you're diving headfirst in when it comes to this is only 30 days If something happens where are you sleeping accidentally one day or you don't get your exercise in don't Quit I wrote this knowing full well that for most people there is gonna be a couple activities here and there They're not gonna do That's totally fine That's totally fine. The places where we stumble and fall and we mess up are usually where we learn the most So do not judge yourself too harshly If you miss your exercise that day Are you miss, you know going to bed before 10 o'clock that day? Like don't this is all an experiment for you to see like as the whole back to the beginning of oh, that's interesting I accidentally get an exercise today, huh? That's why I feel a little sluggish interesting I'm gonna write this down and note this. This is your own The challenge is just a tool when the challenge is over you can throw it away You are the one that's valuable. You are the subject not the challenge. It's just a template. That's all it is All it is and the last challenge I have you do I'll go ahead and on some spoiler Alerts the last challenge I have you do on the November 30th. The last day is for you to write your own schedule for December of exercise And with Thanksgiving guys, I do have Thanksgiving entered into this For the Americans you there. I'm gonna show you how to be flexible with holidays I even invite our European Asian African friends joining us. I say, you know what? Thursday November, whatever it is. That's Thanksgiving. Go invite some friends out for dinner because I want you guys to understand to like being human beings. Yes, we have a Schedule we follow for the most part, but being human is also learning to be flexible and Thanksgiving is a time of fellowship and friendship if you're not an American again invite friends out to dinner and Bite them over to your house for dinner. Have a couple boxes of wine and have that fellowship And if you go to bed past 10 o'clock, I think I even wrote. Let me look. I think I even wrote about food hangovers You know, it's fine. It's It's total. Let's see here. Where's Thanksgiving's Thanksgiving's I think it's the 24th this year for the non Americans Thanksgiving always falls on the last Thursday of November, okay? So happy Thanksgiving this day like many holidays might require you to get up extra early to get your work out and Jourdling in so it's another exercise like holidays for me. I have to get up even earlier to get the send for me Please know that many people across the country are joining you at dark 30 We say that we say that nashita yoga that we get up at dark 30 to do their workout to keep themselves sane for the holiday If you've never gotten up early on a holiday to exercise then this will be a new experience and challenge for you I ask that you try to heal real hard not to skip your workout this morning today We'll have less less challenges due to the holiday But your exercise is top priority not just for your sanity, but also for your digestive system, right? Make your bed up. All right. I say today you might have to eat later than 7 p.m Because one of the challenges is to not snack at night. That's okay. It's a holiday Be flexible with this one today. Enjoy feasting with your loved ones So I give you some options for exercise And no food journal today big dude's the holiday unless you're not American and you want to continue the food journal And I say you might stay up later than 10 p.m. Tonight That's okay allow yourself to have fellowship and community with friends and family tomorrow You can observe how this day affected you and so that Friday I say you might feel a little hungover today from the food and maybe from the alcohol Alcohol is not something I've addressed in this challenge as this is something that is on a person by person's basis It can be used in moderation. You know, if you're not someone that struggles with alcoholism, I'm not going to touch that with you That's personal issues. It's up to each individual to figure out what works for him or her with alcohol however, food can definitely cause a hangover a special Absolutely, especially if you're eating foods that you're not used to eating on a daily basis This is not something to be upset about if this is something you only experience the day after a holiday Getting more in touch with your body will also make you more aware of how your body is reacting to the food Today, we are going to work with this to help you explore this more Alright, and so I say this if you're feeling bloated or hungover from food Do not do yoga today with an impact of colon. You can bruise your internal organs Instead do the 45 minute bar 45 minute kickboxing to help flush yourself in the day before and I say if you're absolutely Too hungover to exercise you can switch out today's exercise challenge with tomorrow making today your rest day Okay, so that's going to be up to you if you feel like you're too gone Then I usually rest the day after a holiday because I'm I'm so when I Thanksgiving or Christmas like I'm taking in so much food and alcohol that I don't normally take in and I'm enjoying my time And I stay up late that I always give myself the day after just to rest Okay, and so I don't want people and then we have the meditation with Emmy We've got a lot of links with Emmys Reiki So if you need to switch it out for the Saturday you just switch it out The exercise no big deal and of course again this comes at the very end of the challenge So you'll probably feel more confident making those decisions for yourself. At least I hope so so Yeah, let me show you the last challenge. I give you So pull out a calendar for the month of December for the next 31 days create your own challenge Each day scheduled exercise meditation journaling etc. Feel free to use this how it's a template, but in your personal December challenge add something that really scares you Maybe it's joining a yoga Shala or taking reiki classes to get a tune Maybe it's going back to school or taking a course to learn something new that you've wanted to learn Maybe it's starting a YouTube channel or maybe it's picking up the phone and calling someone you need to make amends with It's all you to you you have a power to break this you have you've had the power all along And that's the main thing I want you to learn from this this challenge that you've had the power all along You know, I I feel like for me I've I've been and I added Marnie Alton's Closing quote here and remember all those hard days as Marnie Alton says reach down and feel the earth and remember always mixing Emotional she will always be there to catch you when you fall There's mother earth will always be there to catch you when you fall You have had that power all along And I had a lot of people thanking me for taking the time to creating this this challenge and it's really my pleasure You know, I've been so blessed in my life to have so many incredible teachers myself and being able to spend so much time in India And really dive deep into this ancient study. And so I feel like that is what I can do to help the world right now is just to help you with my and Taking in the modern exercise is like kick kick butt I don't think the ancients were doing kickboxing a bar or this went into the old days But but my with my understanding of energetic body I know how to replace that for you guys if you don't have yoga around and And so that is my gift to you guys and as I keep telling people like I'm just your tech support during this And the Stephanie Shanti and Marnie Catherine all of us that are Supporters are promoting this challenge. We're just tech support. We're the backup dancers You're the star You're the one doing this. Okay. I should have added in for the bonus You know, maybe I know a lot of people will like sign up for a road race They'll train for a 5k or a 10k. Maybe that's something that you maybe never thought you could do But towards the end of this challenge, maybe you'll realize it's the beautiful thing. We say that in Ashdanga That's the magic of my swords like something that seems impossible all of a sudden starts to become possible And that's magical when you think, you know, how many of you sitting right there thought, oh, I could never run a 5k Or I could never run a 10k A lot of through the course of this challenge. You realize maybe you can And maybe at the end of November, that's what you start training for You look up training modalities to do a 5k or a 10k You know, you take that power and you explore that yourself And I was gonna ask and I mean, what do you think about this? I kind of wanted to see how this challenge goes because of course I got tears and snot on my laptop guys So I apologize. I didn't just wipe that off After the holidays after Christmas, I'm kind of thinking about doing a 60-day challenge For the group. So we'll see how the 30-day challenge that will look a little bit different because it'll be 60 days Not 30 so things will be a little bit more spread out But I guess I can't really ask for people to let me know in the comment section yet Because we got to see how the 30 I'm down. I'm down. I'm I'm doing this. Yeah, can't do the can't put the horse in front of the car So so I am thinking about doing a 60-day challenge in January and February as well And that will be if you do the 30-day challenge and you want to do the 60-day challenge great But for the month of December, that's all you boo and I believe in you Once you start hearing it out what you can do You take that power back And I just want to like how many people out there now. I I've never had a weight issue I've never been the fat kid anything like that, but I hear this story all the time. How many people out there? Through this challenge were always the kid that was made fun of because they were overweight They were never picked from the sports teams all that kind of stuff That's I'm so excited to hear those stories for you to realize actually Actually, you are the athlete You actually have this in you You have the exact same muscles. You have the exact same tendons and ligaments in your body Then the Olympic ads do yes, this is amazing Grace. I'm so impressed I can't tell you. I thought we were gonna get like 10 15 people sign up for this 200 people you guys I started sending emails out last night because all of a sudden I was like I'm gonna start sending them out because there's so many people I got up and then I woke up at like three o'clock this morning and I was like I gotta go back So I sat up in the kitchen at 3 a.m. I Was like sending templates out to people because I'm so I floored away I floored away and I know I talked to morning and Shanti offline so we haven't finalized this but what we're thinking about doing is when the challenges over Having all of us who hosted it on a panel and then dropping a link into the chat box a live show Allowing anybody who does the challenge if they want to come on and talk about their experience can just click the link and come On in and talk about their experience. So Yeah, that'd be great I know and I want people and I also got to propose to you guys too before we sign off I've been really thinking about How to create a support system For everybody doing a challenge. I've been really thinking about how to do this now. I know For a fact that there is a particular youtuber out there in the truth or community who is evil I know for a fact now that this particular youtuber purchased from a troll farm bots and these bots were sent out to threaten me Threaten my family hence why I had to close most of my social media down. I know they're bots I know it's a troll far. However, that's extremely dangerous and I was thinking about opening up a telegram channel That's private just for people of doing the challenge to be able to talk to each other and support each other. However, I'm terrified of the bots I'm terrified of this particular person derailing it. I don't know if I personally would be able to moderate that that Channel because of my schedule And if there are people watching that would want to be the moderator That would want to take that into their hands and moderate the channel I would be interested in handing that over to you and letting you do that for everyone doing the shadow work challenge Just to make sure that there are no bots. There's no threats in that group. What do you think? I mean, do you think that's I think that's a great idea. Okay? So if you're interested because I just want to put I don't so I'm gonna be very forthcoming and open with you guys because if you want to be the moderator I don't want you to have to get into something that's in over your head where all of a sudden you've got these bots threatening in the in the chat and so maybe I could pick like two or three people To help each other and there's any type of threats going on or anything like that Just so people would have an access point to contact each other and vent and support each other Yeah, that's a great idea. Okay, cool. So people watching Let me know if you want to be those moderators I will let you handle that because again I would feel terrible if I was not able to check it because I was researching or filming or whatever and A bot got in and was terrorizing someone like I would feel terrible about that So if someone it has the time and the availability to like lack of troll if someone comes in Then I would hand the reins over to you so that everybody else could have a Supporting and loving the platform to be able to talk themselves through we're all just walking each other home guys This is what I mean when I say it mm-hmm, so Anyway, any is there any last words? Not that I can be I'm really excited. This is This is awesome I'm gonna try like every day during the challenge to post at least like a five minute video just encourage people that you know How's it going? How are you doing? You can also chat in the comment section too, but I'm gonna say this I put this in the challenge with my favorite quotes You didn't come this far To only come this far That's a good one. So the fact that you guys send me emails. That was the first step So I'm so excited guys. I know any six steps excited. We're all like super excited about this We are the storm you are lightning in a bottle and You're helping changes of nothing changes Exactly exactly what is a rut a rut is doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over again It's also insanity This might be the whole Turning point for a lot of people and I'm just I can't through the pain that's gonna come out of this through the tears That's gonna come out of this the anger what I'm most excited about is the light That's also gonna come out of this and I'll say again. I always use it that match Everything that match needs to light the light is in it. It comes that way But that light is never gonna light unless that friction happens of striking that match You're the match Everything you need to shine that light you have already All you're missing is that friction and once you strike that match that that light is there Amen sister. All right guys, we love you signing out from the Victoria ghost children We'll talk to you later. Bye guys. Bye