 Continuing with the Living and My Purpose Journey video series and this video will be focused on fears. What type of fears that you have. What may be blocking you from walking into your purpose and I mean you. I'm really talking about me girl. So the previous videos I had to remember correctly we had my introduction and what this series would be about. What I've been doing basically also creating a career vision board which has been going wonderful and now we're going to talk about my fears because I think that is really important to determine how you're going to tackle those fears and address those fears so that you can get through that and begin doing the fun stuff which is working towards finding a purpose in life which and I say you I mean me really. So I want to give you guys two resources to look into because I'm assuming that some of you guys are going to be following me during this journey. One is Erica Jackson and I mentioned her before. Her entire get up I should say is about fear and release and fear and she does it from a spiritual perspective. I met her a couple years ago at a women's convention here in Phoenix, Arizona and she was so mind-blowing that I had to search her out. So I've been following her. She also offers some self-development or self-help guidelines and books and audio all that jazz on finding your purpose in life. I've created I've purchased several of her books. I actually went ahead and read her vision book and since her core focus is fear that she has tons of information and resources. So I want to be linking her what's up down below. She does offer a couple of freebies too so please check her out. Another one actually is a fellow youtuber which is where I got a lot of my information that I'm going to be sharing with you today. I just discovered her last week. Isn't God good? And it was a hair related video because she's a natural hair youtuber and she has beautiful hair. And her name is TJ Loves being natural and I'm gonna be linking her site down below to at least her channel down below. So let's just get right into it. Before I do that I want to give you guys an update on some milestones I have hit. It has been a very productive month. Word is February 28th. I think March 1st. Let me tell you I've gotten so much done and there was some things that I wasn't as good about and I'll just let you guys know about that because I believe in being transparent, transparent and transparency I should say with my own stuff too because it holds me accountable okay. So the first thing is I got baptized. Amen which was very very instrumental for me as a believer in Jesus Christ. So I got baptized that was on my vlogs if you follow my vlog videos. I tried my, I'm laughing, the next one. I tried my best not to look at any ratchet TV. So I definitely don't watch any Real Housewives of Atlanta. I didn't look at any blogs. I didn't look at any reviews. I saw two episodes of married to medicine which is pretty good all month. So yeah and I didn't do too good with that but I tried my best okay. I completed my career vision board and I'm not sure what I'm gonna be releasing these videos but you should have already seen that prior to this. Now I will say that I haven't really been focusing on the vision board because unlike my career vision board, my goals vision board, I really took weeks to look at it after I was done. For weeks I was looking at it. I was meditating almost on it. I was y'all was soaking in soaking it in which is why I think it's been so effective for me. With my career vision board not necessarily. I felt like it was just something I might do listed it out the way but I really need to focus on it. Now it is saved on my desktop. It is saved on my phone. That's how it works but you also need to be looking at it and visualizing your goals manifesting okay. That's how they work okay. What else? What else? Another thing I didn't do too good on. Got to lose any weight. I didn't gain any weight. I'm still fluffy. I didn't gain any weight but I didn't lose anything. I should put it like this. My weight will go back and forth. One pound, three pounds, two pounds, three pounds. So that's all water weight. If it's less than I think honestly if it's less than five pounds that's all water weight, gas bubbles. That's not a real weight girl. No but what really has helped me before I get into the fears. What really has helped me is staying focused, not getting distracted, keeping my short-term goals in mind and looking at the bigger picture okay. And I should also add not being discouraged or not feeling defeated when I haven't reached a small goal. So yeah I didn't lose any weight. That don't mean that I'm gonna be like alright girl I'm done. I'm not even gonna try to lose any weight anymore. No we still got what? Nine, ten more months in a year. I'm gonna keep at it okay. I'm gonna keep making small changes in my lifestyle so that I can have a healthier lifestyle overall. Does that make sense y'all? I think a lot of times we get discouraged easily and we're not looking at the long-term goals you know. You just keep at it. Don't be discouraged and don't give up okay. So yes I feel good where I'm at right now. There's a lot of things that have came up. I've been praying about you know I've been praying and asking God to bring people into my life to bring situations into my life so that I can grow and it has been happening okay. Challenge when you get challenged with things in your life that's an opportunity for growth. I never look at the storm maybe like oh my god a storm is coming what I'm gonna do I'm gonna walk through it and I'm gonna grow and I'm gonna learn. That's how I've learned to thank you guys. So speaking of let's go right to the fears. So like I said definitely look up Erica Jackson and the YouTuber that I mentioned and I'm really going to be just sharing with you some things that I've done some steps I've taken and a lot of this I did get from the YouTuber but a lot of it I already knew about and I knew that these are things that I needed to do in order to address my fears and tackle them okay. So one of the first things you want to do is to list your fears. Jock them down no matter how crazy they may be. I'm afraid to take control of a project. Why is that? Okay that's what I'm talking about. I'm afraid I mentioned in my other video I'm afraid of reporting. I don't want to do them. I refuse to do them sometimes. So why is that okay. On a personal level I'm afraid of not being enough. Not being enough for my husband. Not being enough for JV. So what I have to really do is do a self-evaluation or self-analysis. Okay so why am I afraid of reporting? Why really am I afraid of getting sick? What past incidents or incident? What triggered that fear? So that's what I have to do and I'm really and I'm not going to share with you guys all of them. I'm going to give you one example. Okay identifying the fear. Why do I have the fear? What's the root cause of this fear? And then how can I tackle this fear which for me personally since I am a Christian one of the ways is with scripture. So I'm going to be lining up a very specific look. The Bible is there for a reason. It's not there for you to just take to take to church on Sunday and go through it and say uh-huh. Amen. So for an example. Because I know people are like well how are you gonna do that Vivian? How are you gonna use scripture? Okay I'm gonna show you. So one of my fears is I have it written down here. It's leading. Taking control. So then I list several reasons why I have this fear. Filling as a leader. Being responsible for someone else's failures. Being fired. And just being being responsible for failures in general. So that's one of the reasons why I'm afraid to lead. The reason why I have this is because it has happened at a previous job I was at. It happened at Apollo Group. The entire department was let go because of a failed project. Okay but not only that but I have some other things that have happened. I'm like I don't know if I want to I don't know if I want to be responsible for all that. Okay so then what is the benefit though of me becoming a leader and owning a project? I'm gaining a skill set. A possible promotion if it's if it's successful. So what are some ways that I can possibly overcome this fear? Well how about I host an impromptu training with my instructors. How about I take some a new elements administrator under my wing and kind of mentor her or him. And just take ownership of an upcoming project. Just volunteer okay. So those are some ways I can get through that particular fear. When it comes to scripture okay. What type of scripture can I look up? Let me go right to my Bible okay. Don't be afraid to use your phone y'all. So here are some scriptures in regards to leadership. I like this one Proverbs 1114 where there is no guidance that people fail. But in a bondage of counselors there is victory. So that is what I'm going to be doing. I really do think that fear can it is a nasty thing you guys. And I I suffer from anxiety but I will say this since I've been getting up with that with that schedule and that routine. I haven't been feeling any anxiety at all. Isn't that amazing? I haven't had any type of anxiety like that. Any type of thoughts that come up. I immediately let it flee from my mind. I don't have time for that anymore. I don't focus on the negativity. Things are going to happen. Let's just be honest. There's some things are going to happen but right now all things are great. And while I'm in this moment I'm trying to remain as positive as possible. And I think that's one of the another reason why I've been so productive in the last month or so. So that is it you guys. That is how I'm going to hopefully hopefully be tackling this. So that is it you guys. Thank you so much for watching and thank you as always to all of my new subscribers. Take care. Bye. And then just some other images here again that are aligned with my career path. SharePoint, SLPs.