 Thank you. Yeah, yeah, welcome. You can speak Dutch, okay. I know Swap. Swap is a hell of a thing. Why an international group? Did I forget anybody? So the main language of this retreat for the English, not that behind. Okay, just a bit, I'm going to tell you a bit about the logistics, about displays, and how the retreat is working. So, you can leave a piece about that. And if you have any questions, if you still have any questions about the retreat, you can come to English, or to me, like the organisers, if you have questions about the place, you know about your room, maybe your light isn't working, you can also go directly to people here from Dobertsdalen, and I'm sure, and they will help you. And if there's nobody there, there's a number, there's like an emergency number, it says that for emergency, you can call the manager. So, thinking about that, practical, if you take a shower in your room, please, mainly build a V, also build a 2. It's best to close the door, bathroom, because the smoke alert is pretty sensitive, and it reacts to the steam from the shower. So, you can leave the cabin sometimes, you can leave the room open, and the smoke alert, if it's in the middle of the night, everybody has to be evacuated. I've noticed that even in building 3, I've thought only building 2, that in front of the doors, there are glass doors, and there's no curtains. So, maybe that you think, well, everybody can see me in my room, David was already talking about flashing, and... So, I said in my nails that maybe bring something in cloth to hang it in front of it, and if you don't have it, and you would like it, so, so, so, if you want to make it dark, you know, I got some stuff, I brought some stuff for you, so, my arms are getting too short. Right, something important about the duties, to remember us and the meal as well, everybody has one day of duty, in fiction, that it means putting the tables and cleaning up again, and doing the dishes, it's always 15 minutes before the meal, and half an hour after to do the dishes, and everybody one day, so, if it's good, then everybody knows, which day you have your duty, anybody here who doesn't know? There's a list in the dining room. Okay, if you forgot in the dining room, there's a list with names, so you know which day is your day. There's one change, I thought we had to put the tables for breakfast as well, but that's not necessary, because the breakfast is a good faith, so the tables are not set for that, so you can, you don't have to be out extra early. So breakfast is from half past eight to half past nine, and only after that we have to do dishes. Then, the program I sent you, it was like a guiding line, but we changed it, changed it a little bit, so for today, we have arrived at 11, then this session will be a short introduction session until 12.15, quarter past 12, and after lunch we'll continue until four, so me, because it's so short, we thought it would be better to kick in, so lunch will be 12.30 till half past one, and then at two o'clock we start again here until four, and then at four we have coffee and tea in our dining area, and I will give you your keys to your rooms, the people who don't, most of you don't have to be yet, and then you'll have till dinner, it will be at six, they have from four to six to get a Saturday in the room and check out the area and everything, and then after dinner we start at half past seven, till I made half past ten, so I free out tonight as well, see. Yeah, and then the coming days we'll have lunch half an hour earlier now, half an hour later, then it's in your program, and dinner half an hour earlier, it's in your program so we put more, but I will make the view, let's see it here, I will write what the program is, so you take some. You can look it up. I'll take a toilet, and I'll put it on the smart phone if they can take it. Yeah, these days I'm probably one of the last people who don't have a smart phone but you can just take a picture of the program and the quality of the smart phone. These are really high tech people. Techies. They're all techies. So if the same questions are in your Yeah, so the rest of the week, the emphasis will be a bit more on the morning session so like a good strong morning session and a good strong evening session and then in between we will offer some sessions, maybe one and one, maybe meditation, maybe singing can be, but it's also the afternoon is more for integration that you have time, quiet time in the afternoon to integrate the sessions. If you want plenty of time to go here into nature and go to the beach you can rent bikes here and have a bill for sign as well. If you go to reception you can wear the bike. If you bring your coffee and tea to this room, it's okay please take it back again and put it on the car at the same time. Straight, straight. Yeah. Troy, that's the word. Then after there's a bar the area where you get it just now, there's a bar. So if you want, for example in the evening, we can we don't have much time. If there will be any time in the afternoon for example when you sit down and you want something to drink you can just take it yourself and there's a list, just put your name and put what you took and at the end of the week you can, when you the keys of your room you can just pay for that consuming thing. People are getting pretty quiet. It's working well your logistics are your voice is really loud. I'll just check my list. I guess one thing is I thought that we prepared a book with books it's in the room here, in the next room and there are books from David you want to tell us? Well maybe just to share it looks good if everyone comes on time for the sessions but there are books from David in English so books that weren't available before in the year in the Netherlands haven't been translated yet but also newest books you can just around the corner here you can have a look buying them on a donation basis so there's a list with the prices but there's a box so if you take a book that money you can if you don't have any money you can put less you can put more so that's on donation basis there are also CDs from Helena who is going to sing for us as well so you can first listen if you like it and if you really like it then you can buy a CD as well my mom is probably also going to sing for us this week she's also managing the sound system so if you have any questions about that you might even bring around the interruption microphone if you have questions you can wait or you got a microphone so if I can hear you what do you have a slide for me are there any questions now that's enough sorry thank you Chris welcome everyone we have a beautiful sunny day here in the woods in the forest to start our five day retreat and you might think of this retreat as as the spirit trying to tailor a retreat for you so that's why we want to hear your ideas suggestions if there's topics or themes that you would like to explore in your life to go much deeper we can use that to key off of we want to keep this very practical so we're not here to just talk about a bunch of theoretical ideas this is to be very very practical so you can think of this retreat as tailored for you there's some things as the retreats going on over five days that you feel you would find very helpful it to be anything from a group walk out in nature or a group meditation one on ones talking to us about issues maybe issues that you don't feel comfortable bringing up in a larger group but you feel like you'd like to talk in a smaller kind of intimate setting please let us know about that and so we'll all be very active with this retreat and then Mary will be singing she's brought some songs and she'll be gracing us with her songs throughout the five days and also Luz maybe Luz you can stand up going to be assisting us she has lived in our communities she's been on a trek around the world she's been over in the United States she's been all the way down to Australia she's just come from Mexico and so she's been practicing living a very devoted life in some of our communities around the world and so if there's ideas and we're engaged in doing something else you can come to Luz and just say hey here's something I'd like to reach somebody with or I'd like to suggest or whatever she could be available as well she'll be working very closely with us and letting us know anything that is important so she's going to be very important for this too so what I find the most important thing about spirituality is the practice of it I always say that spirituality is 1% principle and 99% practice so if there's anything that we can do to help you with your spiritual practice over the next five days to help deepen you in your practice or maybe even just inspire you to practice because there's a lot of things in this world that draw your attention there can be a lot of distractions sometimes I call this world distraction bill so we're trying to be still and stay in purpose and presence to stay in line with God and yet there are so many distractions so if we can do anything this week that will help you in your daily practice in your moment to moment practice I think that will be a great benefit to you for your entire life because if you get into good habits with spiritual practice if you feel inspired if you feel drawn if you feel deepening in your devotion then it's going to come so much easier and in the end I think you'll find that it's actually quite easy to live a devoted life it's hard to live a distracted life even though many of us have to find that out the hard way we get off into all kinds of things and then we go whoa where did I get off here how did I get off here I want to just come back to simplicity so hopefully this week will help bring you into clarity and simplicity hopefully this week will also help to demystify spirituality in the sense that there is a certain sense of mysteriousness around it but I feel like once you start to come deeper into that peace that everything gets very simple and the complexity starts to fall away and therefore it's less mystifying and more ah ha oh oh ah ah you know recognition after recognition that is a beautiful way to live your life just taking one moment at a time and recognizing and recognizing that's been a prayer in my heart for many years is to spirit make it obvious make it obvious for me show me the way reveal the way so we'll do a brief introduction of all of ourselves here just so you're familiar with with us and and I think you'll get to know us much more as we go along as you interact with us and share and question my pathway has been with A Course in Miracles since 1986 and it's taken me into a very devotional life of living moment by moment and living in trust it's taken me all over the world to over 40 countries it's also taken me out of what most people would call a typical human life because human beings don't travel as much as I travel kind of been used by the spirit to speak through the character of David and go to many countries and meet with many many people so it's a bit unusual that way and most people have jobs and careers I was told by Jesus internally when I was in my 20s that I would not have a career in this lifetime so I said oh to be told that in your 20s it's like that's going to be interesting I had to talk to Jesus and say well money doesn't grow on trees and he said yes I know you believe that so it's been very interesting to see how I've been provided for since my late 20s late 50s it's been about 30 years of just trusting and having things come to me in very unconventional ways but they always come whatever seems to be needed to serve the plant is always provided and that's been very important to me and I would have to say with everyone here we'll all be able to share from our experiments with opening to divine providence letting the presence of love provide and lead the way instead of working jobs for earthly bosses we've had the spirit and Jesus is like our inner boss guiding us directing us and I have to say the perks are amazing you're like always on vacation and it's quite joyful and happy you have all kinds of wonderful benefits that you get that don't really come in the corporate world and also where we can discuss a lot of current issues every time I come to Europe there seems to be current issues going on I think this time when I come to Europe there's been a lot of talk of refugees sometimes it's the Euro Cup sometimes scientists are discovering a new particle the Hicks Boson particle one time I came over oh we've discovered Hicks Boson we're going to call it the God particle very good and I always have a lot to say about whatever is going on one time I came and they said we're going to be selecting a new pope from Argentina oh very good the white smoke is coming out here it's quite interesting to come to Europe because there's always something fascinating going on over here I know every time I come it's never boring there's something interesting welcome come on in we should have chairs for both of you I hope yep there are few chairs they counters in here very precise nothing's left by here just like yes you're both from England not but I'm from France from France you're from me? yeah we're just talking about all the international guests we recognize you even underneath the beard and the hat you're in disguise undercover you just slip in nobody will notice you you just slip right in no here in Holland everyone's very attentive we could feel it there's a slight vibration change here so we're going to have a very good week I think and we'll have lots of different aspects to the retreat and I think for me I also want you to feel that that you can really relax into this week a lot of times you come to a retreat and if it's got a lot of people there's a certain bit of like whoa it's like your goldfish has been dropped into the pond and you're not used to swimming with so many fish in the pond and it's like a little bit of like overload overload but I want you to all just relax into the week that would be very helpful as we move along you just can ease in and relax and also feel like again this is tailored to you so if there's something that you really feel you want to address or that would be helpful please speak it up to us don't think as well it's just a large group and I have to just go along with the crowd and I'll just put up with it I'm just one person we're all the same mind and this mind is very powerful and we have a lot of nuances that come up but it's very important to be attentive to those nuances so that everybody is benefitting we want it to feel like everyone is benefitting as we move through the week and also yeah I'd like to just say I'm so grateful to be up here with my friends here because this has been a lifelong devotion we've been diving into this for many many years and so there are many insights that come but also it becomes just like a presence that's guiding us and carrying us and for us that's very dear this presence in our lives and we want to extend that and we know that it's in everyone's life and it's just a matter of being in touch with it so please feel free to ask us questions we're very transparent as well we know that our transparency has been very helpful in our healing of letting everything up and out knowing we can put everything on the table and we have let's buy these guidelines for years of no people pleasing no people pleasing means we just say what's on our mind and often times that will lead to a much greater healing because we're not into denying and suppressing things we want things to be up and out in the open so we want you to feel free to ask any question be our we won't be embarrassed or we won't say stop don't say that which can be typical in this world like talk about certain things and don't talk about other things we trust that the spirit is here with us and the spirit can carry us all to a greater illumination whatever the topic is and so there are no off-limits topics there are no taboo topics and we feel like that's important in spirituality we shouldn't have to push away from certain things and try to avoid things we should trust the spirit to purify our hearts and purify whatever needs to be purified we don't have to avoid anything so maybe we'll just you want to go down the line maybe Jenny you can start off and share about yourself and your journey okay, I'm Jenny I feel just really grateful to be here it's very warm and soft and open I felt that even before I came I was going to be that way and I feel really good, I'm with all of you and which was really great so yeah I've been on this course in the deepest path for 10 years or 11 years actually and very soon after I started to study the course I met David so because I had a very strong desire for God for awakening and I had no idea what he was going to look like but he was satisfied and he was the witness of David very very quickly on my own spiritual journey and following him or kind of gave myself over to spirits and right away as I had met David and it's been an extremely powerful extremely fast transformational journey everything behind that was not serving or not helpful for their vision early on about 8 years ago and yeah since then I have been just following the spirits through inner guidance through my life companions through David and it's been a huge underneath a lot of intensity for me and a lot of light a lot of deep joining a lot of amazing a lot of just surprises not knowing what's happening but always this really really beautiful adventure and it still is like David said it's like being on vacation and it is like being so open the spirit is so available to whatever wants me for and I love that so and that indication for everyone to be so open with your thoughts and your questions and the blocks that you want to heal I just also want to emphasize how that is and it actually helps everyone and it is one mind so please don't be afraid or don't go back with anything we all feel the joy when something pops and we will join the healing and there are no credit cards which is the most beautiful thing here so I just want to thank you for coming to this great adventure and I feel I will be available for one on once mostly in the afternoon so let me know and I will just know and just have the time to meet and talk through anything and that's what's been even to me so much and I just want to pass that on it's just a helpful way even if you don't know what to talk about if you have some blocks you can take a look at those blocks together it's much easier thank you Hi I'm Frances and yes really I'm really grateful to come back to the Netherlands last year Chris organized a weekend retreat with about the same size and probably has seen some of you from that retreat but just really want to extend my gratitude for you to come all the way to be here with us because actually my real devoted I would say devotion on this path started with a retreat with David back in Australia before that I was I came across the course and I was reading it and having study groups for years before that but when I came to the retreat for the first time and really gave myself over to it my mind over to it stepped out of my life completely for six days that was the length that I went to something really powerful happened it was an experience that I invited to my awareness and that really changed everything so I just want to say that time is irrelevant but if we allow ourselves to be really really open and invite this experience you know there's can be a huge transformation happening just in an instant so this is such a precious opportunity to you know to just come together because since I left that retreat and decided to really give myself over for the rest of my life to devotion to where spirit would guide me and live a life of total transparency and divine providence I notice what really matters is that the purpose underneath everything we do because the form starts to become less and less relevant in the mind and the purpose started to become more and more important in awareness and I have to say when we live together over the last few years and travel together this becomes the only reason that we can keep going and the mind keeps extending is because this unified purpose we don't have split purpose and we want forgiveness and we want something else at the same time it's like let's go for forgiveness so fully and go for the spirit fully and I feel this is what we have here for five days all of us come together step out of whatever distraction now we're going to have a unified purpose it's going to be so powerful and this is going to be a huge invitation and over the years I think my prayer to the spirit probably something that I use the most with the spirit has been any support if this is the direction you want me to go any support and with specific things too especially when I thought really this is radical and I recognize that maybe but I don't know I'm ready any support and every time I want to be willing to go there and request or ask for support there's no support that comes my way in my awareness just blows my mind and I know that all of you must have this prayer somewhere in your mind whether you said it the same way or not you must have said I need support and here we are here we are and all of us from different countries from all over the world because we are here to to be open to the spirit support coming in through our brothers through words through music through very deep profound movies through our questions through our one-on-one times and walks so I just want to congratulate you and the spirit has heard the call and it's so precious and we're at your full service that's what we're here for we're at your service please use us so thank you so much I feel like too I was here in Holland just recently on a very spontaneous tour where I had actually a movie retreat once a day because they turned out to be retreats every day was so full with so much healing and so much beautiful things coming up and people that just came for a date they just poured out their heart into this experience so really joining in on what's on my heart and then they poured through and let the movies speak show exactly the same scenarios in your life and let yourself have a re-translation by the help of the parables with the modern day parables like they do for the movies so this is so powerful doing that both in the movies and in the music and in the conversations just really joining with the spirit and asking for the help of the specific things that you're going through in your life now this started for me I just had to calculate and she said what year those started studying the course because I wasn't quite sure I think it was 2002 it was some years before I had dated the first time in Sweden in 2005 and when I started studying the course I knew that this could be an experience of what Jesus was talking about in the course I knew that this is something that you can live however it was very high metaphysics and I couldn't even pick up the course even read it one year after I'd been in my course group and just had poured out everything in my heart every time we met I was like what just whatever I would have on my mind I would be like what this is what's going on this week and I would just be so highly practical because I couldn't do it in any other way it just had to be exactly what I was going through that the spirit could help me and carry me further and further into myself of who I really am and so it completely resonated with me when I heard about this man that had been traveling with no money no possessions just nothing in his car for five years and he didn't even have a tent it's a small car too it wasn't a van I could beat up three cylinders so I thought it was so amazing just meeting with David there in 2005 because I had felt in my heart this is possible and when we met it was like I was I mean first of all I couldn't sleep any nights they were just like I was being just so high on love and joy and after that I was like enjoying for like three months afterwards and I was just like so in love with everyone and everything even my boyfriend at that time he was like it was like not even the boyfriend we're recording this I called the boyfriend he had actually proposed to me before but I was just like not feeling it I turned into falling in love with everyone I was like yes but what happened was that after those three months he couldn't join with me in that joy I noticed how I was actually thinking myself into another space in my mind just because I couldn't join with him in it and I fell down into the regular kind of in love and I saw that that was the choice so then the biggest of that David kept coming back to Sweden he came over and over again and we would join every time and I would just go deeper and deeper into this experience again what the course is talking about and just kind of filling out what this is actually all about so you have been reading the course or somehow got in contact with it in a very beautiful way that somehow it's spoken to you and it's felt and that's what we're here it's so highly impactful like David was saying it's like whatever that you have there you're worthy of having it healed that's the whole point, you're worthy and just coming to see that you're worthy to shine those who we are not keeping that light in and so I'm so looking forward to you know join with you in this whatever the darkness let it rip you know don't hold back it has to come out it's through the darkness to the light otherwise we cannot be in that high so it's like letting it all hang out letting it look as it does and then that's how you can shine who you are so I'm so happy to be here and the funny thing is actually I would be presented as a messenger of peace which is interesting because I have been traveling with David from 2005 we started traveling the world and then we were together 247 kind of a mind training situation for me really intense and lots of healing coming up and just pour pour pour through and then another four years of living with living miracles and the community with friends all over the world and just joining on a daily basis in this kind of mind training and just letting go together and then actually what happened just some year ago I think it was 2005 I left living miracles as a full time 2015 everything happened for 2000 everything happened this year I just dropped out of space kind of sometimes it's 10 years to just fall off like that so it's very important for that so the thing is I actually felt that it's time for me to leave but not the ministry I'm still in our day minister all of this so it's just that the form was changing that I moved to Sweden and I had continued with the open heart that was coming through when I was joining with David and a bunch of musicians all over the world just a very spontaneous race of letting the spirit just give music if it would be given I wouldn't even know I would just meet with people and all of a sudden you would have a song coming through and all of a sudden you have to have some kind of a name on this I was praying on it I was filling the open heart and the open heart is the love of God it's that which we are when we open up to this open heart and let that come through that's this beauty we just open up the channel and then it just pours through and we can't help ourselves just like glide into it and so what would happen in this open heart expression even before we would even know the word of it would be that we would just come together having a jam session and all of a sudden we would have a song like this in one take we would have all the lyrics we would have all the music and just everything given so we would start recording when I would join with musicians like this because it was no effort when we see like these were just gifts for ourselves but you know we could actually also share it and so we have been recording lots of those songs and like Chris was saying you have most of them here otherwise they're online as well but you will find them on the table here in the room just like the materials and now you will hear all of it live of all of the materials there but the best part is that you can ask your questions it would be so practical about this so I'm inviting you just like everyone else into this experience but thank you for coming and answering the call it's just amazingly beautiful so we've got some time here to kind of get going I think Chris was saying this what he remembered about the last time we were here we had a group about this size we were just here for a weekend but we just jumped right in just diving right in and to me that's what is so practical about this you know we've become accustomed to the human condition we've become accustomed you might say to living a little life as one among the 7 billion and our destiny is to transcend the identity that the ego made up for us which is a very body based personality based identity that's very individual and autonomous and to go into the greater joining to go into a greater plan of awakening from this dream of sleep and coming to the vastness that we are as we were created by God and to do it in a practical way with many steps you can't just wish your way back into nirvana or wish your way you have to give yourself over to the spirit to rinse your mind cleanse your mind cleanse your consciousness of all the false beliefs of all the limiting beliefs that the ego has given has a replacement so this is very very practical and a lot of times we will share lots of examples because it helps to have examples of hearing what is possible it helps to have metaphors I think all of us we've listened to a lot of music we've had a lot of prayer and meditation devotion for us being called Chris really wanted to come to this place out in nature we all feel very very natural out here in nature because we have spent a lot of our lives in nature we're kind of like nature mystics in some way even though I've gone to a lot of cities and spoke into a lot of people I'm quite comfortable but we've had experiences with a lot with animals both animals that are out in nature we have been a monastery in Utah where the chipmunks and the rabbits will come up to us when you start to get into a very peaceful relaxed, joyful state of mind and the animals come right to you they'll come out jump on your jeans you want to get close to you very much like St. Francis over here with the CC we're experiencing a lot of the same things I was walking one time with a friend of mine down a road in Kentucky and it was very hot and the road had a lot of gravel and rocks on it so all the butterflies came out they were all along the road along the hot rocks and Sunday so I was walking with my friend Dorothy and she burst into laughter one time and she was laughing so I said okay what's so funny she said well there's you have a butterfly on you I said where? and she said it's on your butt it's riding on your butt as you walk down this road it's like I just kept inviting I said have a front road you can ride on the tip of my finger if you want to so for a few minutes and then she burst into laughter when it flew around and did land on the tip of my finger and ride there so another benefit of this high level of trust of this high level of transparency open communication and all the good stuff that we know is helpful if you do it enough and you devote your life to it then you start to become more telepathic some of you might remember I believe it was after Paul McCartney he left the Beatles and he was part of Wings and he had that song My Love don't ever ask me why I never say goodbye it's my love it's understood it's in the hands of my love and my love does it good isn't that beautiful it's like a communion experience don't ever ask me why I never say goodbye wow that's a communion experience that's really what love is about when you feel that communion where it's in your heart and it's just flowing so strong and then there's really no goodbyes and no hellos it's just ever with you it's you just experiencing your divinity with everything and everyone around you and that's really what spirituality is about it's about opening up using good spirit inspired communication to take you to an experience of communion in which you don't need the words anymore some of you might remember the singer Gloria Esteban but the words get in the way there's so much I want to say I try to say I love you but the words get in the way we want to come into a communion experience where we let the spirit use the words so beautifully, so thoroughly, so fully in purpose, in presence that there's just this peaceful understanding and then words are simply used to bless everything that comes out of your mouth then it just becomes a blessing for the whole universe that's really all speaking is really for is to offer a blessing I remember when I was much younger my parents had said to me one time there's nothing good to say don't say anything at all and this is kind of a version of that so they didn't really prepare me for all the healing that would be necessary to go through to come to that sense of blessing and goodness but actually that's what this is aiming for and now it's gotten to the point where it's just the words come very naturally they just roll out as part of healing and blessing I did have a funny experience I just came here from England and I was just south of London I think it was in Sussex and and afterwards some people came up and during things I said oh, can you sign my book sign my book, well this woman came up to me and she's gave me a book and she gave me a pen and she said can you sign my book I said sure and she said write something rude the first time on the planet in all these years I mean earlier I didn't have what to somebody said sign my consent or something that dates me phone booths this was like can you write something rude and I just had to be but everything's involuntary now so I hit my pen I looked and I saw her name put the name down but I couldn't write anything rude in her one of these beautiful books that the spirit gives me and so she just looked at me and obviously it wasn't anything rude coming out and so I just kind of smiled over my eyes and she said do something cheeky cheeky so I tried for that too nothing cheeky would come at me so she said well just put my number down I forget what I wrote but I always like to read what I write I don't know I started with Canada to get something cheeky Canada oh Nickname of Francis and I can we say it Canada? can we say it when you call Francis and I yeah you can say it because you're cheeky devil just for your room too but we could hear Canada brought his love of heart cheeky devil that's why he's under cover he comes with his hat but you know in the end you just have to be authentic and just whatever's in there to come let it come don't you don't censor it in any way because it's the censoring that brings the hesitation if we have a critique a critical voice in our mind or we have a voice that's censoring and talking to us but saying don't say this don't do this you know it's kind of censoring and controlling that's ego and in the end I would say that when we give our mind over to miracles miracles are involuntary in nature and should not be under conscious control we become as easy and as right as breathing you don't have to think as you move through your day in breath out breath imagine how much effort that would take to think in breath out breath all day long and we can start to relax so that our whole life can become that involuntary flow and it's very joyful and very gleeful and very spontaneous and also very restful because there's nothing there's no inner judge in there saying you should do this why didn't she say that and could she do this a little bit more you know that little voice is always telling us things aren't perfect oh they far from it and it's always telling us we have to change things when actually our divine nature is changeless we were created to be pure changeless spirit change is coming in from the egos wanting us to constantly be ever changing we have an ever changing identity instead of a changeless pure spirit identity so I really feel we're going to have a lot of opportunities and we also brought a hard drive that has a huge amount of movies so what we can do is it's got over a thousand movies so what we can do is as we start to see some of the themes and things that you're coming up with there are some really spectacular movies that the spirit can show along with some amazing commentary that can be very insightful kind of you know pop the cork in your mind of going past being stuck with certain patterns for many years but the spirit can pop the cork and set you free and then you'll see you have so much more vitality and energy so this can be amazing movies yes David can I make a suggestion already or? yes please do I was in this weekend you were here before and I liked very much to do the exercise with no private thoughts but with no group as individual and right now we understand when there's a theme you want to write the movies jealousy it's a theme from me as you ask yourself okay very good if you have a movie about that yeah I can think of a few off the top my head I know yeah Jenny bought a hard drive right before this and three terabytes hard drive to put up the all our movie collections to come because we want this retreat to be so spontaneous under the Christ control under the spirit control so we're like they are kill whatever spirit pompous to do whichever movie that we don't have any preparation but we're fully prepared on the day when the issue comes up that is going to be the movie we use a movie to such extent that really address the things the themes come up in the mind and as you mentioned about the expression sessions so it is a retreat that really takes participation because whatever you have on your heart whatever you have in your life that burdens you burdens your heart and your mind isn't really separate from your mind and this five days is an opportunity that you give yourself permission to allow whatever that wants to be looked at and wants to be healed to come up rise up to the surface and your issue is not yours alone and that's the beauty of it because whatever that is on the surface of mind and it's so ready to be released is actually for everyone yeah I find it very amazing that spirit always tailor made the solution for us and through my years with David it's been like the issue of love the spirit is actually offering a movie or something that is completely perfect for me to look at that issue and actually I do recognize the issue of jealousy myself and years ago I was dealing with it and David said let's go to the movies and he took me to a movie called the other boy and girl maybe some of you have seen it and it was so perfect it was those two girls the sisters and the same man and one was like pregnant and got close in the room and while the man went with the other girl it was just so intense to face that jealousy and so I love you know I love how we can pray when you share your issue and just pray and see what spirit has and it will be perfect answer if I can make a contribution to what I just said for me it's not jealousy I know the forums are just forums it's not jealousy like in our relationship it's jealousy that and it's changing already but I'm jealous that people who dare to expose themselves on YouTube are just like I'm talking now it's feeling itself right right you've come out of the whole group and you're yeah that's a good example and I think when I was here last I do remember some amazing movies and clips that we showed we started to kind of lean it over towards a quantum perspective what's a quantum perspective it's a holistic perspective of the world it's the big picture of the world it's seen that the world is actually simultaneous instead of linear and it's seeing that you know it's going into that quantum experience and since I was here last I think I've published this book called Quantum Forgiveness where I have seven movies to as practical experiences to go into to literally set your mind up by reading the book and get yourself ready then to watch these movies or one of them is a Star Trek episode called The Emissary but that's really spectacular where you can start to let your whole perspective on the whole world do like a complete shift from a linear perspective from the timeline and to almost to come to the point of seeing the world completely differently and then you'll see that whatever the issues and things were it was just an attempt to hold on to the linear so we do talk a lot about that about Isaac Newton and Newtonian physics and then we talk about quantum physics is literally transcending the whole linear model that you know it's like that there's a song that Little River Band did from Australia there are so many paths up the mountain nobody knows all the ways there are so many paths up the mountain but the view from the top is still the same and and at one point in that song there's a great lyric forget what you've ever learned and that's really what of course the miracles is trying to help us do in a very systematic way forget the past forget what we've learned and come into a fresh new perspective that's basically free of the past I would like to ask something to begin with here because before I went here I felt how the fear of death is coming up very strongly because I had some glimpses of truth and I knew when I come here the life will be so immense and my whole body started to tremble and shake and it was like as I'm ego-identified it was like you are walking into an open life I come here and I'm gonna die and this is a immense fear that I carry right now and the other fear is that darkness will pop up so extremely that I gonna I don't know shout and cry and fight and something out yeah thank you I'm sure we'll all be watching as the week goes along but we don't thank you for exposing that well Mary Ann is going to grace us with this song and then after that we will head out towards lunch to go experience lunch and we'll be back because Chris said at two o'clock we'll try to all come back the room and we'll get settled we'll be back to to to hello everybody and well yeah they will ask me to to sing this song it's from Susan McCullen you and relax now then I'm also gonna sell to myself so maybe you can do something just put your feet square on the floor and just feel your bottom chair and just think of the inhalation you are the light of my life you're my warm creation you return by the chance okay this is the last time if you can walk