 I do not have good live hair but I do have good clean hair. Last minute decision to come on say hello to you kids, see how your Thanksgiving was, see how you're doing and hopefully I won't obsess over my hair and the lack there of style. Do you have water? I should have filled mine up all the way. But honest to goodness I was in the shower and I was like go check on the peeps, Nina, go see how all your friends are, see how they're how their Thanksgiving was, see if they're having trouble with their lockdown hair too. Hi Roberta, how are you? Whenever I go live you guys, it's totally last minute. Hi Anna, long time no see. I'm hoping that you guys, some of you will try, sorry for the hair, I should have put, you know, maybe if I put my glasses on there then I'll remember where they are and if I can't see what I'm reading, oh who cares, right? Let's clean them. I want to tell you one thing anybody who's here, uh-oh what am I dropping? If all of a sudden I'm just like poof gone they're threatening to turn off our electricity because it's getting windy here and you know how that goes. So if I am just like poof gone, that's why I'm okay, we'll just have to hook up the generator. Let me see, oh my gosh there's 10 of you guys here, it's good to see you two Roberta, it's always good to see you guys. Oh the hair, literally I got out of the shower, I did not use the hairdryer because I wasn't planning on seeing anybody and then I was like you know what any day, you have not applied any makeup, you have not so much as put you know lip gloss on, nothing, do something, get out of your pajamas because I have like multiples of the same sets of pajamas, when I found pajamas I like I buy a whole bunch of them and so I thought well I don't have a reason to get dressed, yes you do, if you go see the patty whack kids you do, hi Susan, thank you, hi Vicki, you know I let us see if we, oh we had 10 people now we're down to eight, somebody must not like my hair, thank you so much and you know what I'm gonna let you in on a little secret, the shirt doesn't fit me anymore, well actually it's not as bad as I thought, hi Lucinda, I'm good at home, I'm always home, I let's see I was going to start to tell you guys something and then I was going to wait for a couple people, hopefully a couple people coming in chat with us huh, I want to hear about you, I'm going to tell you about me which isn't a whole heck of a lot, I want to hear how your Thanksgiving was both if you're concerned about your weight or if you're not, because like I like to tell you guys when I come on here, do you have your water, do you have your water, if you don't believe me I'm not doing anything fast or important go grab it or whatever your preference be if it tees, just have some water, we are all decorated for Christmas, sans our tree, last year I finally talked Steve into getting rid of our tree because it was just no good, hi Tony and then we got to this year and remembered we didn't have a tree so then we looked around and of course by the time we looked around there was nothing in good Roberta, thumbs up so we ordered one online that looks promising it should be arriving tomorrow but every else everything else is done the big thing over the stairs is done all the trees are done and then when we got our tree in and it's decorated Oliver and I will give you guys a tour of our little Christmas abode if I can talk him into it, listen to you're not alone and there's like so many different ways to look at it I'm going to tell you where I'm coming from and if there's anything I can say or do to help anybody else we can all we're all here to help each other this is it this is the chit chat patty whack channel but it's for all of us about all of us not just me nope because that's no fun he wants to focus on one person I don't uh anus is about me it was a roller coaster still coming down I'm up eight pounds okay eight pounds is pretty dang good lady on new hormones and antibiotics so I feel like I'm all over the place between that and our current climate and what we're all putting up with right now you're doing great you are doing fantastic nothing to come up with but but as far as feeling all over the place I think we all are um as I every time I do live I pretty much repeat what I said in my last live because nothing changes day to day I either sleep for 24 hours straight or I don't sleep at all or I sleep four hours awake four hours it's like I think we're all kind of all over the place I certainly am and California we're pretty locked down I have myself locked down because the longer it goes on the more fearful I get but I'm not here to scare anybody else I'm just telling you what's going on with me now what are you doing as far as your weight program need to have you quit nope I've never quit but currently this is what I am doing drinking some water I believe that I am on I'm on purple right now but I haven't made any special trips to the market I'm just eating what's in the house tracking it and then when I'm at a point spot the eating points that's why I'm on purple because there's a lot of good zero point foods and I don't take advantage of them as a lot of you guys know when I'm not out of sorts but when life isn't flowing how we would like I under eat I don't overeat which is what nips me in the bud Lucinda says she's in Washington state on blue plan my son lives in Washington state you know what I apologize hold on I gotta itch my nose off camera for a minute so I'm not sitting here doing it through the whole darn thing I don't know what it is about when I come online my nose starts itching let me look in my mirror okay and I have you guys like on a wobbly tray so if you feel a little seasick that's why and it says thank you it pounds feels like a lot to me you're five two anxiety increases slowly over the uh slowly all over I think absolutely ww recipes have been helping and I love purple I'm right there with you there's so many great recipes those of which I have shared with you guys I am gonna do some cook with me is coming up but needy you keep saying that we haven't seen anything because you guys I don't like coming on and doing stuff on camera either live or recorded if I don't have a little zip in my step hi Jennifer speaking of Jennifer hold on I want to show you guys something that what are you sent me well she come on I told her I would do my next cook with me in it but she sent me this darling penguin apron isn't it cute I can't wait to put it on let me know Jennifer if you come on here okay so going back to wait you guys hi uh Roberta is back at green I have to count everything and watch my portions we all go through phases so I I go between green and purple I never ever do blue we're just gonna do what's good for us hello marina how are you I'm so glad you're all popping in if anybody who wants to hit the like thing for me that would help but at this point it kind of doesn't matter because I'm not I'm not being a regular youtuber anyways going back to what I was saying I don't like to come on here unless unless I have a smile on my face and a chipper something rather to talk about and I'm not feeling it right now during these times I rarely leave the house Oliver's here with me he's thriving on this he was made for quarantine that kid and um I don't have my normal zip but like I said when I got out of the shower I thought I need to you know what we don't just talk about wait hi Tracy it's so good to see you too uh get on and say hi to the girls and the guys if Jimmy should show up all right so back to my weight I and I told you guys all this a couple lives ago have gained just about about nine pounds shy of all my weight back and I would wake up in the morning let's go about let's see when I start I look in my tracker and I look in the mirror and I was just so horrible to myself just the things that went through my mind if I would have heard anybody speaking like that to anybody else I would have just been disgusted and as time's gone by I've had to just let it go and let it be um do I like where I am absolutely not do I like the way I look absolutely not but I have to be honest with myself and as long as this is our situation my pep isn't going to be in my stamp like normal times but that said I have maintained exactly where I am for the last four months I weigh in every Friday I finally one of you guys told me to have Steve take the scale into the garage I did he brings it up on Friday for me and I have remained at the exact same weight so that's better than climbing climbing climbing I'll get it back I know what to do I know how to do it it's not like I'm stuck here where I am but my frame of mind isn't that of being the go pro weight watcher do you know what I mean does that even make any sense so and I'm not drinking as much water as I should which is a crime in my book you know how I feel and I'm like I'm getting no walking in uh on the weekends I get a little walking in when Steve and I run errands but I've even gotten to the point of these excuse me I've even got to the point um where I don't even like to go out anywhere right now I just can't fathom the thought of catching this virus so I'm I've got myself locked in it's much nicer with all my pretty Christmas stuff and uh but it's funny because I'm not getting like my laundry and my dishes and stuff you'd think I'd have everything done and I just don't so how did everybody do on Thanksgiving oh Jennifer what were you gonna say type it back in we had a nice Thanksgiving it's just Steve and I I swear I feel like I'm PG now a little old for that pregnant we went to uh downtown Disney pregnant okay I look at I look at um it was so okay so let me go back to Thanksgiving we went to downtown Disney we went to a beautiful restaurant down there and then I noticed that I start we each had a drink we don't drink down there because it just makes us tired and then we don't want to walk around and I started getting that feeling of I want to go home because the more I stay home the more I want to be home does that even make sense how many times can I say does that even make sense in one video so far I think that's like three so we ate we relaxed we walked around little and uh did very little shopping because we didn't want to wait in line I just wanted to come home I do that a lot Steve will be like let's go out and do this you know on the down low away from all the people and then we get out I'm like I need to go home I just need to go home so transitioning back to normal times is probably gonna be a little rough for me but as far as my food my food my food's fine and it was lovely it was just he and I Oliver spent uh as I say Halloween Thanksgiving with his mommy and his daddy his mommy did the cooking and him his dad went down there and they had a nice little family get together and then they watched some movies we've been watching a lot of movies what else can I tell you let me hear from you guys there's 11 of you in here let's hear what you're doing or what you're not doing in this case have you seen a good movie have you seen a good television show have you found a way to fight the anxiety are you getting out and walking are you like me and kind of hiding in your house there's no right or wrong answers to anything right now you guys there's no right way or wrong way to feel in my book I'm not the queen of the world I don't pretend to be but I'm just saying that if anybody's been hanging around with me for any amount of time when I'm on the program and I'm on the program I'm excited about it and I just don't have that excitement right now I'm just trying to keep myself at bay Marina says you're not alone I'm up about seven pounds okay you guys who are up seven and eight pounds I'm up see this tune I'm close to up to 30 pounds you guys okay please don't fret over seven or eight pounds I've been putting the same seven on and off but challenging myself to stick to plan till Christmas there you go that's great seven or eight pounds while this is going on come on you guys don't be so tough on yourself and I'm not just saying that because I'm I'm up so much more than you guys hey it's life nobody's perfect um when I'm in the frame of my weight watchers boom I'm gonna stay down I love it I'm pretty darn good Lucinda I can't read I don't understand that I have all three seasons but yeah just do the best you can and what you're up to doing for what I mean by that is like when I do get out of bed and I look at the mirror and I'm like oh my gosh and then I have to say to myself are you up to doing this do you have the mindset to get your butt in gear and get back on perfect track because I'm not really off track I'm just I don't know how to explain it and I'm not so we have to deal with what we're ready to deal with right now Tracy says in October 29th she had foot surgery and she can't walk I'm staying at my daughter's house I know I've had a game but I'm not going to worry about it good for you Tracy good good for you because you know what what is worrying about it gonna do no I'm not saying kick back at your daughter's and have her bring you some ding dongs and host us cupcakes even though that doesn't kind of good don't worry about it we have enough to worry about right now uh Anna says eight pounds doesn't sound like a lot but I look back at my progress over the last year and I've slowly been increasing since july it freaks me out and makes me anxious and emotional okay well there you can look at that both there's both not four ways but two ways and that's one this isn't normal times if this was normal times okay for me this whole thing has a huge effect maybe it doesn't on you guys if you're anxious and emotional I think that a lot of that has to do with all of this now I see people on YouTube I see people on social media that are just going through life like nothing's going on they're just out there living living their best lives doing their things I am not I am anxious and I am emotional and I am emotional but not because of my weight I don't know I think it's a matter of what we all choose to pick as far as our battles go as far as anxiety and as far as being afraid and all all those things that we're feeling what does it what should we really attach it to because I know I'm not attaching it to my weight now do I have my days where I'm like oh my gosh did I ever blow this you're a loser yeah but then I gotta rain it in and just realize um you know I never ever ever in a million years thought I would put my weight back on when I would see people in meetings uh because that's usually you know talk to other weight watchers who had put all their weight back on I would think is Julie here okay no frowny faces because you and I we got a plan and we're gonna do the plan we just have to wait till some things change and you know that and I know that and we both know we know all don't you love talking in code when the world's watching you no sad faces because after we overcome a couple of things that we're dealing with right now we're kind of at a standstill that isn't doesn't have anything to do with us and I love you and we'll do it and we're close enough and the soonest I'm not so fearful I will be over that hill I guess we could just sit it you know but you're working during the day when I was gonna say we could just sit out by the pool you could sit at one end I could sit at the other and we can just yell at each other but don't put any sad faces because you you know better and I will give you our time because you do know better look I knew everybody was going to be so happy to see you hi mama happy holidays and Julie but you know what this is the holidays and take that into I'm we're gonna talk for reals I mean I know yeah but you know what I mean I've been thinking about you and you know it you have Gabe and I have all of her and there's stuff going on that we're not used to so you know I always you know when when everybody's always saying give yourself some grace I think it's kind of like what's the word I'm looking for it's it's used it's I agree with it but I wish we could find another way I could find another way just let up on yourself we know what to do I love you and I miss you so much that's the other thing too I don't think I'd be able to come out there have you come over here without being able to hug and stuff because I just wouldn't be able to do it oh and we're like this close you guys me and Julie are like this far apart from each other but that's how serious I'm taking this whole stupid thing Julie what are you which plan are you doing I think you said you were doing blue and you have your ears on I should put my ears on I know but I don't want you to feel bad because I know that you're feeling bad and I went through that whole that whole thing and if you know it doesn't it doesn't do us any good it doesn't help our weight it's it's a big waste of our energy and we'll get through it I promise you Steve asked about you last night by the way he asked if well I'll message you what he asked but he asked about you what about Thanksgiving you guys you were doing purple but nothing budges uh I'm it's because your head's not in the game just like my head's not in the game you and I aren't the same person as far as we are all or nothing and you cannot argue that point with me we are sisters twins hi Rosie twins when it comes to being like that and when we're all into the w w and you're working you're walking on your break you're working from home you can't walk on your break you have other responsibilities since you have to work at home everything's different right now when we will get back into that all and we're not in our nothing stage we're just not at our all stage and for you and I we have to be it's just part of how our brains and our bodies work and I'm sorry did I always rip my nose you guys when I look back sometimes I'm like good lord lady uh Rosie says also I totally understand head not being in the game a lot of us do I haven't been watching any weight watcher videos because I don't know I just there's nothing anybody can tell me uh how do I explain this there's I don't want to watch him right now how's that sound I don't want to watch him no I'll watch a couple close friends like Julie started posting now I noticed she's hung back because I think that I if I'm going to watch somebody wants to watch somebody that's kind of I can relate to and I'm not really relating to anybody right now because like I said a lot of folks are just out there just it's it's normal life and it's for me it's not a normal life and it's a turn off and that's not an offense that's not a shot at anybody it's how I feel and why I'm not watching them I'm watching Disney I'm watching Jim Gaffigan I'm watching old movies just I'm not on you know Marina says you will get back on track the holidays are a tough time take it one day at a time you can do it and eat in Julie yes Julie she's right right exactly Julie so you and I will cruise through this time this is only it's only going to be like two years tops we're both young we'll get back you like my leg lamp right but we'll do this Julie I have complete and utter faith that when it's easier for you and I to spend more time together I think that'll be helpful um my leg lamp where is it oh it's behind me isn't it is it over there let's see there it is it was actually a wedding present uh Lucinda made turkey breast green meat casserole crustal pumpkin pie perfect man yeah perfect w w thanksgiving and I said you know I'm right there through fertility stuff I forget about that there are a number of pregnant ladies in my neighborhood that go on a couple of daily walks right in front of my window that has been stinging a little thank you Marina I think I said it before you came on that everything's decorated except for our tree because we had to order a new tree and then when that tree comes in and we decorate it I'm going to give a whole tour it's just it's pretty much the same as last year but I noticed because I looked at last year's video that there's a couple things I put in different spots and we've got there's our Christmas card since we don't send them out we don't get money and I wish there was a way or something I could tell you to because I sense a lot of like if I were to try to paint a picture of it like like like being electrocuted but on a milder scale like I'm getting that sense of feeling from you and I wish there was a way I could relax you on everything because you're younger than us and going through everything you're going through at this time it's hard and I think that you're being too hard on yourself so much stress for me I've been eating my stress my youngest was supposed to start school and I would finally have time for myself but now I am doing online with her how old is she again I know and I forget and since it's been so long since I've been on here all over you know what I'm telling you I was trying to make things as normal as possible for the kids he's making it this kid's thriving during this whole thing I don't know what what's wrong with him or what but six okay oh that's a tough age see he's just at that age where and Julie you need to let me know I wanted to ask you this about Gabe does he pretty much stay to himself and stay in his room and like he'll wander out when he wants to eat and then he'll go back in and because that's all that Oliver does he stays in his room he zooms with his friends so he's not lacking I mean personal personal social gatherings of course but I hear him in there and they're all on the zoom him and the little little boys and they're talking about farts and laughing and doing what little 10 11 year old boys do I'm letting him play his video games because folks what else can he do he does write his bike he writes his skateboard he doesn't play shoot him up videos so why not uh why not let him play his dang games right Marina says my 16 year old has been on on a roll twice since staying home for school isn't it funny how some of them just really handle it well now he's schooling he's had trouble in math but but I mean he doesn't mind doing it let me go back and see I'm sorry about my nose you guys it always happens when I get on here it's like somebody's got a voodoo doll of me and they're tickling my nose um Anna says you're probably not wrong I usually am too hard on myself amen for the kiddos and mama's working and schooling from home my oldest just started middle school oh that's next year for me oh no the year after that now she is in school two days out of the week because climbing numbers yeah in January we choose if we want our kids to go back a couple days a week and I'm going to because for one thing his school is super duper small and I just I feel good about it I think he needs to be around people and and things might totally change by then we'll see Lucinda said I had a mass on my Kateritare gland in my 20s they took it out as 27 got pregnant 30 had my daughter she's 32 lives 80 miles away yeah a lot of loaming is going on around right now for everybody and it's homeschooling is number one stressor in my day uh it's so it's like pulling teeth gave us so much better when he goes physically to school okay do you sit with him when he's doing his schooling or does he sit in his room alone or does he sit in his room and makes you think he's going to school but he's not because I need to find out about him I need to get a feel for him and help you out with that even though you had your own kids you know but this is so different mama says she's so glad for zoom my oldest is so so better fly and she really needs that contact Lucinda'll be 62 in January I know Lucinda I'm sorry I know how hard it is see yeah I don't sit sit with the five and six year olds I think you're supposed to but Gabe I believe her Julie's boy is she keeps telling me I think he's 12 but he's right around all over his age but a little bit older um the interaction is important for the kids but the decision is tough I am a worry wart mothers we're all worry warts there's so many things that are written by I like to call mommy bloggers um grandmother bloggers social media YouTube that just give us more things to worry about that's what I have a problem with I think we all have enough to worry about right now we're like okay I'm going to give you a for instance that pops to mind is the other day oh them you know the the masks okay I'm a I'm a masker if you're around me you better wear a mask if you're talking to me right now in your public you better be wearing a mask if you're not don't tell me and they're seeing how the masks are horrible for the children because the children can't learn emotions without seeing it on people's faces okay this is probably very true but it's not going to be like this forever and I think that people are very selfish and forget what past Americans and people in other countries have done for their country for their fellow man that maybe wasn't so enjoyable but they did it anyways without bitching and moaning about it and that's what I have a problem with I mean I could give a whole history lesson which I shouldn't have to and I don't think I need to on what past Americans and peoples of different religions and colors have had to go through through the years and just because we have to wear a stupid mask I have a problem with that and I'm gonna say so you know sometimes I'll hold back on my thoughts but that I've uh Lucinda's part time when she part times watches seven and two year old oh that's a lot of work mama says I sit with my six year old but my 11 is more independent I just check in with her throughout to make sure she's on task same here yeah it's just thank you Marina it's you know it's how we feel and you know it here's the thing um I have to remind myself that this here is my little corner of the interwebs and if you don't agree with me nobody has to agree with me but you don't have to listen to me you don't have to agree with me but we can agree to disagree but I I'm uh if I see here in California hi Tony the compassion by wearing the mask yes they're learning to do the right thing Julie says I make him sit with me downstairs at the table because you're working at the table at your work correct some days he's so distracted and some days not so much but he's a literally like pulling teeth to get him to participate and do his work he's 12 gosh what is it that he would rather do um I wish I could help with this because it's such the opposite of Oliver and they're both only Sims I feel for you Julie I feel for you because I think I would get really mad I can only be pushed so far to the brink and then I have like a really scary scary mad side to me I mean it's horrible when my kids I've so far since I've had Oliver I haven't it hasn't been shown maybe once he pushed me too far but I'd be like listen these are the rules but I know you're not like that and it's that's that's a tough one you know I had we had one problem with Oliver um what was it oh my little sweetness my sweet sweet boy I'm sure he's not listening he was opening other windows besides his class and him and his friends are over here having a little social time they're just enjoying themselves while they're in school well thank god and the teacher he sent me the screenshots I think I told some of you guys this and I saved it and I'm gonna show it to him when he's in adult because the stuff that he was typing was actually really funny something he copied and pasted from somewhere it wasn't anything harmful hurtful no cussing nothing bad anything like that but he had more than one window open and his principal called him and they had a little chit chat over the phone and it seemed to help immensely long way of saying Julie is there is there can the principal have a little chat with him I'm sure dad has a little chat with him um it's hard it's hard for us you know it's not only hard for us it's hard for them it's not like anybody's ever done this before oh my gosh and I think what if we didn't have the technology I wouldn't have anybody to talk to I wouldn't be able to face oh I don't FaceTime anybody except my friend Cindy and Julie I don't FaceTime you because I think you're pretty much working eight to five right I don't know why I don't call you after five and because I my interaction is getting on here and talking with you yeah look at Julie I wanted to tell you remember the last time we went to Disneyland I told you I wanted your help with your discount to get this I finally got it there's a couple other things I want so I just hope that everybody isn't being too hard on themselves it's it's not gonna help is anybody else getting decorated for Christmas decorated decorating what about that Jules are you and Gabe gonna decorate you and Gabe and Todd I don't know how much Todd likes to decorate but because I'm because we were going to decorate your house the year before last and we didn't can you believe it's been two years since we've seen you it's crazy I think that's what Steve was talking about so we can only immerse ourselves in what we can immerse ourselves in safely and not lose our minds there you go Mariana you seem like you're in good spirits and that's wonderful Lucinda has her little triette that's awesome Susan says you should put up for decorations before Thanksgiving it's funny because Steve and I went shopping for something and oh for a big wreath that I know I showed you guys and they were almost out of everything and Steve's like it's not even Thanksgiving where why is everything gone I'm like it's 2020 man nobody had anything else to do so they everybody started decorating early yeah that'll look nice just enjoy your lights on Friday a friend of Oliver's mother and I are going to take her son and Oliver and we're going to go through a drive drive through light thing that they're having at one of the malls the Topanga mall if anybody's ever heard of Topanga sometimes they'll hear it on the news and we're going to do that I'm excited for that I'm nervous though because we planned it like a while ago before the numbers are just bike and when I think about it thank you so much I love that that's one of my favorite things ever because that's a lot of real estate you know so when you're sitting in the room and you know you have an everything's nice and symmetrical and and I can't wait to shoot my whole video for you guys Steve goes through so much work putting up all our I'm gonna try to do this without dropping because you guys are hooked up all our ceramic trees we got this table over here and then the other table on the other side so when you have a big piece of real estate like that there and it's just our regular painting which is behind there but I gotta tell you something that's funny okay so this bow the first time we wrapped that is I don't know I think it was about four years ago Steve forgot that our real painting is underneath there and he went to poke a hole through it to tie the bow in the back I forgot that it was it can't be poking a hole in our artwork but yeah that's one of my favorite things thank you so much we just decorate the living room the dining room in the kitchen and in the back that the back we have all our regular stuff shoved in there you know you have that one room we throw everything in well that was Oliver's room before he moved in so but it's nice I like it I wish it was cold that would make it better that would make it a lot better so I don't know is there anything any of you guys need to talk about or want to talk about that is Weight Watchers or isn't Weight Watchers if anybody has any ideas for Julieta type of men here that's gotta be hard Juliet I don't know short of you know what I finally had to do with Oliver and it's hard I get it it's hard especially when it's not your child it's it's completely different and you know you start taking things away from him and I don't know Gabe so I don't know if he is a fit thrower or what but it's hard when they have one thing and you take it away Lucinda says when we fix our house I had my husband small door over the coat closet yeah we have actually I live in a town home and our home sits on top of all the garages so down below on our right we have a closet down there but I tend to keep a lot of stuff that's a good question Marina I think Julie is it virtual classes in real time or are they just giving him work to do that's a good question I always just assumed it was virtual classes in real time I didn't realize I did it any other way I need to get my eyebrows done sorry I'm trying to hear what that noise is somebody's radio I guess she might be working Julie might be I will she probably is working and chatting with us on the side because she works from home I just need to drive over there and surprise her someday there's 13 of us in here and only a couple of you are talking we got lurkers sitting in the background spying on us to see what we're talking about no that would never happen any that people don't do that I mean this is my son first had just worked now he has an actual teacher teaching the class oh Oliver's always had a teacher since day one and they sit they do the pledge of allegiance they do the whole nine it's really kind of cute one problem going back to white watchers I know I'm bouncing around what are you making Rosie because that's one thing I was going to say today I've been really hungry but nothing it sounds good oh he pushed me past my limit once too learned pretty fast that's not going to work it's virtual classes in real time policy has his assignments to do on his own so same as Oliver right right have you talk if I'm getting too personal Julie we can talk about it offline but uh when my little social butterfly wanted to be social instead of learning talking to the teacher talking to the principal helped I don't know maybe so you might want to think about but my principal is awesome last year uh Oliver wasn't getting to school on time because he wouldn't get out of bed she was going to come over here and wake him up in the morning she was going to come to the house but turns out we didn't we didn't need to do it I'm sorry honey you shouldn't have to deal with that that's that's bunch of caca la toro and it's stressful man it's so stressful oh there you go Tony I wish I were that smart I haven't done anything around here oh I'm sorry Julia I know honey you know I might just have to put on a hazmat suit and a mask and just come over and do this in person it's not you you know that it's Steve you know Steve I mean it's everybody Steve gets home from work and he's got to do everything before he gets near me or anything I'm paranoid I'm too paranoid stir-fried rice with some lemon pepper fish in the air for that sounds great in fact we have some tortilla crested tilapia maybe I'll make that tonight I meant maybe I'll make Steve make that tonight that's all the cooking Lucinda's got snow that's nice it's hot here what's let's see what the weather is I need to buy you a bubble from I know it's just with my psoriatic arthritis if I got this crap oh my god I'd be so screwed what's the weather in seamy valley it's currently clear and 75 degrees feels warmer there's gotta I gotta just bite the bullet and do it but Steve and just thinking about leaving my house again anxious today I even had Oliver walk the dog that's how bad I'm kidding maybe offering reward if he loves to save video games he can earn more game time something that he loves maybe he can stay up half hour later I think staying up is part of the problem Marina um it's 34 where Lucinda is I've been staring at it since March it's about time yeah mine's really bad too don't be sorry Marina you don't know what's what the facts are don't ever be sorry we're asking for ideas and you're giving them to us so do you know that Oliver sets his alarm clock okay because he loves his video games he sets his alarm clock for five o'clock in the morning and uh that way he can play his video games he says get it out of him system then in about seven he goes in and he scrambles himself some eggs throw some pre-made bacon in the microwave eats goes back in goes to school and then does whatever it is he's gonna do he's just weird I think but we need to figure something out for you Julie this has got to be I think I get stressed for you it's exactly what he's like Marina I was trying to think of the word he's like a bachelor I could leave and I I could just be gone for the day live in life and he wouldn't even notice if I was here or not he's like a flippin bachelor that's the perfect description because he walks around in his boxers all day too oh my gosh yeah you would know it's nice to have to be so self-sufficient though I have to say it's very helpful well Jessica didn't come on today I'll just have to do a cook with me to wear my new apron I think it's something fun or something good I don't know if I want to make something sweet or something savory maybe I'll go over to my Instagram and put a poll up there sweet or savory and I know I've just been on here rambling about nothing you guys again I gotta sign off my connection all right honey I'll talk to you later love you I like doing them when Steve does it with me maybe we'll do one for this weekend I guess I could do both but then I gotta go to the store and buy the ingredients I do have a crock pot recipe that I'm gonna make that I'm gonna share with you guys but I just need to get oh I did it and I forgot to oh you guys you know what holds me back and I keep saying this and you guys are over me saying it but I hate shooting on my phone I can't stand it I think Steve's getting me a camera for my birthday or for Christmas though he gave me a choice between this treadmill thing we saw in QVC and camera and I'm like oh no we don't have grocery delivery here they seem to have it everywhere else but they don't have it here they in some places they have grocery pickup but I've never done it Steve does all the shopping Steve does everything he does he does everything what time is it oh my gosh it's only quarter after two maybe I'll go for a walk that would be too darn hard to do zoom meeting cooking trying to think of how I would even do I haven't done anything zoom other than gone to weight-watching meetings and you know what I just don't love it I don't know why um I don't know I guess it would be a way where everybody could be heard right like right now the only person you guys can hear is me even though you could read he's a great egg marina he's a great egg he's an amazing guy there is more of a connection with in person you mean meetings I haven't even gone to my meetings I haven't talked to my leader I haven't done anything I'm doing my thing everything's tracked but that's it I guess nobody has anything to talk about so I'm not going to bore you or make you listen to me ramble about a whole lot of nothing anymore um just you guys just be good to yourself you know just please be good to yourself sometimes I forget that we're in the situation and then I'll make these grand plans and then I'll be like what am I doing I can't do that especially in California you guys it's really hard in California I mean I know it's hard everywhere Duncan wrong but our hi Diana I did have a nice Thanksgiving thank you how about you how was your Thanksgiving or it was nice and quiet and good and done and home and haven't been out since oh my gosh it's so nice to see you I was just about to sign off but I was I'm glad that you hopped in and I was able to say hello before I did so yeah anybody who's up and you've been down before like me we know what we have to do I'm just choosing that to do right now it's as simple as that that's how simple it is and those of you guys who are up and down the three to five pounds that you're going up you're going down you're going up and you're down I think that's to be completely expected during this time and then when it all lifts and we're all able to run around like crazy people and be able to breathe again right see loved ones and hug I'm missing hugs big time I miss hugging people I'm a hugger I hug everybody and it's hard it's really hard so all right I just wanted to pop in say hello check in let you know I was still alive wanted to know you guys were all still you know doing okay come over to Instagram if you're not over there I sit over there and just talk to myself every day and I hope everybody's well and next time I take a shower and decide to put some makeup on thank you Marina thank you for always being such a positive force I love it smiley faces and everything and we're gonna get help for Julie and we'll all do this together okay okay everybody don't tell anybody about my hair because it's not like it's gonna live on an infamy on the internet right all right guys thank you Rosie let me see I would love to be in maintenance mode currently in weight game mode but planned we will do it we will all do it Anna you specifically Marina I'm not worried about you Rosie I'm not worried about you Anna I want you to just okay and if you're not on if you're on Instagram and you're not over on my page or channel or whatever the hell it's called come over and if you feel like you're getting anxious or whatever let me try to help because when I'm anxious it helps me to talk to somebody else and we can together okay everybody and anybody who watches this later if you're having anxiety issues or whatever you're about weight or the weight of the world let's talk love you guys