 what's y'all up to huh this is another chit chat y'all today it's a Monday it has been a very busy Monday um so anyway y'all this is another chit chat video y'all know how we do this we talk about what's going on my personal life what I'm watching on YouTube and what I'm watching on TV now I didn't write anything down and I fix myself and I need to be careful with that because my body is completely off we're gonna talk about that hold on girl let me pull up my Hulu I got rid of Netflix we're gonna talk about that too girl huh personal life huh this move has been interesting the move is done girl get over it just getting things in order still baby we got a month left but no no no we have a actually like seven weeks left until JB JB starts school so we gotta start preparing stuff for school thank God we don't have to buy with school materials or anything like that because it's a private school they provide all that but I can make sure that he has new spirit shirts and uniforms together for school to start they start school mid-August out here it's his particular school I think anyway okay I got 30 minutes it's been interesting I have been trying to make sure that we get our doctors in order look I'm very very proactive when it comes to stuff like that I actually started looking for doctors while we were in Phoenix and because Dallas is more has more diversity I wanted to ensure that I get all black doctors this is not racist this is not being me being prejudice if you don't know anything about American health care let me inform you girl black people received a ridiculous amount of prejudice and bias when it comes to health care just to give you an example I remember when I was like 24 20 no not even that I was like 22 23 I was experiencing really bad abdominal pain I immediately went to the ER then my husband worked at I was in the ER for six hours with another elderly woman this particular area in Phoenix was known for senior citizens is del web out in Glendale and we were there for a long time that I was okay with they kept hounding me with questions on whether or not I was pregnant or you pregnant or you pregnant or you pregnant you black you young or you pregnant and I'm like no I'm not finally my husband came down from lab because my husband is a lab rat so I was smart I want to make sure I was there and he was looking at the doctor like uh-huh keep asking me of course they had to do the precautions and running these tests to make sure I wasn't pregnant blood plan or whatever did a vaginal ultrasound really was what it's called both or whatever I was in so much pain and I think I mentioned this I think I mentioned this in the last video long story short it ended up being a very insistent size 8 a Kiwi I almost lost my fallopian tube so stuff like that stuff like I would even hear nurses whisper she's never been like literally I once heard a nurse practitioner whispering with another doctor about me never being pregnant and I was to get that time I was like 27 28 they were shocked that I would never been pregnant so I made sure that I get an all black panel of doctors I think I already told you guys this I do apologize if all this information is redundant girl but again yeah example a so that's going on we finally were able to reach out to my EAP and so my EAP was able to give me six free sessions of therapy for JB because baby I had to stop doing the sessions of his previous therapist because it was like $400 a month y'all and then therapists was like I understand but sickness is trash she didn't say that but sickness horrible when it comes to insurance and so long story short I was able to find an EAP provider but catch this shit this lady was a godsend she said a matter of fact you could use the EAP for each one of you guys I said what do you mean she said let's say that you want him to continue it and Etna doesn't cover it for me we could say okay Mrs. Denza needs EAP services we can use yours for his let's say your husband you know perhaps me that we can use his for JB so she said basically so you good for the rest of the year Jacobs so we have our first therapy session tomorrow and I liked her because she was able to talk to me we spoke in length for a good hour a couple of days ago and she even gave me and I like the fact that she has grandchildren she has grandbabies I mean she's up there not necessarily but she's experienced I don't like to talk a lot about my job because I want to be careful what I say because you everything could come back but yesterday was the first no no not yesterday last week was the first time in a very long time that I actually got so upset with my job that I actually started crying I haven't I haven't done that in like seven or eight years because I'm a G and I'm a type of person that if I can't change it if you know what's the point of getting upset but I was really upset but not to get into any detail but it's time to make some changes and I don't think that they will be surprised once the changes are put in place and who knows you know maybe things will change at my job and you know things will work out but at this point I don't see it it changing on my end I just don't besides that girl what I'm watching on YouTube let me tell you something I don't know what it is but I all of a sudden started watching all of the old all of the old videos with the Real Housewives franchise baby I completely forgot about I used to watch the Real Housewives of New York the first season with Bethany that I don't know what she what she is I forgot she actually has a title Kelly y'all remember crazy as Kelly and then what is the other one they have the big eyes Rolando Rolando something child they were crazy then of course I watched the girls Real Housewives of Atlanta Real Housewives of Orange County I used to watch all of that stuff but after a while y'all it gets I think that the Real Housewives franchise has lost its peak and it's funny that I stopped watching the Real Housewives of Atlanta like years ago but I saw some pictures recently of Phaedra it looked like she's got her nose job her nose done was just nothing wrong with that but with the nose nose done in the lips done and something about her something she's had some type of sculpture or something then with the long blonde blonde hair I barely recognized her I knew it was her because her voice and everything but she's giving me like Kim little Kim like type thing so I hope everything is okay with her I know she's on another reality show but baby when I tell you Phaedra knew how to read the girls down and Phaedra would do that silent calculated read with southern passive aggressive type of read y'all know what I'm talking about watching those videos what else am I watching I'm I watched T net for the 500 600 time baby I love that movie y'all if there's a movie I really enjoy I will watch it multiple times especially with Tina that T net a tenant sprang out not Tina it's tenant I started watching the movie about the movie actually through YouTube and I started watching like a while back so that's I know I'm going through this really fast cuz I have something to do like so I got time so that's what I'm when you're watching on YouTube that's really not I try to watch some of lovely TI stuff and I do like her I'm really trying to be careful with the amount of information that I'm taking in there is so much let me tell you something we're in in times it's not even funny there's been so much violence and family domestic violence children killing parents killing their kids I mean it's like almost on a daily basis I'm hearing about family size I think that's what it's called whole families being taken out it is definitely a spiritual realm there's something going on in the spiritual realm that's affecting a lot of stuff I have a lot of class to raise not a lot but too many too too many that are losing parents at a very young age I think dying at sixty two sixty three is premature death that is way too young to be dying sixty two sixty sixty one sixty two you should be living a lot longer than that and it's sad for a leota died the other day a lot of so I was surprised about that he wasn't necessarily over either not to you know get off subject like that but just thinking of all the people that is just dying COVID numbers are on the rise if y'all don't sit your asses down let me tell you something with all of the violence that is going on they had what 4th of July when I was down in Longview when I heard when we saw on the news about that 4th of July parade and that boy going there and killing what six people so far I don't go anywhere I say my butt at home I go to the grocery store I go well now we do stuff and let me take that back we do stuff like I'll take JB to an indoor playground at like 12 o'clock but if someone is like oh I don't know let me give you an example oh we're gonna have a get-together in a popular place in Dallas and it's gonna be 200 plus people there I'm not doing it I'm not I'm sorry it's not being me that's not me being paranoid but given the climate that we're in I'm not gonna put myself and my family in that situation to where people are already crazy hell no I'm staying my ass at home so we are absolutely going out and doing stuff but we're being careful we really are y'all be careful too COVID numbers are rising I think I need a I need like a fifth shot or something I need something girl um I just feel that way nothing surprises me I hate to say that nothing that's going on there I don't even know when the last thing the last time I really got surprised by a random act of violence was the Sandy Hook shooting that should tell you something anything else that is going on is really not going to surprise me at this point I told you guys this I think I'm gonna tell you this again and I'm talking to so I feel like when I speak to people and we connect a message is gonna be transferred a message a message is going to be relayed take it I'm not trying to go deep but I am I've been meeting people and they have been reiterating you made it make sure you getting ready getting prep getting your stuff together so I'm telling y'all again listen make sure you have plenty of water have plenty of food have plenty of your medications that you or your family members take have plenty on hand I started back stop piling the water we have I'm starting back doing food and you don't have to go go all the way out like I yeah I got a waterproof purifier and crazy stuff like that I got seeds you know I got I got all sorts of seeds cuz I'm gonna replant the whole earth so that's what's going on personal life I know a person life and YouTube baby what I'm watching on TV what I'm watching on TV girl let me tell you something I started to watch on Hulu cuz I got rid of Netflix so I'm trying to save my money I started to watch on Hulu Shining Bell Courtney Cox it has like a comedy slash scary type of series I'm on episode 2 and I'm just not sure what's going on with that again it's called again it's called Shining Bell and it's on Hulu girl stranger things I'm not even done but the last spoiler spoiler alert the backstory of that stranger things demon thing was absolutely crazy I was sold that that gave me so much anxiety again I'm not up to the most recent episode but I did see how he became that thing in the other he was one of the um one of the kids I told you spoiler alert he was number one he was the first one and you know at that actor he's English he played in a couple of other cuz he has a very he's what you call a character actor he has a very eccentric look so he's always gonna be playing a certain type of character in a movie cuz he just or series because he just has that weird ass look which is working for him um we're gonna get to it we're gonna get to it we're gonna look get to it all right so I have old man on my list I told you I got rid of what's the name though I got rid of Netflix I have under the banner of heaven hmm because there's so much violence and stuff going on in the world y'all I watched the first episode of again under the banner of heaven and I can't do it I can't do anything else right now it's just gonna have to be there for a while so I have on my list though the old man with Jeff Bridges old ass it was why he playing the old man um the bear I don't know what this abides about food I'm greedy I'm gonna watch it the bear I stopped watching the last man because I don't know it just got a little weird have you watched that it's called the last man have you watched it it's what it looks like maybe I'll go back to it girl let's just go jump into it cuz we can talk about a good gang about this pee pee ass valley girl let me just go ahead and pull it up pee valley okay first of all I'm gonna say this I'm about tired of Haley and Obama's ass I'm done with Haley and the mayor's godson what is his name y'all Andre Haley and Andre I'm done with a storyline so again spoiler alert okay well I'm gonna talk about the very last episode cuz I'm gonna be back okay girl first of all when I heard Kia my neck my back coming on I'm like oh what the hell is going on here we got diamond and big bone up here doing a damn thing I'm like oh my god diamond you you swinging it like that yes and I think that he's really is he really in a relationship with the actress that plays big bone with a certain miracle watch miracle watch they're really they're together they're married or something in real life anyway so she has a nice body I'm like oh good yes come through sis girl but why he's doing her everything you know what I mean she starts turning into cash on K K she starts looking like K Sean and he's like looking the way because every time he looks at her he sees K Sean which he's mad at because you know things with her white savior he's mad at her but he still has to fill it he wants to save her he's in that save a whole month it is what it is he's in that save a whole mentality but K Sean ain't really a whole she ain't but she's like uh-uh so baby when they were done she was gonna say I want to why I don't know why you finishing in that oh I'm gonna be I'm gonna be very direct she's like I don't know why you finishing in that condom I wanted you to finish in my I'm a and basically he was like no man it's gonna be spilling his seed like that he girl he went deep which there's some meaning behind that which is true a man should not be letting his seed go everywhere cuz there's some but anyway she's like I don't wanna baby anyway I'm gonna get your big ass like her butt is out of control I don't know if she's had work or that's all her but she looks good regardless she looks good yes big body is all that so anyway you know diamond as y'all know from previous episodes diamond is into that who do stuff so you gotta be careful but big body was like she's like why you ain't working at the bank so she was clear and she knew that he has a thing or he he is somewhere else it's clearly he wasn't even looking at her why they were having sex so he his whole mind and body is somewhere else so anyway that's going on like I said I'm about done with Redbone Haley and Andre but finally girl finally she went ahead and let him have it so I guess they had some type of um what do you call it some type of event and after that she comes this is how she sound hey Andre cuz y'all know she's English but she pulls off a certain accent good she's like hey Andre what do you how do you want me sir he's like take off your dress she takes off the dress boom red bone yellow bone everywhere and so she's he's like crawled to me she's crawling and girl 10 minutes later they in it in it in it in it but I'm like this y'all know me the sex scenes it could be too much sometimes but I'm like we waited all these episodes for a sex scene and this will begin this is that was wack as hell I'm sorry but that was not what I was expecting for them to be because they they literally have been mine for each other for seasons and they even did phone sex and I'm like y'all have this much tension amongst it girl please I would have been so pissed off but she seemed to be okay about she seemed to be okay um we're gonna talk about little murder y'all trigger and they did put a warning up for this previous episode oh y'all real quick I just realized the girls with the big lips she played in um what's her name she played in snowfall right she was wander and snowfall so she's doing all these type of tricks on the post she was the one that gave the boy head and now when I they then we pulled it out I thought it was a prop I thought it was a prop so I had to rewind it a couple of years at times to make sure that there wasn't and it was really was his penis so anyway lips she's dancing with another red-boned girl I think she's actually white she white y'all she's dancing with her it's her name Harper so lips she's dancing with this life-skinned girl and he's like who was that he's like you know hook me up with your girl and she's like I don't know she's down like that he's like I'll pay you two sexes to go down on her just to eat her out what you gonna pay her for a treat that's her treat and so she's like what dang I could have got that and laid on my back but I had to get on my knees you know it lips that's your problem that's your problem I don't trust that girl y'all I think something bad's gonna happen I think she's even gonna trick old girl and that's gonna be like some rape and ball I don't want to say it too loud cuz YouTube let's get to this y'all little murder and his friend what's his name y'all life-skinned dude Trey little murder and big teak so sad by the second episode that I saw business big teak big teak I could tell that he was suffering from PTSD everything about his body language that actor that plays that I should should get an Emmy cuz he's doing a damn good job I can tell that something was all in it was hey it was trauma related most PTSD is but it was trauma old trauma it was more than likely passed down trauma generational trauma which if you don't know I'm not going to go there that's a whole another conversation generational trauma can actually start in the womb okay look it up baby this guy was suffering from trauma from a child and they show some bits and clips of it but I'm not gonna go into it because I was so upset and I felt so bad for little murder but big teak ends up committing suicide and I think he came to a realization that after so much time being locked up it's really it's gonna be hard for him to adjust into the new world it's gonna be hard to him to adjust to little murder having a thing for Uncle Clifford and so he's tired he was tired I could tell just the look of his they didn't have to say it he was tired so he had he committed suicide which is so horrible I'm not gonna get into old girls daughter ended up pregnant child when I saw that I was like you know what these kids I feel so bad for Mercedes so y'all but I could not stop laughing when that's that scene with her and and coach and coaches wife and coach look coaches wife has a thing for Mercedes because they've already had sex right they were popping pocket books and so why coach is giving it to Mercedes he noticed them really getting in he's like hold up well coach was like hold up I didn't know you'd like to eat at the seafood bar too what do you boy coach was upset he was like you all raggedy hold this four stacks to do that the wife was okay was supposed to be all free some thing but that was supposed to be for coach and the wife was like all this time we've been married I like I like women more than you do I'm like coach you a dumbass you you and not with it so he was so focused on his desires and what he liked that he was oblivious to his wife's desires and perhaps he just didn't care so y'all I'm talking for a long time that is it baby is just watching rambling I hope you guys have a good week take care bye