 I'll just spend for a couple seconds as I wait for people to come in. This is actually going to be a sort of a serious video. Yeah, that's why I've labeled it to perspective. Hey, how's it going Alex? So people might be jumping in as I talk about this and that's fine. Just wanted to let you know what happened to me, well not to me, to somebody else today, but it kind of put my life into perspective. I have been, I haven't really shared it here on YouTube, but we've been having some financial issues here. We were in the middle of a lawsuit against our insurance company and my wife is in two car accidents within two weeks, neither of which were her fault. But because there were two different insurance companies involved, one with us and one with the people that were driving the other vehicles, there was a fight going back and forth the whole time. Hey Misty, welcome. But yeah, I'm sorry, yeah, Alex, she is okay. Yes, thank you for asking. This happened like three years ago and she's fine now, but at the time we did have some medical bills. So we've been fighting with the insurance company trying to get those taken care of and we finally found out last week that we lost essentially. So we've dropped out, we've dropped our insurance company. We did before all of this came down because we knew that they were bad news. But anyway, like $30,000 of health bills that we're gonna have to take care of. And then we also found out that... What else that came down? So, well, you know, I'm not gonna get into it. I'm just gonna say a lot of stuff came down all at the same time. Oh, well, we found out that we owe the IRS a little over $5,000. Well, $4,000 now, we actually did find some other deductions, so $4,000. So, I mean, it all came down at the same time. And recently, I've been also complaining not here or even online, but just here at home, complaining to my wife about the psoriasis that I have, which you can see, I got the red splotches and everything, the IBS that I have, my bad back, my bad knees. Off to tell you why I have... My right knee is bad. Off to tell you why someday. That's sort of a long story, but kind of humorous at the same time. But all of that now means completely nothing. I came to Rockford, Illinois back in 2004. And the reason I came here was for a radio job. I was the morning show host for a local Christian radio station. And I had a co-host. I'm not gonna say her name because I don't know if she would appreciate me talking about this on YouTube, but those people who actually listened to the program, you know who I'm talking about. I found out today that... And she's... I'd say she's 10 years older than me. Well, Patrice, I'm getting actually getting ready to tell you. She found out her son had a heart attack and died last night, or maybe even early this morning. I'm not exactly sure when it happened, but it was only a few hours ago that she posted that. Now, I'm not a father. I'm not a parent. So I am not even going to pretend to know what kind of pain that has to be. I've been told by my father, I don't know how many times, that that would be the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent is to lose a child. So I just have to take his word for that. But looking at that, and even though I can't relate personally, and I can't even imagine what that would be like, it really puts things into perspective for me. I have been complaining about these things that I just got done telling you about, which are nothing as compared to this. When it comes to eternity, who cares? Bills are going to get paid, or they're not going to get paid. Death comes to us all. So the psoriasis, I am blessed in the fact that my psoriasis isn't near as bad as other people's that I've seen. I have IBS, but I also have medication for my IBS. I have actually been diagnosed with clinical depression, but I've got medicine to help me take care of that. I deal with migraines. I've got medicine. I can deal with that. Even though I have all these things that are going wrong in my life, not just with health, but also with my career and everything just hiccups more than anything else. That's what they are. They're hiccups. When it comes to my entire life, when it comes to the 70, 80 years of existence I'm going to have, 90 years, whatever God decides to give me, it's a drop in the bucket of a lifetime. When it comes to eternity, it's nothing. It's dust. I felt guilty today. I felt guilty that I had been putting so much weight and worry and concern over my own life. All of these things, they really have no eternal value whatsoever. Here it is, a friend of mine. She was my co-host for several years. I know her. I care about her. I love this lady. For her to go through this, it just shocked me this morning. That's really all I wanted to say. This isn't a planned video, obviously. It's not very polished. I wasn't even sure exactly what I was going to say. Just more along the lines of, take a look at your life. If you've been complaining about something, if something's been bothering you or if you wish things would change, compare it to what others have. We are, I seem like a cheerful person. I'm sorry to hear, but yeah, thank you, Patrice. Usually I am a cheerful person. Fortunately, that's the thing. Try not to let things bother you all that much. Yes, I do suffer from depression and everything else, but that's not because I'm sad or anything. It's a medical condition. It's really hard to explain. If you don't have depression, then you can't really understand where it's coming from. Most people think it's just you being sad. Depression is the wrong word to use because you can be depressed without having depression. Yeah, Alex says we put a lot of weight in our lives. There was my last week, your phone died. See, yeah, and you beat yourself up. See, yeah, it's stuff like that. Exactly. I can't tell you how many times I've had my computer crash on me or lock up or I've been in the middle of creating an episode of Daily Dose of Weird News or Weird Darkness and everything will just disappear. I will scream to the ceiling because I have to start all over again. Oh no, two or three hours of my life gone. Big deal. So I am so sorry for my friend and what she's going through, but I'm also kind of thankful for the reminder that I truly am blessed. I have an amazing life. I have a bride that has somehow put up with me for 22 years and says she's still happy. So I've got a career that I love. I'm able to use the talents that God's given me to keep the bills paid, which is amazing. I got a roof over my head. A nicer house than I thought I'd ever live in, especially working in radio. If you know anybody who works at radio, you do not get into it for the money, trust me. Nobody ends up being Howard Stern and making millions of dollars a year. Nobody does that anymore, especially people getting into it nowadays. But my health is relatively good, despite the little things that I just got done telling you about. I'm in pretty good shape. In fact, I'm in better shape now than I was a year ago. So again, I'm rambling. I'm sorry. Anyway, just take a look at your life, whatever little things are going on in your day that perturb you. What did you curse at today? What happened that made you just want to yell and scream obscenities? Now compare that to somebody losing a child and it really puts things into perspective. So anyway, I got to go working on tomorrow's Darren Marlar radio show. Still haven't even started putting that together and I have to have it done by midnight. So no pressure. And also, I need to start working on a Weird Darkness. I missed it on Tuesday because I've been so stinking busy this week. See, there's me complaining again. See, I'm complaining about being busy. Why am I complaining about being busy? That's a good thing for me in my career. I want to be busy. You know, that means I'm actually making money. But here I am complaining. See, it's a hard habit to get out of. So I tell you what, if you see me complaining and I mean, aside from doing it for humorous reasons on the daily dose of weird news, right? Aside from that, if you see me complaining in a video like this, call me on it and just say, hey, remember your co-host and I'll know exactly what you're talking about. And it'll put me right back into perspective. Can't believe I just started doing that again. Wow. It's a hard habit to break. All right. Anyway, thanks a lot, guys. I love you guys for being here. I really appreciate it. It's really nice to have a weirdo family here that, you know, I don't normally just open up things and start talking, but it was nice to have you here to talk to. So thank you very much.