 Praise the Lord. Do you love the King? Do you love our King Jesus? Isn't he so beautiful? Isn't God such a wonderful God? You know we sing these songs you know our God is an awesome God. He reigns from heaven above but the truth is he really is awesome you know and it says by the dayspring of the tender mercies of God we've been drawn to Him. He's just merciful. More than we think God is so ridiculously kind and one of the biggest struggles that we have is to actually understand His personal kindness toward us. I've met many people I travel a lot. I go all over the world and it's great. I meet many people but one of the greatest problems that I see in the family of God is not and I don't focus on the problems I'm trying to focus on Him because He's always the answer. You know your marriage like our brother said earlier your marriage is stuffed more of Jesus. Your body needs healing more of Jesus you know and Catherine Corman used to say the healing takes place when Jesus becomes more present to you than the sickness and so the answer is always the Lord but you know sometimes the tender mercy of God the part that causes me to be drawn to the Lord and be free of condemnation. Sometimes condemnation can creep in really softly and swiftly and you don't even know it's there but all of a sudden you just never feel like you're enough for God and the love the tender mercy is what causes you to feel like you're enough. You know those moments where you're in your car and you just have to pull over to the side you know those moments and you just have to go on the side of the road because his tears streaming down your face and you had that worship song on and just the presence of the Lord ministered to your spirit and unlock that kind of feeling of tiredness and I'm really on a goal in my own life just to not be tired before the Lord but to be hungry but to not motivate myself just out of discipline. Discipline is the lowest form of intimacy it's the it's the it's the entry level of intimacy to the Lord. Passion, first love, fire, union these things are the highest form of intimacy with God. Discipline is great but it will only cause you it will bring you to maybe it will bring you to a place of function but it will not bring you to a place of surrender it will it will help you get there but it cannot sustain you in fact if discipline replaces the passion you end up actually grieved inside at the reason you came to God and that's difficult because then you feel like you're never enough in the presence of the Lord which means the praise and the life is headed that way but it's not headed back to you which means you become very dry you become very self-abrasive and and these things don't help the presence of God in your life. You're meant to be in love with your King. God is love he's not a heavy burden heavy yoking God but Ben don't we have to serve in the church of course you serve but I'm not stacking a chair so someone can pat me on the back I'm stacking a chair because I love Jesus. I used to when I was in Bethel I was a pastor you know and I used to I wanted to be so right with God you know Bill Johnson this man from Bethel church I don't know if you know this church I'm speaking to you about but this man he said to me once he said Ben you know he's like you're you're a bit similar to me and he goes you're gonna have to watch out that you know just just to be aware and conscious of the fact that you might go to extremes at times you'll try and extreme serve you'll try and extreme and he goes but God wants you to also know that he loves you he's with you and he's a good God you know and and you can just do things because of joy he goes you'll go to you'll say something extreme then you go to extreme regret he said you want to make sure that you notice in your own soul that you're not being too hard on yourself that you're being soft to yourself I don't know why I'm saying this this is not the one I'm gonna share with you I just felt to share that with someone like maybe you really truly love God I loved the worship was so beautiful back then it was so powerful I like how the lights went off in one part too I love that that was amazing but I love the worship so much and it was so so beautiful and so innocent but you know I just want to encourage you Jesus is love God loves you what good would it do you if he bankrupted heaven and bled for your soul only to have you for the rest of your life berate the soul that he died to save how does that work it doesn't last very long I've suffered deeply with condemnation as a Christian and the condemnation wasn't necessarily even just the enemy attacking me it was my own drive to be so deep with God and further with God and sometimes I would just draw myself into a place where I'm never doing enough and when you never enough the problem is in that place your mind begins to stay in a place where it's always got something to do which means you can never rest which means you can never receive in order to receive your hands have to be empty they've got to be empty you have to rest a little you know Jesus even said this to the disciples in the midst of a very tumultuous time he said draw aside with me and rest a little while and they did and Jesus went up and was with his father and you know you can look at God many ways you can slice the Lord in many ways in terms of the dexterity of revelation I love my Bible very very much and I can see God in many angles and I love preaching what Paul called the full counselor not withholding that from the family of God the full counsel of God's revelation everything about God he's a righteous judge yes but he's the Lord the healer yes he's Jehovah Shema the Lord with us he's all these things you know the Lord is he's not he doesn't play games with people and there's so many camps and Christianity there's so many rivers you know we're in the river of pray all night we're in the river of so called a we're in the river of evangelism we're in the river of some people are just they are the river they call themselves you know there's there's so much stuff and all of it's wonderful because they're all expressions of this amazing diamond called the Lamb of God they're all expressions but sometimes what we do is we anchor ourself on one part of God's nature and then we continually basically we check ourselves against that part of the nature of God and if you do that you don't let the nature of his love minister to you you end up in a place where you actually become in a sense subservient to the Lord because you're not really giving your life and this happened to me in fact the Lord changed me and gave me an encounter that changed my life on a golf course I used to go and pray at a golf course I'd go at 10 11 o'clock at night and there was kangaroos there in Australia it's pretty cool you know so the only thing I'd feel when I'm praying seeking the Lord I'd feel this person come behind me and it was a kangaroo and and and it was kind of scary sometimes but a whole group of them would come and I'd be out there in the fifth green seventh green whatever by myself and I could just shout to the Lord and just Jesus you know I want you use my life and all this stuff and then one time I was sitting down on the golf course and and it's late late at night and and I was just like God I mean I've been crying out for hours and that was hours upon days upon months upon a long time and I said God and I said I have these feelings inside when I'm coming to you that I actually I have to be honest with you because I always wanted to be like David because when I read David I'm sure you're like I want to be a man after your very own heart and David was so real he wasn't fake I can't stand the things of ingenuineness I want to be real even if I'm real the wrong way I'd rather be real if that makes sense you know and so I'd always be honest with God okay God I I come to you but I'm tired I'd be honest with him you know but you are the I declare the things you are the strength you are my you know I always try to end with what is the right thing to say and eventually after several years of doing that and this particular time I was really battling certain sins I wanted to overcome and I was just yelling and I said God I said I pray to you so often I'm here all the time you know and I said but something inside me sometimes it feels like I actually like I hate you like something feels like I don't like you because I don't feel like you answer me all the time and and you know what he said to me you're so profound God has a way of answering you that does two things at once it pierces you makes you feel like it's like 10,000 light bulbs going around you like oh yeah how simple is this and the other thing it does is it actually brings you down it brings you to a place of you actually love me you know what the Lord said he said and because I was trying to be honest I said God forgive me I confess you I've had these thoughts of like kind of bitterness toward you because I come here all the time and pray and I'm always seeking you and I don't know if you I feels like you rarely answer me with major things you answer me but I want to more God and I'm just hungry you know the Lord said to me the golf course because I said God forgive me for any thought of hatred towards you I'm sorry if I have any hate or anger towards you and you know the Lord said he goes he goes you don't hate me he goes you hate who you think I am some of you didn't get that you don't you love God why would I be at a golf course at 12 at night you love God the frustration isn't with the Lord the frustration is you think he's harsh you think God's hard on you you think he's a God who dangles a carrot and withholds from you that which is good he doesn't do that to you and so you beat yourself and you can you try and get better and and God doesn't want to improve you he was always about killing you not improving you Jesus came didn't he as the second Adam your first inheritance was from the first Adam you could do nothing about it your first inheritance you were getting up in the morning destined for sin and hell you were getting up in the morning you are not to better that life Jesus came to kill that life you know many Christians they're going to heaven living the same way that they were headed to hell while they were headed to hell they were trying to live self-improve life be a good person do things well and then they become a Christian they try and do things well self-improve prove themselves to God what is the difference they were trying to live a good life heading to hell now they're trying to live a good life heading to heaven there is no difference they're still tired they're still not at rest inside the nature of God in the man and that's the whole point isn't it when they're in the midst of the garden do you see Adam striving with God but I'm not talking about prayer you might think well we should pray out loud I don't care how loud it is you can have you can have a megaphone and pray God doesn't care how loud God cares about the posture of where your prayer comes from and what your prayer expects God spoke to me last year I was praying for sick people and I love miracles a lot especially deliverance in fact pastor Vlad said to me he said I'm I'm the white guy of deliverance I don't know what that meant exactly but he was like I'm the white boy of deliverance you know because usually these big African ministers you know they have like a lot of deliverance ministries and he called me the white boy I like that it's kind of cool I am a white boy I need to get out in the sun more often but um but and there's no race coming in that by the way so just so you understand he just meant like not a lot of usually it's the Africans in the big rock long road I'll come out of the and all that stuff you know and I'm just an Aussie guy who's like get out demons get out you know I'm very I don't like demons you know but I lost my point then the enemy's trying to steal the sermon get out in Jesus name and um isn't he good these little notes he does to help yes I was praying for the sick a lot I was praying to cast out demons a lot I wanted more breakthrough my father he had the enemy really attacked my father and he committed suicide so I wanted to break through I'm like we need to fight the enemy we need to go after the enemy we need I don't want to just stand back and watch him take the world to hell I want to fight and I was praying for people and I'm like God and and I just got into this rhythm as a pastor of people coming to me saying hey I have a bad back hey my sister's she's got a frozen shoulder hey you know my best friend they can't have kids or whatever or my family is a train wreck my son's gone away from God and and so I became pastoral in my prayers and the Holy Spirit last year as I had my hand on someone's back said Ben you're not praying and I was like what do you mean it you know I knew what he meant but I was like what and he's like I'm you're praying prayers he goes it would be better that you say nothing because you're not praying a prayer with any expectation that I'm actually about to do it you're praying a prayer to comfort her the posture matters to God the words didn't mean anything God thank you Lord we just declare this back yet gets healed that can be so superficial you can be almost praying her out of the equation so you don't have to have faith the Lord said don't pray those prayers to me he said that's not a prayer that you're expecting me to answer put your hand on her back and command her back to be healed that's a prayer of faith that's a prayer according to God's nature not Ben's nature see in Ben Ben can't heal Ben can't keep himself sinless it's all to the glory of God God can heal God can deliver you God can God can God will God God does the only thing that is in between you and the Lord in terms of the fact that we're a new born creation if we believe 2nd Corinthians 5 17 18 down all the way down to 20 because the ambassador part matters as well but if we believed that verse even just one verse that we are so very familiar with it says all things have become new all which means there's no area listen to this for just for a second think about Jesus okay when he when he stepped on the earth was he the fullness of God in a man yes did he did he operate it did he open the eyes of everybody and say there's the 12 legions of angels behind me did he always display the white raymen of his light that says it's blinding impossible for you to look at the face of God and live did he always display that no right he kept it hidden but he did it the scriptures very clear Jesus said to the father I manifested your glory so he didn't keep it all hidden he just there's a heavenly glory and Jesus took on an earthly form in that glory but there's more to him the craziest part to me though is the guy who fashioned the universe with God and by the way some people stumble over the God of the Old Testament thinking how can God tell David to kill all those Philistines do understand that Jesus Christ was sitting next to God as the father would give a command to David or tell an angel to give instruction to David Jesus Christ was sitting there watching every decision in the Old Testament that the father made and saying well done father that is a good decision do you understand that it says before Abraham was I am Jesus didn't come to the earth and say I'm going to improve your nature he came as God himself if you've seen me you've seen the father the fullness of the Godhead bodily God in a man God back in the man God made the second Adam the final Adam that's how he came but when Jesus came to earth the father had a mission for him called a cross and that cross that mission that he took on was not a mission of like Jesus is going to die on the cross and save the world the mission wasn't just salvation the salvation the satirio which you mentioned that salvation is not just saved it's the deliverance of life Pastor Lanna mentioned that before with this beautiful amazing lady Anna her testimony you know the spirit of the Lord came to restore the union that was between God and man that humanity as a race would be God covenant it all the time that every country every citizen every nation and that's what will happen when we get to heaven every person there will be God connected God one and God covenant it everyone you won't have to go hey hell how much are you connected to God everybody God will be in the mall it says in the book of Isaiah God will teach them all but Jesus when he went to that cross the fullness of God in a man he put every single thing of the future the world to come your life your heart your struggle your pain all the things that you would be enduring is a temptation the devil's warfare everything every sickness he put it all inside the elements two elements God factored in its so brilliant of God it's such a thing to agree to a mindset that is so high and lofty they can't understand this but God put himself into a flesh and then placed himself into two elements of that flesh which is the body of Jesus being beaten ribbons torn off his flesh for your healing for your body for your life for your body to actually resonate with God's power and the second thing was and it wasn't just the healing of sickness it's the prosperity of soul and then the second thing the blood which is a propitiation for sin which actually cleanses the man in order for the nature to be changed in the man he put all of the things that you would ever need inside two elements when you hold that body and that blood everything for the whole future of humanity as a second race a new creation second Adam race was put into that body it's pretty amazing so that when you commune with God everything that was false about God in your mind is surrendered everything that you thought God was only in one nature it's surrendered you see him as he is so that you can become the way he called you to be he put it all in the cross in one man isn't that phenomenal so that when you pray you don't have to hope when you call on God you don't have to think he's a harsh far away God you can actually believe the gospel many believers are not honest with the Lord they keep going and going and going and then burnout happens the only reason burnout happens isn't because their intimate life was waning they're like well I didn't pray as much that's not the cause of burnout the cause of you can be praying heaps and still burn out the cause of burnout is that they didn't understand the person they were praying to what does Hebrews for say let us boldly approach the throne if pastor Vlad says you can boldly pat my dog I'm not gonna go hey dog you know and tap him I'm gonna go hey come here I'm gonna I'm gonna hello hello boy I'm gonna act as if like he's my friend the dog because you've given me access to the dog if they say you can sleep in this bed they are so kind to me they had me over to the house they're so very kind as pastors very you have amazing leaders I've only met Pastor Vlad and Pastor Lana for like less than 24 hours but already I'm like they are wonderful people I am thoroughly enjoyed being freezing on the balcony last night I thoroughly enjoyed it but they gave me their bed and they're so sweet they're like you here's a brand they gave me a brand you tell they made me feel like I was boldly welcomed she didn't go don't touch that towel too much only just just dry your elbow I don't want that Australian smell on my tail that's why you have a good washing machine she they boldly welcome me God boldly welcomed us who you pray to who you understand to be God is the very thing that wets your appetite for hunger if you think he's a God that is just starving you like and he's not the master of an orphanage if you think he is he will be because your conscience won't perceive the goodness that he wants to pour out on you sometimes the Lord tells me to be quiet and he's not telling me to be quiet so it's a quiet time so I could learn the the stillness people we overspiritualize so much that my main concern right now in the modern-day church is that spiritual language is being used as a currency for the church because people are sounding so very close to God but they're not which means they don't have living bread which means they can tell you how intimate and all this stuff about God they could not cast a demon out if you tried they have no oil in their land intimate language like even big movements right now people are like there's stuff happening in our family we need to get back to this simple love for Jesus we need to get back to this simple obsession with the Father Son and Holy Spirit I'm serious man God is I'm so compelled by this right now I'm like everything that's fake has to go even in me I'm like God get that I see the motivation there Jesus and it says you clearly will judge the hearts of man everything will be seen in secret Corinthians can't lie Paul said it he goes it will all be on display therefore by the terrors of the Lord I persuade men it's a terrifying thing to be on display having lived a fake world to be in the most real world ever but if you just get real then you can boldly approach the most real God ever it's so good and then you can become what the world actually needs then you can pray prayers that change people instead of just sounding religious is this the fast I've chosen to beat yourself up one of the major points of Isaiah 58 God's literally changed my entire walk with him through Isaiah 58 I love fasting I've done 40 days 28 days 21 days I've done all that and I think that you guys are on something in the spirit in your fast because of the heart posture that's what the Lord looks at but I've been in times where like God says to me Isaiah 58 7 many told me to go to those verses and you know what it says it says do not hide yourself from your own flesh you can go into the prayer closet cry out and think you're doing God a good service but the Lord's asking you to actually fall in love with him and go and take him to some hurting person the Lord said to me in Reading California he said son you pray a lot but you hide yourself from your own flesh and I had to ask him who's my flesh God he said your neighbors your unsafe family and friends the church isn't your own flesh those who don't know me hard that's why I died that's why I died for you I believe your fastest God ordained I'm not knocking that at all I'm not even mentioning that with that in mind just so you're clear I don't want sometimes when you say something and someone's related to it in the crowd they think it wasn't you not at all had zero to do with that fast I actually think it's fully of God in fact it's it's someone rang me yesterday and said I feel Ben you need to go on another fast and so when they're talking about it it's actually doubling the conviction on me so I'm very convicted and for sure we were feasting last night and for sure we'll feast again today before the fast begins I encourage you put some weight on before pack it in make it a good day today all right make it a feasting day but what does the Lord require what does the Lord desire here's the Pharisee thank you I fast twice a week I give one tenth of my income someone walks in beats their head on their chest won't even raise their face to heaven Jesus said which one went home in the side of God justified justified being just as if I never sin which one went home with a pure conscience the one who is real the one who came to God and said here I am Lord God you know what I come to you I pray all the time but actually I see you as a father who withholds from me I don't believe that you're always good I believe I have to prove it and then maybe I'll get something from you father I'm sorry I've bankrupted your nature you're nothing like that I've seen you be kind to so many people but I think you're not kind to me paint a bull's eye on me Jesus wreck me with your kindness that's the God we serve God I thank you that I can have such compassion when I pick up a little African kid and love on him but when you look at me you think of me the same way but I don't believe it God therefore we transform by the renewing of your mind that make you may prove the will of God how can I prove God's good because I feel he's good because I know he's good to me how can I prove God can heal because I pray and I know he's healer how can I prove the anointing is real because I know that power was given to me to do the work of the Lord not just to somebody else not just for someone who could prove it better than I can to God but then what is the faithful steward stuff come into it where does it come in the balance of you must be faithful for sure you got to be 100% faithful but discipline as I said is the lowest form of discipleship faithfulness because of passion is I know Pastor Lanna and Pastor Vlad when Pastor Vlad looks at her he's not like I'm gonna discipline myself to hug her today he doesn't think that way in fact he told me that last night he was like I knew I knew when I met her I knew I liked her and he knew have you ever seen two brand new married couples they walk down the street like this they don't think you're alive they think they're their love story is all that matters to them they're like this I love you and you're people older people walk past that's disgusting and you're just jealous it's not disgusting you're just like inside you're like that old guy I've seen people in Germany where I live and we have these big stadium events and God is touching Germany thousands of people being saved trust me there's amazing things happening not just Germany all over Europe it's been very powerful but I sit in the German restaurants pastor I sit there and I watch them like this how's your schnitzel hmm a bit better than last week good and they're dead they live together but really alone I've met many Christians but they're dead they live together but really alone and then you meet these nine-month-old ones who come out of the womb of God and they're like do you guys want to pray today and you're like we have a football game it starts at four out of the you know the Seahawks are playing at four and and they're like they're like awesome we can pray in the break and we're like okay and you can't say no because you know it's right what would it be if you just actually were like yes let's pray why do you think God meant for prayer loving the lost loving the Lord all of that to be a Judean let's see how you do and when you get to heaven I'll give you joy what a joke I don't want that Christianity to you most of us are sick sad and disgusted in heavens our home that we get out of this bad world for why did the Holy Spirit end to me so the second Adam's life could be in mind I'm not left to the the depletions of Ben then cannot give me joy the Holy Spirit can the Lord loves you the Lord has a plan for you he loves your friend he doesn't want you to beat yourself up anymore what's it doing for yourself a basement judgment criticism condemnation where's it getting you with God closer or further if you don't think this is biblical I've already mentioned about 10 scriptures I can give you some more Vlad said the very verse that I wanted to read he said it as he was introducing me didn't know that I like and that happens I was going to read this to you Romans 12 one I beseech you therefore brethren ready by the tender soft squishy hugging by the tender mercy of God as if Jesus is like hey we're a holy family not like this are you holy you're a joke if you're not holy that's not Jesus I beseech you by the tender soft forgiving Lord I lay my head on the pillow and there's no condemnation because all my sin has been removed the tender mercy of God there's no way I want to go back to porn the tender mercy of God to present your body as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to God for this is your act this is so good this is better than I'm gonna let me preach to this woman this is better than you're getting you understand to understand that it is not okay in this life where you have trouble yeah did Paul say sleeplessness is often fastings often we're persecuted we're called the filth of the world as if the scourge of this world yet you are blessed us apostles the least of all people now apostles all they want is they want a business card and everybody to knock on their door like they're the Messiah now apostles are so pried for oh do you know how many churches we have brother it's a joke one prayer meeting I'll never forget about hearing about it was here in the United States there was a group of pastors all together and past the Yongi Cho was visiting and when he came to visit this guy had no idea who this Asian man was if you don't know who Yongi Cho is Yongi Cho has a church of 750,000 people and Yongi Cho is a humble man and he came here to America and this guy with all these leaders in Texas said goes well they're all standing goes let's pray and he goes well I guess I better pray considering my church is the biggest in town and he was holding hands with Yongi Cho his church is 5,000 the Holy Spirit said to me once he said Ben numbers don't mean a lot he said you know Jesus Ben can speak to billions of people at once every day at once having can you fathom this he can have 2 billion more if you wanted to but even just what the population of Christians are 1 to 1.8 billion he can have 1.8 billion individual conversations at the same moment all together at one time while he's telling you one thing he's telling the next person what different he can talk 8.1 billion combos at once he's texting everyone oh I've got the biggest church an apostle a person of God is one who said here is my will here is my life good and faithful father how is it that you would go to the cross for me for one who is so embedded in darkness and you would take on those nails and you would allow them to drive those things covered in rust and blood and covered in the curse of sin drive those through my hands and crush put that that crown of thorns I mean it says they drove it into him with sticks into his mind and they drove that crown into his brain so that you could have a mind of peace this is Jesus of the apostles and Paul the apostle I've got nothing against offices and buildings I have an assistant it's hard for people to get a meeting with me without going through my assistant because if they ask me they won't get it because I'll forget it but she remembers it but I don't care about the there's no pecking order there's honor there's archangels there's double honor for elders those things are biblical but there's never a place where it says an elder can have more pride Paul said that we are the greatest of servants we're the ones who are the debased ones we're sacrificing on our knees we're up there in the mountain crying out God save Ephesus when you're out there drinking having a great time where the ones considered the scourge of the world where the ones being attacked and persecuted by the devil where the ones in the spiritual war when you're out there having fun watching football on Sunday but that's the life of the apostles that's the joy of that so present your bodies because he's so tender merciful holy and good present ago here's porn I fed on that what a security here's people's opinion I love how they double tap they like me I love when they mention me and things I love that yeah that's fed me a bit but he is so good this just feeds a bit and it leaves me wanting more afterwards it is like sugar but the soul of the earth the life of the world the good will of God toward man is the Messiah Jesus Christ and your body is his temple but he's good to you he loves you he doesn't sit there with arms crossed ready to shoot you down he's trying to raise you up he's a good father I'll share this before I finish and I want to pray for people I don't want to go too long but I just I just honestly I just want to worship God I hear things guys I don't want to make you down I want to tell you more about the jewels and the heavenly things of God that the precious stones that will abide when the conveyor belt of the fire of God tries the work of man that the precious stones the real love for Jesus the genuine outcry for God the heart that is purified refreshed because it's God in you not you in you not you trying so hard but God inside you working to do according to his good will and pleasure like it says in Philippians too that's God inside your life that's the that's how you do the works of God because you let God come in and go hey but we have this thing called a free will and people right now are manufacturing intimacy there's groups out there right now they're going to like it's not Bethel it's not people maybe even know they're like we're gonna write 120 songs in three months that's our goal how do you do that with oil on it how do you write 103 songs a day or whatever with oil where does that stuff come from it comes from I love production multiplication we multiply I love all that you should see our team we're like raise up leaders raise up leaders that's all we want to do but I don't want to raise up leaders who think that this thing is the definition of Christian success this thing you can have it you won't go home with joy just because of this you will because of this we need that we need to redefine again the simplicities of Christ 2nd Corinthians 11 Paul said I warn you and he said I'm troubled that the same way that the serpent deceived Eve your mind may be drawn away from the simplicity that's in the Christ what kind of drawing what did Satan do with Eve you know what he's Satan said to God he goes he goes I'll be greater than you and you know what happened lightning button bang he's on the earth God pushed a button he's gone he said and he took one third of the angels Ezekiel 28 says by the multitude of his trading he caused one third of the angels to fall how could you be in the very glory of God looking face-to-face at God the eminence of life coming out of you in heaven there is no lack of joy every angel has joy they're not up there like with wounds I need a coffee with you Michael I'm struggling they're not like that they're living for they're fully able to abide in that river of God but by the multitude it says of his trading the Hebrew word they're trading is gossip he went to the angels are you don't you're beautiful but has God told you that you're an amazing angel has God stepped off and given you a better position has God sold you something don't you know you should be preaching more and he gossiped and convinced yeah I deserve more there's something missing from me and he used the same wisdom with Eve said there's something missing with you and God he knows that if you eat that you're a different person and God is dangling a carrot he's not as good as you think and that simple trust like a kid like Eve had all the sudden was corrupted from the simplicity of God loves me God would give me anything he's such a good dad didn't he surely promise all the promises of God and him a yes and amen all that Abrahamic seed has gone into me because it went into one man Christ or Abraham's promises of mine all of the things that God said are headed toward me like a bullseye because he really is good but the devil knows how to get your mind and take it away and you know what he said to God he said I'll be greater than God he can't be can he can he go up there and go excuse me I'd like you to quit he doesn't even have a voice to do those things again the lightning button he'll fall again like lightning what's the next best thing if I can't be greater than God I'll be greater than God in their mind in God's very own children on the earth I'll get into their conscience and I'll sit on the seat of the throne of their mind and rule them by the temptation for them to become something outside of God I'm gonna become great God is great God in a man God feeding a woman that's God who's great Satan's a liar Jesus is the truth okay this is the last thing I share with you by the way when preachers say that they're lying that this really is the last thing is this speaking to any of you if I'm preaching to one man and one woman they're convicted I'm good hello hello live streamers by the way I love you all I have to say hello there but I'm here hello look at you Constantine bless you I'll give you a fist bump I love you very much God bless you these beautiful people guys burn for King Jesus give everything to your King don't live for what man can so it's it will only sell you short of what God wants to give don't think he's a harsh God he's a God that doesn't want to condemn and I finished with this I was fasting long fast I was getting ready for awakening Europe that's our ministry in Europe and I said God I really want you to really change me in and so I put this worship stuff on for two three hours a day and I just stopped eating you know and I started doing juice like beetroot juice and things like beets and stuff you know carrot juice and stuff and I started praying and it was really quite good but halfway through I'm like something's missing I feel like I've been not eating for like 21 days or something and 22 days and I'm like it hasn't changed me yet and I just heard so clearly from the Spirit of God switched to water so I did and then all of a sudden it was like like heaven turned on me and I was just hearing the Lord in a different way and it's like something changed I can't explain that and there's no law around that I'm not telling you that that's a law it was just what God told me but unlike the 38th day still I felt something inside like God I'm crying out so much I'm really pressing in but I want to be changed I don't want to be touched I don't want to just have a mark I want you to change me and so something took place and I I got on the floor and I was kind of weak by the time and and I had my worship on again and I got on the floor and I had my head down like this I was right down on the ground like this and I was like that and as I had had my head like that on the ground the Lord as up my head was facing the carpet the Lord Himself walked into my room how did I know it was God I felt two feet step right near me in front of me two feet and each foot had fire in it like fire coming off it and when it stepped close to me I knew it's not an angel you just know Jesus it doesn't he's like he doesn't have to announce himself very hard and all of a sudden I was like Jesus Jesus and I'm looking into the carpet and this fire hit my head and went all through my body and I was like Jesus and he didn't say anything he just stood there and it got hotter and hotter and hotter the scripture calls God an all-consuming fire it's what he is and so I'm like Jesus and now I'm crying God take my life and everything it was all genuine very genuine and then I see as my face is buried into the carpet I see a huge piece of metal like this huge wide you know when you drive underneath a train track bridge and you see that big thick piece of bronze rusted metal you know that look like that the big fat piece not thin huge I see this big thing in front of me covered in bronze and it's rusted it's old it's not holy it looks bad it doesn't look good and then all of a sudden I'm like Jesus Jesus and he's standing in front of me with his two feet they're saying nothing and I say Jesus change me Jesus change me I let go Jesus I let go that kind of thing and then all of a sudden I see fire like hit the middle of this huge slab of metal and I heard the sound like it was such a weird sound I could never recreate it with my mouth it was like woo like a weird the noise of metal bending I don't know if you've ever heard metal bend maybe some of you who are engineers or in a shop you know but it was something like off-transformers where they knocked down a pole and it bends or it was like a sound effect it was so strange I I heard the noise of metal bending in this fire was touching the middle of this huge slab of metal then I hear as I'm watching this and I'm like you know and I don't know what's going on and as I'm watching I hear Jesus speak from above to me like this but it goes through my heart okay I didn't see him audibly or physically but I felt the physical fire and I knew there was feet standing right there he said this Ben like that so the tender mercies of God he said Ben yield to me and when you've done that yield again and when you've done that yield again three times and then he disappeared and I'm like this at the end of it I was like God and I got up off the ground crying and I was a mess I couldn't just leave as a mess and I got up off the ground as I got up off the ground I was like Jesus Jesus and something inside felt different Jesus God thank you softer just settled peace I couldn't I was troubled I couldn't help but think what is that metal what the heck was that about the metal and so I said later on that day I said to God you know he just asked me like God what was that about I said God what was this huge slab of metal that I saw you know he said to me he said son that was your will and I'd stopped me I was like oh no it was like a second encounter but I didn't feel condemned because I'd already been bent but I was like oh God I said God I'm so sorry how stiff I can be you tell me to go and talk to that person at the grocery store and I can clearly know it's you my heart begins to beat and I just ignore you you tell me to just come and pray and love on you just be with you but I'm there just for my agenda to tick off I did my hour of prayer now I feel like a self-righteous Christian you come here to the fountain of your word and you're not looking for God you're looking just to make sure you finish that chapter and all these hard things in the will and my football will come before your presence on my this becomes for your presence now remember there's no legalism in God he can talk to you in the football game he can talk to you while you're watching gladiator he does with me I want to cut every devil's head off brave heart all of those ones I'm like that's me I'm brave heart Jesus but how stubborn the will is the only thing separating you from true joy is your will and some of your wills is I'm gonna will to show God how much I can prove myself to him and he's like wouldn't you just let go I'd like you just to actually receive the Spirit of the Lord because then I'll be through you and the work will be to my glory not yours some of your self condemnation you're not letting go of it you're like but I know I haven't pleased God well that's your pride because you're telling God that your prideful thought about how bad you are is actually bigger than God's love for you so therefore you're telling God that his nature cannot work effectively that means that your will is stiff because you're not letting him burn that place and you just go I actually really do love you I want you to believe in my love this morning this afternoon the Lord wants to do some house cleaning he wants to come into your heart and he wants to take away anything that causes that big thick piece of metal to keep you stuck in the same kind of cycles with God even if it's a dead religious cycle even if it's the pride of ministry and guys you're an amazing worship team but remember remember we're not worshiping who becomes the best worshiper you know Francis Chan the guy came to Francis Chan and said to him I don't like the worship in your church and Francis Chan said that's okay we're not worshiping you there's no celebrities in heaven there's only ones who are intimate Levites intimate lovers and that's who you're gonna be because the Russian communities I've gone to around the world some of it's just a show not here here you love the Lord but I've been to some churches in Russia other places just a show it's all a big show and the pastors treat their wives like garbage I've been there I've seen it it's wrong it's fake it's not real love for Jesus and real love for people it's not about this stage this thing is not about us it's about feeding him and feeding them and then what he gives back to us is maybe he'll even make your name great among the nations like you did David he'll make your fame increase maybe he will and that's not to be despised but the heart posture is I want to love you I want people to love you more the heart posture is always to the King of the universe because at the end of the day we're gonna stand before that throne and that worship song and we're gonna see how in tune we are with their worship band would you like to be in tune with the glory would you like to be filled with God okay then forsake whatever it is today and be vulnerable with the Lord stop playing the game of trying to be tough stop playing the game of sitting there well I'm a good man I'm a good Ukrainian businessman here in Pasco and I'm not I don't show much emotion to God that's rubbish you yell at the football team when they go the wrong goal you get passionate but here for Jesus you're afraid listen you've got to let go of all that garbage and nonsense and actually come to the throne of God and be real the Lord loves you and for those who self-condem for those who pick on themselves and harden their own conscience and try and serve to be seen that is not the goal serve because you love God he'll give you a nation to serve love God love people it's the simplicity of Christ don't let us snake in but what is in the way this morning let it be out of the way come to the altar with whatever it is that keeps your will there and let the fire of God yield it again even if you're in ministry team it doesn't matter I travel the whole world if I told you the things I know behind closed doors you would be shocked it makes me feel gross I don't want to boast of what the enemy's done to infect people but he's infected our house with performance and I have taken the bait before I'm not telling you I haven't I have so many times wondered how I can grow Ben instead of be possessed it's so much better that way for sake that this morning this afternoon it's morning in Europe or evening get down here without fear of man now if that is you if I'm talking to you and you know it without fear I mean fast if you're a leader who cares if you're on the worship team who cares you got to let go of all that junk even if you're like no I'm supposed to be on a musician thing right now it doesn't matter get down here and let go of all that junk if you know I'm talking to you this morning and some of you'll stay seated cuz you be afraid don't be afraid just give your life back to God let him yield you again behold the tender mercies of the Lord for the Lord is good he's tender and he's long suffering and Jesus wants to pour his glory out on you come as close as you can all of you just come I don't want anyone to stay in their seat and if you're like there's no room there's no room they just stand up in your seat and you came down this morning you're forgiven you've already been set free but he wants to give more what a precious man the Lord loves those who give more but here's the deal when we begin to pray right now and Pastor Vlad's gonna help me in prayer when we begin to pray right now if you're tired you need to allow the Lord's mercy to flow back to you as you give him your heart okay cuz the temptation would be to come down here and beg and not receive God doesn't want you to beg God wants you to come and go here's my will and then God's gonna go here's my will