 I'm heading up to Blackpool in about half an hour. I'm heading up to Blackpool to own support one of my friends. One of my friends is currently in a hospital. She's got caught tomorrow so I'm going up today to see her like I'm gonna be in hospital and I'm ready to call with her tomorrow. The reason I'm vlogging is because I want to show the importance that visiting people and sharing support people can have on people. I want to show that you know supporting others is beneficial to both your own mental health and to the person who you're going to see as a mental health whether you're going to visit them in hospital or whether you're just so context. The importance of having someone in their life that supports you is so important and that is the aim of this video. So that's mine, let's go finish getting ready and then head to the train station. Ew. The image looks terrible. Oh my god. I might have to turn this later. Yeah I'm just going to visit my friend. Hey guys so I'm in my accommodation for the night and I'm gonna end this video very soon. I wanted to quickly make a little clip to talk about the importance of having people who support you around you and today I went to visit one of my friends who's been in hospital for about five months now and it was emotional. It was emotional but it reminded me of the importance to be there for people and how much these people have helped me like having people that support them and that care around me is one of the most important things I can tell you to do. So my baby camera died. That's how we're using the big camera. Honestly I don't think I can even sit here and tell you how important it is to have people around you that you care about and having people around you that are supportive. I've had so many people in my life this year that have let me down and that have been horrible to me and pushed me and made me feel like crap and I've also visited this friend in hospital. This is the second time I've been to visit her this year. She's been in the same admission five months. I met her in my first admission this year. I'm here to support her. I always will be. The thing is I'm very supportive and caring for her so I care a lot about people. The reason I'm making this video is to just talk about the importance of being that I have people. I have no idea how much it's gonna improve the day and honestly I don't think I can sit here and explain to you how much having one person come and visit me made all the difference. During my last admission one of my friends came to visit me and it made things so much better. It just helps enormously knowing the people around you care because when you're in that position not all the time but I know for this friend and to me we went in because we tried to end our lives because we fell with this we thought I don't want to get out and I think it's so important to show you that you care because you have no idea how much you could help that day. That's the important message of this. I was gonna make a whole big video but I need to be more real with you guys with this one. I can't make a big fancy video for this. It really does make a difference having people that have people. I know for me having the people I've got around me now is so helpful like Serenity for instance and you guys it makes my day so much more bearable than it was a few months ago. I felt so alone and I felt like I had no one because my mom wasn't involved in my life. I had no one to turn to because I didn't want to upset my friends. I didn't want to upset those people around me. Having how changed my mindset a bit and knowing the importance of it is so so important and if there is someone in your life that you feel needs just a hug or a hello or just a message, send it. You have no idea how much it will help them. Even just saying hi to someone can help enormously and here's something you feel like. I was talking to some of the staff members today on the way out and I was like I don't know how I was supposed to feel. I was like I feel horrible because I'm out of hospital and this person went into hospital and we're using the same mission in the first admission this year and I don't know it made me feel, I feel really emotional. Maybe it's because I'm just a caring person. Maybe it's because I want the best for her but I do want the best for her. I think it's just because I'm overly caring and the thing is I met her in hospital. I haven't known her that long but I do care a lot about people and as the reason I do these videos I make videos to help people and make them to make people feel less alone. Like I said just send a message, say hi, send a tweet, make people know you around and then just send someone something saying hi because then you know you sent that person a message and they know that you're there. I think that's so important and I know it's like coming from me, I'm the worst person to answer messages but it can really help, it can make a difference. I'm not saying it's gonna change everything but it can really help. It would be amazed like getting a message saying hi would have helped me so much earlier this year. I didn't have it around me and now the fact that I get to do that for a lot of people it does make me happy and I am gonna stop talking because I don't really have much more to say and I feel like I'm rambling. I also can't talk very long because I'm in someone else's house and I feel awkward filming video so yeah. I may feel a little bit later on also I don't know. Probably just more and more than I do my makeup. What's left of my makeup? I don't know. Anyway I'm gonna end this video and keep watching if you're new here I want to know a bit about this experience and how I met this person and all of that. It's in my book. My book it's got my life story in so far. Some of it, not all of it. There'll be any edition out. This is like the last couple of weeks where you can get the first edition of the book and obviously it's like my first book so it's like my child so like it would mean a lot if you go by it but I don't mind if you can't. It's also available on Kindle. The link is in the description down below. Also to anyone who's dyslexic roaming and can't read very well I would highly recommend these. Like they're called realers. They really help because like you can line it over certain bits of text and it makes it easier to read just like that. If you're new here hit the subscribe button and I'll see you guys very soon with a new video. Thank you again to Airbnb for sponsoring this video. I'll move on with Airbnb. Anyway, I need to go. I'm tired. I'm tired and I'm hungry. Not in combination. Bye guys.