 Yeah, the despondency is a necessary stage. You know, it's it's when you realize that nothing that you already have been doing is going to work and and from your understanding of What's possible? It's hopeless From who you've been being it's hopeless like you realize your powerlessness you discover a much greater Creative power that is not under your control But comes through your participation in it every single scene is sending you the message that the problem is a bad guy And the solution is to kill them every situation can be solved by violence same message the good guys the bad guys and Salvation for the world comes because the good guys are stronger and bigger and have better weapons and they're tougher and more superpowers And they can destroy the enemy This is a poison this idea is a poison. We see it in politics We see it, you know that both sides saying well the problem is those horrible people on the other side Who lack some basic aspect of humanity? They're there some way some code word for evil ignorant stupid and A better world will come and we totally defeat those guys We have war baked into the whole cake of civilization. I mean it's even in in Physics in technology like the world is against us the origin of the concepts of good and evil actually We're in order in chaos in Domesticity and the wild good was domestic evil was the wild good was the sheep evil was the big bad wolf Good was the king who killed the lions cut down the forests drained the wetlands like this attitude of conquest is At the core of what we need to overturn if we're gonna have a world that's any different In any significant way than the world we have right now Wow, what I do to the world I do to myself We are inseparable and I cannot therefore achieve what I want through dominating through killing through destroying It's a change of heart in which hope lies