 I have no idea when this video will put public. I really don't. Apparently my laptop charger's grown legs and walked off. Don't let me try, don't let me try Also that's what I found while you're choosing to suggest. Not a lie. I nearly got a train home and I've been in Telferd for six hours. Like I genuinely hate it here and you know what? Isn't it midnight? And it says all mood to box off your bed seeing sleeve. I think the box is not bad. I'm confused, I'm irritated and I'm pissed off. See the thing is about my family that most of you don't know is that there is a very long, I say long but I mean long history of I've heard of this order on my mom's side and on my dad's side. Schizophrenia is a key part. I'm the only one I've noticed with online personality disorder at the lot. And I'm also the only one who takes the medication. Honestly the day, the day any of them actually realize that meds aren't all evil. And honestly if I can't wake up that top thing by boxing day, I'm going home and done. I'd much rather be in London for a new year, at least then I could go and do something. Sorry I had to learn to speak to the greatest team tonight. I had to take 20 nautical pounds of my diet as a pound rather than my normal 10 now because everything got double the other day. I see them a bit off and shaky. My meds all got changed basically, everything got increased. I also have my sleeping pill to do. I'm on 10 nautical pounds, is that easier? 10 nautical pounds. That is literally just why I'm in Telford. Because I explain very bluntly how badly being here affects me. And you know it does impact me, you know? It's going through. I hate being here. I didn't even want to come this year. I was so close to just not getting on the train. When I was at Houston, I was looking at the board, when it came up with a platform notification of which platform the train was going to be on. And I was looking at it and I was like, do I do this? What you need to do is it's a new one-way ticket. It's not a new one-way ticket to hell. Or Telford, as it's better known. Well, it's boxing day and I just can't work enough to be kicked out. I'm a white dog, Karen. So I just don't know what I'm doing. I don't even have words for how I feel. I'm just going to get dressed. You know what I mean? I hate real transitions, guys. I hate being here. I hate you. I'm going out in time, really. I'm actually really glad. Class, what's going on? I'm going home. I'll catch a crazy little bit. Enjoy the transition footage, I guess. Let's go out this morning and never return.