 Chilly, forgot my gloves. Welcome to another video. In this video, I'm just going for a walk. That's it. Just going for a walk. I'm not well, so I'm Dan Seth and this on the top of there is the South Downs. It's delightful. Tim Renton, resting piece, Tim Renton. I've just got my OS map on my phone. It tells me about all these little paths and that. So I'm going to be going up through this woodland and then onto the tops. I won't be doing much holding it camera because I forgot my gloves and it hurts holding this thing. We'll even get a video out of this. Is it pointless? We'll see. I'm off for a walk anyway, regardless. I can't do it. Every year. Every year it gets worse, man. Oh well. Got a seat, look. Brought my seat out, at least. I think, have I? Yes. Can't see anything, mate. I'm snow-blind. Well, I can't stare at the sun. It's too much. I've not really seen much because the sun is blazing and it's snowed, isn't it? So the old snow blindness is getting me. Is anyone else or has anyone else had their arse handed to them of late with winter? Like, I've seen a lot of my, a lot of people getting poorly. Like, whatever I've got. And seasonal effective disorders doing me nodding in this year. Is anyone else feeling it a little bit more this year? I don't know. Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's just me being a bit of a salad. So I raffled off me Hillyburg and the winner, Bobby, shout out, Bobby, and he lives down south, not too far from Ferns. I just drove and met him and dropped off the Hillyburg and some Northern Monk rigade. Bobby, this is Bobby, the winner of the Hillyburg Allac 2 and we're also joined by Dashie and Bobby. So we've got the Hillyburg Allac 2 and just some, some choice Northern Monks there for the festive season. What a legend. Thank you so much. Happy days. So that was cool. And if anyone wants to boom with a chance to win the C2 Summit Ultra TR2, Regarde, then the raffle tickets are just £2 a piece for that if you want to get involved. And 20% of the profits you'll be going to, I forget the name of the actual charity, it's Mental Health UK, I believe. All the information is on the website. And I'll leave a link to my website below where you can find all that. So check it out if you want. And the win will be drawn on Christmas day so you could get yourself a nice little Brucey bonus for Christmas. So with this one, I just wanted to check in with you because I've not done a video for a while. And things are good, man. I am in a good place. I've just got some life stuff going on at the moment still. I'm dealing with and being ill, it's just, it's not the one, is it? For pointing a camera at your bonts. I don't think cold water therapy is a good thing to do when you're pearly, is it? I think it's a good preventative, but no point me getting down to skivvies and running around in this snow. Ain't gonna do jack shit, except make me look mental to anyone who's walking their dog. I thought I'd just talk to you a little bit about wild camping and about being out in nature and stuff, you know, and what it does for me. And it might help, you know, it might help someone. I hope. Because this year, man, as we draw to an end of this year, there's been a roller coaster. Sometimes noggin doesn't quite on track. And the beginning of this year was that I'd had a couple of years and not been like myself. And you only really realise these things, I think, once you get out the other side and you feel proper like healed, then you look back, you know, actually, I was in a bit of a dark place or my head was a bit of a shed. I can't remember what month it was, but I got COVID and I had to self isolate. And that really spanned me. Battery keeps going, I'm trying to have like to say stuff. Anyway, I got COVID. I don't know if I've already said this, because battery's gone. And it stove me head in. And then afterwards, like it'd been a long time I've not posted anything on YouTube, I've not done any work. I've just not been not talking to anyone, not doing anything. Just Ed was gone. I'd even like getting me van drive out to wherever, like into the days off, put into the lakes, and then I would just sit there knowing that all I need to do is get out the van and then everything would happen. I'd feel better I'd hike and just whatever it all be good. But I would just sit in the van and not be able to get out. I just wouldn't get out. Don't know why just Ed would either be racing with all sorts of stuff, or it'd just be void, like just gone fishing, signing eyes, see, logged off, you know, not permanent log off, but definitely in sleeper mode or whatever it is. Couldn't do anything man. And then I would beat my cell up, I would sit in van like, right, gotta do something. Couldn't do it, got back home, like I beat my cell up. And then when you start beating your cell up, it's like, right, well, I want to take edge off, I know, swill. Let's have a bit of swill. And then what does swill eat? Let's go out, let's do it like, it's not good, is it? So it's just like a vicious cycle that got me cell caught up in and it's just, no, no. And it took, like, there is no cure all for it, for like, if your, if your Ed's a shed, there is no like, there's a lot of airplanes down south, isn't there? I'll give you, I'll give you that. I think it's about, yeah, it's London, isn't it, near London, I guess. I want to be in Yorkshire, like Yorkshire's good, isn't it? It'll be Yorkshire, guys. Before and I thought, oh yeah, it'd be good to do this video because, you know, it might help sit people out, but because I'm ill in that, my Ed's a shed now, so I'm telling you about how to get your Ed out of shed and my Ed's in a shed. So don't listen to me, is mainly what I'm, yeah. Also, yeah, don't listen to me. So like, got caught in this cycle, got caught in this row, it had been on the arse end of like, a good few years, I just not truly been with it, you know, bit of destructive behaviour and just negative, yeah, just being negative really with myself and the people I surround myself with and all that, and not doing the right things for me. I wish I could just sit here and be like, yeah, there's a one thing that you can do, like go camp on a mountain or go while swimming or eat well or do that. There isn't just a fix, like a quick overnight fix. It's lots of little things, I think, but the one thing that did save me and truly did save me was, and it's cheesy as, as this plane goes over and ruins the moment, and it is cheesy and there's a plane overhead, but it was nature that sorted me out. 100% it was that. I've not been out for a long time, not been camping, not felt like it, and then I just give me, sell a bit of a kick up arse. I was like, I need to do this for me, like I'm losing me, losing me noggin. And so I thought, right, I'm going to go for a two day, no two night camp in the Lake District and not really making any plans. I'm just going to get lost, you know, like just hike wherever I want, let nature just have its way with me. And it was amazing. It was just, it's got to be like one of the best experiences of my life. I just, and I know I was filming it, I took a camera, but that's not, that's just a part of it that you see, like me just chatting breeze at camera. There's a lot that happens on and off camera, you know, like mainly off camera, because that's the majority of the time. And I just spent a few days just getting lost, swimming, being in nature, and it just changed everything. And there was a pivotal moment where I'd found this little secret plunge pool near a waterfall that was full of fish, and I swam in it for far too long. And my core temperature really dropped. I got out and I was just stood in birthday suit and sun had just come out from behind clouds, and I could feel the heat of it on my skin. And it was just warming me up. And I was just surrounded by mountains, no one about. And I just knew it like it was just, that was the moment. I was like, oh my god, it's all right. It's going to be all right. After that, it gave me the kick up the ass I needed. And as soon as I got back, I was like, right, I hadn't planned to do the Cleveland way. And I was like, right, I'm doing it. And it just led on from one thing to another. And without me looking for good things to happen, good things just came to me because my mindset was positive. And the mindset like was calm and open to receiving good things. And it just took that one trip to get out, back out of my comfort zone, get a little bit lost. I had to get lost to find myself again, man. Cheese fest. What does nature give me? It gives me a new lease of life. And it doesn't, and it's always there. It doesn't lie to me. It doesn't is what it is. It's very core. It's just brutal, brutal and beautiful in equal measures. And it's always there for you throughout all the seasons, no matter what, it doesn't have any hidden agenda. It's not trying to sell you anything or trick you into doing something you don't want to do. It's just honest. And you can be in nature and be honest with yourself and just, it's definitely a start, man. If you're struggling with your noodle, a good place to start. I'm not saying it's for everyone, but a good place to start is definitely some solitude in nature. Just, even if you're not surrounded by it, like if you've got parks or just little spaces, like I'm on the South Downs now, I've just hiked up here and just got this little area. There's only occasionally though people running past them that because the South Downs way just there, shout out the South Downs way. I would say if anyone's struggling mentally, a bit of solitude in nature goes a long way and can be the foundations to the building blocks of getting yourself into a better place. Little things putting you out your comfort zone because it's easy just to bury your head in sand in it. But my noodle went in first lockdown. That was worst it's ever been made. I was on edge and like I was thinking to myself this is it. Like you know when you want to just be on perma-sleep. I wanted to, I wanted perma-sleep because I couldn't handle, I couldn't handle being awake. I couldn't handle being in my own mind. But it is never final and you're never out, you're never counted out. And something that's brought this on is that I've had a few people recently reaching out to me saying they're struggling and saying they're thinking of ending it right. And like I get it it must be difficult and you don't know where to turn but I can't help. I tried, I messaged back, I messaged back. There was one two days ago someone saying I can't go on anymore, I've tried, I just can't do it. And I messaged back and get up the next day go see if he's replied and he's deleted the message. And I'm like this isn't the first time it's happened. And then I stopped being able to like respond when people are you know struggling. I can't do it. I can't be there. I just can't be there for you. And I'm really sorry I just can't. So this I just can only do this and say just it's time and things that you do will change the way you think. You can change your whole mind and you can change your whole mindset just by eating something you might be a bit you might right you might have had a shitter at work you might be a bit knackered might be hungry and your whole your whole mind is negative then isn't it you're arguing with people you're like just everything's shit there I don't know I've something to eat whatever whatever you want chicken dippers beans and chips and you feel like a new man don't you you're like oh I see sorry about that everyone sorry I feel like I can think straighter so don't really don't beat yourself up for how you're thinking at the time you're not you are not your thoughts or your or your mind because you know my mind tells me to jump off cliffs and that and and not like in a suicide way and just like a like go mate and I get scared like if you put something like a I'm scared to have the poisonous thing in my hand because I'm like my brain's like go and eat it or if there was a button that was like a nuclear button I wouldn't be able to go near it because my brain would be like go and press it but that's not you is it it's just your brain so don't worry about it sorry if this is all scattered scattered brain everywhere I'm trying to make sense of it as I'm saying it or it's probably just all gobbledygook but I'm trying to get the point across of like it's not it's not as bad as you think it is mate it really isn't time is a good healer and if you just put little things in place little I've said it before like little incremental things like you know work on your sleep your diet bit of exercise just little things and then you'll find the next thing easier so if you work on your sleep your diet and a little bit of exercise you might feel a lot better and more able to let maybe go through a cold plunge so that'll enable you to do that you'll go through a cold plunge that might give you the like well I've conquered that what else can I conquer and it's just like inertia I'm going to do my best to get a video together soon a proper camping video but I'm not putting myself under any pressure I can't if it's not happening it's not happening I can't just force it make me say pull it get in there I guess it's up to us to look after each other in it and be a little bit be as kind as you can to your fellow man because you know just that guy who said he was struggling the other day he was really struggling to the point where he's reaching out to me essentially a stranger on the internet and he might go to a pub and chat to someone and they might change his life for the better just by being a little bit kind or whatever so I hope he finds that and if you are watching this actually mate you'll know who you are because you did comment but then you deleted it so no one has seen it it's fine that your name isn't I'm not saying your name or anything like that but I'll send you now but love and things will get better mate things will get better and I believe in you and I hope you have the strength in yourself or find the strength in yourself to make a difference and just get back on your feet and kick the living tits off it mate you've got it you've you've absolutely got it right I don't know what this has been it's not really been much has it it's just there nature's mint I don't know mate nature's mint in it nature is mint it's the great healer and if I didn't have it I don't know what I'd do mate I don't know I wouldn't be here would I I wouldn't be here that simple as that I wouldn't be here it's been there for me long before like filming the stuff it's always been there I've always just always been a part of me and I love it shout out to nature and I'll be back out in Mother Nature soon but until then I just wanted to just jump on and say I love you all take care yourselves thanks as always for just checking in and for the support sorry that I can't reply to all the messages but I do see you and I do appreciate you now must stay out of trouble or wife and now glad I bought this makes me ass is freezing there we go I'm off mate I'm off to go and get a honey and lemon and just chill out and I'll be back soon I'll be back soon with some decent clobber knuckles or yeah go for it mate much love no yeah see you later bye