 And Welcome back to Snastrunk plays mega man X2. Let's take on Sigma or I guess Sigma hasn't been revealed yet You know what I know at the American people know it. It's gonna be Sigma at the end of this Dr. Wiley style castle Wow, why isn't the whoa? It's kind of weird how the floor does this or the level doesn't scroll just kind of stops you got to take a leap of faith Anyway, yeah, we oh wow was that colossally stupid good thing. I've got like five guys I'll promptly waste all of them Okay, so let's trust the level here and just go straight down and follow these These steps here Just ignore that guy keep going Now since we've been talking about drugs Why was I talking about drugs anyway, what was I what brought that up I think it was the fact that so many Let's play guys are so freaking hyped up and so like Just obnoxiously over the top and it's like I just can't watch so many of them because they're just like they're like morning radio DJs to me. It's like You know like listening to like 105 the sunshine my name is whoo, you know Today we've got Dan Bonner the the Local comedian and coming up. We got some music from nickel back and it's just I'm not gonna make it shit Oh, it just barely made it Wow But you know what I mean like it's just it's some of the energy is just so over the top and it's and obnoxious it's just like enough already like It's just not my thing and I'll know I'll never end up like that unless I do a big pile of cocaine before I frickin Record one of these which is you know, it's highly highly unlikely You want to hear me have a panic attack on a live microphone? Yep Be a wonderful idea I wonder if that's ever happened actually I would never want to actually watch it or Anything like that Or listen to it because that would be fucking awful, but I wonder if anybody's actually had like some kind of like awful panic panic episode or like an anxiety attack or whatever around It's doing a let's play. I mean, I'm sure rage quit obviously. That's That's happens frequently. That's one strong burst of emotion that that happens but Yeah, I've had um not to get too serious on this thing You know since we are playing a video game here, but I've had um, you know going back to the drugs thing really And the reason why people do that Isn't always just for fun. Oh shit. I didn't make it. I screwed that up. Oh well try again Not to get too again, not to get too serious, but it's like You know, I've dealt with anxiety and depression literally as long as I could remember As long as I can remember and my very first memories are for me trying to car car recent work compartmentalize the How to deal with it like I just didn't know I Thought it was something everybody just kind of dealt with in their own way And I just had to come up with my own little system to like It was almost like a checklist like okay, do this do this avoid this and then it's over And then it's on to worrying about the next thing You know like it's it's hard to explain But it was it was I had no idea how to put it into words or how to explain to anybody what it was like The anxiety part and then a depression part came a bit later But you know, oh this guy again, this is fun. Hey, and he skipped his dialogue too. I'm all about efficiency Ah I'm just gonna use the arm cannon on this guy because who gives a shit. Oh Hey, thanks for going way up there or I you totally can't hit me a much very much appreciated. Thanks for helping me out But yeah, I Mean When it comes to especially anxiety and depression too, it's like you want a break from your own mind like you get tired of the same thoughts and the same you know the same like Like the way I need a fucking Subtank The way I define God, this is such a weird conversation. I have one conversation with myself essentially to have when playing a video game, but What's a Thing is it's just like I said, you just want to get a break from all that the way I describe anxiety is just it's chronic oversensitivity to your surroundings and It's it's like being way oversensitive to all external stimuli and it just gets too much so after a while it's just like I'm one of those people like I don't drink to drink. I have to drink to like Get my brain in a different spot to like alter my brain chemistry almost So I don't have to freaking sit and think about shit for you know a few hours It's a nice vacation from that So that's where that comes from I think anyway, that's where that's I think addiction has a lot to do with that It's just me Pontificating pretty much Anyway, we are into the next kind of weird. It's a weird episode Actually one of it since we're on the subject we since I'm on the subject What one of my goals in life, you know, it's the old cliche to write the green American novel I'd really want to Try and write a book write a novel about Anxiety and subsequent depression and how that all works because I would love to be able to Describe what that's like to somebody that can't understand What it is like because I grew up with an older brother and a dad That never Understood what the hell my problem was my mom did she she was very good You know being understanding and supportive and all that kind of stuff, but When other people in your family that that you're close with like I'm close with my brother I'm not very close to my dad, but I'm close with my brother It's it's hard to get through to them like what it's like and what it means and How to describe it in a way because you know the old Pull pull it why don't you just get over it pull yourself over by your up by your bootstraps like that kind of shit So stupid, you know, it's like so naive almost it's like don't you think I would have done that by now if I could It's like the old my dad's My dad's explanation for everything is only just wants attention, you know, like I'm a puppy dog It's like if I just want attention there are better ways to get attention than just just it almost reminds me of The this is a tricky part here by the way Just take the hits get up here Shit, what do I do here? I think I want to get that back back Blow that thing up. There's nothing coming. I thought there was a platform coming, but yeah, let's flip to the crystal and let's freeze them He Let's do the same thing to this guy. There we go. That's an easier way to do it Anyway, yeah, no my dad is the type that's like Just get over it. You know, you're just doing it for attention, you know, like that kind of shit and It can be really frustrating. So that's inspired me to try and create write a novel right of just an everyday life of How anxiety works and how it really changes and affects Every aspect of every part of every day of your life and that's no joke. It really does it sucks That's just the way it is And I've dealt with it like like I said it's literally as long as I can remember it, but anyway, it's time to focus Let's this is the one Boss or actually it's the second boss, but the the silk shot really comes in handy on this on this one on Magnus Centipede and on this thing because you want to use silk shot right away to blow these things up But even if you're able to do that This boss is still really really hard really frustratingly hard Now I want to flip to you. I think it's the fire a speed burner rather sorry And see he moves up and down and he shoots these annoying little things and I need another sub tank And I have a feeling I'm gonna need all three sub tanks full if I want to beat this guy Son of a bitch Come on See, it's just I don't know how to dodge what he's throwing at me. I don't even have half his life down Let's try magnet mine. I think that's the other weapon that works with them. Oh, yeah. Yeah, that actually works better Yeah, this guy is just a mess. It's just this boss fight is a mess You have no room to work with you have spikes beneath you. You've got two platforms He's moving. There's so much shit going on like this is so fucking tough Just yeah All right, I'm gonna call this an episode. I will try again next time. Thanks for watching Thanks for indulging me. Have a great rest of your day