 Hey, hi, it's Sunday morning coffee Here on above life channel. I know it's getting later, isn't it? It's still morning, isn't it? You got to give me credit for that. It's Sunday. I'm here. Yay. Okay. So let me just check my Let's do a check here on the Audio to make sure it's working properly Working properly Yes, it is great. Okay. Good. Okay All right. Okay, we're gonna talk about body talk today This is was inspired by an experience I had this morning Since my open-heart surgery last fall I have been on a lot of different types of medications and luckily I have a great cardiologist who has been Kind to me as I have been advocating for myself as far as how much medicine I want to take and how much my body Can handle and how much it needs Because as you begin to heal your body doesn't need all the same medicine it did right after your surgery and so Things have to be flexible and change So it's been three months. I'm three months post surgery and so today I I Was getting ready to take my medicine and I was taking Medication I started taking last year when I was in a very Low point and I talked to you guys about depression and how I was diagnosed with depression last year after a few months of really just suffering in silence with it and At that time I just I really needed help and so I went on a An antidepressant at that time a very low dose like 10 milligrams And I started with five milligrams and I went up to 10 and then I balanced it by breaking the pill in half and taking five in the morning and five at night because a lot of times It's which is so counter-intuitive that antidepressants have Sometimes the side effect of making you tired. I'm like I already have lack of motivation And feeling below flat like below the water. I don't really need more Reasons to just stay in bed, but so so weird. It's been depends on how your body responds to it And so at that time I adjusted to the medication. It was really helpful It did what exactly what I needed it to do and I'd been on that dose ever since then and At one point then After my during the time that I was in the hospital for my heart surgery the Hospital was giving me my normal medication and that was this antidepressant which also does it's antidepressant that affects Anxiety and depression it can help for both and it's like a generic of like a lexapro kind of thing and It They just gave me one pill and at that time I had all these other meds that didn't even matter. I was like whatever and Girl was not gonna be getting out of bed running down the hallway Going to the mall whatever, you know, so it didn't matter if I was gonna be tired. It didn't matter I just took one pill and so after that Time there is a side effect that does happen After a surgery and also just under an extended anesthesia, which I had no idea There were so many side effects for extended extended side effects for anesthesia like it can take a like months for yourself to kind of get back all of your Normal processes and legit. That's true. Let me just tell you. Oh my gosh. It is so true damn and So I And you do experience and especially they said like with open heart surgery you can experience depression with that After a while, you know after especially for me like with my near-death experience I got to this place where I was in that in-between space That's why they call it near-death because you're right there, but you're not in it because if you're in it You're committed, you know, but you're not here, but you're not there. You're like in this in-between It's not like a purgatory. It's not like awful. It's nothing like that It's just this you just really feel like you're not here. You're not there You're just kind of in in this space, right and have access to information on both sides, which is crazy to think about and After you come back from that, I guess and I've talked to other people I have I know as somebody else that also has had a near-death experience a client actually and we talked about it a little bit and I think I told you guys about that also in one of the conversations I've had an above-life channel about this but I I It's common to actually come back and then feel bad like guilty almost Like because it feels kind of depressing after a bit first It's really grateful and everything's awesome and then you kind of hit a low Where you're back to kind of normal life or you're trying to get back to normal life, but you know too much Kind of to just do the normal day-to-day things in the same old same old way is everything changes because you're different I am totally different and yet some things are the same and it's hard to explain what's changed and what hasn't it's just I'm just different and my people who are close to me really know that and But you can't really it's hard to put your finger on it to explain it, you know but there's this place that you start to feel bad about Coming back like you start to go oh my god I really wanted to stay there like I had a rememberances of wanting just to stay there because it was so peaceful and When you remember that It's very conflicting inside of you so It just it is and So I changed my Medication I went up to 15 milligrams instead of 10 and so took a half in the morning and at one at night And it seemed okay totally okay to do that, but then I started thinking, you know, I Have a lot of stress on my my normal life. Oh, you know what? Let me grab it I just need to grab a tissue. Hang on you guys. I see you in the chat. Hi The weather is changing here and so when that happens, it's like Sinuses just go to town so normal daily life is like All the people around me like my kids and stuff bring me stressors, you know, that's normal, right? but it's intense right now and all it seems like the people around me are having all these things happen also like my brother shattering his foot and having to have surgery and Some other personal issues going on with one of my family members and then my mom while she was visiting here for in December for The holidays got came down with COVID because my brother's whole house like we're taking turns having it that's where she's at and then She get then she got shingles and then the day before she was gonna or the day that she was gonna go home She started kind of not feeling good the day before and she's like, you know, I think I'm gonna have I'm gonna better take another COVID I better take another COVID test because she took that medication and sometimes you can get rebound COVID COVID So she has COVID again. So now she can't go back to California. So now she's here for another two weeks And it's just there's so much There's so much stuff, you know and my sister and her job situation and just there's a lot and then I have friends that are going through stuff big time and My friend's mom that was just in the hospital pneumonia and I mean There's just a lot and then I got a kid that needs to find an apartment and she's freaking out and Then then there's a lot of stuff about that and finances and I haven't been making See you can kind of spin, right? Like I'm like girlfriend. You can't ask me for money. I don't have any I'm not making any right now really just a little bit here and there and I'm like honey I can't give you eight hundred dollars for a new apartment deposit. I I don't have it. You know, I'm like Just use your credit card. No, I'm not gonna do that. You know, I can't I know and so there's a lot, right? And so I was like, okay, I'm seeing a counselor twice a week to manage some of the deal with some of the trauma stuff from the Experience I had even though I still really haven't fully embodied that Or embraced it and But I know it's there and I know it's gonna bubble up And I know there's gonna be triggers and I know it's a process of healing, but I'm Yeah, getting out in front of it by talking to her twice a week now instead of just once and I'd already had her before because I was dealing with her when I was in the middle of the separation and stuff and just really needed support and So think thank God I had the foresight to do that and so now we're talking like twice a week Which has been really great, but she said to me too, you know It's okay to not be okay, which I know I say that all the time to my clients and I am okay actually I feel Great because I feel flat So this morning I went I did increase my Antidepressant again to 20 milligrams one pill in the morning one pill at night and that's been over a week now and I am just tired I'm tired. I slept like 14 hours like I just it makes me tired and I'm like that doesn't necessarily help you know and Then I was describing to her I said this is not a good place for me to be because I've felt this before with a medication and then I stopped taking it because it was just not good for me and that was several years ago and after like a traumatic event and I said I'm just flat There's nothing like I feel I can feel light-hearted and appreciative and thankful and sweet and Just you know and friendly and stuff I can feel that like kind of this upper level of feelings But anything that's really deeper than that I can talk about it But it always comes from my brain It doesn't come from my feeling place in the center of my body Which is the partnership between your heart and your body and this is the point the heart and the body Okay, and the mind in the body The common denominator is the body So I go to pop this pill into my mouth this morning and I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to talk about this and be like Hey, yo, I think I'm just gonna go off this and Try to handle it. You know, I'm gonna try to go down to Just the half a pill scenario again to have just a baseline and then do a lot of other self-care stuff like tapping like Walking in the morning to start my day and then when I have the bump in the afternoon that I usually have the low There's a time of day where I kind of get into this crevice I'm gonna plan things during the crevice time that will inspire me and uplift me Which means I need to do more work. I need to do more sessions because every time I do a freaking session I am like That's life is amazing like I feel so good and so connected and so full and so open and so just Awesome, so I think I need to just plan that stuff like schedule that and do whatever I have to do in order to get Those every single day at that time, you know, because it's just like, you know, and then And then have a winding down time at the evening and have it like a journal prompt thing and just really create strong structured practices around This connection between my body my mind and my heart and just really work with that. I mean, I Fucking know what to do. I have all the skills. I have all the tools. I teach people all the time And I'm like, yeah, you know, I think I can do that I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can I think maybe you can too I would never encourage anybody to do anything medication related without the advisement of the doctor and Pharmacist talk to your pharmacist if you're concerned about side effects if you're concerned about Interactions and co-minglings with other meds because part of what the problem might be apparently is one of the meds I'm on also makes me tired. And so it's a double whammy for me, which is not good But until end of February when I go back to the aortic specialist doctor To find out if there's a vascular issue or a bigger thing going on within me I don't know that there is I think there's a lot of Spirit Energetics to what has happened for me And I think it is related to the broken heart syndrome and I think it is related to the intense amount of stress that I've had over the last few years and Managing the stress is going to be essential for me in the future moving ahead And it is for everyone because stress does make you sick. It makes you sick and where does stress come from? energy that you ignore or The misuse of emotion or the identification of emotions that make you sick when you hold on to them tightly Because they're not yours to become part of you They're just information that's flowing through baby And if you're holding on to it for dear life it becomes part of you and it rots and it gets molded and it gets disgusting and it Festers and it causes all sorts of diseases Mm-hmm, and then you do things to cover up Those diseases that are starting to fester in your body like eat food like crave some carb donuts or eat a bunch of chocolate Or drink a bunch of alcohol so you can go to sleep at night or smoke a cigarette so you can breathe deeply or other things To numb the pain and I know I know what that's like. I mean I have a challenge with food that becomes a Medicine for me. So if I think of food as a medicine in a positive way, that's when I eat well And when I think of it in a way that can just Help me not feel and if I can make my body really heavy then I can ground myself Yeah, that's dangerous. Those are dangerous waters and It's not healthy to be that heavy for me My joints can't handle it my joints get crabby and my meniscus hurts on my knee and my shoulders hurt my Torn rotator cuff gets mad and all these other things happen that are not good for me and just like for you too It's like a domino effect and it's an avalanche of unhealthiness But at any time you can choose something different and it takes a commitment to yourself to do that and so Instead of getting overloaded and overwhelmed with all this stuff that I'm sharing with you today I just I really want you to know that Number one medication exists for a reason. I love natural supplemental stuff a hundred percent But I also recognize that there's a reason why people are brilliant and given the gift of their brains to be able to create some really Unbelievable things that do help people through difficult times And I mean help you through not become a part of your Everyday life for the rest of your life. Hopefully not right But there are some situations extraordinary circumstances where somebody doesn't have you know They're pancreas and so they need an insulin pump in their body and without that medication They would be dead. So I'm really grateful for the insulin pump, especially for my children right now So they have a father. Do you see what I'm saying? So there's some balance there with medication and also there's obviously overuse and abuse of it like Substances like painkillers can cause horrific challenges for people so there's a balance that we have to strike and There's a reason why you have doctors and there's a reason why you have Pharmacist to ask questions about and don't be shy about that just ask It's your body you get to decide what goes in it But don't self-medicate self-regulate without all the information or knowledge So the body talks. Yes, it does and this morning my girl. She talked to me. I went to put that pill I've literally put that damn full pill in my mouth on this beautiful tongue and I was like ready to drink some water and no, I heard no No No I'm like, oh So I stopped myself I paused for a moment and I could see in my mind's eye my third eye half a pill and I was gonna wait to cut that back down for I was gonna give myself a couple full weeks for sure to see if it was just a side effect and then but my body was like no No, it didn't scream Don't fucking do it. It doesn't do that. It just said no No So I took it out broken in half took half took that Yes, fine totally fine nothing and I'm like, yeah Yeah, this whole experience happened for me To recognize and to share with you all especially my mentoring people when I start my mentoring Custom mentoring programs my individual mentoring plans is what they'll be Our bodies That's the key and I'm not talking you got to be fit. Let's all drink green smoothies everybody Let's make sure we drink. We're having our collagen pills today. No, I'm not talking that I'm talking the body as the intuitive wisdom keeper Because it is that's why your soul wants a body. It wants a fucking body and it wants your body and your body isn't angry with you it understands and The biggest struggle I think is between the mind and the body it becomes that to me I've noticed this over and over and over again all during this time since October since my my experience with being physically ill physically in surgery physically at the brink of death literally at death's doorstep and Feeling the the little nuances on this road to recovery physical body recovery repair and healing the harm and Understanding that the mind Fucks with us so much and the truth is the body is in charge your body is in charge It's not even your heart or your mind or your soul. It's the body It is the body you can be brain dead and the body can still keep going. Why because the body is bad ass It's fucking amazing. It's miraculous look at all the systems and the the the amazing things that happen in it without even thinking or breathing without even thinking our blood is pumping without even Thinking systems are happening and and they're just working The body is so in tune and intuitive This is why a few years ago my word of the year was embodiment This is why gosh five years ago my word was Shakti trying to get to know my body to love and appreciate my body and I know a lot of us have tumultuous Relationships with the body. I mean for the most part. I've loved my body my physical body I've been quite happy with it and At the same time completely shocked about this recent experience. I had where the stress Literally contaminated my body and shredded my heart where heartbreak quite literally heartache just Devastated that root of where my heart connected to my aorta. I destroyed the muscle that pumps the blood It literally ten inches people had ten inches replaced the aorta is even that big It's not that long and the aorta brings blood to the rest of the body all the vital organs and I had to get it cut at the root ball and Remade and there's reason for that and it's not about blame I'm not gonna blame myself I Knew the stress was getting to me. I knew it Thus the depression right there were things that were happening that I Couldn't focus there were there were things that were happening that I I don't even know how I stayed in relationships. I Really don't know. I'm like what I Don't even know how I functioned With that much stress But just as dangerous as the detachment of the flat Nothing and I have to be honest. I really enjoyed the flat for a while. I was like, ooh Yeah, I don't feel the stress. This is nice. Yes, it's nice very nice. My brain was like, yeah Blocking the stress baby. Oh, yeah, nice nice The problem with that is the stress is still there the stress was still in my body It is still affecting me. My daughter's stuff is affecting me Relationship stuff is affecting me My kids stuff is affecting me You know my one kid that's at college that wasn't able to because he shovels and stuff when he comes home wasn't able to do any work except for one day because There was no snow now. There's like Back he's back in Iowa. There's like, I don't know 20 some inches of snow and it's like what it's so not fair He's like, this is unfair and he's got this big trip for the architecture thing and it's a whole thing and there's no money and oh My god, there's all this stuff going down and I'm like, I Can't help you and so all this stress is still there But I haven't been feeling it because I'm just like I Talk about it. I'm like, yeah, there's stress there stress And I'm drinking caffeinated coffee even because I have a little headache today Definitely have a headache Just a tiny one a beat a baby one right here. I had one yesterday too little baby one right here But I made some coffee right away this morning because when I got up I was so tired after sleeping like 14 hours. I was like I need to move and that's not like me I'd love to get up in the morning and see the sunrise and I haven't been doing that and I'm like this sucks Someone's got a change here and I've been exercising. So I have been extra yoga every day. I've been doing I'm on day 20 today every single day. I've been doing it and Walking on the treadmill at least a mile a mile is my Men and then riding the bike a little bit for like 10 minutes Not a big deal but doing that and then I go to cardiac rehab three times a week So I'm doing stuff, but I'm eating my crap Because I'm trying to feel good. I think is what's happening. So I'm eating the cookies You know I even ate bread like last week. I had some bread and I was like Oh my guts are killing me and I'm drinking way too much coffee Why because it's got caffeine in it and so even the decaf has caffeine So I'm trying to get a feeling to come through. I think the last week and I can't seem to break the flat so I Have to stop blocking the feelings But in order to do that I have to really make sure I got some structure in place so that my body My chest doesn't get tight with anxiety and I don't go low like oh my god, everything sucks I can't I can't work at my part-time job because I can't lift and Because of the anesthesia. I still can't I can't remember things very well. Sometimes I have memory blanks Like just simple things like yesterday. I said I hollered at my kid I said hey, we're gonna he was leaving to go get gas in his car and stuff and I said hey We're gonna have a pork roast And a little while and he's like okay as he's leaving and I my husband corrected me and said it's not pork It's not pork and I'm like, okay Okay, it's a roast. It's a roast and I'm like, oh the word I was you looking for was pot roast But I said the wrong word pork roast It's not because I didn't know what the meat was it's because I didn't I Didn't my brain does that sometimes it replaces a word and that is normal for anesthesia and for bypass Apparently so I have a double whammy So I'm gonna talk to the doctor about that tomorrow. I probably have to do with the MRI I think just to make sure everything's cool. I think everything is cool. My body tells me girl girl you fine And you're fine girl It's just designed to have you slow down. You're you're too fast cuz I'm like I'm not like this right now boom boom boom boom Boom sharp as a tack. I'm not like that. I'm more like well Hmm and I pause and then I find the words cuz they're there. I just have to pause for a minute and then they come through so It's kind of weird though This body and mind thing is a big fucking deal you guys your body matters more than your brain does So what if your body was making choices for you, then what and that doesn't just include the avoidance of pain It includes being healthy and well and the connection between the body the mind the heart and the soul All the relationships with inside you the body has with the soul the body has with the heart the body has with the brain and It doesn't just talk It's just not just about moving the body in a loving way or eating foods that the body really needs to be able to be at its peak peak level of just Health long-term health not just short term but long-term health and It's not just about that like avoiding the harm or avoiding the pain. It's also about pleasure. The pleasure isn't a donut It's not a donut. It's the sensual energy like touch and Essential oils and the senses and the smells and the colors and art and music and and the way things feel and the touch like that That's what that's what the pleasure part of the body is seeking, you know So it's not either or it's the balance of the the and the all, you know All right So I apologize for last Monday I said I was gonna show up last Monday and I totally intended to because I want to do a 2024 kind of look ahead with one of our spirit guide friends one of our Channeling channels that that I think is a great look ahead kind of person But I ended up totally blowing off the fact that I had multiple I had session. I had a session Yay, so I got paid to talk to somebody and then I had my own counseling session And then I had rehab and then something else happened. I can't remember what there was a fourth thing I was like, oh my god, I can't I don't have time So I apologize for that. I did intend to be here. So my goal is to be here tomorrow. I do have a doctor appointment in the morning and Rehab in the afternoon. So hopefully I can do it mid-morning like this or Maybe In the evening, we'll see I really really want to do it if I don't do it tomorrow I'll do it Tuesday Because I really want to get in this. Hey, let's look ahead to 2024 And I want to I want to talk to this this guy for that because he was good He's been good for that before so Hey, thank you so much for being here. I'm gonna say hello to the chat. Let me say hi to my people's in the chat my people's in the chat Get my glasses on so I can see Hi, Nancy P. Hi, Mary s Hey, the dude. Hey aura. Nice to see you. Hey, Ann S. Nice to see you as well. Oops Trying to scroll down. Hey Joanna Joanne Like you Okay, um, let's see Live chats, okay Let me see Jan is here life is stressful. Yes How are you doing when W? Do I say hello? Good morning family friends all of it. Yes Peace. Thank you T Brown Certainly hope I decided Okay, just a second. Oops. I'm pinning people by accident. I'm not trying to do that. I Certainly hope you've decided to go with yoga and good old sunshine to feel your peace. I have been going with good old sunshine and Yoga for sure. I always find some quiet time. Yes, it does for sure. Hi Patty. Nice to see you All right, my dear ones My head on out of here I get to go to the grocery store. I'm sure I'll find so much peace there It's like a heat wave today. It's like 20 degrees outside and so therefore we are going to Head out in the weather. I Love nice to see you. Hi, Mary B. Nice to see you. Hello, Angela. Nice to see you as well And to everyone who's watching this after the fact you've been part of the energy of this conversation Remember your body is so in tune and intuitive Listen or at least Start to honor it Okay, just in small subtle ways. Okay And then if we want to really dig into it, we'll talk more about it All right, my dear ones. Thank you so much for being here. I hope here at above-life channel. We've inspired your spirit Filled you with some hope and encourage you to live your life. It's your life after all and you get to live it Just live it. There's just a little nod right here as I exit from Archangel Michael Just so you know if somebody asked for a sign today and wanted to have it You just got it Archangel Michael that beautiful true blue loyal Archangel for protection and support and keeping you steady Stable and grounded during the times of unknown Given you strength my friends. Thanks for being here Have a great rest of your day Bye for now