 Hey tribe of journeymen and women. So about an hour ago I just recorded outside a video about why yoga sucks or to be more precise how I Trained and taught yoga for about a decade and I realized I was teaching the wrong stuff like most of yoga instructors So it's a long story, which you know, that's the episode for it on its own But I came back home to my parents place. I'm just visiting right now and me my girlfriend and my mom we started just discussing about they asked me so what was the video about and he told about, you know, the whole false source of knowledge in yoga and that naturally led to the discussion of spirituality and religious teachers in general and While I spoke to you already a bit about my experience of the bad things I picked up from my spiritual teacher And then that I taught in a wrong way There's a lot of aspects which I didn't actually uncover as I spoke and mostly about generally the whole culture of Spiritual teachers or spiritual gurus applies to religion too, but religion was never really my field I was more into spirituality just like a really devoted student I met a lot of spiritual teachers read a lot of their books, you know, I lived in a spiritual school for a few years and Out of it all You could also say I pretty much was a much as much as I hate to admit it I pretty much was a spiritual teacher myself when I was running my Aikido school, which is a philosophical martial art. It's it's a martial art Which actually is based on spirituality a lot like a religiousness to you the founder. He was a heavily Spiritual religious guy and and for him the two were inseparable, you know His his martial art and his spiritual religious philosophy So so I had to go and learn that as well, but also too when I was living in the Martial arts school. It was a spiritual school. So we talked a lot about everything, you know, Tibetan Buddhism Zen Buddhism I'd buy to put on that was a big thing the non-dualistic teachings It's just like kind of everything and I was very devoted. So I read everything I could on my own so naturally because they always wanted to Create positive impact on people's lives when I opened my own school I was expected to be kind of a spiritual teacher by my own spiritual teacher and I kind of was you know, that was my intention I thought that that's the best way to help people is you know to be a spiritual guide for them to show an example and to You know share my wisdom and etc. Etc. Etc. You might know that I started doing that when I was 22 Which is young but people were impressed. They liked what I was saying They were really loyal to me and devoted and that's a whole story of you know How I eventually abandoned me because I started questioning that myself But what I really won't want to focus on is the fact again that not only was I a spiritual teacher and I Got to experience what it means to be one and I started seeing Holy crap. There's so much bad stuff there and which I didn't realize until I really dug into it And also to some things I realized when I left the whole spirituality path and I look back with my critical thinking now I'm like, oh crap. There was some pretty heavy nonsense is there But also to as I mentioned I spent quite some time with spiritual teachers that I met You know because I was kind of part of the game So I would constantly be approached by spiritual teachers myself meet them in some spiritual seminars whatever so so I got my share of spirituality and The thing is There's again a lot of that stuff there and that's exactly what we're going to talk about in this video So let's have a sip of coffee and let's start the subject So I dare say that the biggest criticism I have to spiritual teachers and that includes reflecting about my own experience But also looking at the spiritual teachers that I met and dissecting what they did and what they are doing the biggest problem is That there's a strong belief in them usually that they know what they're talking about But the issue is usually they don't I Notice that generally there's a tendency that and I think it's in general that spiritual people and Spiritual gurus as well. It's a whole culture which doesn't emphasize critical thinking It's kind of even looked down upon, you know, it's it's usually a lot of times, you know, sometimes it's better Sometimes it's worse But there is a general tendency in spirituality to be like there's us and them and it's presented in a very subtle way So you would feel like like, you know, oh, it's it's it's all peaceful and harmony and Chi and blah, blah, blah But actually, you know, it's quite arrogant when you think about it and even recently About half a year ago. I went to a spiritual seminar. I didn't know it's a spiritual seminar I had enough of them. I didn't really want to go but But I thought it's something good. It's gonna be something else and I but I came in I realized, holy crap I've been here, you know, I've been stuff like that. I was like, okay. Well, you know what? I'll see how I respond after going out of it for years. I'll see how I respond it and there was a young lady teaching the seminar a very typical spiritual Person, you know, like and the typical the reason I'm seeing that is because she was soft-spoken And she would move, you know, in kind of gentle ways and the thing is Why I really catch that very well is because I was that guy, you know, I was never like Well, I guess I can't really say I was never really It kind of was going into that direction I like to say that I was never as bad, but I was never like completely in it I was always a bit skeptical myself. It was always a bit cautious But to be fair, also, I was that guy. So, you know, exactly, you know, when I see something I'm like, I've been there I know what's happening and the thing is I've been that soft-spoken guy as well If you watch some of my former videos, I was that, you know, calm and well-maintained And slow talking, gentle voice and the thing is I tell you right now that's an act That's an act and the worst thing is the act is is is done without even the person understanding that I can tell you because I've been there. It's not like you're I need to pretend to be a spiritual teacher So pretend to be a spiritual teacher. It's not like that. Usually maybe on some cases, but usually what really happens is You that you live in that world you live in that environment and that's kind of natural You know, you tend to pick up things and imitate things you're around and most of the spiritual teachers are like that And when you spend time in that culture and you aim for being a spiritual teacher yourself Subconsciously, you kind of start to think that that's the way you should be yourself That that's the way you should function and so you head into, you know, that path and you become the spiritual teacher And naturally you start to speak the same way Start to move the same way and you start to use certain words and avoid other words It's like somebody says control and you're like, oh, no, we don't say control here control is too blah blah blah That was like that was legit actually that was part of the culture I was part of like part of the community like control you would avoid the word control and that's so fucked up The thing is because you're limited and and you think that you're you know, it's pretty It's funny because spirituality. It's usually it's all about you being authentic, right? It's all about you being the best version of yourself But actually you're not fucking being your best self. You're being a dummy You're being a copy of other spiritual teachers. There's like so little authenticity there And again, I like to protect myself a little bit go a little bit It's kind of I feel yeah I feel some comfort in the knowledge that you know, I always try to maintain a balance between the two But but also to recognize. Yeah, part of me was it wasn't necessarily fake in a conscious way But it was fake in an unconscious way The way I was imitating what I thought works And now to slow to come back for a moment to the story that I started You know, I went to that spiritual seminar And I think I'll just actually use that as an example because you know that that that Visit of a few hours There were so many just Very common bad dynamics of spirituality that were there that if you see it there, it's kind of universal It's everywhere So part of it was I know the teacher was soft-spoken and slow moving very gentle avoiding certain words and blah blah blah You know making pauses in between words like all the stuff like you generally see in spiritual teachers But the other thing that the moment which really pissed me off Because initially I was still like, okay, I'll be open-minded You know, I won't be judgmental and maybe who knows maybe it's going to be okay You know, but it's not that bad and there was this moment You know because there were a lot of people and I saw and I recognized that a lot of people weren't sure where they came Like it wasn't their cult, you know, which is you know working together And they're all you know about Doing that but the thing is there were a lot of people who had no clue where they Got to like I guess the presentation was not very clear And I could see in their eyes. They're like holy crap. Where where did I get to you know And and there was this moment where she said You know if the practice is going to be too much and to let you know if you're interested what the practice is It was a lot of spontaneous movement, you know shouting out your emotions kind of the general spiritual stuff There's some good stuff in there, but you know Anyway, so so she was like if it's going to be too if it's going to be too, uh Too much for you don't worry you can go To the kitchen and have a tea And I was like that's something I used to do and I'm happy I did I never judged people For not being with me. I was like, you know, I understand this has been a bit crazy This is a bit weird So if you don't want to do this don't worry about it It's fine doesn't say anything bad about you that that was kind of how I was and I think that was a great quality While even being a spiritual teacher usually they're not like that and for a moment. I thought oh actually You know, she's not that bad. She she she gives the space and then she says You know, she says like so if it's too much to go to the kitchen to have to have tea And then she says because some of us are just not ready You know, not all people are ready for this you know, it's like Fucking a I got so frustrated inside. I was just burning I was like because you know what that that subtly states that That means we're superior We are better and that's a big part of the fucking spirituality side, which is bad. It's dark It's dark bad juju and they don't sometimes even get it or they get it just half consciously It's a lot. It's a culture. It's a big culture of superiority It's a big culture of we are better and it's not spoken directly because they could not admit it because In their terms that would mean that they're full of ego, which they are The ego is just subtle. It's a spiritual ego, but it's still there It's even bigger than than others and in another video. I even know spoken about one of the biggest western spiritual teachers who was officially in Announced as enlightened by one of the famous indian gurus papaji and and i'm talking about andri kohan and And he was like big big time, you know and and eventually his students wrote a book about him How how how he was a fucking douchebag? You know how unfair he was and and he was you know acting back towards women and a lot of stuff I never read the book. I shouldn't maybe read the book but but the fact is he was a psycho But you know, he was he would always talk about the ego dissolving And you know, it's like when you experience enlightenment ego dissolves and it's like Fucking crap, you know, you think your ego dissolve, but then when you have that knowledge You leave an empty space an empty unattended space where your ego thrives And that's what happened with him and it's fucked up anyway, so That statement really frustrates me because it it shows the sense of superiority and the idea that The people who don't do this. They're not as good as us. We are ready and they're not ready. It's like it's it's it's bad It's separatist and there's so many bad things. I hope you just naturally realize what it is I don't want to make the video of all about that, but but it was dark and I didn't like that already Anyway, so so yeah the moments like that and then also to that that kind of you know that image of being a spiritual teacher Like soft spoken and etc. I should keep mentioning The thing is because I've been there I've been that guy. I know that that's not them It's like it's it's almost impossible that that was their natural expression And and I perceive again. I recognize what was in me in the past I would like I would look at that Young woman who was the spiritual teacher there and I could see that somewhere beneath that there's a different person There's stuff that she will not talk about there's stuff Which she will not address in front of these people because she's taking on the role of a spiritual teacher But it doesn't mean she doesn't have that I'm sure that there are parts of her that she wouldn't want others to see And it's a different video that I made I spoke all about that. That's what I did as well I I ignored some of the parts of myself. I didn't acknowledge them and later realized Damn, you know, I'm not really being myself with these people So I could see that with her too and with any spiritual teacher that I meet That you know, it's a facade and it's not healthy because first of all and I don't want to I don't want to talk about this too much because Uh, because I already have made a whole video about that like click here on the corner if you want to see about that just a quick mentioning quick note Is it's unhealthy because the people who look at you As that spiritual teacher They start to think that that's That's superior that that's the go-to that that's the best possible version of a human being and they try to replicate and imitate that as well They take you as an example and I think that's spirituality And and they try to you know grow into it and they start to repeat those sentences They start to speak like the teacher they start to act like the teacher thinking that that's that makes you somehow better It doesn't it's a fake construct being fake was never good Unless in a certain case unless you're a spy in some country, you know, and then you need to pretend But that's you know extreme case But otherwise You know that's not the path to become better and and interesting enough like that whole dilemma Beforehand when I started questioning my spirit child and when I started to realize that me being the typical spiritual teacher Is not really working for people doing more harm than good I um I started to Oh crap I lost my thought Ah, anyway, okay Let's make sure the video is valuable and I'll just I'll just come back to something valuable. So So, yeah, the thing is the construct is not real And uh, I met other other Spiritual teachers as well who are exactly like that. I could see that they're imitating something Getting the bad impression to people Uh, people are trying to be like them But yeah, I actually remember the thought and uh, um I personally when I started to question my spirituality and realizing I think myself That it's doing more harm than good To to my students Uh, I holy crap. What's happening with me every time I get to that point I lose my thought and I'm wasting your time now. This is a no go for me Whoa, what did I want to say? Oh, it's so good. Oh, and this is a one take video. Oh, man Oh, okay. Well, I repeat please bear with me. I just just skip, you know On youtube if you press the button to the right it skips 10 seconds skip to the part where I'll be talking what I need to talk. I'm sorry My viewers journeymen and women. Okay. So, oh, yeah, finally. Thank you I remember I started asking myself. So what is spirituality? How do you define spirituality? What is spiritual? And I realized it's a it's a tough It's a bad situation because I don't really think spirituality is well defined at all And what that leads to is that leads to people, um Uh, having different ideas about what spirituality is and trying they all think like they're spiritual But they have different definitions of spirituality and they can't find it Is this the same meeting point because or they go to wrong directions unhealthy directions because Their definition of what they're seeking is bad And so I asked myself so if people ask me like if if I say that I'm a spiritual person, what does that mean? Have you ever asked that? Did you ever consider if not, then holy crap crazy, huh? You're going on a spiritual path And you think like you know where you're going, but if you can't even define What that spiritual path is how can you know that where you're going is good? Or how can you know exactly where and how to walk? How can you know which methods work or not? The whole filtering system is messed up So to make sure I avoid this problem I asked myself, um How do I define spirituality? And the best answer at the day that I came to was that spirituality is Living in order to living for the whole Living for the greater good Basically it's two points. One is identifying yourself as part of the bigger whole not seeing as yourself as a separate uh, completely independent Entity which to this day, I don't believe this would be a good thing to believe because we are all connected It's kind of almost logical But if you consider yourself to be separate that that then it's all about me against them You know, it's all about survival when you consider yourself a part of the whole you realize Damn it, you know, we're like I'm like a cell in the body and I need to make sure that I'm not making the situation worse I need to make sure I'm making it better. That's one of the reasons why I'm making these videos I trust and I feel that they are you know putting in value. That's that's hopefully going to be good for others It's not about me. Oh, look at me. I'm talking. It's about me Getting something valuable to to the world. And so that's for me that is spirituality Recognizing yourself as part of the whole As part of the bigger construct Which naturally gives responsibility And and taking that responsibility on and working to do better But if you take that as spirituality Suddenly a lot of what a lot of things what people take spirituality for becomes unnecessary and nonsense like chakras For example, like something like it's you know, I think it's a make-up belief like there's no Legit proof that I ever came across the chakras exist. But the thing is Spiritual people they usually like get so, you know into it and they it becomes like it becomes like a game It's like, oh, I need to open this chakra. I need to open this chakra and that's where they perceive that spirituality is It's all about knowing what the chakras are And and and showing everyone look my navel chakra is open my I can see my third eye is open I see Wavelengths that no one one one else sees for me that's zero spirituality because spirituality How how does that help you become a better person and serve better for others? How does that positively impact others? And if you are opening your chakras to really become better to really serve people Then that's great you know then okay, well Great to you if that works, but does it because again too many spiritual people that I met they're focusing on on Creating a better image of themselves And that has nothing to do with serving others And the funny thing is if you want to serve others if you want to be more valuable to others soft-spokenness moving like From butterfly whatever it doesn't really it's not about that Actually the best of what I found And that's what i'm doing my best to to live Is is actually sometimes to swear is actually to to be to express your emotions to not dim them down to admit When you're when you're depressed Admit when you're really having a hard time in your life You know that's and to talk with about that to be open about that not to complain to everyone not to make your Problem into everyone's problem, but but to be open and say look i'm not always perfect You know I I really screwed up with my partner last night You know i'm actually in the dumb mood or I was really had a really dumb mood this weekend But then the next day you go out there and do something amazing and you show it to people that actually you can be flawed And great at the same time They're not they're not mutually exclusive I don't think that's much more spiritual if you want to have that word at all It's about really finding who you are really being yourself Really owning your ship really owning your your your strengths and weaknesses And being open about them Not pretending and not not not pretending like you're someone else not collecting enlightenment and chakras And sharing all I know about the Bhagavad Gita and you don't Not that not us against them you're if you're a part of a greater whole if that's what you recognize There's no us against them. It's all us And then everyone literally is you know your brother and sister and and then you feel compassionate And that's that's what I consider the spirituality. It has nothing to do about how you speak how you dress Or how many chakras do you open? Now I really want to come back to spiritual teachers because that's officially what the video is about I thought I felt this message was really important to share just in general about spirituality Well, let's make sure we are on point and we get some spiritual teacher stuff there too So again, we covered already one thing that you know pretending to Having the whole image of a spiritual teacher. That's not spirituality. That's fucked up um also to um And now kind of the the name of the video if I didn't decide to change it It's you know, and if youtube will allow me to use it. It's uh spiritual teachers don't know shit If that's not the name, that's what I actually initially intended spiritual teachers don't know shit And the reason again why I'm saying that is uh, I've seen Now for really spiritual teachers I met There was one dark dark bad bad thing That I came across and I was I was learning from that and for a while I was teaching that and and it's it's the worst Which I really want to make sure I address in this video And that is That spiritual teachers They're most of the times teaching stuff. They shouldn't be talking about They're I think I mentioned briefly in the beginning. That's that's kind of a Universe a common very common quality and spiritual teachers They're usually very confident, which is already a bit of a bad sign Uh, but not necessarily a confidence is bad, but but they really believe in what they're seeing and they really believe they know And that's a bad thing because the first step is to know that you don't know that's why I love Socrates and I was just to realize that actually like No matter how how well some of the things worked out for you It doesn't naturally mean that it's going to work out for others and that's a huge sin That many spiritual teachers I notice do They something and there's actually even levels here like let's say something worked for that spiritual teacher You know some type of meditation and then he goes out into the world and starts to teach everyone that specific meditation And he's like it works a hundred percent. It's the best. It's like, how do you know? That it really works for others for everyone Why don't you be a little bit humble and say It worked for me, but I can't guarantee it's going to work for you I can't guarantee it's going to work for everyone and I'm talking about meditation now But it applies to everything because that's the bad juju Spiritual teachers do they they started talking about relationships. Although they they're terrible Some of them are terrible at relationships. One of the spiritual teachers that that I was in contact with Was divorced twice That person was then And actually both of his from what I understand both of his wife's left him right Because obviously there was a good reason for that Must have been But and then he got with a partner who who was 20 years or something younger Now to a degree I could say, okay, you know, it's your deal. Okay, it's like, you know the age difference and you know People get divorced, you know, I'm divorced. So it's like It's like, you know, I get it, you know, I mean, it's it's your thing. You know, you do you But shit goes down when You went through that experience, you know, you were twice divorced And you're now spending time with the person who's way underage And you're going out there and telling others giving advice about marriage about relationships What the fuck I need to pause here for a moment because just mind boggling. It's just like What the fuck Can are you with me here? You mean like if you're listening to me like does that make sense to you like how can you do that? How deluded you have to be in order To to have when to be terrible at relationships clearly yourself the evidence shows And you're going out there and giving advice to others because Basically just because you're you're you're officially a spiritual teacher And that applies to many subjects to many fields You know, and I would understand if that particular spiritual teacher would say look, you know, I'm not that good at at At relationships, you know, he would give you a disclaimer You know, he would say to you and I'm not that good and I've been divorced twice, you know, I'm not ideal but then Still like one thing that I discovered that works for me and maybe it's going to work out for you You know, but I can't promise it's going to work for you But then, you know, this is what the best of the best that I believe in Okay, I can let you go with that, you know per se But that was not the case that particular person that I'm that I have in my mind You know, he would come to you and say, oh, you know what you shouldn't do this in a relationship Or that's a bad thing in a relationship or no, oh, you should do like that in relationships like what the hell What is this I'm hoping that the right people are listening to this video and and maybe they they've done that themselves and like Stuff for a moment and question yourself man or woman Like that's not a thing you can do It's terrible And the thing is, yeah, like what I got some advice and some, you know, relationship advice from that person and A lot of it was shit, you know, now that I'm I've been married. I'm divorced and you know, I've I've read a lot of books about relationships I'm working my ass off to be a good partner and now the partnership I have With my girlfriend so far. It's really good. I'm very happy But I think part of it is because you know, I worked my ass off for that and still I'm not going out And giving advice to people about marriage or relationships I'm super careful about that because I realized that relationships split in particular such a difficult subject You know, I respect the professionals You know who are Who put in the work to be relationship experts and that's the only thing they're living about Okay, I can go to that person and ask for advice But even then, you know, I have to be cautious because you know, they cannot give All solving solutions because there's none And a good one a good expert would realize that he knows what he doesn't know He knows that it's impossible to know everything but the spiritual teachers They don't act like that. They act like they know exactly everything And they go out and I'm sure you met some of them if you're being in the spiritual world They go out there and give you financial advice They give you business advice. They give you marital advice. They give you health advice. It's like There's no possible way. You're an expert at all those fields You know, you probably tried out this and that you dabbled a bit here dabbled a bit there And you know how to seem smart And then you go out you go around And then you try to convince everyone that that rules And the terrible thing is that spiritual teacher as I mentioned in the beginning most of them have Have a lacking part in understanding Uh having critical having critical Thinking problems I can it's an interesting thing, you know, I you there try to stop at 30 minutes But I think this is like valuable shit. So I I want to make sure that you know, I'll just go a bit on a binge and And trust me there. There's gonna be value in this. So so if you're just watching I I think it's gonna Worth watching the whole thing, you know, watch it in two times if you want So, uh And then I lost my thought like that Anyway, I'm gonna come back. So Uh, it's impossible to be an expert at everything Despite that spiritual teachers oftentimes feel like they are But that's the thing and and you know, even let's come down to to a human being level Even think let's think about ourselves. It's not like we're not guilty of that And it's not like I wasn't guilty of that either in the past Or even if we're not spiritual teachers, sometimes we go to other people and we start telling them Oh, you should do this or you shouldn't do that. It's like How the hell do I know that? You know, it's like, why do I think that I know exactly what you need? You know, that's that's that's that's arrogant That brings back also spiritual teachers. Most of them are arrogant Even a subtly I actually want to jump to this moment quickly in a moment, but one of the spiritual teachers I met in in India It's funny. It's so terrible that it's funny I met a few and and a couple of them in particular were really nice. I really loved them very humble westerners, by the way spiritual Indian monks westerners I mean Indian tradition But then I met this Indian guy like was a monk in the ashram spiritual monastery that I was living in And he invited me to take a walk And now I can tell you so clearly the walk with him was all about him Wanting to feel great about himself He had that kind of posture and wide language of I know shit And you know the thing is I think he wasn't even recognized, you know, I was enlightened He obviously was living there for years and he got that main realization Again, I speak about that in a different video, you know enlightened is not what you think check it out if you want But then but then he he had that recognition and then he gave himself permission to you know Be like I know stuff I'm gonna tell you and the whole walk we had he he was not interested At all in what I was saying That was all about him blah, blah, blah And then he would ask me questions not because he cared about the answers that I said He asked questions in order to Uh to boost himself because he knows the answer and there was one very funny moment in particular about that he uh He asked me a question about It would take me a few moments to to recollect the exact question I'm not gonna waste your time. So I'm not gonna do that. I'll just kind of give you a general feeling of it. So he was like, you know Actually, I actually even think I remember so so he was like when you paint the painting, you know, and you again He's talking the whole spiritual thing And it's like and you paint the painting and then and you create something amazing And then you suddenly look at it and it's like, wow, how did I do that? Where do you think that comes from and I was like, I knew exactly what he's talking about You know, I already read enough books and and spend enough time in spirituality, but I was also like 20 to I guess So, so, you know, I guess he he he didn't even he didn't care at all what I was saying I was like, well You know, it's well, it's because, you know, the universe was I was speaking in the spiritual terms The universe was working through him and you know, he expressed the universe and then You know and then he because it was it was not like he could own it And and and he's like It's like, oh no, no, no, and he's like and then he's like, no, no It's not that and he's he says pretty much exactly the same thing I said And I'm looking at him like I usually I'm used to be very polite. I was like, but Adam I was like Well, that's exactly what I said and he's Oh, um, oh, well, yeah Oh, well, well, and then he continues his bull crap later further and I was just like Dude And also actually also too Something I spoke with my mom and and my girlfriend Just before recording this video, which inspired me to sit down and talk with you about the subject Um, when I was in India again, um, I met some people Westerners who were living there for years for decades actually from what I understand probably they went there doing the hippie years And they you know, they were searching in like meant or whatever that was popular the day and they eventually stayed there and quite a few of them that I met where some of the them The word that comes to my mind is pathetic, but it's it's a tough word. It's a dark word What I mean is more desperate There were some they were some of the most desperate people I've met Like on all levels you could see it and I'm just like, you know, we're remembering A couple of people very vividly from that trip that I met And one of them was they're both, you know, older gentlemen like and those are separate stories in different places but they were like, you know 70 I guess something like that 60 70 and And they're just confused you can see that they they're they're confused and they're kind of Uncertain about themselves and and and they're trying to they're still seeking for that spiritual truth and kind of discussing about their spiritual subject But there's a lack of curiosity in that again It's kind of feels like they know the answer but they don't it's kind of almost confusing But but on all levels you see that, you know, they don't look that good They're kind of tired desperate and and In the end and one of the hippies That that guy was we like see is a hippie like still to today and And, you know, he was inviting me. I was I was hanging out with a bunch of tourists in a particular part of the trip We were going to darmsala the the place of deli lama. I was going to a lecture of deli lama there And we went on the bus and we met him I think in the bus station was like early morning and he's like, oh, you know, I have a place He was telling us about speciality of the land and he was like, oh, I actually have a place You could all, you know, lie down there and and my group was kind of excited. They're like, oh, it sounds great And I could see like He just wants to boost himself. You know, I could already perceive that and And I didn't want to, you know, just go there and Be brainwashed by him him trying to prove that he knows his stuff And I wasn't so excited So I think I started to be like to get the group to tours like, oh, well, you know, at least I'm not happy about this Even like you go, I won't go and everyone started to have doubts And I could clearly see I actually read body language That's one of the things I like to do is, you know, I have some knowledge about body language So so and especially when I lecture when I when I do public speeches I I read body language or when I was in a key tone structure organ structure is so important to understand, you know, with people How people feel and what they think in order so you would know better, you know How to how to really make sure they engage So yeah, body language, I was reading his body language and I could see that he was He was what's the right word here, but but he was um kind of hurt in a way but also kind of like basically I would if I would have to say what is happening is mine is like Oh, no, it's okay. I was rejected and and that he was just so upset not in an angry way But just kind of in a sad way. He's like, oh, they're not gonna go with me And you feel you're like if you're a spiritual guy person woman, whatever Isn't spirituality all about becoming free You know kind of shedding off the chains of your limitations And that guy devoted his whole life for in that kind of very cliche traditional spirituality lived in india, whatever And you could see that he's so fragile So easy to hurt him Like he he needed to boost his own ego by having us at this place. That's my interpretation Which I think is fair to think it's probably true And when we said no He felt kind of hurt It's like is that what spiritual people are Do I want to be a spiritual people person then if it's like that? Do you see what i'm getting to? And that applies to a lot of spiritual teachers that I met like if you get to know them closer, there's like It's not that great. So why would I want to do what they do? It's the thing to think about But yeah, but then the main message I really wanted to come across just coming back to spiritual teachers And spirituality is but actually specifically spiritual teachers They the idea that they don't know shit They don't You know, most of them never went through some hardcore education Of all the specific Things that they're talking about like actually again, I'll give you another example I just had I met a lot of spiritual teachers from my life Through that career spiritual career had and there was this one woman who Who was kind of a cool lady in the day when I met her initially But then she at a certain point she decided she's going to become a spiritual teacher Actually, it's kind of even worse. She she she turned into spirit spirituality became interested in the esoterics And then she could see she's transforming. He's changing Becoming weirder and weirder and soon enough like I don't know like six months later Or let's say a year. She decided she's now a spiritual teacher. It's like holy crap, right? worst thing She was giving lectures online lectures about relationships again relationships Although I think if I remember well, I'm pretty sure it's correct. She wasn't in a relationship herself at the moment She went through a break break up some time ago She barely had like legit good experience with relationships and she was giving Relationship online lessons and the the the terrible thing is that People are not smart enough. They don't have enough critical thinking to realize I shouldn't listen to her You know, I this is not the person to believe in and and there's A smart person who's going to look and say like how does who's she? To talk about relationships like what is what makes her opinion valuable Doesn't smart person will see that and will not listen But there's a whole group of people who are dying To listen to people like that and they feed each other Now then somebody says oh such a great advice and that spiritual teacher is like Oh, it is a great advice and then it's a vicious circle You know, so it's it's fed from both directions So we should be careful, you know not to go there And and that's that's something I wanted to to mention as well is I hope your brain is not frying right now, but Anyway, I actually have like 10 minutes more on the gopro. So it's as far as I can go So I'm gonna think I'll finish soon enough But yeah, that's one more thing I wanted to mention about spirituality is that being in that world for long enough I've I've I've started to recognize that most of the people that I met that turned into spirituality were usually people who are suffering You know, they had some flaws in their lives Where they you know, they were either they had some traumatic experience or Or they were lost and confused and they would go to spirituality to seek for answers And I think part of it is because it's an easy answer You know, you don't need to put in a lot of work there Just go to spiritual teacher and he says to you what's right and and nobody pressure tests anything Nobody, you know questions anything and then suddenly you're part of the pack and you say the same thing to others and everybody likes you You know, it's not like real real work where you have to you know, of course, there may be exceptions But I think the general direction is from what I saw is, you know, you just Go about there you say the right thing you do the right thing which everybody does and you're approved and and and suddenly have a lot of Yeah, you have a lot of paint horn Traumatized people You know teaching each other And believing that this is gonna help Sad actually when you think about that. Yeah Now, yes, I want to mention that I don't think I was that bad I don't know why I'm saying this. I guess I'm trying to make myself feel a bit better or not to seem too bad I always try to be humble. I always spoke about only the things which I really believed in But also too again, I believe in the wrong things as well Like my teacher who I completely believed in Said some some good stuff, but a lot of that was also bullcrap And I because I believed in him I trusted in him so much I would go to others and would tell them The same thing And then I would realize later on like shoot It wasn't actually a very good advice So I hope you're not doing the same