 CHAPTER III. He had said to her in the park, when challenged on it that nothing had happened to him as a cause for the demand he there made of her. Happened he meant since the account he had given, after his return of his recent experience. But in the course of a few days they had brought him to Christmas morning, he was conscious enough in preparing again to seek her out of a difference on that score. Something had in this case happened to him, and after his taking the night to think of it, he felt that what at most, if not absolutely first, involved both his immediately again putting himself in relation with her. The fact itself had met him there, in his own small quarters on Christmas Eve, and had not then indeed at once affected him as implying that consequence. So far as he on the spot and for the next hours took its measure, a process that made his night mercilessly wakeful, the consequences possibly implied were numerous to distraction. His spirit dealt with them in the darkness of the slow hours past. His intelligence and his imagination, his soul and his sense, had never on the whole been so intensely engaged. It was his difficulty for the moment that he was face to face with alternatives, and that it was scarce even a question of turning from one to the other. They were not in the perspective in which they might be compared and considered. They were by a strange effect as close as a pair of monsters of whom he might have felt on either cheek the hot breath and the huge eyes. He saw them at once, and but by looking straight before him. He wouldn't for that matter in his cold apprehension have turned his head by an inch, so it was that his agitation was still, was not for the slow hours, a matter of restless motion. He lay long after the event on the sofa where, extinguishing at a touch the white light of convenience that he hated, he had thrown himself without undressing. He stared at the very day and wore out the time. With the arrival of the Christmas dawn moreover, late and gray, he felt himself somehow determined. The common wisdom had had its say to him. That safety and doubt was not action. And perhaps what most helped him was this very commonness. In this case there was nothing of that. In no case in his life had there ever been less, which association from one thing to another now worked for him as a choice. He acted after his bath and his breakfast in the sense of that marked element of the rare which he felt to be the sign of his crisis. And that is why, dressed with more state than usual and quite as if for church, he went out into the soft Christmas day. Action for him, on coming to the point, it appeared carried with it a certain complexity. We should have known, walking by his side, that his final primed decision hadn't been to call at the door of Sir Luke's tread, and yet that this step, though subordinate, was nonetheless urgent. His primed decision was for another matter, to which impatience, once he was on the way, had now added itself. But he remained sufficiently aware that he must compromise with the perhaps excessive earlyness. This, and the ferment set up within him, were together a reason for not driving, to say nothing of the absence of cabs in the dusky, festal desert. Sir Luke's great square was not near, but he walked the distance without seeing a handsome. He had his interval thus to turn over his view, the view to which what had happened the night before had not sharply reduced itself. But the complexity just mentioned was to be offered within the next few minutes another item to assimilate. Before Sir Luke's house, when he reached it, a broom was drawn up, at the side of which his heart had a lift that brought him for the instant to a stand. This pause wasn't long, but it was long enough to flash upon him a revelation in the light of which he caught his breath. The carriage, so possibly at such an hour and in such a day, Sir Luke's own, had struck him as a sign that the great doctor was back. This would prove something else, in turn, still more intensely, and it was in the act of the double apprehension that Densher felt himself turn pale. His mind rebounded for the moment like a projectile that was suddenly been met by another. He stared at the strange truth that what he wanted more than to see Kate Croy was to see the witness who had just arrived from Venice. He wanted positively to be in his presence and to hear his voice, which was the spasm of his unconsciousness that produced the flash. Fortunately for him, on the spot, there supervened something in which the flash went out. He became aware within this minute that the coachman on the box of the brome had a face known to him, whereas he had never seen before to his knowledge the great doctor's carriage. The carriage, as he came near, was simply Mrs. Lauders. The face of the box was just the face that, in coming and going at Lancaster Gate, he would vaguely have noticed outside in attendance. With this the rest came. The lady of Lancaster Gate had, on a prompting not wholly remote from his own, presented herself for news, and news in the house she was clearly getting since her brome had stayed. Sir Luke was then back, only Mrs. Lauders was with him. It was under the influence of this last reflection that denture again delayed, and it was while he delayed that something else occurred to him. It was all round visibly, given his own new contribution, a case of pleasure, and a case of pressure Kate for quicker knowledge might have come out with her aunt. The possibility that in this event she might be sitting in the carriage, the thing most likely, had had the effect before he could check it of bringing him within range of the window. It wasn't there he had wished to see her, yet if she was there he couldn't pretend not to. What he had, however, the next moment made out was that if someone was there it wasn't Kate Croy. It was with a sensible shock for him, the person who had last offered him a conscious face from behind the clear plate of a cafe in Venice. The great glass at Florian's was a medium less obscure, even with the window down than the air of the London Christmas, yet at present also nonetheless between the two men an exchange of recognition could occur. Denture felt his own look a gaping arrest, which he disgustedly remembered, his back as quickly turned, appeared to repeat itself as his special privilege. He mounted the steps of the house, and touched the bell with a keen consciousness of being habitually looked at by Kate's friend from positions of almost insolent vantage. He forgot for the time the moment when in Venice at the palace the encouraged young man had in a manner assisted at the departure of the disconcerted, since what Mark was not looking disconcerted now any more than he had looked from his bench at his cafe. Denture was thinking that he seemed to show as vagrant while another was unsconced. He was thinking of the other as, in spite of the difference in situation, more unsconced than ever. He was thinking of him above all as the friend of the person with whom his recognition had, the minute previous associated him. The man was seated in the very place in which, beside Mrs. Louders, he had looked to find Kate, and that was a sufficient identity. Meanwhile, at any rate the door of the house had opened and Mrs. Louders stood before him. It was something at least that she was in Kate. She was herself on the spot in all her affluence. With presence of mind both the decided ones that Lord Mark and the Bohem didn't matter, and to prevent Sir Luke's butler by a firm word thrown over her shoulder from standing there to listen to her passage with the gentleman who had run. I'll tell Mr. Denture, you needn't wait, and the passage promptly originally took place on the steps. He arrived, travelling straight to Morrow-early. I couldn't not come to learn. No more said Denture simply, could I. On my way he added to Lancaster Gate. Sweet of you! She beamed on him dimly, and he saw her face was attuned. It made him with what she had just before said, now all, and he took the thing in which he met the air of portentous, of almost functional, sympathy that had settled itself as her medium with him, and that yet had now a fresh glow. So you have had your message. He knew so well what she meant, and so equally with it what he had had, no less than what he hadn't, that with but the smallest hesitation he strained the point. Yes, my message. Our dear dove then, as Kate calls her, has folded her wonderful wings. Yes, folded them. It rather racked him, but he tried to receive it as she intended, and she evidently took his formal assent of her self-control. Unless it's more true, she accordingly added, that she had spread them the wider. He again but formally assented, though strangely enough the words fitted a figure deep in his own imagination. Rather, yes, spread them wider. Or fly, they trust, to some happiness greater, exactly, greater than she broken. But now, with a look, he feared, that did a little warn her off. You were certainly shivered on with more reserve, entitled to direct news. Ours came late last night. I'm not sure otherwise I shouldn't have gone to you. But you're coming, she asked, to me. He had had a minute by this time to think further, and the window of the bowing was still within range. Her rich me, reaching him more over at the mild damp, had the effect of a thump on his chest. Squared. Aunt Maude? She was indeed squared, and the extent of it, just now perversely enough, took away his breath. His look from where they stood embraced the aperture of which the person sitting in the carriage might have shown, and he saw his interlocutress on her side, understanding the question in it, which he moreover then uttered. Shall you be alone? It was as an immediate instinctively parlay with the image of his condition that now flourished in her, almost hypocritical. It sounded as if he wished to come and overflow to her, yet this was exactly what he didn't. The need to overflow had suddenly, since the night before, dried up in him, and he had never been aware of a deeper reserve. But she had meanwhile largely responded, completely alone. I should otherwise never have dreamed, feeling, dear friend, but too much. Failing on her lips, which she felt came out for him on the offered hand, with which she had the next moment condolingly pressed his own. Dear friend, dear friend, she was deeply with him, and she wished to be still more so, which was what made her immediately continue. Or wouldn't you this evening, for the sad Christmas it makes us, nine with me, ta-ta-ta? It put the thing off, the question of a talk with her, making the difference to his relief of several hours. But it also rather mystified him. This, however, didn't diminish his need for caution. Shall you mind if I don't tell you at once? Not in the least. Leave it open. It shall be as you may feel. And you needn't even send me word. I only will mention that today, of all days, I shall otherwise sit there alone. Now, at least, he could ask. Without Miss Croy? Without Miss Croy. Miss Croy, said Mrs. Louder, is spending her Christmas in the bosom of her more immediate family. He was afraid, even while he spoke, of what his face might show. You mean she has left you? Aunt Ma's own face, for that matter, met the inquiry with a consciousness in which she saw a reflection of events. He was made sure by it, even at the moment as he had never been before, that since he had known these two women no confessed nor commented tension, no crisis of the cruder sort would really have taken form between them, which was precisely a high proof of how Kate had steered her boat. The situation exposed in Mrs. Louder's present expression lighted up by contrast that superficial smoothness, which afterwards, with his time to think of it, was to put before him again the art, the particular gift, in the girl, now so placed in class, so intimately familiar to him as her talent for life. The peace, within a day or two, since his seeing her last, had clearly been broken. Differences deep down, kept thereby diplomacy and Kate's part as deep, had been shaken to the surface by some exceptional jar, with which, in addition, he felt Lord Mark's odd attendance at such an hour and season vaguely associated. The talent for life indeed, at the same time struck him, would probably have shown equally in the breach, or whatever had occurred. And maud having suffered, he judged, a strain rather than a stroke. Of these quick thoughts at all events, that lady was already abreast. She went yesterday morning, but not with my approval, I don't mind telling you to her sister, Mrs. Condrop, if you know who I mean, who lives somewhere in Chelsea. My other niece and her affairs, that I should have to say such things today, are a constant worry, so that Kate inconsequences well of events, had simply been called in. My own idea, I'm bound to say, was that with such events, she need have, in her situation, next nothing to do. But she differed with you? She differed with me. And when Kate differs with you, oh, I can imagine. He had reached a point on the scale of hypocrisy at which he could ask himself why a little more or less should signify. Besides, with the intention he had had, he must know. Kate's move, if he didn't know, might simply disconcert him, and of being disconcerted, his horror was, by this time, fairly superstitious. I hope you don't allude to events at all calamitous. No, only horrid and vulgar. Oh, said Merton Densher. Mrs. Latter's soreness, it was still not obscure, had discovered in free speech to him a momentary bomb. They've been misfortune to have, I suppose you know, a dreadful horrible father. Oh, said Densher again. He's too bad almost to name, but he has come upon Marion, and Marion has shrieked for help. Densher wondered at this with intensity, and his curiosity compromised for an instant with his discretion. Come upon her for money? Oh, for that, of course, always. But at this blessed season, for refugee, for safety, for God knows what, he's there, the brute, in Kate's with them. And that, Mrs. Latter, wound up going down the steps, is her Christmas. She has stopped again at the bottom while he thought of an answer. Yours, then, is, after all, rather better. It's at least more decent, and her hand once more came out. But why do I talk of our troubles? Come, if you can. He showed a faint smile. Thanks, if I can. And now, I daresay, you'll go to church? She had asked it with her good intention, rather in the air and by way of sketching for him in the line of support something a little more to the purpose than what she had been giving him. He felt it as finishing off their intensities of expression that he found himself, to all appearance, receiving her hint as happy. Why, yes, I think I will. After which, as the door of the proling met her approach had opened from within, he was free to turn his back. He heard the door behind him sharply close again, and the vehicle move off in another direction than his own. He had, in fact, for the time no direction, in spite of which indeed he was at the end of ten minutes aware of having walked straight to the cell. That he afterwards recognized was very sufficiently because there had formed itself in his mind, even while Aunt Maude finally talked, an instant recognition of his necessary course. Nothing was open to him but to follow Kate, nor was anything more marked than the influence of the step she had taken on the emotion itself that possessed him. Her complications, which had fairly with everything else an awful sound, what were they, a thousand times over but his own? His present business was to see that they didn't escape an hour longer taking their proper place in his life. He accordingly would have held his course, had not suddenly come over him, that he had just lied to Mrs. Louder, a term it perversely eased him to keep using, even more than was necessary. To what church was he going? To what church in such a state of his nerves could he go? He pulled up short again, as he had pulled up inside of Mrs. Louder's carriage to ask it, and yet the desire clearly steered him not to have wasted his word. He was just then, however, by a happy chance on the Brompton Road, and he befought himself with a sudden light that the oratory was at hand. He had but to turn the other way and he should find himself sitting before it. At the door then, in a few minutes, his idea was really, as it struck him, consecrated. He was pushing in on the edge of a splendid service. The flocking crowd told of it, which glittered and resounded from distant depth in the blaze of altar, lights, and the swell of organ choir. It didn't match his own day, but it was much less of a discord than some other things actual impossible. The oratory in short, to make him right, would do. CHAPTER IV The difference was thus that the dusk of afternoon, dusk thick from the early hour, had gathered when he knocked at Mrs. Contrape's door. He had gone from the church to his club, wishing not to present himself in Chelsea at luncheon time, and also remembering that he must attempt independently to make a meal. This in the event he but imperfectly achieved. He dropped into a chair in the great dim void of the club library, with nobody, up or down, to be seen, and there after a while, closing his eyes, recovered an hour of the sleep he had lost during the night. Before doing this, indeed he had written. It was the first thing he did, a short note, which in the Christmas desolation of the place, he had managed only with difficulty and doubt to commit to a messenger. He wished it carried by hand, and he was obliged, rather blindly, to trust the hand as the messenger, for some reason, was unable to return with a gauge of delivery. When at four o'clock he was face to face with Kate in Mrs. Contrape's small drawing-room, he found to his relief that his notification had reached her. She was expectant, and to that extent prepared, which simplified a little if a little at the present pass counted. Her conditions were vaguely vivid to him from the moment of his coming in, and vivid partly by their difference, a difference sharp and suggestive, from those in which he had hitherto constantly seen her. He had seen her but in place comparatively great, in her aunt's pompous house under the high trees of Kensington, and the storied ceilings of Venice. He had seen her in Venice on a great occasion, as the center itself of this blended piazza. He had seen her there on a still greater one, in his own poor rooms, which he had consorted with her, having stayed an agentry even in their poorness. Mrs. Contrape's interior, even by this best view of it, and though not flagrantly mean, showed itself as the setting almost grotesquely inapt. Pale, grave, and charming, she affected him at once as a distinguished stranger, a stranger to Little Chelsea Street, who was making the best of a queer episode and a place of exile. The extraordinary thing was that at the end of three minutes, he felt himself less appointedly a stranger in it than she. A part of the queerness, this was to come to him in glimpses, sprang from the air as of a general large misfit imposed on the narrow room by the scale and mass of its furniture. The objects the ornaments were for the sisters, clearly relics and survivals of what world, in the case of Mrs. Contrape at least, had been called the better days. The curtains that overdraped the windows, the sofas and tables at state circulation, the chimney ornaments that reached to the ceiling and the floor and chandelier that almost dropped to the floor, were so many mementos of earlier homes and so many links with their unhappy mother, whatever might have been in itself the quality of these elements, denture could feel the effect proceeding from them, as they lumpishly blocked out the decline of the damn day, to be ugly almost to the point of the sinister. They failed to accommodate or to compromise. They asserted their differences without act and without taste. It was truly having a sense of Kate's own quality thus promptly to see them in reference to it. But the denture in his sense was no new thing to him, nor did he in strictness need for the hour to be reminded of it. He only knew by one of the tricks his imagination so constantly played him, that he was, so far as her present tension went, very specially sorry for her, which was not the view that had determined his start in the morning, yet also that he himself would have taken it all, as he might say, less hard. He could have lived in such a place, but it wasn't given to those of his complexion, so to speak, to be exiled anywhere. It was by their comparative grossness that they could somehow make shift. His natural, his inevitable, his ultimate home, left, that is, to itself, wasn't at all unlikely to be as queer and impossible as what was just around them, though doubtless and less ample messes. As he took in moreover how Kate wouldn't have been, in the least, the creature she was, if what was just around them hadn't mismatched her, hadn't made for her a medium involving a compunction in a spectator, so by the same stroke, that became the very fact of her relation with her companions there. Denture could ask himself that, even after she had presently lighted the tall candles on the mantel shelf. This was all their illumination but the fire, and she had proceeded to it with a quiet dryness that yet left play visibly to her implication between them, in their trouble and failing anything better of the presumably genial Christmas hearth. So far as the genial went, this had its trickness given their conditions to be all their geniality. He had told her in his note nothing but that he must promptly see her and that he hoped she might be able to make it possible. But he understood from the first look at her that his promptitude was already having for her its principal reference. I was prevented this morning in a few minutes, he explained, asking Mrs. Ladder if she had let you know, though I rather gathered she had, and it's what I've been in fact since then assuming. It was because I was so struck at the moment with your having as she did tell me so suddenly come here. Yes, it was sudden enough. Very neat and fine in the contracted firelight, with her hands in her lap, Kate considered what he had said. He had spoken immediately of what had happened at Sir Luke's trance door. She has let me know nothing, but that doesn't matter if it's what you mean. It's part of what I mean, denture said, but what he went on with after a pause during which she waited was apparently not the rest of that. She had had her telegram before Mrs. Stringham late last night, but to me the poor lady hasn't wired. The event, he added, will have taken place yesterday, and Sir Luke, starting immediately, one can see, and traveling straight, will get back tomorrow morning, so that Mrs. Stringham, I judge, is left to face in some solitude the situation be keyed to her. But of course he wound up, Sir Luke couldn't stay. Her look at him might have had in it a vague betrayal of the sense that he was gaining time. Was your telegram from Sir Luke? No, I've had no telegram. She wondered, but not a letter? Not from Mrs. Stringham, no. He failed again, however, to develop this, for which her forbearance from another question gave him occasion. From whom, then, had he heard? He might at least confronted with her really have been gaining time, and as if to show that she respected the simple, she made her inquiry different. Should you like to go out to her, to Mrs. Stringham? About that at least, he was clear. Not at all. She's alone, but she's very capable and very courageous. Besides, he had been going on, but he dropped. Besides, she said, there's Eugenio? Yes, of course one remembers Eugenio. She had uttered the words as definitely to show them for not on tender, and he showed equally every reason to ascend. One remembers him indeed, and with every ground for it, he'll be of the highest value to her. He's capable of anything. What I was going to say he went on is that some of their people from America must quickly arrive. On this, as happened, Cate was able at once to satisfy him. Mr. someone or other, the person principally in charge of Millie's affairs, her first trustee, I suppose, had just got there at Mrs. Stringham last writing. Ah, that then was after your aunt last spoke to me. I mean, the last time before this morning. I'm relieved to hear it. So he said, they'll do. Oh, they'll do. And it came from each still as if it wasn't what each was most thinking of. Cate presently got, however, a step nearer to that. But if you had been wired to by nobody, what then this morning had taken you to Sir Luke? Oh, something else, which I'll presently tell you. It's what made me instantly need to see you. It's what I've come to speak to you of. But in a minute, I feel too many things he went on at seeing you in this place. He got up as he spoke. She herself remained perfectly still. His movement had been to the fire, and leaning a little with his back to it, he looked down on her from where he stood. He confined himself to his point. Is it anything very bad that has brought you? He had now, in any case, said enough to justify her wish for more, so that, passing this matter by, she pressed her own challenge. Do you mean, if I may ask, that she dying? Her face wondering pressed it more than her words. Certainly you may ask, he, after a moment said, what has come to me is what, as I say, I came expressly to tell you. I don't mind letting you know, he went on, that my decision to do this took for me last night and this morning a great deal of thinking of. But here I am. And he indulged in a smile that couldn't, he was well aware, but strike her as mechanical. She went straighter with him. She seemed to show, then he really went with her. You didn't want to come? It would have been simple, my dear, and he continued to smile. If it had been one way or the other, only a question of wanting. It took, I admitted, the idea of what I had best do, all sorts of difficult and pretentious forms. It came up for me really, well, not at all for my happiness. This ward apparently puzzled her. She studied him in the light of it. You look upset. You've certainly been tormented. You're not well. Oh, well enough. But she continued without heeding. You hate what you're doing. My dear girl, you simplify, and he was now serious enough. It isn't so simple, even as that. She had the air of thinking what it then might be. I, of course, can't with no clue know what it is. She remained none the less patient and still. If at such a moment she could write you once inevitably quite at sea, one doesn't what the best will in the world understand. And then, as Densher had a pause, which might have stood for all the involved explanation that, to his discouragement loom before him, you haven't decided what to do. She had said it very gently, almost sweetly, and he didn't instantly say otherwise. But he said so after a look at her. Oh, yes, I have. Only with this sight of you here, and what I seem to see in it for you, and his eyes, as at suggestion that pressed, turn from one part of the room to another. Horrible place, isn't it, Sankate? It brought him straight back to his inquiry. Is it for anything awful you've had to come? Oh, that will take as long to tell you as anything you may have. Don't mind you continued the sight of me here, nor whatever, which is more than I yet know myself, may be in it for me, and kindly consider, too, that after all, if you're in trouble, I can a little wish to help you. Perhaps I can absolutely even do it. My dear child, it's just because of the sense of your wish. I suppose I'm in trouble. I suppose that's it. He said this with so odd a suddenness of simplicity, that she could only stare for it, which he has promptly saw. So he turned off as he could his vagueness. And yet I oughtn't be, which sounds indeed vaguer still. She waited a moment. Is it, as you say, for my own business, anything very awful? Well, he slowly replied, you'll tell me if you find it so. I mean, if you find my idea. He was so slow that she took him up. Awful? A sound of impatience, the form of a laugh, at last escaped her. I can't find it anything at all till I know what you're talking about. It brought him then more to the point, though it did so at first, but by making him on the hearthrack before her, with his hands in his pockets, turned a while to unfro. There rose in him, even with this movement, a recall of another time. The hour in Venice, the hour of gloom and storm, when Susan Shepard had sat in his quarters, there very much estate was sitting now. And he had wondered, in pain, even as now, what he might say, and mightn't. Yet the present occasion, after all, was somehow the easier. He tried, at any rate, to attach that feeling to it while he stopped before his companion. The communication I speak of can't possibly belong, so far as its date is concerned, to these last days. The postmark, which is legible, does. But it isn't thinkable. For anything else that she wrote, he dropped looking at her as if she'd understand. It was easy to understand. On her deathbed? But Kate took an instant thought. Aren't we agreed that there was never anyone in the world like her? Yes, and looking over her head, he spoke clearly enough. There was never anyone in the world like her. Kate, from her chair, always without a movement, raised her eyes to the unconscious reach of his own. Then, when the latter again dropped to her, she added a question. And won't it further depend a little on what the communication is? A little, perhaps, but not much. It's a communication, said Denture. Do you mean a letter? Yes, a letter addressed to me in her hand, in hers unmistakably. Kate thought, do you know her hand very well? Oh, perfectly. It was as if his tone from this prompted with a slight strangeness her next demand. Have you had many letters from her? No, only three notes. He spoke looking straight at her, in very, very short ones. Ah, said Kate, the number doesn't matter. Three lines would be enough if you're sure you remember. I'm sure I remember. Besides, Denture continued, I've seen her hand in other ways. I seem to recall how you once, before she went to Venice, showed me one of her notes precisely for that. And then she once copied me something. Oh, said Kate, almost with a smile. I don't ask you for the detail of your reasons. One good one's enough. To which, however, she added, as if precisely not to speak with impatience or with anything like irony. And the writing has its usual look? Denture answered, as if even to better that description of it. It's beautiful. Yes, it was beautiful. Well, Kate, to defer to him still, further remarked, it's not news to us now that she was stupendous. Anything's possible. Yes, anything's possible. He appeared oddly to catch added. That's what I say to myself. It's what I've been believing you, he at tries will vaguely explain, still more certain to feel. She waited for him to say more, but he only with his hands in his pockets turned again away, going this time to the single window of the room, where in the absence of lamp light, the blind hadn't been drawn. He looked out into the lamp-lit fog, lost himself in the small, sordid London street. But sordid, with his other association, he felt it as he had lost himself with Mrs. Stringham's eyes on him in the vista of the Grand Canal. It was present then to his recording consciousness that when he had last been driven to such an attitude, the very depth of his resistance to the opportunity to give Kate away was what had so driven him. His waiting companion had on that occasion waited for him to say he would. But when he had meantime gloried forth at, was the inanity of such a hope. Kate's attention on her side, during these minutes, rested on the back and shoulders he thus familiarly presented, rested as with a view of their expression, a reference to things unimparted, links still missing, and that she must ever miss, trying to make them out as she would. The result of her tension was that she again took him up. You received what you spoke of last night? It made him turn round. Come in from Fleet Street, earlier by an hour than usual. I found it with some other letters on my table, but my eyes went straight to it in an extraordinary way from the door. I recognized it, knew what it was, without touching it. One can understand, she listened with respect. His tone, however, was so singular that she presently added, you speak as if all this while you hadn't touched it. Oh yes, I've touched it. I feel as if ever since I'd been touching nothing else. I quite firmly, he pursued as if to be planer, took hold of it. Then where is it? Oh, I have it here. And you've brought it to show me? I've brought it to show you. So he said with a distinctness that had, among his other oddities, almost a sound of cheer, yet making no movement that matched his words. She could accordingly but offer again her expectant face, while his own, to her impatience, seemed perversely to fill with another thought. But now that you've done so, you feel you don't want to. I want to immensely, he said, only you tell me nothing. She smiled at him with this, finally, as if he were an unreasonable child. It seems to me I tell you quite as much as you tell me. You haven't yet even told me how it is that such explanations as you require didn't come from your document itself. And then, as he answered nothing, she had a flash. You mean you haven't read it? I haven't read it. She stared. Then how am I to help you with it? Again, leaving her while she never bunched, he paced five strides, and again he was before her. By telling me this, it's something you know that you wouldn't tell me the other day. She was vague. The other day? The first time after my return, the Sunday I came to you. What's the doing, then she went on, at that hour of the morning with her? What does his having been with her there mean? Of whom are you talking? Of that man, Lord Mark, of course. What does it represent? Oh, with Aunt Maude? Yes, my dear, and with you. It comes more or less to the same thing, and it's what you didn't tell me the other day when I put you to question. Kate tried to remember the other day. You asked me nothing about any hour. I asked you when it was you last saw him, previous, I mean, to his second descent at Venice. You wouldn't say, and as we were talking of a matter comparatively more important, I let it pass. But the fact remains, you know, my dear, that you haven't told me. Two things in a speech appeared to have reached Kate more distinctly than the others. I wouldn't say, and you let it pass? She looked just coldly blank. You really speak as if I were keeping something back. Well, you see, Dantra persisted. You've not even been telling me now. All I want to know, he nevertheless explained, is whether there was a connection between that proceeding on his part, which was practically, oh, beyond all doubt, the shock precipitating for her what has now happened, and anything that had occurred with him previously for yourself. How in the world did he know we're engaged? End of Book 10, Chapter 4, Recording by Jannah in Washington, DC. Book 10, Chapter 5, of The Wings of the Dove. This is a LibriVox recording, all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org, recording by Jannah in Washington, DC. The Wings of the Dove by Henry James. Book 10, Chapter 5. Kate slowly rose. It was since she had lighted the candles and sat down the first movement she had made. Are you trying to fix it on me that I must have told him? She spoke not so much in resentment as in pale dismay, which she showed he immediately took in. My dear child, I'm not trying to fix anything, but I'm extremely tormented and I seem not to understand. What has the brute to do with us anyway? What has he indeed, Kate asked? She shook her head as if in recovery, within the minute of some wild allowance for his unreason. There was in it, and for his reason really, one of those half-in-consequent sweetnesses by which she had often before made, over some point of difference, her own terms with him. Practically she was making them now and essentially he was knowing it, yet inevitably all the same he was accepting it. She stood there close to him with something in her patience that suggested her having supposed, when he spoke more appealingly, that he was going to kiss her. He hadn't been, it appeared, but his continued appeal was nonetheless the quieter. What's he doing from 10 o'clock on Christmas morning with Mrs. Louder? Kate looked surprised. Did she tell you he's staying there? At Lancaster Gate, denture surprise met it. Staying? Since when? Since day before yesterday, he was there before I came away. And then she explained, confessing it, in fact, anomalous. It's an accident, like at mods having herself remained in town for Christmas, but it isn't after all so monstrous. We stayed, and with my having come here, she's sorry now, because we neither of us, waiting from day to day for the news you brought, seem to want to be with a lot of people. You stayed for thinking of Venice? Of course we did. For what else? And even a little, Kate wonderfully added, it's true at least of mod mod for thinking of you. He appreciated. I see, nice of you every way. But whom, he inquired, has Lord Mark stayed for thinking of? His being in London, I believe, is a very commonplace matter. He has some rooms, which he has had suddenly some rather advantageous chance to let. Such as, with his confessed, his decidedly proclaimed want of money, he hasn't had it in him in spite of everything not to jump at. Denture's attention was entire. In spite of everything? In spite of what? Well, I don't know, in spite, say, of his being scarcely supposed to do that sort of thing. To try to get money? To try at any rate in little thrifty ways. Apparently, however, he has had for some reason to do what he can. He turned it a couple of days notice out of his place, making it over to his tenant, and at mod, who's deeply in his confidence about all such matters, said, come then to Lancaster Gate, to sleep at least, till, like all the world, you go to the country. It was to have gone to the country, I think, to match him, yesterday afternoon, and mod that it is told me he was. Kate had been somehow, for her companion, through the statement beautifully, quite soothingly suggestive. Told you, you mean, so that you needn't leave the house? Yes, so far as she has taken it into her head that his being there was part of my reason. And was it part of the reason? A little, if you like, yet there's plenty here as I knew there would be without it, so that, she said candidly, doesn't matter. I'm glad I am here, even if for all the good I do. She implied, however, that that didn't matter either. He didn't, as you tell me, get off then to match him, though he may possibly, if it is possible, be going this afternoon. But what strikes me as most probable, and it's really, I'm bound to say, quite amiable of him, is that he has declined to leave at mod, as I've been so ready to do, to spend her Christmas alone. If, moreover, he has given up matching for her, it's a proceed that won't please her less. It's small wonder, therefore, that she insists on a dull day in driving him about. I don't pretend to know if she wound up what may happen between them, but that's all I see in it. You see in everything, and you always did, then she returned, something that, while I'm with you at least, I always take from you as the truth itself. She looked at him as if consciously and even carefully extracting the sting of his reservation. Then she spoke with a quiet gravity that seemed to show how fine she found it. Thank you. It had been for him, like everything else, its effect. They were still closely face to face, and yielding to the impulse to which he hadn't yielded just before, he laid his hands on her shoulders, held her hard a minute, and shook her a little, far from tenderly, as if an expression of more mingled things, and more difficult than he could speak. Then, bending his head, he applied his lips to her cheek. He fell, after this, away for an instant, resuming his unrest, while she kept the position in which, all passive and as a statue, she had taken his demonstration. It didn't prevent her, however, from offering him as if what she had had was enough for the moment, no further indulgence. She made a quiet, lucid connection, and as she made it, sat down again. I've been trying to place exactly, as to its date, something that did happen to me while you were in Venice. I mean a talk with him. He spoke to me, spoke out. Ah, there you are, said Denture, who has wheeled round. Well, if I'm there, as you so gracefully call it, I'm having refused to meet him as he wanted, as he pressed, to plead guilty for being so. Would you have liked me, she went on, to give him an answer that would have kept him from going? He'd made him a little awkwardly think. Did you know he was going? Never for a moment, but I'm afraid that, even if it doesn't fit your strange suppositions, I should have given him just the same answer if I had known. If it's matter I haven't, since your return, thrust upon you, that's simply because it's not a matter in the memory of which I find a particular joy. I hope that if I've satisfied you about it, she continued, it's not too much to ask of you to let it rest. Certainly, said Denture kindly, I'll let it rest. But the next moment he pursued, he saw something, he guessed. If you mean she presently returned that he has, unfortunately, the one person who he hadn't deceived, I can't contradict you. No, of course not. But why, Denture, still rest, was he, unfortunately, the one person? He's not really a bit intelligent. Intelligent enough, apparently, to have seen a mystery, a riddle in anything so unnatural as all things considered and when it came to the point, my attitude. So he gouged out his conviction and on his conviction he acted. Denture seemed for a little to look at Lord Mark's conviction as if it were a blot on the face of nature. Do you mean because you had appeared to him to have encouraged him? Of course, I had been decent to him. Otherwise, where were we? Where? You and I. What I appeared to him, however, hadn't mattered. What mattered was how I appeared to add mod. Besides, you must remember that he has had all along his impression of you. You can't help it, she said, but you are after all, well, yourself. As much myself as you please, but when I took myself to Venice and kept myself there, what, Denture asked, did he make of that? Your being in Venice and liking to be, which is never on anyone's part of monstrosity, was explicable to him in other ways. He was quite capable, moreover, of seeing it as the simulation. In spite of Mrs. Lauder? No, said Kate, not in spite of Mrs. Lauder now. And mod, before would you call his second descent, hadn't convinced him all the more that my refusal of him didn't help, but he came back convinced. And then, as her companion still showed a face at a loss, I mean, after he had seen Millie, spoken to her and left her, Millie convinced him. Millie? Denture again, but vaguely echoed. That you were sincere, that in whose hurry you loved, it came to him from her in such a way that he instantly, once more turned, found himself yet again at his window. And mod, on his return here, she meanwhile continued, had it from him, and that's why you're now so well without mod. He only for a minute looked out in silence, after which he came away. And why you are? It was almost in its extremely affirmative effect, between them, the note of recrimination, or it would have been perhaps rather if it hadn't been so much more the note of truth. It was sharp because it was true, but its truth appeared to impose it as an argument so conclusive as to permit on neither side a sequel. That made, while they faced each other over it without speech, the gravity of everything. It was as if there were almost danger, which the wrong word might start. Thencher, accordingly, at last acted to better purpose. He drew, standing there before her, a pocketbook from the breast of his waistcoat, and he drew from the pocketbook a folded letter to which her eyes attached themselves. He restored then the receptacle to its place, and with a movement not the less odd for being visibly instinctive and unconscious, carried the hand containing his letter behind him. What he thus finally spoke of was a different matter. Did I understand from Mrs. Louder that your father's in the house? If it never had taken her long in such excursions to meet him, it was not to take her into so now. In the house, yes, but we needn't fear his interruption. She spoke as if he had thought of that. He's in bed. Do you mean with illness? She sadly shook her head. Father's never ill. He's a marvel. He's only endless, thencher thought. Can I in any way help you with him? Yes, she perfectly, warily, almost serenely had it all, by our making your visit as little of an affair as possible for him, and for Marion, too. I see. They hate so your seeing me. Yet I couldn't, could I, not have come? No, you couldn't not have come. But I can only, on the other hand, go as soon as possible? Quickly it almost upset her. Ah, don't, today, put ugly words into my mouth. I have enough of my trouble without it. I know, I know, he spoke an instant bleeding. It's all only that I must trouble for you. When did he come? Three days ago, after he hadn't been near her for more than a year, after he had apparently, and not regrettably, ceased to remember her existence, and in a state which made it impossible not to take him in. Thencher hesitated. Do you mean in such want? No, not of food, of necessary things, not even so far as his appearance went, of money. He looked as wonderful as ever. But he was, well, in terror, in terror of what? I don't know, of somebody, of something. He wants, he says, to be quiet, but his quietness is awful. She suffered, but he couldn't not question. What does he do? It made Kate herself hesitate. He cries. Again for a moment he hung fire, but he risked it. What has he done? It made her slowly rise, and they were once more fully face-to-face. Her eyes held his own, and she was paler than she had been. If you love me, now, don't ask me about Father. He waited again a moment. I love you. It's because I love you that I'm here. It's because I love you that I've brought you this. And he drew from behind him the letter that he remained in his hand. But her eyes only, though he held it out, met the offer. Why, you've not broken the seal. If I had broken the seal, exactly, I should know what's within. It's for you to break the seal that I bring it. She looked, still not touching the thing, inordinately grave. To break the seal of something to you from her? Ah, precisely, because it's from her. I'll abide by whatever you think of it. I don't understand, said Kate. What do you yourself think? And then, as he didn't answer, it seems to me I think you know. You have your instinct. You don't need to read. It's the proof. Denture faced her words as if they had been an accusation, an accusation for which he was prepared, in which there was but one way to face. I have indeed my instinct. It came to me while I worried it out last night. It came to me as an effect of the hour. He held up his letter and seemed now to insist more than to confess. This thing has been timed. For Christmas Eve? For Christmas Eve. Kate had suddenly a strange smile. The season of gifts. After which, as he said nothing, she went on. And had been written, you mean, while she could write, and kept to be timed? Only meeting her eyes while he thought, he again didn't reply. What do you mean by the proof? Why of the beauty with which you have been loved? But I won't, she said, break your seal. You positively declined? Positively, never, to which she added oddly, I know without. He had another pause. And what is it you know? That she announces to you she has made you rich. His pause this time was longer. Left me her fortune? Not all of it, no doubt, for it's immense, but money to a large amount. I don't care, Kate went on, to know how much. And her strange smile recurred. I trust her. Did she tell you, Denture asked? Never, Kate visibly flushed to the thought, that wouldn't, on my part, have been playing fair with her. And I did, she added, play fair. Denture, who had believed her, he couldn't help it, continued, holding his letter to face her. He was much quieter now, as if his torment had somehow passed. You played fair with me, Kate, and that's why, since we talk of proofs, I want to give you one. I've wanted to let you see, and in preference even to myself, something I feel as sacred. She frowned a little. I don't understand. I've asked myself for a tribute, for a sacrifice by which I can peculiarly recognize. Peculiarly recognize what? She demanded as he dropped. The admirable nature of your own sacrifice. You were capable in venice of an act of splendid generosity. And the privilege you offer me with that document is my reward? He made a movement. It's all I can do as a symbol of my attitude. She looked at him long. Your attitude, my dear, is that you're afraid of yourself. You've had to take yourself in hand. You've had to do yourself violence. So it is then you meet me? She bent her eyes hard a moment to the letter, from which her hand still stayed itself. You absolutely desire me to take it? I absolutely desire you to take it. To do what I like with it? It's short, of course, of making known its terms. It must remain, pardon my making the point, between you and me. She had a last hesitation, but she presently broke it. Trust me. Taking from him the sacred script, she held it a little while her eyes again rested on those flying characters of millies that they had shortly before discussed. To hold it, she brought out, is to know. Oh, I know, said Merton Denture. Well then, if we both do. She had already turned to the fire, nearer to which she had moved, and with a quick gesture had jerked thing into the flame. He started, but only half, as to undo her action. His arrest was as prompt as the latter had been decisive. He only watched with her the paper burn, after which their eyes again met. You'll have it all, Kate said, from New York. End of Book 10, Chapter 5, recording by Jonna in Washington, D.C. Book 10, Chapter 6, of the Wings of the Dove. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org, recording by Jonna in Washington, D.C. The Wings of the Dove by Henry James. Book 10, Chapter 6. It was after he had, in fact, two months later, heard from New York that she paid him a visit one morning at his concorders, coming not as she had come in Venice, under his extreme solicitation, but as a need recognized in her first instance by herself, even though also as the prompt result of a missive delivered to her. This had consisted of a note from denture accompanying a letter, just a hand, addressed him by an eminent American legal firm, a firm of whose high character he had become conscious while in New York as of a thing in the air itself, and whose head in front, the principal executor of Millie Peele's copy as well, had been duly identified at Lancaster Gate as the gentleman hurrying out by the straight southern course before the girl's death to support of Mrs. Stringham. Denture's act on receipt of the document in question and act as the witch unto the bearings of which his resolve had had time to mature, constituted in strictness, singularly enough, the first reference to Millie, or to what Millie might or might not have done, that had passed between our pair since they had stood together watching the destruction and the little vulgar grade at Chelsea of the undisclosed work of her hand. They had at the time, and in due difference now, on his part, to Kate's mention of her responsibility for his call, immediately separated, and when they met again, the subject was made present to them at all events till some flare of the light only by the intensity by which it mutely expressed its absence. They were not moreover in these weeks than they made often, in spite of the fact that this had during January and the part of February actually become for them a comparatively easy matter. Kate, say it, Mrs. Condreff's prolonged self under allowances from her aunt, which would have been a mystery to Denture, had he not been admitted at Lancaster Gate really in spite of himself to the esoteric view of them. It's her idea, Mrs. Lauder had there said to him as if she really despised the ideas which she didn't, and have taken up with my own, which is to give with her, her head till she has had enough of it. She has had enough of it, she had that soon enough, but as she's as proud as the deuce, she'll come back when she has found some reason having nothing in common with her disgust, of which she can make a show. She calls it her holiday, which she's spending in her own way, the holiday to which, once a year or so, as she says, the very maids in this scullery have a right. So we're taking it on that basis, but we shall not soon, I think, take another of the same sort. Besides, she's quite decent. She comes often, whenever I make her a sign, and she has had been good on the whole this year or two, so that to be decent myself, I don't complain. She has really been, poor dear, very much with one hope. Though I need it, you know, Aunt Ma wound up, tell you after all you clever creature what that was. It had been partly in truth to keep down the opportunity for this that denture's appearances under the good lady's roof, markedly after Christmas, interspaced themselves. The phase of the his situation that on his return from Venice had made them for a short time almost frequent was at present quite obscured, and with it the impulse that had then acted. Another phase had taken its place, which he would have been painfully at a loss as yet to name or otherwise set on its feet, but of which the steadily rising tide led Mrs. Lauder, for his desire, quite high and dry. There had been a moment when it seemed possible that Mrs. Stringham, returning to America under convoy, would pause in London on her way and be housed with her old friend, in which case he was prepared for some apparent zeal of attendance. But this danger passed. He had felt it a danger for the person in the world whom he had just now have most valued seeing on his own terms, sailed away westward from Gujanoa. He thereby only wrote to her, having broken in his respect after Millie's death, the silence as to the sense of which, before that event, their agreement had been so deep. She had answered him from Venice twice and had had time to answer him twice again from New York. The last letter of her fore had come by the same post of the document he sent on to Kate, but he hadn't gone into the question of also enclosing that. His correspondence with Millie's companion was somehow already presenting itself to him as a feature, as a factor he would have said in the newspaper, of the time whatever it might be, long or short, in store for him. But one of his cutest current thoughts was apt to be devoted to his not having yet mentioned it to Kate. She had put him no question, no, don't you ever hear, so that he hadn't been brought to the point. This he described to himself as a mercy, for he liked his secret. It was as a secret that in the same personal privacy, he described his transatlantic commerce, scarce even wincing while he recognized it as the one connection in which he wasn't straight. He had in fact for this connection a vivid mental image. He saw it as a small emergent rock in the waste of waters, the bottomless gray expanse of straightness, the fact that he had on several occasions taken with Kate and out of the day walk that was each time to define itself as more remarkable for what they didn't say than for what they did, this fact failed somehow to mitigate for him a strange consciousness of exposure. There was something deep within him that he had absolutely shown to no one, to the companion of these walks in particular, not a bit more than he could help. But he was nonetheless haunted under its shadow with a dire apprehension of publicity. It was as if he had invoked that ugliness in some stupid good faith, and it was queer enough that on this emergent rock clinging to it and to Susan Shepard, he should figure himself as hidden from view. That represented no doubt his belief in her power or in her delicate disposition to protect him. Only Kate at all events knew what Kate did know and she was also the last person interested to tell it. In spite of which it was as if his act so deeply associated with her and never to be recalled nor recovered was abroad on the winds of the world, his honesty as he viewed it with Kate was the very element of that menace. To the degree that he saw at moments as to their final impulse or their final remedy, they need to bury in dark blindness of each other's arms the knowledge of each other that they couldn't undo. Save indeed that the sense in which it was in these days a question of arms was limited, this might have been the intimate expedient to which they were actually resorting. It had its value in conditions that made everything count that the rice over and Battersea Park where Mrs. Lauder now never drove, he had adopted the usual means in sequestered alleys of holding her close to his side. She could make absences on her present footing without having to inordinately to account for them at home which was exactly what gave them for the first time an appreciable margin. He supposed she could always say in Chelsea though he didn't press it that she had been across the town in decency for a look at her aunt whereas there had always been reasons at Lancaster Gate for her not being able to plead the look at her other relatives. It was therefore between them a freedom of a purity as yet untasted which for that matter also they made in various ways no little show of cherishing as such. They made the show indeed in every way but the way of a large use and in consequence that they almost equally gave time to helping each other to regard as natural. He put it to his companion that the kind of favor he now enjoyed at Lancaster Gate, the wonderful warmth of his reception there cut in a manner the ground from under their feet. He was too horribly trusted, they had succeeded too well. He couldn't in short make appointments with her without abusing Aunt Maude and he couldn't on the other hand haunt that lady without trying his hands. Kate saw what he meant just as he saw what she did when she admitted that she was herself to degrees carceless embarrassing in the enjoyment of Aunt Maude's confidence. It was special at present she was handsomely used. She confessed accordingly to a scruple about misapplying her license. Mrs. Lauder then finally had found and all unconsciously now the way to baffle them. It wasn't however that they didn't meet a little nonetheless in a southern quarter to point for their common benefit the moral of their defeat. They crossed the river, they wandered the neighborhood sordid and safe. The winter was mild so that mounting to the top of trams they could rumble together to clap them or to grinridge. If at the same time their minutes had never been so counted, it struck denture that by a singular law their tone, he scarce knew what to call it had never been so bland. Not to talk of what they might have talked of drove them to other ground. It was as if they used the perverse insistence to make up for what they ignored. They concealed their pursuit of their relevant by the charm of their manner. They took precautions for the courtesy they had formally left to come off of itself. Often when he had quitted her, he stopped short walking off with the aftersense of their change. He would have described their change had he so far faced it as to describe it by their being so damped civil. That had even with the intimate the familiar at the point to which they had brought them a touch almost of the drawl. What danger had there ever been of their becoming rude after each had long since made the other so tremendously tender? Such were the things he asked himself when he wondered what in particular he most feared. Yet all the while too the tension had its charm, such being the interest of a creature who could bring one back to her by such different roads. It was her talent for life again which found in her a difference for a differing time. She didn't give their tradition up, she but made of it something new. Frankly, moreover, she had never been more agreeable nor in any way to put it prosaically better company. He felt almost as if he were knowing her on that defined basis which he even hesitated whether to measure as reduced or as extended. As if at all events he were admiring her she was probably admired by people she met out. He hadn't in fine reckoned that she would still have something fresh for him. Yet this was what she had that on the top of a tram in the borough he felt as if he were next to her at dinner. What a person she would be if they had been rich with what a genius for the so-called great life, what a presence for the so-called great house, what a grace for the so-called great positions. He might regret at once while he was about it that they weren't princes or billionaires. She had treated him on their Christmas to a softened that had struck him at the time as if the quality of fine velvet meant to fold thick but stretched a little thin. At present, however, she gave him the impression of a contact multitude in us as only the superficial can be. She had throughout never a word for what went on at home. She came out of that and she returned to it but her nearest reference was the look with which each time she bade him goodbye. The look was her repeated prohibition. It's what I have to see and to know, so don't touch it. That but wakes up the old evil which I keep still in my way by sitting on it. I go now, leave me alone, to sit by it again. The way to pity me if that's what you want is to believe in me. If we could really do anything, it would be another matter. He watched her when she went her way with the vision of what she thus a little stiffly carried. It was confused and obscure, but how, with her head high, it made her hold herself. He really, in his own person, might at these moments have been swaying a little aloft as one of the object in her poised basket. It was doubtless thanks to some such consciousness as this that he felt the lapse of the weeks before the day of Kate's mounting of his stare almost swingingly rapid. They contained for him the contradiction that whereas periods of waiting are supposed in general to keep the time slow, it was the wait, actually, that made the pace trouble him. The secret of that anomaly, to be plain, was that he was aware of how, while days melted, something rare went with them. This something was only a thought, but a thought precisely of such freshness and such delicacy as made the pressures of whatever sort most subject to the hunger of time. The thought was all his own, and his intimate companion was the last person he might have shared it with. He kept it back like a favored pang, left it behind him, so to say, when he went out, and came home again the sooner for the certainty of finding it there. Then he took it out of its sacred corner and its soft wrappings. He undid them one by one, handling them, handling it, as the father, baffled and tender, might handle a maimed child. But so it was before him and his dread of who else might see it. Then he took to himself at such hours, in other words, that he should never, never know what had been Milly's letter. The attention announced in it he should, but to probably know, only that would have been, but for the depths of his spirit, the least part of it. The part of it missed forever was the turn she would have given her act. This turn had possibilities that, somehow by wondering about them, his imagination had extraordinarily filled out and refined. It had made of them a revelation the loss of which was like the sight of a priceless pearl, cast before his eyes, his pledge given not to save it, into the fathomless sea, or rather even it was like the sacrifice of something sentient and throbbing, something that, for the spiritual ear, might have been audible as a faint far wail. This was the sound he cherished when alone in the stillness of his rooms. He sought and guarded the stillness, so that it might prevail there till the inevitable sounds of life, once more, comparatively coarse and harsh, should smother and deaden it, doubtless by the same process with which they would officially heal the ache in his soul that was somehow won with it. It moreover deepened the sacred hush that he couldn't complain. He had given poor Cade her freedom. The Greek, an obvious thing, as soon as she stood there on the occasion we have already named, was that she was now in high possession of it. This would have marked immediately the difference had there been nothing else to do it between their actual terms and their other terms, the character of their last encounter in Venice. That had been his idea, whereas her present step was her own. The few marks they had in common were from the first moment to his conscious vision almost pathetically plain. She was as grave now as before. She looked around her to hide it as before. She pretended as before in an air in which her words at the moment itself fell flat to an interest in the place and a curiosity about his things. There was a recall in the way in which after she had failed a little to push up her veil symmetrically and he had said she had better take it off altogether, she had exceeded to his suggestion before the glass. It was just these things that were vain and what was real was that his fancy figured her after the first few minutes as literally now providing the element of reassurance which had previously been his care. It was she supremely who had the presence of mind. She made indeed for that matter very prompt use of it. You see, I've not hesitated this time to break her seal. She had laid on the table from the moment of her coming in the long envelope substantially filled which he had sent her when closed in another of still-ampler make. He had, however, not looked at it, his belief being that he wished never again to do so, besides which it had happened to rest with its addressed side up. So he saw nothing and it was only into her eyes that her remark made him look, declining any approach to the object indicated. It's not my seal, my dear, and my intention, which my note tried to express was also treated to you as not mine. Do you mean that it's to that extent mine then? Well, let us call it, if we like, theirs, that of the good people in New York, the authors of our communication. If the seal is broken, well and good, but we might, you know, he presently added, have sent it back to them intact and unviolet, only accompanied, he smiled with his heart in his mouth by an absolutely kind letter. He took it with the mere brave blink with which a patient of courage signifies to the exploring medical hand that the tender place is touched. He saw in the spot that she was prepared and with this signal sign that she was too intelligent not to be, come to flicker possibilities. She was merely to put it at that, intelligent enough for anything. Is it what you're proposing we should do? Ah, it's too late to do it. Well, ideally, now with that sign that we know. But you don't know, she said very gently. I refer, he went on without noticing it, to what would have been the handsome way. It's being dispatched again with no cognizance taken, but one's assurance of the highest consideration and the proof of this in the state of the envelope. That would have been really satisfying. She thought at instant, the state of the envelope proving refusal, you mean? Not to be based on the insufficiency of the sum. Denture smiled again as for the play, however whimsical of her humor. Well, yes, something of that sort. So that if cognizance had been taken, so far as I'm concerned, it spoils the beauty. It makes the difference that I'm disappointed in the hope which I confess I entertained, that you'd bring the thing back to me as you had received it. You didn't express that hope in your letter. I didn't want to. I wanted to leave to yourself. I wanted, oh yes, if that's what you wish to ask me, to see what you'd do. You wanted to measure the possibilities of my departure from delicacy. He continued steady now, a kind of ease from the presence, as in the air, of something he couldn't yet have named, had come to him. Well, I wanted and so good a case to test you. She was struck. It showed in her face by her's expression. It is a good case. I doubt whether a better, she said with her eyes and him has ever been known. The better the case, then the better the test. How do you know, she asked and replied to this, what I'm capable of? I don't my dear, only with the seal unbroken I should have known sooner. I see, she took it in. But I myself shouldn't have known at all and you wouldn't have known either what I do know. Let me tell you at once, he returned, that if you've been moved to correct my ignorance I very particularly request you not to. She just hesitated. Are you afraid of the effect of the corrections? Can you only do it by doing it blindly? He went at a moment. What is it that you speak of my doing? Why the only thing in the world that I take you as thinking of, not accepting what she has done. Isn't there some regular name in such cases? Not taking up the bequest? There's something you forget in it. He said after a moment, my asking you to join with me in doing so. Her wonder about made her softer, yet at the same time didn't make her less firm. How can I join in a matter with which I have nothing to do? How, by a single word. And what word? Your consent to my giving up. My consent has no meaning when I can't prevent you. You can perfectly prevent me. Understand that well, he said. She seemed to face a threat in it. You mean you won't give up if I don't consent? Yes, I do nothing. That, as I understand, is accepting. Denture paused. I do nothing formal. You won't, I suppose you mean, touch the money. I won't touch the money. It had a sound, though he had been coming to it, that made for gravity. Who then, in such an event, will? Anyone who wants, or who can? Again, a little, she said nothing. She might say too much. But by the time she spoke, he had covered ground. How can I touch it, but through you? You can't, any more, he added, than I can renounce it, except through you. Oh, ever so much less, there is nothing she explained in my power. I'm in your power, Merton Denture said. In what way? In the way I show, and the way I've always shown. When have I shown, he asked, as will the sudden cold impatience, anything else. You surely must feel, so that you needn't wish to appear to spare me in it, how you have me. It's very good of you, my dear, she nervously left, to put me so thoroughly up to it. I put you up to nothing. I didn't even put you up to the chance that, as I said a few minutes ago, I saw for you in forwarding that thing, your liberty is, therefore, in every way complete. It had come to the point, really, that they showed each other pale faces, and that all the unspoken between them looked out of their eyes in a dim terror of their future conflict. Something even rose between them in one of their short silences, something that was like an appeal from each to the other, not to be too true. Their necessity was somehow before them, but which of them must meet at first? Thank you, Kate said for his word about her freedom, but taking for a minute no further action on it. It was blessed at least that all ironies failed them, and during another slow moment, their very sense of it cleared the air. There was an effect of this in the way he soon went on. You must intensely feel that it's the thing for which we work together. She took up their mark, however, no more than if it were commonplace. She was already again occupied with the point of her own. Is it absolutely true? For if it is, you know, it's tremendously interesting that you haven't so much as a curiosity about what she has done for you. Would you like, he asked, my formal oath on it? No, but I don't understand. It seems to me in your place, ah, he couldn't help breaking in. What do you know of my place? Pardon me, he once added, my preference is the one I express. She had in an instant nevertheless a curious thought, but won't the facts be published? Published, he winced. I mean, won't you see them in the papers? Ah, never, I shall know how to escape that. It seemed to settle the subject, but you have the next minute another insistence. Your desire is to escape everything? Everything. Do you need no more definite sense of what it is you ask me to help you to renounce? My sense is sufficient without being definite. I'm willing to believe that the amount of money is not small. Ah, there you are, she exclaimed. If she was to leave me a remembrance he quietly pursued, he would inevitably not be meager. Kate waited as for how to say it. It's worthy of her. It's what she was herself, if you remember what we once said that was. He hesitated as if there had been any many things. But he remembered one of them. Stupendous? Stupendous. A faint smile for it, even so small, had flickered in her face, but had vanished before the omen of tears. A little less uncertain had shown themselves in his own. His eyes filled, but that made her continue. She continued gently. I think that what it really is must be that you're afraid. I mean she explained that you're afraid of all the truth. If you're in love with her without it, what indeed can you be more? And you're afraid it's wonderful to be in love with her. I never was in love with her, said Denture. She took it, but after a little she met it. I believe that now for the time she lived. I believe it at least for the time you were there, but your change came as it might well the day you last saw her. She died for you then that you might understand her. From that hour you did, with which Kate slowly rose. And I do now. She did it for us. Denture rose to face her and she went on with her thought. I used to call her in my stupidity for want of anything better, a dove. Well, she stretched out her wings and it was to that they reached. They cover us. They cover us, Denture said. That's what I give you, Kate gravely wound up. That's what I've done for you. His look at her had a slow strangeness that had dried on the moment his tears. Do I understand then that I do consent? She gravely shook her head. No, for I see. You'll marry me without the money. You won't marry me with it. If I don't consent, you don't. You lose me? He showed, though naming it frankly, a sort of awe of her high grasp. Well, you lose nothing else. I make over to you every penny. Prompt was his own clearness, but she had no smile this time to spare. Precisely so that I must choose. You must choose. Strange it was for him then that she stood in his own rooms doing it while with an intensity now beyond any that had ever made his breath come slow, he waited for her to act. There's but one thing that can save you from my choice. From your choice of my surrender to you? Yes, and she gave a nod at the long envelope on the table, your surrender of that. What is it then? Your word of honor that you're not in love with her memory. Oh, her memory. Ah, she made a high gesture. Don't speak of it as if you couldn't be. I could in your place, and you're one for whom it will do. Her memory is your love, you want no other. He heard her out of stillness, watching her face, but not moving. Then he only said, I'll marry you, mine you in an hour. As we were, as we were, but she turned to the door and her head shake was now the end. We shall never be again as we were. End of book 10, chapter 6,