 It's so stupid. It's positively brilliant With the therapy on Friday, and this is I've been feeling this way for the past few much Yeah, which is actually gonna be a direct 180 from what I was just talking about right, but so you are gonna suck So Kashi's no no no no no I find I finally I Finally feel worthy bro. Oh I finally got into a place of worthy explain worthiness Last year I had a conversation with Bishop TD Jackson. It's something that I've always dealt with it's it's like it's my therapist It's called an imposter syndrome like you know, this is very common. Yeah Yeah, I'm in for women in the workplace. Really? Oh Wildly common. I think it's very common for like people especially us in the industry It's common for us in the industry because we've achieved You know immense success in a field that's so difficult to feel successful But they say that women in the workplace even in doing normal jobs often have this imposter syndrome being like are they gonna figure out That I'm a fraud. Yeah, I really deserve this do I belong this that the other yeah And that's like social conditioning that they actually grow up in yeah Oh woman's not supposed to be a scientist or this kind of shit. Yeah, so Well, all these people look up to you and they're like, oh my god, that's Charlemagne. God He's got all these skills, etc. They're still a part of you. It's thinking why the fuck do I have this? Crazy that sounds absolutely. I deal with it all the time It's just it's like guilt like, you know, if you deal with the I guess survivors remorse and then when you look back You know at your hometown and you look at all the people that you grew up with and they now met they may not necessarily be doing different about me Exactly what so like what so unique and special about me like there's nothing and you'll tell yourself that oh There's nothing special about you like yeah, whatever and so Bishop TD Jakes told me last year And that's why I actually posted that this week and he told me last year He's like you have to get to a place of worthy and he said that it's because when you were he said Most people that would touch when they were young Fonda like you know cuz I was touched on when I was eight. Yeah, and he was like when you would when you were touched on by You were young. Yeah, you never quite feel worthy and that hit me so hard because someone couldn't even wait You check it out though when I made her stop. Yeah, she started talking down on me So it wasn't a touching it was the criticizing after yeah Touching would imply that you know, you were the most worthy Yeah, everyone but when she went out when I stopped letting her do it That's what she's like. Oh, you got a big nose anyway, and you ugly and this is that isn't it? So it's like, I don't know. I never thought about it, but it's ingrained in you. Absolutely. Yeah, absolutely And so he said that's a common thing and then I remember hearing Tyler Perry speak about how you have to get to a place of Worth because if you don't get to a place of worthy, right? God will take away You know, whatever it is that he's bestowed upon you, right? You know because you're not appreciating it and you know, you'll find a way to self sabotage Right, you know, I mean you'll find a way to talk yourself out of things I want you to add those clips to tell We could do it in pre-production post-production production. We're in a nice little role. It's on my Instagram. So yeah over the past few months, right? Yo, I literally be just riding and having these These these this this energy just overcome me. Well, I'm like And I'm really blessed like yo, I'm yo, I'm really I really feel good Like, oh, thank you God like these these pockets of gratitude and it's like I can't describe it in my mind Therapist was saying that it's um, it's all of these positive endorphins. She said it's like when you're working out You know, you work out and after you feel like whoo, yeah, she was like it's like that And I was like man, I've been really feeling that the past few months and like yo last week I just was like, oh, I really feel worthy like everything that I I've done everything that I'm doing everything that I'm gonna do just me as a human being my my family my my friends like I am worthy of all of this Greatness that is around me and man when I tell you that shit was like a Revelation like I've never had like eye-opening like oh shit like this would Molly feel like like this would exit He feel like yeah Yeah, really not troops Molly Molly Yeah, really so cuz you know how you're operating on like a you're up in on a deficit, right? You're worthy like you were empty Yeah, so you're trying to fill that emptiness with things probably in your career these different successes that you made, right? Yeah Molly for me, and I'm not promoting it per se even though it's fucking fantastic is Not only do you get filled up emotionally that void that you're talking about right? You have excess and then you have the gratitude and what I realized whenever I've excess the first place it goes Is everyone other people word up and like say what you want about religion and religious folks But truly religious folks that really believe it Never are taking they are constantly in give mo absolutely, and I think I truly believe and I'm someone who didn't wasn't raised with I truly believe that their void gets filled with God or The belief in God or the belief that God loves them Yeah, you know I'm saying that emptiness that a lot of us feel so it's like that that idea That idea of like feeling worthy is really interesting because it's a double-edged sword Your lack of feeling worthy probably drove you to greatness. Hmm. If Michael Jordan felt worthy He wouldn't be the greatest NBA player of all time What did Michael Jordan talk about in his all-star except or not his Hall of Fame acceptance all the rejection that he experienced He didn't feel worthy this weird thing where it's like what would you prefer? Yeah, I mean listen you prefer. Yo, it's a process man, and I'm gonna tell you something It's a beautiful journey, you know because Like just me constantly feeling like that like never feeling like I quite belong and I always felt like that was a good Energy to have because I felt like anything if I ever got if I ever felt in that space I would get comfortable, but that's not that's not that's not the case Now you feel like you're still driven I'm even more driven and the reason I'm even more driven is because of what you just said Yeah, I want to continue to be full enough to constantly have my cup overflowing so I can help out for everybody else That's the transition that some some entertainers don't make some like rock stars don't make that's why a lot of these Athletes not even athletes, but that's why a lot of these entertainers kill themselves I truly believe that it's because they get to a point where they have everything they ever dreamed of and they're still miserable Because well, that's that's because there's there in their head that it's about them right not about you anymore They didn't make the transition to oh the new way to be before the way to be happy was sell this many albums Do this many tours etc. Then you transition to how do I help my friends sell this many albums? How do I have my friends the greatest dr. Wayne W. Dyer said that your purpose in life is service to others It's hard to get there when you can't even serve yourself It's like I feel like on some level you need you know what you when they say on the airplane they're like Put your oxygen mask on first before you help the kids. Yeah, and our natural instinct would be well There's kids here. Let's put the oxygen mask on first But the plane people are like motherfucker if you can't breathe you can't help nobody Can't help nobody so it's like I think the idea with this with this like fill-in-the-void thing is Once you feel yourself it will naturally spill over. It's like one of those Champagne glass towers and those fancy, you know hotels or something, you know when they have or like a wedding They have like a hundred champagne glasses Yeah, just fill the top one and then all of them start to get filled But if that top one doesn't fail, yeah, how hard it is to fill each one Yeah, and I don't want anybody in here to that's hearing me to think that you have to get successful in order to help Cuz my grandmother was full. Well, yeah And but my grandmother would always tell me that manners will take you where money won't and you know for me Like I always say money doesn't money doesn't change you it just multiplies whatever you are Yeah, I've always been a giver just because that's what I always used to see my folks do right my father Regardless of what his financial standing was would always was always giving something I don't give a fuck if it was a beer, you know what I mean? My grandmother was always giving something no matter what her financial status was just because she would cook and you know You want to eat you hungry no matter who you were so I was always that type of person I would always want to you know, just be of service to people but now sometimes when you when you Get an over-abundance or something you can find yourself being selfish and I it's easy for me to have this conversation now because I've Finally figured it out But even talking to my daughter the other day my daughter know they do secret santa She do secret santa chili and secret santa school all different places So she ended up getting like a bunch of the same gift. It's like some candles or something like that And she's complaining about having the same gift And I say right now you're not being grateful that you have an overabundance of something I mean what kid gets another kid at candle But not So she's so funny you said that because she said to me well well the person that gave it to me told me They wish they had got me something else. I said that's probably because knowing you You made a face at her and was like all right. I got already got this Back electricity Who the fuck is kid? Why would a kid ever buy a candle? A special school or something like that, but these city candles are bomb How good a candle smells bro these kids are fucking candle. It's a nuisance. It's just trash Yo, some of these clean it all up. Some of these kids are in the mind from this way more than us, bro Oh, so they're meditating. Yes. Yeah, what if they gave it a give us your dad? He'll come down me and my daughter meditate together. Really? Oh, yeah, this is great Yeah, I meditate with my daughter do breathing exercises and everything. This is absolutely, but She had the candle I told her you got six of the same candle. What should you do? She's like, I don't know I was like now is your opportunity being that you have an overabundance of something to be a blessing to somebody else Yes, so beat all those kids over the head with those candles Someone else will appreciate that kid who is gonna appreciate a candle Who in history outside of Paul Revere has ever been excited that there is fucking candles You so from New York, yo, why cuz you have never experienced a hurricane and had a natural disaster Because when you Time yeah, America's gonna get hit with some type of natural disaster. You'd be like where the fuck are those candles? That's all I'm gonna light the candle and it's gonna go on. I'm like, wow the most minimum amount of light This is so exciting. Thank God. Thank God. I can barely see no still The one candle doesn't light. Yes, it does bro I turned off all the lights in this room and lit one candle. You would be shocked how dark it was how No, how bright it was little thing of light in the middle and nothing else. We still got the lights We got a got the lights from the window though. Yeah If it was see you guys are talking out of this can't listen. You would love a candle, bro. Candles suck That's why I replace them immediately. No, no, no, I love that's why candles got a smell good because just being a candle isn't enough They're like, hold on. Did you get me a just candle? This doesn't smell like apple cinnamon or anything They are better when they are better when they're saying it say what they are better when this is because they do nothing when they're not even when they're sent in Even when they're sent and they suck isn't fuck the candles the moral story Yes, you have every right to be pissed off at these pieces shit kids. No who raise them the moral You know what they didn't buy a present they grabbed some Catholic people Good Catholic people they stole church candles They're stealing candles from Jesus as Christmas presents if that isn't the most fucked up shit But when you have an overabundance of something just be a blessing to somebody else because guess what I told her Like our nanny just turned 60 give her the candle. Oh, she needed that vibrator What are you talking about? But but but but but but with the candle What that's how you make a cent it It smells like a great depression The moral of the story is when you have an overabundance of something be a blessing to somebody else Okay, even when you don't have an overabundance of something be a blessing to somebody else But I'm telling you man when you get to that place of worthy that shit is better than any drug, bro Yo, I 100% agree. It is an amazing experience to have I will tell people that if you try to fill yourself first you will It will naturally happen where you want to give to these other people Because right now we can sit here and be like, hey give to each other give to other people It's gonna make you feel good and it will Mm-hmm 100% will but there are people listening right now They're like, ah, this doesn't make you feel good and there's no way to convince you it does But it's gonna organically happen once you have what you need listen by the way I'm not here to try to convince you like when you get drunk The second you're drunk. You're like who wants to drink anybody want a bit? You're literally trying to give your friends things. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I got two next rounds on me But like everybody likes the drunk guy, you know what I mean? It's constant depends You're giving if you're a nice drunk guy. You have angry drunks out there Even if you're an angry drunk you're giving ass weapons. Yeah You're beating up your family. You're still giving slapping your dick on people's forehead when they sleep. They're okay Who did that? I don't know. I've just seen videos. Chote slap What they call it a chote slap. What is a chote? So why do you act like you know what I was talking about? What is that? Don't leave me on Puerto Ricans