 Welcome back to my channel. So this is literally just a video to tell y'all where I've been, right? Because I'm about to start posting again and the videos that I'm going to be posting are going to be old. There are all videos that I filmed, recorded in the month of late October and throughout November. And I guess in a nutshell, I've just been putting the little energy that I did have in the past couple months into my children, myself, and very little into my business. Because I've been feeling very unmotivated, low energy, and quite frankly just a little sad. This time of year seems to be very hard for me for more reasons than one. But one of the main reasons is because this is a busy season for my family and usually busy season for myself but I actually decided not to do much this season in terms of work gem solistic vending at events because if you don't know this is kind of all season in St. Croix so there's a lot of events going on and opportunities to vend and promote and make money and stuff like that. So I did two events in the first week of December and that's it. I'm not doing any more for the season. It was literally a conscious decision that I made that I said I am not signing up for any more events and I also decided that this is the last year that I'm vending at all during the season. So next year I'm not even doing one event during the season like none. So the next thing that I'll be doing is agriculture fair and that's in February and going forward I am literally only going to be doing agriculture fair and mango melee and I don't even know how long I'm going to continue doing that. So yeah that's pretty much what's been going on with me. I've been preparing for the two events that I just finished. Today is December 12 and the first event was the second and third of December because it was a two day event and then the second event was the eighth which was just this past Friday. So I'm done. I'm done. The amount of anxiety and stress that I had preparing for these events is just not worth it is not worth it. I'm never going to put anything above my peace and my mental sanity so and it's not even that I don't enjoy like being out there and connecting with people and meeting new customers and stuff like that. I love it. I actually do but the preparation and then the amount of energy that I have to give out during the day of the event like I have three small children and literally every time I have an event I have to pretty much beg and fight and scream about someone helping me. And like I said my parents are my main source of support but this is busy season for them too. So like if I'm vending at an event they're vending at that same event so they can't help me. So yeah I just decided that this that's it like I have three young children and I cannot continue to be doing this and stressing myself out. I rather just use the season to feel what I feel that has nothing to do with vending and business and spend time with my children and take them to the events to enjoy themselves versus me working at the events. And ever since that last event has been finished I've been in a great mood okay. I've been light and happy and just good. So although like other things are coming out for me emotionally as it pertains to this time of year that's something else that I'm gonna work through. I didn't have therapy last week but I do have therapy this week so I'm gonna you know start digging into that and working through that but other than that I've been good and I am honestly happy with the decision that I made. So anyways I'm going to be diving back into editing my videos and uploading on a regular basis again because if I'm not mistaken I have not uploaded anything in a month and yeah so I'm gonna upload this video first just as a little overview and a little update on where I've been and then I'm gonna start uploading the videos that I've already had recorded that I just hadn't had the energy to edit and upload. So just make note that all of those videos and I'm gonna try my best to put like dates on all of them but just keep in mind that all of those videos were recorded either in the month of October or November and I'm gonna try and get all of them up and out there before the new year starts so that we can start fresh and on track and I'm excited. I'm so excited for January I'm excited for 2024 in general and I'm excited for what all the things I have planned and installed you know there's there's a lot of other stuff that I'm not mentioning but you know in due time in due time but for right now I'm okay and I'm gonna continue working through what I'm working through and I'll keep y'all updated as much as I feel necessary. Yeah that's it this video ain't about to be long because I'm not even trying to edit it I just want upload it and start editing my other videos so anyways stay tuned for all of those videos coming up some of them are random videos then I started a series on like you know y'all gonna see when I upload it. Anyways to everyone to all my melanated women watching protect your womb by any means necessary and to everybody watching protect your peace by any means necessary I wish you all love light and prosperity and you will see me in my next video.