 Thank you for having me. It's good to be here. I was at the woman's conference yesterday and I Got home after I was not home. I was I went to the hotel afterwards and Just as I walked into the lobby. It just hit me Usually just walking into airports or hotels just it gets me that wow, this has become This has become my life, you know, and my husband's not here. He's in prison and You know suffering and being tortured for his Christian faith and then Iranian prison and my kids are You know, it's been a hard and lonely road in some ways They haven't been able to see him as much have been traveling all over the world and You know trying to do what I can to you know, bring site home and and actually, you know letting the Lord lead me where he has Me to go to share the gospel, but I was kind of starting to feel sorry for myself And it gets it gets to me when I you know go to my hotel and it's just It's been two years of In a way a lonely journey and and I just reached out to God and I was just start praying and worshiping and Realized we are so blessed to have Jesus like you're really never alone a lot of us might feel Lonely even we might be in our families, but might feel lonely But you can always reach out to Jesus and he's always there and just such an intimacy and such beauty And it's just so overwhelming. You I you can't I can't wait to see how heaven is like when just getting a taste of Jesus now and That's the reality and just Amazing intimacy, and that's what we've been made for you know, no no matter How much money we have and what we think makes us happy we can't we can't be fulfilled until we're in that relationship with God It's what we were made for that. That's where we get our Fulfillment that's where we get our Peace no matter what we're going through. I wish I was here saying this is what had happened, and this is how God has delivered site I'm still in the midst of my trial. I you know sites and in an Iranian prison Because of his Christian faith. He's been tortured. He's been told he'd be free if he renounces Christ They gave him eight years. He's two years into the eight-year sentence, but Because he's been sharing Christ in prison They've said they would add on years and recently, you know Said's mom was told from you know, the Supreme Leader's office that Said should have been killed and that he could he would never see the light of day and because he hasn't Unless he you know unless he becomes Muslim and reads the Quran and gives a test or something And so I don't know when this whole you know where When this will be over and how but but I can Say I have hope and trust in God that he's in control and no matter what the outcome I Know I'll be okay. I know I just I don't you know I've always struggled with fear all my life I've always struggled with fear and anxiety of the future. What what's the next bad news and nothing ever bad really happened but I was always afraid and And and all of a sudden when Said was taken and I'll give you a little detail about our story But when he was taken it was unexpected He was in Iran working on an orphanage that the government had actually encouraged us to work on He was working with the Iranian government. So when he was taken I felt my whole world turned upside down I became a single mom. I didn't know what my future would Look like as a single mom how we were gonna make it And I didn't I didn't even know if my husband was alive the first week You know, I was in Boise. I got a call from Iran His mom, you know, so Said left so in June of 2012 I dropped Said off at the airport Boise Airport He did has normal nightly routine with the kids the night before and which is you know running, you know running around the house Doing prayer walking and worship and and praying with the kids and getting them all riled up before bed and which always upset me and And so and you know doing you reading the Bible and praying with them and all of that and then so he did that and He would a lot of times he would open up his suitcase and he would say, you know, he would tell the kids Bring your toys and your clothes that you want me to give to the orphans and so they would come and They bring their like raggedy old dolls or clothes He'd say nope give me your favorite your favorite outfit your favorite toy and I was like, no Because as I don't know maybe I'm the only mom you get attached to your kids stuff Sometimes you're like that costs this much money and we you know, we were always struggling financially And so I was just like, no, you know, don't do this to our kids. You're so mean and And and but he would lovingly sit down and explain like God wants us to give our best Not just he doesn't want to her leftovers. He wants us to trust them and give our best and and so he would do that You know, and he would always say, you know, I'll come home and I'll bring you he would bring him like outfits from the local village or something and And so he you know, we did the normal Routine and he said I'll come back and I'll bring you gifts and all that and then Five I think he is fly it was leaving at seven So I remember getting up really early was five or something and he kissed our kids. Good. Goodbye Never realizing that that would be the last time he be able to to hold our kids And then I dropped him off at the airport and not realizing that that was going to be the last time I would see my husband I don't know. I think about that time. What would I do differently? Maybe I would not let him go That's why the Lord didn't show me. I don't know. I would have stopped I would have done everything to keep him. So I you know, I said I could goodbye No, you know, I think about it wasn't even an emotional one I was just like dropping him off at the curb Like I'll pick you up in a few weeks and he was supposed to go finish up some work at the orphanage and just come home and he calls me in July and we're talking to him while he's in Iran and he calls me in July and he says they're not letting me leave the country They you know, they took my passport. They're not letting me leave the country. So we're Confused why is this happening? So he call keeps calling the passport control Office and then finally he through passport control. They give him some number from intelligence police that works there He's talking to the intelligence police and they're telling him well We have some questions for you and we're gonna ask you some questions and then let you go And so we're waiting for some call from the office intelligence office or something to ask some questions and I'm here in Boise In the US I get a call midnight From Sayid's mom. He was staying with his parents in Iran and she's crying frantically. She says they took my son They took my son. I don't know where they've taken him so These five revolutionary guards which are considered terrorist group by a lot of nations came and just took him in the most horrific way and And his his mom was hysterical and I'm sure as any mom just seeing your baby being taken away in such a horrific way and not knowing where what just what just happened and and I remember just Hit me like this can't be my life. This can't be happening and And so I I was just walking around the house crying and looking at my kids and thinking what am I gonna tell them and And I remember my mom just crying kneeling down and crying and saying How can I help you and she's she's you know moms are a great friend. They're they're rocks and I remembered Thinking this is one one thing that she can't help me in such a place of anxiety and despair that This is she can't help me and I remember like trying to call Sayid so many times We all you know, he was when I went to Iran in 2001. I met Sayid in 2002 and He was just my best friend He was I never dated before and I just processed everything with him So I kept calling his number. I think it took me like a week to be like stop calling him He's not gonna answer and I realized wow This is how it is when you lose a loved one you want to hear their voice one more time Just that comfort you get from hearing their voice and you realize I can't I can't hear it And and so I couldn't get comfort or anyone could help me And I realized no human being in the world can help me Except God who made me and so I reached out to God in desperation. I remember Just crying out saying God I feel myself going to the stark hole. I need help No one can help me. I need help like the woman bleeding for 12 years reaching out and saying, you know Just believing and just I feel I felt the Lord just give me this piece What has washed over me? Washed over me that just was supernatural beyond my understanding and the Lord's just I could You know for the first time I want to share from John 15 for the first time I felt like I was in the vine for almost 30 years of my Christian walk, but I wasn't abiding For the first time I felt like I was abiding and I was just taking in his goodness and just Taking in my whole world had fallen apart, but I was okay, and I knew For the first time in my life that I could lose everything and everyone and I knew I would be okay I always feared that I always thought if I lose this person if this happens I will lose it I will become a basket case and this is the first time I just had discovered Jesus in such an intimate way That I just knew if I lost sight if I lost my kids And you don't I before I was even afraid to say it. What if I say it and I lose them, you know Just if I lost everything and everyone And it was in a corner. I didn't have anything, but I have Jesus. I'll be okay. I'll be more than okay I'll all have peace and I'll have joy and I don't know that was so freeing for me to discover Jesus in such an intimate way and to know that I Can go through the storms of life and just be okay and be more than conquer in Christ just be Have so much peace and joy and as Christians we don't take this for granted, but Religion you go through trial through religion and you fall apart because it doesn't give you If there's no relationship, but as Christians We go through the worst trials and if we cling on to God if we abide in him We actually are refreshed more and more the more the trial the more the pain The more the drama the more the more you connect like a leech You know you just connect and the more you receive what it what is you know We talk about the fruit of the spirits love peace joy Kindness gentle and you get all of that you just you cling to him and you're more refreshed your you have more Joy and peace than I guess in the times where I was I didn't have trials But I was in despair and I was anxious and I was sad and you know And I discovered that I knew I knew that no matter the trial. I would just I knew now how to how to Dig deeper into God I knew I found my source and I knew I it would just be Better in terms of my intimacy and I was I'm tasting tasting More of heaven I guess looking forward to heaven because if this is the intimacy with Christ I Experience I experience daily because of this painful journey Then if that's what heaven is then I'm all I'm excited for the first time, you know, I've been excited to really experience heaven and So for the 30 years almost 30 years of my Christian walk, I was in Christ, but I hadn't abide it and so I and so when When this happened and I was you know China calls I eat he's not answering of course. I'm seeing my kids recently my kids did a video I don't know if some of you might have watched it to President Obama and at my son's just talking about his heart crying and my daughter just is crying and saying I keep praying and praying and daddy's not home and And it's painful as a mom sometimes it's easier to have your own suffering Then when you see a loved one suffer and there's nothing you can do Maybe a broken marriage or your your grandkids or your nieces and nephews or your kids your own kids when you see someone You love suffering. You just it's harder Sometime and so it's been for me. It's been harder seeing my kids Really miss their dad and and they've they flipped through their album and the first few weeks The first week I wouldn't tell them I was afraid the shock of prison They would be shocked. So finally my son came crying and he said he's you know, he's six now He was four and He said does daddy not love us anymore He doesn't he he doesn't want to hear our voice anymore and he's crying crying and I just saw they felt daddy had abandoned them He didn't love them anymore and I and I and I was just in tears and I said no daddy loves you so much He wants to I'm sure He longs to hear your voice and hug you and hold you but this is he's in prison And I had to sit down explain to him. I said he can't call you. It's not that he doesn't want to hear your voice and It was really painful explaining that to them and you know, my daughter was daddy's girl his daddy's girl and Recently she celebrated her eighth birthday and the third birthday without him last time she was with her dad was she was five and And you know site had has written a letter from prison to her It's amazing that tells her, you know, I want to hear you sing hallelujah and I'm here because of because you know The answer to the why I'm not freed as the as the answer to it is who because Jesus Christ he's worth the price and You know, I want to hear you sing hallelujah in the midst of your storm And I hope to join you in person, but even in prison a part or together You know, I want to sing for us to sing hallelujah together and he's just such a great You know such a and Rebecca is just there's taking in everything they receive from him But they flip through their album so many times. It's falling apart. They tell me, you know Tell us stories about daddy and Rebecca just for the first few weeks. She's just balling. She's like mommy. I'm forgetting daddy's voice I don't know how his voice sounds like anymore. And so we play videos of him and they'd see pictures of them They wouldn't couldn't remember and it was painful for me to watch. So I'm just holding back tears and just You know letting I realized that they're getting ministered to when they're watching their dad on video and and I remember sites parents when they first visited him in prison, they told me, you know he was put in solitary when he was taken he was put in solitary confinement and For the first week we didn't know where he was or if he was even alive because someone Around the time site was arrested someone else was arrested like that a blogger and was rated his parents house was rated to he was Taken and he lasted four days before he was tortured to death in Evan prison the same prison site wasn't but we didn't even know if Side was in Evan prison, but we didn't know if he was alive the way he was taken We didn't know where they'd taken him and After a week I called his parents house where I knew it was being His their phones were being you know monitored by the government. I said if I don't know where site is I will go to media I I need to know where my husband is and as soon as I called his parents and they were hearing a couple hours later Said called his parents and said I'm in Evan prison. I'm in solitary. I'm okay What's months later after they visited him that they realize I mean you hear solitary and then you hear this the first time His parents saw him his mom it was behind a glass window and where you talk on the phone and And she as she was approaching the glass window to see him she just fell she couldn't recognize them because of all the beatings and She just she couldn't even go she couldn't she just was crying and just and realized that what he'd gone through I mean Months of isolation and you're in you're in this room by yourself you can't even stretch out completely and You know, you're not you're not really taken into consideration you're not really taken to the restroom Maybe once a day. So you're pretty much sleeping in the same place. You're it's it's horrible It's it's a horrible situation and no no one to talk to just that Intense being in solitary as torture itself and then being taken out of solitary and interrogated and beaten and told you know If you return to Islam your you you get to go home and be with your kids right now But if you know and and but for say to say no, I believe in Jesus He's you know, he's my Lord and Savior and not only that, you know realize We realized as the weeks went by in the month went by He was leading people to Christ, you know, I got a letter from one of the prisoners who said I'm not in prison anymore I feel free. I've been I feel like I've been set free and because of your husband and his wife Actually got a hold of me and we prayed together and she gave her life to Christ She said my husband's changed when I visit him. He has so much peace and joy so because of Said's testimony not only did he not deny Christ. He was sharing Christ and He because of him sharing Christ, they moved him to an exile prison So they exiled him and I didn't even know you could do that, but they exiled him to prison that was about an hour and a half away from Tehran and They put him in the murder ward and they they head of the that prison the exiled prison told Said's that he said There's no way he can lead people to Christ here because if even if these murder these people that are on death row for murder and rape if they realize Said is a Christian. They will kill him if they realize he's a convert. They will kill him and And so by God's grace, you know Some of these prisoners were having dreams and we're coming and asking Said who's this Jesus We want to know about this Jesus. We hear you can tell us about him So the murder ward didn't really work very well as a For him so and that was a whore. I mean he was losing weight. He had lice all over him He was he still has internal injuries that have never been the government I think part of their tortures to beat you really bad And then just let you suffer the rest of your prison sentence. They don't really try to treat it So he's still a lot of pain actually a few weeks ago when his mom visited him in prison He couldn't even sit through the 20 minute visitation. He had to leave half 10 minutes into it because of pain and so So they moved him from that horrible murder ward to Political ward and he was leading people to Christ there, but his physical health was not very well So they they moved him to a hospital Well in a hospital you have a lot of people coming in with accident I mean he had like five guards around him and people watching him But it was a private hospital people are coming for accidents and and all of that and so People are getting saved because their site is praying for them saying, you know, I'm a Christian Can I pray in Jesus name for you and this girl was about to lose her dad was a Very high-up judge and her mom was a very well-known lawyer And these are people that persecute Christians Her third their daughter was losing her leg in a very bad that automa automobile accident and Said had gone, you know, his parents were sharing with me They they got to be at the hospital with them and they site had said can I pray in Jesus name and they weren't such a desperate point They're a strong Muslim say yes Eventually it just the doctors kept kept to amputate her like it and they could they were like there's life There's life, you know, finally there was like one little toe. They had to cut off and and the parents were I mean site It was in their room worshiping praying and other other Patients were coming and saying can this pastor pray for us? I mean nurses were giving their hearts to Christ and doctors and And so and and I mean the head of the guard prison guards would come and see how site was doing He's seeing like these guards who are supposed to be watching site reading Bibles because I mean They're taking turns on their watch for say they're taking turns reading Bible And it's just they finally had enough and they beat him and took him back to the prison May of this year He hadn't fully recovered and with the beating he was even doing worse But you know, they've kept they've moved him around so many times, but site has not only Not denied Christ. He's been a lush You know a light for Christ in those horrible prisons for people who have no who had no other way He would pray for the Lord to send him to places that no one could go and having no idea that it would be a dark dark prison in Iran and and so he's been a testimony and so you know, I've heard a lot of bad news over the last two years, but you know Hasn't been able to crumble me. I mean I've had moments of just Why is he doing so bad? I remember his mom saying he's already sick. Why does he have to have lies all over him? And those are just you know, that's just an additional Thing to worry about and when she saw him she's just he was covered with lies and not doing very well and There's been moments where I'm just like well or when they moved him to the exile prison. I was just shocked I remember You know as the prisoners were telling stories later to their family As they were taking site to the exile prison There was prisoners that would kneel down and saying I want to accept Jesus now And there was other prisoners who had accepted Christ and they were crying and telling site I'm we're gonna carry your torch. We're gonna share Christ now and there were baby Christians and and so just so many amazing testimonies and And so I've heard a lot of news where I'm like why Lord it was like Evan prison's bad enough Why did he have to be moved to that prison? Why does he have to have to be suffering and? but you know The Lord has no matter the bad news. I've crumbled. I've had moments of despair, but he's His grace has been sufficient for me and every day. He's given me the strength to get up most days I think I'm not gonna be able to get up Okay, I'm as I don't know how to explain it, but I feel I The the battle is every day. It's not like two years ago. I always had peace and now It's an everyday struggle where I get up. I'm in a lot of pain I have a thorn on my side like Paul says in 2nd Corinthians 12 And I'm like Lord remove it and God's like my grace is sufficient He gives me the strength the peace the joy to continue and you know It's not something you can fake you can't go through the worst time of your life where your kids are hurting your husband's in prison you haven't seen him talk to him and And to be okay, it's you can't make yourself. Okay It has and you can't and and and even if you know my in my flesh. I like In my nature, I like being in a room closed room and not When I'm suffering I guess not really Do much but to be able to not only be okay, but to stand up have the strength to Talk and travel, you know before site was taken. I feared so many things I was afraid of airplanes deathly afraid of airplanes site would beg me to travel with them I'd be like no, I don't want to get on an airplane. I was afraid of leaving my kids I don't know if some maybe I was the only like clingy mom, but I was like no I can't the thought of leaving my kids for like a few days gave me anxiety and so and Just afraid of speaking in front of people Never you can't find any videos or anything of me speaking in front of anyone before 2012 and Deathly afraid of speaking in front of people very private person. I remember sites sharing stuff on that He would take a picture and share it on Facebook. We're eating dinner here where we're doing this I'm like, no, why do people need to know what we're doing? So very private person. I just thought you know people don't need to know what my life is and and very home I'm me and my son Jacob our homebody. It's just I recently took him to Washington DC and Rebecca was like Oh, that was fun. Let's go another trip. Jacob's like mom I just want to stay in Boise and so we're both that we could just stay in Boise for the rest of our life we'll be okay and not a big traveler not really excited to see the world and People are like you we've gone to France and Geneva and this and that I've gone before the European Parliament that Dutch from all this places Europe and For me, it's just it's it's you know, it's not like exciting. I guess it's just It looks everywhere. It looks the same for me. I'm not really a traveler You know, I'm not excited to see new exotic places. Let's just say that So for me to have the at the worst time of my life to be doing things I would normally never do and my strongest time is a miracle and I felt for the first time when Said was taken I Felt the look for the first time I Abided in the vine and John 15 really came to life for me and I that's what I want to share with you And I realized it's talking about being in the vine. It's talking to Christians You know says I am the vine my father is a vine dresser every branch in me and it continues to say so it's talking about branches in him It's talking about believers, but I realized there's a difference between being in the vine and abiding and for the first time I feel like after almost 30 years of being a Christian. I was finally able to abide and part of part of the abiding, you know, some of this might be a you know, very Hard concept. What does that mean? What does what does it mean to live? You know victorious Christian life and abide and have got bear fruit What does all of that mean? I felt the Lord and this is what I want to share I feel like you know a clam who just has this thing this Dirt that it's trying to get rid of that pain or whatever it is That's bothering it becomes into a pearl and I feel like this is the pearl of My suffering the last couple years that I want to share with the body of Christ and so The first part of that abiding that the Lord showed me was when all of this happened and I was in deep despair and I Had no control over anything of my finances my future my kids my husband Everything was out of control. I felt the Lord showing me that a lot of my anxiety came because I wanted control I wanted to control my husband. I wanted to control my kids I wanted to fix this and and and and And the Lord showed me that I had a flesh that I had been my Myself that I had Trusted for so long as a Christian for the first time in my 30 years of knowing Christ. I Realized I felt the Lord saying you've you've gone with your you're you are in a fallen nature You know for so many years every emotion that came Came you know I had this person should be treating me like this and my husband needs to be that way And my kids need to be this way and this all of that I trusted and the Lord just opened up my eyes your heart The Bible says it's not me saying it. I didn't like hearing this either your heart is evil Your heart that you're relying on that's the world's telling you do what you feel like do you know? May do what it takes to make yourself happy and go with your instinct The Bible says it's evil and it will lead you. It's a big path. That's a it's a wide path And it will lead you to destruction if you follow it And so the Bible says your heart is evil your thoughts are to be kept captive And the only way for the spirit of God to work is if you get rid of yourself you die to yourself You wake up with your flesh and you just and as woman we have you know, there's certain times We're very emotional, you know, it's hard to Have control over that but it's you have to first realize you're in you're in a fallen nature And it's deceiving you if you go with it, it will bring destruction to your marriages. It will bring destruction to your church to your community and it's destructive and There's a path That's narrow. There's life in it and that path requires the cross You know how the same the Lord just one one day I was praying the Lord showed me this cross where the body of Christ going or the people going to the cross and getting saved And you know for Muslims, it's weird that we wear the cross. It's a sign of death How could how could you wear something that's so horrible, but for us is the wisdom of God if for us It's a power of God for us. It's life But we forget that that same cross that we go to to get saved does the same cross we're supposed to carry We're supposed to carry our cross. So we leave our the cross behind and We are not living victorious Christian lives We're having the same divorce rate as the rest of the world We're having the same problems that the rest of the world because we've become Christians But we are not living where we're letting our flesh get in the way like the rest of the world and The only difference the only way we can be different is when we can get rid of ourselves And we have the power to do that. No religion does Jesus Christ gives you the power to forgive your enemy Other religions say destroy your enemy, but Jesus Christ tells us and and Gives us the power to forgive our enemy and I'm saying your enemy might be your spouse right now Can you forgive can you love? Unconditionally can you lay down your life when that person is not being loving it could be your coworker It could be your boss. It could be someone you're working with can you Lay down your life when it's painful a lot of times, you know And I've had a lot of my own issues the last two years and Attacks and people doing things and saying things that I'm not free from the fallen world either and fallen people And so there's a lot of times I want to say things and I feel like if I don't say this person needs to know And this person needs to behave better and you know, and I feel like if I don't say it I will have a heart attack And I realize there's a part where Paul says I die Daily so you may live and I realize I need We have a choice either we can die to ourselves, which is very painful You have to hold back a lot of things you want to say and lay down your life when you don't when you want to punch someone you Do you do something? You know you you say you're I don't know whatever it is you take, you know, you lay down your life and And Then you know, I want to come come come back to John 15 where it says, you know when we abide and and when we abide and God It says and you say how do I abide and God and it's all all related and Jesus is a bite in my love And and then you say how do I Jesus? How do I abide in your love verse 9 says abide my love verse 10 of John 15 says if you keep my commandments and Guess I mean you might be like what commandment should I keep there's so much actually the Bible is so simple Love one another you know and so when when we can get rid of our selfish cell and A lot of times for me when my flesh wants to just argue and Protect and say why did you say that and how I just hold back and it's I do feel like I'm gonna have a heart Text if I can't I'll take a bath have coffee calm down go in a room And I was at pastor Greg Laurie's church I was speaking at a woman's conference and I didn't realize there was a People watching online and so I was talking about the coffee and bath how it calms me down I was going to the next day I was going to pastor Greg Laurie's office and one of his pastors said did you take your bath? Did you have your coffee and I was like, how does he know I didn't I was talking to a group of women? I didn't realize there's like, you know people were watching so But you know so but I'll lock myself in a room and I'll argue and be like no this person They need to know how dare they they're you know, they're supposed to be especially the Christians we they're Christian They should know better how dare they why you know and the Lord what gives me finally pieces me arguing in my room So people don't think I'm crazy Is the Lord finally saying you have no right? You have no right. You don't need to tell show that person you were right or this and that you don't need to change You have no right die to yourself and go love that person and every single time That's God's message to me die to yourself go love that person and it's I have to just do it Step of obedience and so Jesus is saying that how do you abide in him? You have you? Abide in his love. How do you abide in his love you obey his commandment? How do you obey what commandment he says in verse? 13 greater love has no one then to lay one's life down For his friends and verse 12 before that says this is my command that you love one another I remember hearing that apostle John towards the end of his life would say Love one another and I would think oh he's old. He was old and he just like that's a simple message Come on. Give us some meat You know and apostle John, that's all he said and it's easy, but it's hard It requires death to self and Jesus says we're not worthy to be his disciple if we don't die to ourselves So I want to give you what I've seen the Lord do in my life so when I've been able to abide in him and let go of how I think things should work out and When the timing and everything and just trust God and every everywhere. He's taken me, you know with no money With no plan to you know site, and I had prayed for years for the gospel to be preached. We didn't have a plan and we didn't have any money and To have nothing and be at your lowest time in your life and to be taken before nations You know I've spoken in front of the United Nation. I Was able to I was sitting in front of over a hundred nations and the United Nations like circle half circle and at the front is like the president or whoever and And there's above above that and it's in Geneva and above that is translators all in this glass windows where they're you know translating and so Here I was in front of over a hundred nations, and I'm telling all these nations not hundred people This is hundred ambassadors and government officials Nations I'm telling him that Jesus Christ is a solution to what you're trying to figure out two weeks three weeks of getting together and trying to solve the world's problems and world peace and and I was able to say that to the world and say, you know Jesus Christ is the answer and I had free translators You know and and people they were listening, you know, I had an ACLJ lawyer with me and she She said there you could hear a pen drop. They were listening and and to go before Geneva summit for human rights and democracy Very liberal human rights group in Geneva and to be the only Christian speaker and say, you know, talk about Jesus Christ Said he's in prison because he believes Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sin and to go before the European Parliament the Dutch Parliament there I was talking to The Communist Party and the Socialist Party and they're getting emotional as I'm sharing about Jesus, and I'm thinking this can't be happening They're not supposed to get emotional over this They're they're part of you know, they represent the Communist Party and the Socialist Party. They were and to go before very secular media, you know, CNN and and Fox and also BBC Farce in VOA person have millions of Iranians listen live as I've shared Christ is It's a miracle. I could I couldn't have planned it I know amount of money fundraising could have allowed me to do this but And this is the beauty of the Lord choosing my life someone from Boise, Idaho who's deathly afraid of airplanes deathly afraid of speaking in front of people who as You know, we we like to put names on ourselves introvert side with extrovert not a people person But the Lord can just be like no, you know in me you're different in me. I'm gonna use you for the gospel and and so If he can choose someone who has never taken any speaking Classes is scared of speaking all of that and take her before nations with no money and no connections And no plan he can take anyone But he's just he wants he's calling the body of Christ to abide you might have been in him for 20 30 40 years He's saying will you abide in me? I have a master plan for all the problems You're seeing you're afraid of where the nation is going. I know how to solve it Will you abide in me? I want to shine, you know I grew up in Iran the first few years of my life before I came to the States and there was a war With Iraq and I remember we had to at night turn off We didn't we didn't the government turned it off for us all the we'd have no power We always had to have candles So we so that Iraqi planes couldn't see the lights and they could they couldn't bomb the houses our houses It was the the war was in our in Iran And we could see houses bombed and in the morning when my brother and I would go to school We'd see dead bodies and houses that were missile and bombed and you could hear the whistle going through and a whole neighborhood kind of disappearing and so a lot of like chemical warfare and just stuff that we saw as kids and the lights Would the government would turn off all the lights, you know, there would be no power and then you had your candle guess where everyone was The candle, you know, the Bible says we're The light of the world doesn't say we're a light. There's no other light And God is saying to his body. Can you carry your cross? That's where the power is That's where the life is stop living selfish lives that's destroying your family Your church your community. I have a plan. You don't need to bear the fruit. I Know how to take you before government officials and nations. I know how to how to change this nation I know how to bring revival. I'm just looking for someone who can get rid of themselves and say Lord You work no matter how painful no matter what your plan is and and I feel this is the message from God to his church And he can I do feel as I pray for this nation, you know it's It's a nation that gave me Jesus I always say I was a Muslim and I was able to find Jesus here. I had the freedom to choose Jesus here and so I pray for America a lot and I feel like God is waking up the church because there will be a turnaround there will be we will see a turnaround in this nation and He's calling you to abide in him. You've been in him for so long But he wants you to taste him. He wants you to know him intimately Know him and shine for him then evangelism is not hard. You know the early church it says People could see That the people I think I went over I'm sorry Okay, I just realized that the people could see the love and unity in the church and People were added to the church daily evangelism was not hard people were added. They saw it. They came to the light You know, I have had to I when I was in Geneva for example in United And you know for the United Nation, there was a lot of Iranian human rights advocate that would come to me and they would say Can you tell us about Jesus? We are we are not Muslim anymore where we think we're agnostic We've heard so much amazing testimony coming out of that prison from your husband The prisoners were released. They're telling us stories about your husband. We want to know about this Jesus So the world wants it once they see the reality of Jesus once we're rid of the religion of the preaching We're living it and our families and our communities and he's goddess. Jesus is so beautiful People want him but they have to see him. They have they see us as Christians and they see our flesh and they're like no But we have to get rid of ourselves. They can see Jesus and once they see him They're gonna fall in love. They will come to him and so I before I Finish I want to always give you a chance if you don't know Jesus Christ I I Invite you to invite him to your heart as your Lord and Savior and accept his what he did on the cross for your sin You can be in your worst and this life is hard Whether you're single or married or what you will go through trials of life. It's it will not it doesn't have favorites life is hard But I can tell you you when you connect to your maker you will you can be okay in the worst time of your life You can be at peace. You can be strong You're very weak people say you're strong. I say I know how weak I am. I know most mornings I can't even get up But I've discovered the strength of God So I invite you to come to know him and if you do know him I invite you to abide in him. God is calling you to abide. He wants a deeper deeper relationship With with the body of Christ and so I invite you to do that. Thank you for having me. Thank you for your prayers I can do it without you. God bless you