 Another thing to remember, to give you a context for this, is that basically every decision you make, you will have two advisers in your mind. The ego is your past learning. Everything you've learned, seemingly from parents, preschool, kindergarten, always to grade school, high school, if you've ever had any college, vocational training, all that training, every single thing you've learned, and I mean everything, without exception, is the ego. There's nothing that you've learned that gives up the spirit. Now, it's like all that learning is stacked up in there, like layers and layers, and this small still voice knows that everything that you've learned about all time and space is an attempt to cover over the kingdom of heaven. Your perfection that you would be forgiven when you were created wasn't something that needed to be built up. God gave you everything and your creation. That's original innocence. Forget original sin. Here we're given original innocence. And you got the whole package, all the might and glory of the kingdom of heaven. The Course says, the kingdom of heaven is within. The word within is actually unnecessary. The kingdom of heaven is you. You can leave the within out. So everything that got learned has now has to be unlearned. And even when the Course talks about learning and correctional goal and forgiveness, it's just kind words. But if you really hang in there with what He's talking about, He's talking about peeling that onion, getting down to that bright core that's been there forever, and it was always going to be there. So when you start to think of it that way, that means that at every point during this awakening, you're going to have to choose between your own past learning, what you were taught, and the Holy Spirit. And what Rahm is saying, and what I'm saying is, is that in many cases, your own past learning will say, okay, let's be logical, let's be reasonable. Let's look at this thing with some prudence and be responsible. And this voice is going to be saying, you know, the most responsible decision you can make in any situation is the peaceful, joyful happy one. And sometimes the ego will come in there and say, you've got to be kidding me. You know, you've got to be kidding me. Now, I'll give you an example about this. I hear this word coming out responsibly. Let's go right at this responsibility. I don't know if you're responsible. I'm sorry. Let's go right at it. We all need to hear this. I'm going to hear it. I know there's a lot of the building to go in. If you're a Course in Miracle student, you're going to hear this like, oh yeah, he's another kind of guy. We happy thing. Everybody else suffers in guys. Now, I'm going to Michigan one time, and I was in this league, about to ruin this guy's, and everybody was around. And I said, let's go after this responsibility one. Let's do this topic tonight. And everybody said, oh great. So I said, we're going to do a participation thing. And in the crowd was all the doctors, lawyers, teachers, parents, there was even an elected judge in our system of government. An elected judge. I'm going to give my talk about non-judgment. And he participated as well. He participated. Everybody go around the room. Does anybody have any feelings of responsibility in your mind? All hands go up. I said, tell me about it. I'm responsible for my children. I'm responsible for my mortgage. I'm financially responsible. The judge, I have a constituency. I'm responsible to those who elected me. I'm responsible to the Supreme Court. I'm responsible to uphold the law of the Constitution of the United States. We have convinced people, I'm responsible for my shareholders in the bottom line to operate the state in the black, above the red. Everybody there, point out their responsibility. Get them all out of the table. I said, now, does anybody here have any feelings of guilt? Ever. All and everyone. What do you feel guilty about? Well, that I won't be a good enough parent, that I won't uphold the Constitution, that I'll make a mistake, that I won't be a good enough citizen to support my country, that I won't be a good enough neighbor, that I won't be a good enough son or daughter to my parents. I'll let them down. Make on them. Everybody poured out all their guilt feelings. So it seems like there's a connection here between responsibilities and guilt. I said, is there any way that you can feel completely innocent and completely guiltless and completely sinless and have all the responsibility in the way that's set up and everybody shook their head. They said, no way, no way. So I said, good. All we've done is we've established a connection here. The ego might be involved in this somehow because the ego needs you to feel guilty to maintain itself and the ego doesn't want you to be innocent. You're innocent. The ego has got a business. The ego's got to keep... Let's go in with a little deeper. Let's take some of the idea of like a parent. You've got a mom or dad concept. How good is good enough? How good is a good enough mother? How good is a good enough father? You see how the ego's got the concept there and is going to come at you. Did you do enough for their birthdays? Did you give them enough education? Did you give them enough care and well-being and everything? Did you do that with any concept? Concept of citizenship, concept of husband and wife, concept of being a daughter or son, niece or nephew? You could do it with a concept of business people. Being an actor. How good is a good enough actor? You can see how these concepts are set up so that you'll always be guilty because you're never good enough. Because how good is good enough? The ego's got to keep building the bond. How smart is that? Smart enough. How many degrees until you're smart enough? The ego keeps moving that far. It's going to keep saying you're dumb. You're stupid. Here comes the Course in Miracles and the Course in Miracles says if the audacity to say your sole responsibility is to accept the atonement for yourself. And what we describe atonement is the correction for the error of separation. He's going to say in the Course in Miracles I know you don't believe this. I know you think you've got financial problems, relationship problems, small problems or pollution problems or traffic problems. I know you think you've got biochemical problems. You've got problems with nuclear waste. I know you think you've got political problems. I know you think you've got all kinds of problems but the only problem you have is you believe you're separate from your God, separate from your Creator, your source. And he says I'm going to have to convince you that that's the only problem and that the ego made up a world, a whole mirror to keep you guilty, to keep you guessing, to keep you off guard so that you would never go back and list that cornerstone and if you think you've made a bargain with the devil the ego doesn't want you to ever question my bargain. You sign in blood and you are guilty and you're going to pay for eternity and you're going to pay for time and that is the only spirit of addiction, and addiction is the pain and misery of guilt. So it takes a lot of faith to open up a book that says your sole responsibility is to accept the Atonement, to be happy, to be joyful, to be free, to be peaceful. That's all God wants is you to wake up from this dream of sickness, sin, suffering and debt and remember how beautiful you are, how perfect you are. And so what I'm teaching about responsibility is is the Holy Spirit wants suffering and death and remember how beautiful you are, how perfect you are. And so what I'm teaching about responsibility is that the Holy Spirit will never have you advocate our responsibilities, but if you allow the Holy Spirit to work through you, things will get met. If you go to the grocery store, the groceries get bought, but you have a bunch of holy encounters. You go to the laundry, the clothes get washed, but you shine your light. You shine your light. You let your true colors come shine through. You know, you may go on trips, you may do things, and the roommates say they seem like mundane things, but they aren't. You're bringing all the light of heaven with you in everything you do, everything you think, say and do. So you can see where this is going, that those responsibilities will be handled, but in the end, your one responsibility is to accept that correction in your mind. And you can't lose sight of that because the ego is going to try to come in there and try to say, you can't do it. You'll never be able to do it. It'll take too long. You don't have the resources. You know, it's going to try to throw every kind of excuse it can, including the kitchen sink, to block you from going for this. But when we come together in these kind of meetings, this is our like support group for God. Hi, my name is so-and-so, I have a perceptual problem. Hi, I'm a holy city. I'm seeing a world that doesn't even exist. I'm just going to do that. I'm going to conflict. And what you can do is, you do have to come to that mission, that you've got a problem, but the very least hope, because there's a solution. I'm in a hospital. I have to go. And today, I want, you know, I get to know the patients in the room. And those one patients who have cancer, he described. And he's on like four years old. He's got a cute, pretty old baby. And I want him to go, sometimes I want him to be just like, how are you doing? And he's like, oh, they only gave him so much for this. So he's going to play these people. I go, you know what? Don't believe what they said to you. I stood there and he comes up, you got a two-year-old baby. You know, and him is why, because why did you go to that man? She says, you think so? Yeah, because when they think of somebody playing draw on you, don't believe that. See, my mom had cancer, and she had breast cancer, and they only gave her about a year to live among the 15 years of breast cancer. So, you know, and then there's another, there was another patient that I've seen, and he was Japanese. Well, I come from a mining family. So I grew up with the different ethnic, different people. And he says, you know, I have heart trouble. And I go, Buddha would never let me do that. And I go, how do you know Buddha? Because I grew up with young kind of people. And I said, I even remember they put the little chandeliers outside to keep the bad spirit out. Oh, baby, you know that? I go, yes. I said, I'm going to bring you Buddha. One house was little Buddha in my plant. I washed him up real good. I put incense in a little red leaf, because red is spirit, or definitely light. And then I put the incense, because you know, they like to light incense, and you always give Buddha food. I brought that incense, and him, his life was great. They said, we never have a person like this. I'm dragging my knee. I know what to do. And he was so happy. But you know, I was like, why am I in this hospital, all this stuff, I feel so tired of cleaning all the yucky. And I go, it's an illusion. An illusion, you know. I make my mind to do an illusion. But the people I meet are so remarkable. And you know, I don't believe in certain things. I just don't know that. But it's basically like what you're saying, you've got to make a channel. She's the perfect person to look like a husband. Yes. 33 years ago I got bitten by a tick right here. And then three weeks after I developed this meningitis. And it's very heavy to have it, because it gets stiff. And if you even come close to your skin with cream, and so it went on for three months, and it comes and goes. And then I consulted some doctor, and he says, well, we have to have the process and said, so I begged them to know a lot. And then I took some herbs and it became really bad. And this night I thought, I'm going to call the hospital and the doctor told me, if you're not coming today, this night you're going to die. And I said, wow, I'm going to die. Wonderful, if God wants me upstairs. So maybe on such a high chair, I played all the morphs I had and the remedies from mother-in-law. So I had a wooden house near my house. It was quite a little bit of rain, so I managed to go in there and lay down. And I think I was five days in a coma. And I was lying there, and no water, no food, nothing got stiffer in the heart, remember? And I went through, like Dumpty, it takes you through the house, and it's a habit. I had this experience of falling, falling, falling, falling, so it turned up again. And I was there and I said, well, I'm dying right here, but I'm eating a mess, so I wanted to find me. When I came out of this coma, I said, I hear the voice, child, get up now, go to your house and have a shower. And I said, there'd be no sickness, anyone. Who is here? I started moving. And then I, on my four, I started to call and got out of this horse stable, it was really a horse stable. I could stand and then I marched slowly back to the house, and I heard this shower, and everything was gone. No pain, no pain. Even Peter told me if you come fairly out of this, you're going to be a baby. You just want to make a child of that. And then when I came, I could get a picture of a normal kid. I don't care, you know. This was a miracle. I had it five times in my life. I got poisoned through paints, which I painted. I got poisoned through real poison. I really was a four times in a coma. When all this came out, and the voice comes, says, now child, get up. Go and help a shower. And writing, at John's early, and I do, and everything is gone. This is a miracle. And then I told the doctor, I'm not going to have any health insurance. And since ever, I have no health insurance, nothing to access. I'm glad you brought up the topic of sickness, because I don't say this much. And I'm going to talk about some deep stuff now, so just be ready and let it come in. This world seems like it's six billion people striving not to die. That must be why I was trying to live another day, trying to eat the right things, do the right things, exercise, have jobs, build shelters for the body and everything. I'll tell you this, fear has nothing to do with the body dying. There's six billion people that are afraid of dying, and there's only one mind underneath all that huge monetary that's afraid of living. One mind afraid of living. And when I mean living, I'm talking about the kingdom of heaven. That the mind that was so afraid, thought it was separated from God, framed it itself into seemingly six billion and more trillions and zillions of little pieces. Tried to shatter itself into such tiny little pieces that seemed so little and weak and vulnerable that they dare not do anything more than try to survive another day. And what I'm going to tell you now is, what the fear is, is the fears of intimacy. And we're not talking about these workshops where they talk about fear of sexual intimacy. We're talking about the intimacy to drop the mask of being a tiny little private little human. You know, just lowering that mask, and it seems like it's a spend of vulnerability. You know, if you take your guard down, if you let down all the defenses, you know, when people even go out on first dates, they always say, put the best foot forward, make a good first impression. If you don't make a good first impression, you don't get a second date. You know? And the world would say, too, job interviews or even in terms of relationships, everything. Future, Jesus says in the Course, future loss is not your concern and worry. Your real dread is present joining. Present joining. There's nothing more frightening than present joining. That's why when you meet people sometime in the street, you know, people look the other way and basically turn to our personal space. You've got a group, and there's always like, who's going to break the ice, you know? You go out on a date. There's an awkwardness and nervousness. If you go out on a date and meet somebody for the first time, all this awkwardness and all this ambiguity and all this, you know, not feeling comfortable or anything is a fear of intimacy of the greatest kind. It's a fear of the present moment. So think about it. All this energy that's spent in trying not to get sick and not to die, eating things, pills, running around, building shelters and defense mechanisms, and missiles, initial shields now, building the dollars put into defense mechanisms all because it protects the body. And if you get down deeper into the mind, you see that it's not the body, the protection. Protect your soul by forgiving. Protect your awareness of your spirit by letting go of judgments and principles and grievances. That's the way to get down to this true intimacy. Now, in relationships it seems like people, everybody's running around looking for soul mates and trying to fall in love with that one true love and if they even believe it is possible. And so you have people trying to come together. But the ego is in there trying to say, let's forge a pact and let's make a relationship. So let's make a little haven from this storm of guilt. So in relationships, two people come together and basically it's kind of like I'm looking for somebody who will love me, respect me, treat me with unconditional love and this and that. Basically, when you're looking for a partner that's going to do that, you're looking for a God substitute. Because you're going to be alive. That is going to be all that good. And the way the ego's got this whole thing set up is just saying, all right, you potential partner. I'll date you. Out of the three billion, I'm going to give you a shot at being the one that just remember that if you love me unconditionally, if you make some of all this new work, you are out of there completely different. There's a lot of fish out there in the sea and I'm going to give you a shot, but believe me, if you don't live up, you are out of there. Thank you for all that 60-cup relationships. Every single 60-cup thing, another thing that you've thrown down and then you're thrown away. That's great. And I just want to give you a little bit of an answer. It's 20-cup relationships. Throw away, throw away. And now you can go online and you can go into dating services and video dating. I mean, it's gone way. The 60-cup idea has come on. Now, the other thing is commitment. I mean, the only thing about it, there's nothing really special about marriage commitment except that that when your mind is so conditioned into the stream that the ego doesn't believe that commitment is possible at all. So Holy Spirit has to use these seven-stone commitments like diet commitments, exercise commitments, and even relationship commitments. When you marry somebody, you're making a commitment. And it really is a commitment not in bodies. We're going to hang on with these bodies, but it's more, we're going to hang in there when this ego rears its head. And we're going to hang in there and try to join. We're going to try to let this go of all these firsts and grievances. And when you, that's what relationships, that's what makes them so difficult is because they're like mirrors. And what you find in a relationship, in all relationships, is a mirror of what you unconsciously believe is true. So if you get angry at a partner, you still have a deep-seated anger that you haven't released. And if you have any kind of anger or hurt or pain, it just really means that your connection with your source is still broken. Because if you're lined up with your source, God is pure love. You're not going to feel pain and hurt and guilt and shame and all those things. And anger, you're going to feel just the divine love. So all these healing relationships just give you opportunities to fast-track. This is the fast-track back to the Kingdom of Heaven. Silence and relationships really give you the best opportunities at flushing this ego up. Because all you know when you're trying to mediate, you know, all that hacking you have, chatters and that. The ego is not happy at all with this meditation idea. Ah! No, it says to give it up, you know. And if you get in relationships, it's not happy at all with the intensity of the emotions. Because a lot of this comes through a lot of hurts with these relationships. And at times, you know, the ego is saying, just, you need to do the sexy cup thing or be a hermit. And it says to never do that one again. But, you know, that's not the path. The path is to have this stuff flushed up. So if you really get what I'm saying, I mean, one time they asked the Course in Miracles teacher what does the Course in Miracles say about life on other planets. And his reply was, the Course says that there's no life on this planet. And he was saying, life is spirit. Life is spirit. And as long as you can think of life in biological terms, you can see where it's going to be a torturous journey. Because bodies do seem to deteriorate in age. Bodies do seem to break down and die. Bodies leave even aside from sickness and death, you know. You hear these relationships have gone on for 20, 30, 40 years. And then, I'm out of here. I was in Florida this past year and I went to visit a man who started an attitude healing center in a Course in Miracles center after his teenage daughter was murdered in industry. And they ended up, him and his wife, started this healing center to forgive this man and to heal in their hearts because the teenage daughter was murdered. They named their whole center, Lauren Quinn Center, after the daughter. So this goes through many years of healing. He was a medical doctor who got so into this healing that it took over his life. He just wanted to get into the joy of God. And so he really got a guy out of the profession of being a surgeon and got so into this that it brought so much joy into his life. And finally, the center closed and I was visiting recently. I did a Course in Miracles gathering like over a decade. So I was visiting this past year and after all that him and his wife went through, the center and everything. And after 30 some years of marriage, his wife said, I've got a good friend. He's a lot younger. He's beautiful. And I'm moving the grease with him. Sign art. Walk right out of his life. So when I showed up, here's my friend, Jack. And it's only like somebody stuck a dagger in his heart and was going like this to it because he always thought, you know, I'll be here. We'll sit there like on golden pond and we're going to just watch the sun set together. And we made it through our daughter being murdered and all these years. And he thought at least they would just, you know, be there together. And yeah, and she had fears of aging. You know, he was about 10 years older. He started to get the wrinkles. And she got her face lifted. She was really afraid of death. And this husband, all of that fear was like a symbol for my death. So by how I get there, you know, he's like, he said, David, these past months, I've gone through rage, jealousy, envy, unworthiness, he didn't mention every ego feeling in the book, you know, to the max. Like there's a dagger in there just turning and turning and turning. And I went in there and I was like, give me that dagger. I said, Jack, I said, people aren't really people. People just reflect your own beliefs in your own thoughts. And your wife, she still loves you. I don't care how it looks on the surface. Number one, she's not walking away because she doesn't love you. She's just reflecting your own doubt thought about your Christ self. You're eternal, you're eternal. And that's just a doubt thought about who you are. That's a doubt thought about aging and about sickness and everything. And I said, and your doubt thought just moved to Greece. What? What? I don't know. And I said, now we can get busy. I've got a purpose in life. Let's get busy finding what that purpose is. You're here and you've got this big house, this monstrosity of a house, do you really need such a big house? No, I think I really would like to simplify a little bit if that's what my wife's telling me. I mean, I had a couple guys out on the street coming in that I met offering to buy this house. I said, if you could do anything in the world now, where you are right now, what would you do? And he said, go fishing. Good old boy from Mississippi. That's what I call meditation. Never go fishing and just be out there and just you and the sky, that boat and the waves lapping up there. I could tell that was his way of saying, I want to meditate. I said, I think you should go fishing. Simplified the life. I said, are there any skills and abilities you got? Well, I always like to write these metaphysical stories. You want to see one? He showed it to me. I put it on my website. I got it on my website now. It's so good. It's about, it's called the big casino game. It's about a casino game where everybody gets caught up in all this fear and guilt. And then finally this coach comes along, which is a Holy Spirit figure, and helps them escape the casino game and wake up from the casino game. He writes these metaphysical stories. I said, you know how helpful healing these stories are? You know, I want to take this story and put it on the web. I just talk to focus in on his life's call, on his purpose. You know, and that's what, that story is the same for all of us. When we put too much faith in a person, in a partner, in a job and whatever, those are vitals. We just are, we're asking for our obedient psychologically when those things fall apart, when people move away, when people get sick and die. And the world we see is just a reflection of our thoughts. So what I'm saying is this is a message of such joy that it's saying, follow your heart. You know, do just what's Robin's been doing. She just got to the point where it's like, I can't go on with this thing. Logically this may not seem to be the best move, you know, if I've got a family to support and I've got a job in a world where there seems to be jobs, people don't even have jobs. But I've got to follow my heart. I've got a song of this thing. I've got a painting to paint. I've got something to express. It's waiting to come through me. That's going to bring me so much joy when it pours through that I will feel like, wow, I did it. I made the right decision there. And when I first started doing this, I was in college thinking, well, I get a little time to meditation or a place of music I like or this or that, but I've got to get back to the serious things, you know, of prudent, practical things. But the more I aid myself to some of these little spiritual endeavors, the more joy I felt. And the more I started to say, maybe this isn't so impractical after all the spiritual side. Maybe if I would just give more and more at just devoting my heart and my attention to this. And I actually thought, I would love to do, I love having hard, hard talks with people, just really getting into the exciting, joyful thoughts. And I thought to myself, boy, if I could just do this my whole life. And the little boy said, you can. And that's what my whole life has been. Yes, I enjoy speaking to groups and conferences and everything, but, you know, we all have a lot of those one-on-one times, like you mentioned at the hospital, with the people there, the patients. We have lots of one-on-ones that happen every day. And each one of those is our chance to really share the joy of who we really are. And that's really what it's all about. You know, it's not about starting some big movement in the world, it's about being clear for yourself that you have a great, holy function and that it's time. This is a wake-up call. We wouldn't all be sitting here in this room even having this conversation if it wasn't clear that it's time, that the bell is ringing. You know, that's absolutely true. I think I had that call one time ago, but I just can't remember. So we have a hard-to-look-up question about how procrastination and the big-thing else that anyone would like to use is a launching point. Thank you. So I'm here. My name is Tyrone, and I'd like to give some shout-outs to Robin and Terry for starting the Course in Miracles. Thank you. Thank you. Let's start again. I'm a little sentimental. We started a year ago, tomorrow and year, you know, today, and it's ironic. Well, I'd say to find order. The way it all, like you said, like a finale of, you know, we bring opening yesterday and you're here today, and it's a Course in Miracles day for us, you know, Monday. And I mean, you know, we started a year ago in a whole transition that happened with everyone, and especially Robin, the kid that just started, and look how the year, four of us in the quarter, and it was truly a miracle. I like it. Thank you. I'd say I'm grateful to be a part of that and I would like to, the people that have been in our class for a whole year, they've been in the class and I've also noticed a lot of transitions and good transitions that we all improved and made it thus far. And like I was saying, I was a really happy secret. I think it's right to walk, to walk. And for him to be here this night as well, it doesn't add to that, like I said, that defined order and we're all here in purpose and a reason, and the ones that I don't know, I still feel we all work, like I said, we're all unconnected and I'm glad to be a part of you all as well and David, I wanted to say if we don't meet again in this lifetime, but I said no, that's not you, but we'll always be.