 or are you feeling when you were deployed? Well, I guess it depends on where I was and what I was doing. It's a lot of different, you know, as far as emotions and stuff. There's a ton of different, right? So there's obviously fear, but that's not all the time. You're not sitting there just like, afraid all the time. And there's, you know, you're missing your family, right? And, but there's also times when you're just bored. Sometimes there's not a lot to do and you're just kind of waiting around for another mission or you've completed one and you're kind of wrapping things up and you have some downtime. And so sometimes it's really boring being in the army. There's other times when, you know, we would have a lot of fun. Like we would throw on boxing gloves and hit each other and we'd play football and stuff. We had to, we put up a, we made our own like using camo netting. We made a little volleyball court behind our barracks. So we'd play volleyball and so it's a lot of different emotions. You know, during a firefight or anything like that, it was, you don't really, you don't feel a whole lot. It might sound weird, but you're sort of, your training kind of kicks in and you just do what you do. And that's the reason soldiers train and train and train and train and drill over and over again. Just like if you play a sport. Do you guys play sports? Yeah. So what do you play? Soccer and the grass. I play soccer and basketball. Okay. So like in basketball, you have to throw the ball at the hoop so many times. Say practicing layups or something. You have to do it so many times so it's like automatic. Same kind of thing with a military mission. You're doing this stuff over and over again and most of the time we were fine. It was safe. We're just doing construction. So sometimes you're just tired and hungry hot and then something would explode or something would happen and you sort of just react and it's kind of amazing how natural it sort of seemed at least in my experience that your training just sort of kicks in and you do what you have to do. And then it's, whenever something bad like that would happen that's when sort of like later on at night is when the feelings start to come into play and you start to really think about all this stuff. And then especially when you come home, some of that stuff comes out on its own because you were bottling it up for a year and now it sort of comes out. So that's the kind of, those are the tougher things, but sorry, that was a long answer. No, that's all right. Big question.