 Dear friends, daily press is familiar to me, but today it was familiar to me, it is familiar to me, but today, after seven years, it looks like where I am, I am not able to understand. I am not able to understand because I still feel that I am there in this notorious undersell. I am not able to come to terms with the reality that is in front of me even now, after twenty four hours of release. I am not able to adjust to the surroundings. I only looked at the walls, closed walls for all the seven years, and earlier I was there in the same cell for 17 months, altogether more than eight and a half years since the case was instituted ten years ago, eight and a half years I was in the same cell. Perhaps the entire world knew the case was a fabricated case even ten years before, but there was no relief. There was no relief even after a higher judiciary acquitted me, discharged me. It was like a Agni Pariksha, seetha faced. We had to go through twice, mythological seetha faced once, but we had to face twice the same Agni Pariksha, test with fire. But today I am in front of you, my dear friends of the press. After passing through the test, two tests of fire, test with fire, but unfortunately as accused it was not only the test of fire, Agni Pariksha for us as accused in this case, so called accused in this case, it became Agni Pariksha for the higher judiciary itself in this case. One judgment of higher judiciary acquitting us was not enough. The higher judiciary itself is tested, not just us, but we came out successfully from this test, and higher judiciary also came out successfully to deliver justice, though justice delayed. There is an old age, justice delayed is justice denied. Today we are happy, perhaps happy with tears in our eyes, not just because we are happy, but it was not only test for us, but it became a test for the higher judiciary. You cannot pronounce judgment acquitting these people once, you will be tested again. Perhaps higher judiciary also passes the Agni Pariksha. I mean after these two tests that we passed successfully, the only institution that left out to be relied on for democracy for the people, the judiciary is also being tested now. Perhaps after this the judiciary and we, the accused punished during the process, process itself, process of law itself is the biggest punishment. It should not be actually in a democracy. Now, I am in front of you to say only one thing. I am not in a position to speak. I am not in fact in a position to sit. I am sitting before you with tearing pains, shooting pains in my body. So I will be very short, I will say only a few words. First thing that I wanted to say is I thank the press, particularly daily press and all India press for being supportive to me and to my family all through these 10 years. Maybe a section of press was not very happy to support, but a large section of Indian press media supported to us. This even I could understand from within my small prison cell that there is hope in this country that the press is supporting the truth and facts, not JN Saibaba. If JN Saibaba stands for truth and facts, yes, truth and fact is supported by a larger section of media. That is a great hope for me. Inside the dystopian prison cell and my family survived with hope because of you. I wanted to thank that is precisely the reason, precisely the reason why I came instead of going to a hospital to the doctors, first I chose to come before you because you supported the truth and facts and you published in support of the truth and facts. And today judiciary also stood firmly at least in my case and hopefully on many other cases and on everywhere to give justice and stood for the kind of justice and that is another hope that we have today in front of us. Along with this, I profusely thank you for being supported to my family and you have not left my family alone when my family is stigmatized calling me a terrorist, not only me being behind the prison bars, but my entire family was stigmatized. My family could sustain and could stand up because of your support. I thank you and I also wanted to thank you through you, my lawyers, relentless struggles of my lawyers to establish the fact and achieve justice. Lawyers from Delhi, lawyers from Mumbai, lawyers from Nagpur all work together. It was also a big test for them and it was a relentless struggle. You know the lawyers, I will not take all the names, it will be very difficult to take the large team of lawyers who stood with us to bring justice to us. Perhaps it has become a case, a bigger case, biggest case in the country, biggest political case in this country where the prosecution wanted to suppress by using all kinds of illegal immoral means and it was a long struggle for the lawyers. I especially thank two lawyers, though it's a very long list of names, a senior advocate of Mumbai High Court, Subodh Dharamadikari stood up and said that, I will fight this case without taking one rupee, pro bono, he's a very aged and senior most lawyer in Mumbai High Court and when the first trial came, he was not well, he was hospitalized, but from the hospital he came and argued. When the second time he was also tested, he again came, though bedridden and argued before the judges and I thank him. Another lawyer, very interestingly, who defended me during the trial court, today he is behind the bars, it is Surinder Gardling, he is in Algar Prashat case, languishing behind the bars only for one reason, he stood for me, he argued most effectively in the sessions court during the trial, of course with all his skills, a human rights lawyer of 35 years of experience, he presented before the court in such a way that there was nothing in the case, of course, lawyers, human rights lawyer Surinder Gardling did not fail, it is a session court which we fail, gave a judgment against the law of the land and during the trial certain police officers appeared and threatened my lawyer Surinder Gardling, after Saibaba we will see you and Saibaba got conviction and within months of conviction Surinder Gardling was arrested in another fabricated case and more than 5 years is languishing, he is a imminent lawyer and human rights lawyer who also did pro bono for poor Adivasis and Dalits and other poor sections, thousands of cases he won for the people, Surinder Gardling is today I am very sad that even before, even speaking in front of you that my lawyer most effective who is the human face of law of this country, one of the human faces he is languishing in a jail and I wanted to tell you that my story of suffering I wanted to share my story of 10 years of suffering just before that two more things I wanted to say before I come to the kind of suffering that I have gone through, today Surinder Gardling my lawyer who defended me is facing the same problem that I have been facing in 10 years, he has developed a serious heart condition, he is in Taloja Jail has developed a serious heart condition, he also recently started falling unconscious like me 8 and of years I was falling unconscious in the under cell of Nagpur central prison, recently the medicines were denied to Surinder Gardling, the life saving drugs prescribed by the government hospital the life saving drugs are denied, when the family sent the drugs, life saving medicines it is denied, when the family sent by speed post again the medicines it was sent, the medicine was missing and letters were returned, same thing that happened with me when I to prevent falling unconscious I used to get one tablet in the prison the last 7 years, Vettigo tablet syncope to control syncope, that very tablet is denied to lawyer Surinder Gardling the human rights lawyer Surinder Gardling today, you fall unconscious but you cannot take this medicine the simple tablet of Vettigo everybody knows and facing with this kind of situation recently lawyer Surinder Gardling filed a case attempt to murder him against the prison authorities of Toloja prison, central prison perhaps you check with the court, high court there, it is attempt to murder case he filed, why he simply denied medicines, a case under section 307 is filed by him from the jail against the prison authorities who are denying him life saving drugs, this is I mean I am remembering this in front of you because this all happened to me still I survived I don't know how I survived myself perhaps only with the hope that I can come back one day and I work for the same people who I have been working with all my friends and comrades who have been working with me today standing with me even after 10 years of the suffering and another thing that I wanted to say one of the co-accused in my case whom I never knew he never knew me before the case before conviction we came to know each other only when we are bundled together into one cell after conviction was given and ordered to that person today who died in custody of a simple fever how could he die in today's modern with modern medicine available die of a fever and interestingly the first question he asked me why the question he asked me on 7th March 2017 when we were brought together and bundled together into one cell what what do you what is the meaning of judgment what happened to us he did not know what is law what is case what is court nothing as you have designated most primitive tribes of the country he belonged to that most primitive tribe he never knew any city any I think he never went out of his village from culturally he died in front of my eyes despite many reminders he was not taken to the hospital till the last moment where he was bleeding profusely from eyes and urine through in the in urine and about to die in a few minutes he was taken to the hospital after prisoners raised their voice and he was killed it was this is a state murder you can't say that he's just died of swine flu or fever we don't know because till the last minute there was no blood report on the swine flu only after death it was declared he died of swine flu we don't know what he died of really my sufferings you perhaps would know but as a human rights activist all through my life I have taken the sufferings of all the poor people as my own suffering and when I'm thrown into the jail the people have taken my sufferings as their own sufferings it's a reversal of the process that happened as a human rights activist I was to take the sufferings overwhelmed by the people as my sufferings but it is the people who were there was no accessibility within that say under cells one cell of wheelchair wheelchair could not go to the toilet there was no separate toilet one hole was there but here the wheelchair could not reach there was an obstacle two adivasi boys in my case first fardona rote and later on the rest they literally carried me to the toilet see every time lifting and to give a bath also I can't come out of the cell because there are obstacles in my wheelchair they have to lift again I can't go to mulakat place without being lifted again how many times they give this voice can lift me I can't go to online mulakat without being lifted by two people I can't go to the prison hospital without being lifted there is not a simple ramp this is the kind of accessibility condition in that prison but apart from that accessibility I could not even go and fit a glass of water the wheelchair doesn't move within the cell and how long how many years one can stay like that with life and as a result of this as a person who went inside the jail was posted into the into the jail without any health problem except my childhood polio effect effect I had no other disease today I am in front of you though alive but each and every organ failing failing me I simply tell you in one minute the kind of things that I have facing today my heart is today is what functioning with 55 capacity I acquired I don't know how which is called HCM hyphotropic cardiomyopathy in a severe condition and the left part of the heart is solely functioning with 55 percent and doctors say if it drops in a few points by the the percentage of function drops by few points you will not survive and I been facing syncope attacks I fall unconscious these episodes are repeating but never I have been given a treatment to for this only they conducted some tests but never any treatment they gave me only painkillers painkillers four five six types of painkillers and you know on March sorry May 9th 2014 when I was arrested the police dragged me with my left hand I cannot raise my left hand today you can see it is swollen even after 10 years when I came here Kamrat Raja the first question was why even is your left hand swollen he saw you can see that you know five muscles and the entire nervous system was broken because I was mishandled and dragged while being in the police custody soon after the arrest carried away from Delhi to Nagpur by flight and from there to Ahiri by car with 2000 commandos following in a queue and during that process my hand they dragged and the entire narrow system was broken from neck which collects to the brain to the shoulder no treatment was given it was swollen like this for nine months I suffered during undertale period and after nine months when I was taken there to the hospital it is too delayed we cannot revive the nervous system and muscles long that was a doctor's response a government of doctors and when I was given bail out the treatment was going on here and the doctors planned for surgery and I got the conviction and like once again I was hurled into the back into the same cell and since then I've been suffering with pain shooting pain in my left hand to the left leg my phone you affected left leg I have muscle I have acquired muscle spasms spasmatic attacks paralyzing me doctor doesn't come I was I would not take be taken to the doctor hospital just across the undersell also you suffer that's why I compared myself with Sita my theological Sita I am being suspected Lord Rama suspected Sita like then I have because of the food that I could not eat or could eat gallbladder required gathered stones and sunken then I eat affected pancreas now I am suffering from gallbladder stones and acute chronic prank here prank here it is I can't digest food I can't eat and then in one MRI they found that there is a cyst in the brain in my brain and in another scanning they found that there are cysts in my kidneys they were nothing I was going annual medical checkup all those years before my arrest I had nothing I was healthy I never used to take even one tablet if there is a headache or something my wife used to give some herb never took any tablet so the doctors prescribed several things government doctors whole term monitoring of heart should be conducted this was prescribed four years ago till today that whole term monitoring of heart is not conducted another doctor prescribed sleep apnea test saying that you have acquired abstract to sleep apnea you cannot sleep properly and the test is not that in seven years it was prescribed seven years ago till today the test was not conducted can I have some water another doctor prescribed surgical repair of nerves and muscles to stop at least the pain and improve the functionality of my hand it is not being done it is not even planned not even discussed about there are other tests not done why the most criminal gangs who gangsters who live in the same prison they get priority treatment in even in private hospital with lakhs of rupees spent of course all the poor people the jail is filled with SCs STs OBCs minorities they never get any treatment perhaps I am among us them that's why I did not also get or perhaps they consider me that I'm the biggest terrorist in the world because of that I didn't get even the medicines that are sent by Vasanta it was very difficult to reach initially you never used to be given after my hunger strike for 10 days which went around to the all the departments of the governments and union then they started giving the medicines when whenever she sent she sent regularly but after 10 days after 15 days you go without medicine for your heart within 10 days even the medicine those medicines which are sent by your family and it is it was happening to a person who has support from you the media it was happening of course you have focused about all these issues but still they could do it because the word from within jail will not come out that has their confidence I wanted to share one emotional as a human being point with you finally this is the last point I wanted to mention because I am feeling very tired after seven years of continuous imprisonment and the last three days of struggle to come out my mother passed away while being in prison and first August 2020 being a disabled child from since childhood my mother brought me up with great care she took me in her arms to the school my child should get education that is the only goal for her when she died I was not allowed to see before her death I was denied parole to go and see her after death I was denied to attend her funeral and after funeral proposed funeral function of rights I was denied parole by the authorities prison authorities prison department government and courts who is the criminal accused in this country who are denied for this kind of rights is there anyone if I am teaching in Delhi university today or I was teaching 10 years ago till 10 years ago it was my mother's dream who is a illiterate village woman today you can see and as a human rights activist I could see all women across the country the poorest of the poor adivasi women the lead women they only desire only one thing my child should get education we will not get land we will not get anything we know but we want our child to get education it was the same dream my mother had was there any necessity that I never deserved to serve my mother at last days she died because of only one thing because I was implicated in this case and incarcerated without any facts and she asked and asked till the last moment she asked that she wanted to see me that is the only desire she had see the state is there to serve the people the state should not be there to punish the people and crush the humanity humanity needed state at one point in the history of development of human species to serve them to organize them the into your society to have a kind of a society where there are no problems and of course the state become in the course of time the brutal oppressor itself the brutal oppression should have the state is formed by a contractor of people to stop disorder anarchy and the state became the anarchy itself now it is crushing humanity brutally you see the crowded prison where I was I came for him it was a prison for 1500 people to say how many people there are 300 3200 people in the place of 1500 and they are struggling and fighting with each other like dogs for sitting place sleeping place for water no facilities are there there was no space even for to sit and sleep six feet is not there for each prisoner to sleep so for fire place to sleep they fight like dogs this is the kind of you know in humanity this is the humanity for the entire country not for the prisoners who are fighting like dogs subhuman conditions in human conditions I'm sorry I became emotional before you but you are my brothers and you help my family you become part of my family that's why I shared all this with you thank you very much