 What's up? How we doing? How are we doing? I hope you're all doing well. I must say I must say guys we're getting there we're slowly but surely getting there. I woke up this morning this is the first morning I've actually woken up in my place and I woke up in an absolute foul mood a foul mood and I can't I'm not even gonna I'm not gonna lie to you and say I can't explain it because I can explain it there's two reasons two reasons for it and look I'll get into how I got over that foul mood in a second but really I got up this morning I had some drinks last night a few of you will know if you've watched my previous vlogs at the moment during the first month of me being here in Rockhampton I have struggled controlling my drinking now for the last week I've told myself that as soon as I get this place as soon as I can finally sit down and say this is my house I can get my kids around I can move on I can actually feel like I live here the drinking is gonna stop and and unfortunately last night it didn't stop even though I did move in so I woke up this morning in a foul mood not foul at anyone else just foul at myself but then then I woke up sorry then I got up opened my eyes got up and started looking around the house a little bit more in depth and I started opening cupboards and I started looking at different things and guys this house certainly wasn't cleaned properly the surfaces are dusty their spiderwebs the cupboards look honestly made me almost feel sick I did feel sick I almost threw up some of these cupboards they haven't been touched they've literally just given me the keys and said here you go throwing their hands up and you know the hard thing is is that it's really weird the owner of this unit has decided to rent it through a property it's through an independent real estate agent now this complex of units is is is run very similar to the complex that I bought a unit in on the Gold Coast in 2016 now I sold that unit in 2019 but the way that that unit complex was was run there's an on-site property manager they live in one of the units most of the owners trust the property manager with their property they pay them you know a standard rental fee 8% whatever it is 8% per per month and the property managers being on-site they make sure everything's fine you know any any tenant coming in any tenant going out they make sure that the vacancy rate is low they also make sure that the tenants look after the place they make sure that any new tenant coming in has a spotless place to live to come into to begin their lease and they begin it on a good on good terms and look I have to be honest I woke up this morning not only hating myself for drinking last night but I also looked in these cupboards and I thought fuck me I don't even want to bring my kids here this is disgusting this is absolutely disgusting and it's not good enough I tried to bring my property manager they're not even in Rockhampton they're based in the Gold Coast but guys it's not the end of the world and all I want from today all I want to achieve is to sit down on that very couch feeling accomplished feeling as settled as possible and the only way that was ever gonna happen is not to sit there with with my head in my hands this morning no it's to go out and and do what I need to do step up do what I need to do make this place a home and that is what today's mission is about so I'm gonna be back with you and probably I'm gonna guess maybe a couple of hours and I will show you exactly what I've done I'll show you both bedrooms and you know that's it I'm excited to if you guys are following me for any reason if you guys are you know supporting me in my life and my journey at the moment for any reason I want to say thank you so much I want to say it means a lot and working through my issues in life through this camera and through this lens and through my YouTube channel and through you guys support is huge in my life and it has been for the best part of three years before that I didn't really have too much to complain about I didn't really have too much to work through I mean it was it was a single guy I had no kids I had no dependence all I cared about was myself and it was great but that's not what life's about that's not a fulfilling life and I'm finding that out slowly but surely anyways guys I will show you guys exactly what's happened I'll show you guys exactly what we're dealing with when I've dealt with it so I'll see you soon