 Hey guys, what's up? It's Isaac and today I'm going to be talking about one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. But first I just want to thank everyone over on Patreon. You guys are awesome. Thank you for your support. And if you want to help support my creation of these videos and other resources like blog posts and different stuff on Instagram, Facebook, other social medias, head over to patreon.com slash daily underscore disciple. Help me out there. Support me there. It's my goal to do this full time. You can help me do that by heading over there and supporting me $5 a month. That's all it takes. And it would be a huge blessing to me. Anyway, on to today's video. Okay, so I want to do some more relaxed videos. I know people like, you know, the pink bang bang bang bang bang bang bang jump cut. Oh, I'm over here and then I'm up here and then I'm down here. You know, I don't think that's ever really been my style. So you know what? I just want to kind of tell you guys some stories today and tell you a little bit about one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and where I am now after doing that said thing. So let me tell you a little story. After I went to university for one year after high school, I was kind of in the state of like, okay, what's kind of next for me? I knew that I wanted to do some sort of like online ministry stuff. So like videos, blog posts, I'd already been blogging a long time kind of doing some videos, but not really that seriously or consistently. So I was like, I kind of want to do this. And I really like to write. And it was kind of a weird thing because as a kid, and even now, I mean, you don't lose it necessarily. I was dyslexic. So that means, and I'm going to go into kind of depth on that in another video, but I was dyslexic. So it just means that I have difficulty reading and writing. So the fact that I like to read now is quite amazing actually, because I as a kid I hated to read like 13, 14, even into my teen years is like, I hate reading. But writing, I began writing at like 16 after an encouragement from a friend who had a blog as well. It was like, Hey, do you blog? And I'm like, I don't blog. That seems kind of weird. But I started a blog because it took me like five minutes. And I just wrote and I just began to writing. So skip forward to when I dropped out of university after one year. I was kind of thinking along the lines of maybe writing a book. And this was kind of weird. I don't know how this thing got in my head. Like I should write a book, because it's not like you see 20 year olds or 19 year olds like starting to write books. Like it's like, Okay, you do this after maybe you've had some long life experience or something crazy has happened to you in your life. And then you write a book or something like that, or you're a scholar or something. And then you write a book. But now I was like, I kind of want to write a book. So I was throwing around a bunch of ideas. And actually, my dad came to me one day as I was just throwing around these ideas. And he was like, Hey, you ever consider writing a book from a son's perspective to fathers? And I was like, Hmm, that's an interesting idea. Like it wasn't initially like, that's what I'm doing. But I feel like after I thought about it for a couple minutes, I'm like, This is what I'm doing. And in that moment, I pulled up a Google Doc, which is usually where I write most of my things. I was just like, Okay, writing this outline. So I was just writing out the different kind of topics and themes that I wanted to cover in this book. I'm like, Okay, pretty much the book's written, not really. But like the outline was done. So I'm like, Okay, well, I'm on my way there. Little did I know that this would kind of put me on a path to a year and a half long journey of diligently sectioning out like each chapter, like, I'm going to wake up at five o'clock in the morning to write this chapter. Because at eight, the rest of the kids are going to need to wake up. And I'm going to need to take care of them. For those of you who are who don't know, during that time, my mom had breast cancer. So she was doing a lot of treatments. And I was homeschooled as a kid as were my siblings. And so it was just kind of one of these things where it was like next man up who needs to take care of help take care of the kids. So that was me. So I would wake up at five o'clock in the morning and pull up my my sec in my section that I was that I allotted that day to write the book. So whatever it was like a chapter that day or, you know, five pages or something like that of the book. And I would just write I would write a lot. And it was really hard. Like it was, it was, you don't realize how much like effort and perseverance, something like that takes till you're on like the 20th page and you're like, is this good? Am I doing? Is this like even worthwhile going forward here? Like, am I mentally it's really, it's really hard to do this. And you're like, for me, I don't know how to write a book. You're looking at videos on YouTube, how to write a book. I mean, as a kid, I hated to read and write as I said. But even as a teenager, being homeschooled and stuff like that, I didn't like to write a lot. I maybe wrote one or two, maybe three essays. And my mom's like, don't admit that. Come on. But the fact is, is that I didn't write a lot. But then when I did write, ended up writing, began writing it like 17, I wrote tons and tons like I'd write every day. And then when I started writing the book, it was like, wow, okay, I'm writing a lot and a lot. And it was really hard, though, sometimes to stay with it. Because when you're writing a book is just like, this is the book here, you're on like chapter four. And you're like, they're like, nine chapter or whatever it is. Yeah, nine chapters left of what I need to write. And it's like a long, you know, this is just the half of it. Like once you have it written, then then there's a whole another branch to that. So it was really tough for me. And sometimes my insecurities got the best of me, like, just like, this is terrible. This is not going to be good. I'm wasting my time. And just needing to really come back. And my dad was a big help in really reorienting my perspective, like, no, God's going to use this man. Like, if you've been called to write this book, like this is something God's placed on your heart, then God's gonna help you bring it to fruition. And it's just about being perseverant and obedient. And that's what I tried to do just being just having real courage in trying to write this. And it seems kind of dumb. It's like, why do you need courage writing a book? But I think we have that a lot of areas of our lives, like anything that we want to do that we want, that takes time to accomplish, we need courage to do that. Because in a certain sense, we're taking a risk to dedicate that much time to something. But when we know God's in it, when we can sense that calling that, yeah, this is something that he's called us to do in our lives. Then we can be confident that even though it may seem like, what, a 20 year old writing a book, that seems crazy. Why are you doing that? No, if God's called us to do that, then we got to be obedient and do that. And it takes a lot of perseverance. But even in your lives, I believe that God's going to use things like this, the difficult things that he's put on your heart, to really develop that perseverance in you. And at the end of the day, okay, maybe it's going to be successful, maybe it won't be super successful, in terms of the world standards. But God uses that journey, even more than he uses the success or whatever we find at the end. I mean, the fact that I spent so much time over this and just even, even I catch myself reading it sometimes, just because there's a lot of things in the book, and you can get it in the link in description, by the way, if you haven't picked it up. Just things that remind me of the own thoughts and struggles that I have in my heart, and re re orienting my perspective onto God and just really understanding, hey, look, God's got us. He's not going to leave us out to dry. He's not going to, you know, leave us in a place where he won't help us. No, he's with us. He's present with us in our lives. And so whatever he's called us to, he's going to give us the strength to persevere through it. There's a saying that says, God won't give you more than you can handle. And I mean, this can be applied to a lot of different instances. But I think this is, you know, and I've heard my pastor say many times, this is completely wrong. God gives us more than we can handle because he wants to see how we can turn to him in the midst of it. Because if we can just, if everything we get, we can handle, we don't need God. But there's some things, some challenges, some journeys that are too hard for us. A lot of them are. And too difficult for us to do on our own. And we really shouldn't be taking any journeys or any struggles on our own because God is there for us. He's present with us. He loves us. He accepts us. He's forgiven us. And he's brought us close to his side as his children. And he says, you know what? You can do these things through my strength, through my power, through my Holy Spirit living within you. And I think that's an amazing thing that I'm trying to live out in my life. And I think this book is just kind of an expression of that working in my life. And if that's encouraged you at all, I hope that you can continue to follow God where he's placed you, what he's called you to, and be perseverant in that. I don't know if perseverant is a word, but I'm going to think it is. And you know what I'm talking about. But I think it's just important that we stay confident in who God is and not necessarily in our own abilities. I, as I was trying to write this book, I was like, I don't have the skills to do this. I don't have the, you know, the resources. I don't have anything really that I need, except this calling from God and say, you know what? Give me, God's sake, give me what you have. You know, that love of writing. Give that to, give that to me. Give that to me. And I'll use that and I'll bring people around you. And he brought, you know, supporters around it that ended up helping fund the book and just all these different things that came into place where I'm like, I have this much skill here, but God is able to use that mightily. So I just want to encourage you with that. Give your skills and talents and whatever your, you know, dreams are. Give them to God and let him use them, change them, reorient your perspective on to him and let him guide you to where you need to go and what you need to do. Anyway, I hope you were encouraged by that story. And yeah, it's something really exciting that's been going on in my life. And I'm just thankful that you're along the journey as well. Thanks so much for watching, guys. If you want to let me know what you think about this whole journey, leave a comment down below. Give this video a like if you enjoyed it and subscribe to the channel because I'm putting out new videos all the time Mondays and Thursdays. Thanks so much for watching, guys, and I'll see you next time. See ya!