 You know the feeling, eh? You know the feeling of, I don't know, that swish in basketball? That bullseye with the dart of, just right in the middle. That feeling of being in the right spot. Feeling of peace, contentment, accomplishment, purpose, whatever it is. When reality and your expectation just, just right there. And you feel good about yourself. For what you've done, for what you're doing. You feel in the moment. It's easy to do that with sports. But where do you get that feeling? Where do you get it? When do you get it? This is the preface, the actual question I'm going to introduce in a moment. But let's build it up a little bit because this is important. And remember, if you want the quick clips, TikTok is right there on your home screen. Go for it. You know when I get it? You know when I get that feeling? Sure it's a swish, but I don't play basketball all the time. And I'm not playing sports as much. When it's midnight on the meadow And the cats are in the shed And the river tells a story at the window by my bed You can listen very closely Be as quiet as you can In the yard you'll hear him It is the pony man I sung that to my niece once She absolutely loved it, loved it There's a house on a hill By a worn down weathered old mill In the valley below where the river winds There's no such thing as bad times Oh my gosh, and you're probably wondering what the heck is Scott doing and what's he singing? It's Gordon Lightfoot, may he rest in peace And I get that feeling And I've had it since I discovered him in 2015 A feeling of being in my true element in nature When I play his music on guitar, when I just sing it, when it's in my head When I listen to it I'm in the pocket, I'm in nature A lot of his songs sound like nature And I wonder if you listen to music that sounds like something that's familiar You know what I mean? His music sounds like that river Sounds like those trees and that forest And he wrote a lot of his songs in Georgian Bay and Algonquin Park In Northern Canada, specifically Northern Ontario That's when life is real to me When I'm playing music, when I'm in that moment Can I share something else with you? And please reflect on this for yourself Because it's the most important question you're ever gonna ask yourself in a second here I get that feeling when I'm helping other people I get that feeling when I'm being of service to others I get that feeling when I'm speaking to a crowd And just sharing the human condition With no agenda And nothing to sell Because we're all just here And we didn't ask to be here And we have no idea sometimes Of what our mission is, what our goals are, what our purpose is What's this all about Totally So ask yourself this question When and where is God most real to you? Some people on this channel Were commenting that I've been using the word God more And I am 100% a Christian And I have certain beliefs And throughout my entire life I've been pulled and pulled And I've been pushing and pushing away I went into the yoga and the mindfulness and Buddhism And I tried everything else And I've just been pulled and pulled Continually Back to the church And to Christ And I can't hide it anymore And a lot of what I speak about Hits a dead end when I can't bring the spirit into it And so you're gonna hear the G word a little bit In this podcast I know that'll turn a lot of people away That's okay And I know that will bring people here as well But it's up to me to live authentically And I love connecting the old with the new Not just the testament But eastern religion and mindfulness To scripture into the G word And I still hope this is a very inclusive channel For everybody Because mental health doesn't discriminate Mental illness And this is always what it's been about Is me helping you see the good within you And trying to help you along the way As I am reflecting on my experiences And I'm on the journey too man I'm on this path But this question is really interesting Because when is God most real to you Can mean a lot of things To you what is God That's the biggest question Let's pretend that he it is the all compassionate All love and you are born out of love You exist in love You are made in his image and you are love When and where is God most real for you Where do you feel the most love Where do you feel the most loved Where do you feel the most driven When do you feel it How do you feel it When is God that sense of love most real to you Because I don't feel it all the time man I don't feel it I doubt I doubt And it is so much easier being an atheist Than a Christian It's so much easier to not believe in God You mean I gotta believe this story Up 2000 BC Up until year zero and then 33 AD This guy's crucified That's just one religion You know how hard it is to make sense of that But if you get rid of all that And you just know that there's something else Let's play that game Let's be inclusive here You know there's something bigger Let's call it the creator Well if you are made from love And our love And you are designed to be loved And to love other people When is that sense most real to you When do you really feel it And when you can answer that Do more of it Do more of it That's the call That's the feeling That's maybe where you should put some energy So if I really feel like you know I feel good when I'm speaking to people through this lens And people are hearing my voice And hopefully something is speaking through me And the ego is dropping a little Because I really want to be of service to you And this is about all of us It's not about me But if I can help people a little bit I feel that I'm doing a good job Spreading something helpful on here Something resourceful Something that can calm people down With peace and help you see the good within yourself Because there's so much of it man There's so much of it my goodness And it's hard when we see and experience Other people going through that And sometimes when we can't see the good within ourselves When I'm beating myself up And I say where'd the love go Where'd the divine go Where'd the spirit go I can't feel it anymore We go through that all the time But if we can logically then Know our mission and know Even in the times when we can't feel it That we know where to go And we know where we've been To gather that sense Where God is most real for us You always have that place to go to Whether the feeling's there or not That can be your safe haven I um You know I read a comment And a few of them I usually read them because there's fear in that For me actually Because I am a little fragile When I put effort into a talk And I really believe what I'm saying And then I read someone who just hated it And I'm like you know part of me is just like So much effort and it And it hits someone the wrong way And I know I know that's something I deal with man That's something I deal with And What takes the edge off a little bit Is that Sense that it doesn't end with me And it doesn't start with me Oh my god how egotistical How self centered And the more we center Life around ourselves The more those comments The more those judgments The more those failures become so internal And we keep judging ourselves And blaming ourselves because Who else would be in this With us if we're the center of everything The reason I'd love you to Take apart this question And think about it this week Is because it's helped me so much And I know it's helped others and made others Ponder when I framed it this way Is when is God Most real When do you feel him the most And does that change Is it in different locations Does it depend where you are Or does it depend on what you're saying Or what you're doing or who you're helping What factors does it depend on And when I know that I'm doing something In that place of realness In that place of belief Then something comes through When it doesn't start and it doesn't end with me And that brings me relief To those comments To when I speak to you here To when I speak to an audience It's not about just me You ever get that feeling Like you're just tired of me You ever say that to yourself When you're tired What are you tired of When you're tired What are you tired of I was looking up I'm excited man I'm doing my masters as I told you all And I'm looking into I was looking into doing my masters of divinity Because it's been You know Since elementary school When I've been drawn to this I don't know I don't know Well that's for another topic But when you feel like you're tired When I say to myself after a day After a hard day After a long day I'm exhausted And it's not just physically There's energy in me But I'm mentally done What are you tired of And I ask myself What am I tired of Am I tired of responding Am I tired of emails Am I tired of giving And some of the time Not all of the time Because this channel is never about absolutes Absolutely Never When we live in absolutes We live in black and white And there's so much in between So we're not talking about always On this channel The only thing that's always Is that you'll probably shit About three times a week hopefully If not maybe some chronic constipation Is going on So that will be an always Good Other than that Things are up and down baby So when we feel tired It usually has to do with I'm just constantly on defense And constantly centered Throughout my day That's when I become tired When things have been all about me For the day And I'm tired of myself To be honest I'm tired of thinking about me I'm tired of doing my own taxes I'm tired of making the bed I'm tired of cooking my own meals I'm tired of thinking about myself I'm tired of planning the future for myself I'm tired of, you know Going through the past And trying to fix things And reframe things I'm tired I'm tired of book and stuff I'm tired of editing my face I'm tired of me Does this mean I don't love myself? Absolutely not But the love Needs to be shared Because where God is most real Is when we can give love We can be love And through that We can give it We can be loved as well That means we need to be open both ways Two channels, right? Two channels Sodium, potassium, pumps And nerve cells, right? There's a constant exchange Of sodium and potassium There's always an in and out Right? What's sodium? Give me the periodic table Na, that's right And what's potassium? Yes, it's K Okay, so we got some Na and K Coming in and out And have that rhyme just ready for you In and out, in and out There needs to be this constant exchange of ions For our cells to communicate, right? And there's that membrane around all of our cells And if there's a channel blocked, man We don't function We don't function We need it to be on Coming in and coming out That's balance, that's homeostasis So if we're constantly giving And giving and giving and giving But we can't receive the love and the thanks And the admiration and the eyes that people give us Then we're going to be depleted And we're tired of ourselves But if we receive and we receive And we receive, imagine a cell We're getting blown up, man We just keep eating and eating and eating And eating and eating We're going to swell up And then your three times a week of shitting Goes to zero, baby That's an impacted colon, my friend Woo, you're going to get swole But in the wrong places You're going to be Randy from Trailer Park Boys with that gut So there needs to be that balance So where God is most real Is a balance of giving love and receiving love I hope that question is changing for you It moves you, don't answer it in two seconds Sit with it, be patient with yourself Put it on the shelf and visit it in a month Visit it next year if it's too much right now Right when we get information We feel like it needs to be dealt with right away No, it's not an exam I didn't hand you a test And you have an hour to do it And you can't go to the bathroom and you got a pen And you got the Scantron sheet And your teacher is looking at you No, it's not like that You answer this question in your own time, bud All right You remember those times during exams When there would always be winter For the winter term And I'd always have a sniffle And you don't want to blow your nose And you have kids So I don't know if this has happened to you But you're just like And you're just sniffing the whole exam And I can't concentrate on the question Because I'm just focused on my sniffing And not to drop something out on my paper That was probably anxiousness in there too I hope this question helps you When and where is God most real for you If you enjoy this podcast episode In this talk I'd love to do more of it I'd love to use the G word in more of this And I'm going to create a video Probably next week Just thanking you all For watching For being part of this For commenting For giving Me love Through messages and through comments Because I know this is a digital medium But that's how you send it And sometimes I'm scared to receive it So in this episode I will read every comment that pops up And I'll receive as much as I can And I hope me giving this You can receive it as well And it's useful to you Take care everyone See you next time