 You have to remember that once you've repented of something, truly repented and renounced it, and you've confessed it to God, that God forgives you. Here's what the Bible says in 1 John 1 verse 9, but if we confess our sins to Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us of all wickedness. It's time to trust that Christ's sacrifice was good enough for even your mistakes.