 From Lyon Naysmith to Lyon Naysmith Subject memo to self You have sent this message to be sent automatically to elnaysmith at foundation dot scp every day at 11 o'clock central standard time You may edit or cancel the setting in the preferences menu Why bother? Let's say the Scarlet King awakens. Let's say he eats 4,000 sacrificial virgins for breakfast Halfway through number 2374 he remembers a particularly funny knock-knock joke he laughs he chokes and none of his slaves no CPR Let's say the flesh god and the machine god decide to settle their differences once and for all Let's say they bring every circuit cultist and broken god-fearing soldier to the final battle The battlefield is on the other side of a wormhole which closes and never opens again Only catch we never know who wins But we can live with that Let's say we find an infinitely huge wall of drawers Let's say we fill them up with every anomalous item where they'll be perfectly content until the heat death of the universe and Let's say we still die screaming Why bother? May 12 2016 One of my few days off in spring. I drank milk straight from the jug without looking at the expiration date It should have been spoiled for two days. It wasn't still fresh 8 a.m. Penny Naismith was off to school and Mrs. Rosen Naismith told me that she had to go to a parent-teacher conference for penny later I'll go I said Don't she said it's your day off Last week. I saw a D-class eaten alive by a snake made of intrusive thoughts. I think I can deal with bitchy teachers Rosa grimaced skeptical It's mr. Glassman, isn't it? I thought starting to miss the mind viper 9 a.m. I sip a mimosa. There's a classic doctor who marathon on PBS old Tom Baker's Rosa catches me grinning ear-to-ears the title theme comes on. She laughs 3 p.m. Mr. Glassman assistant principal told me that my daughter doesn't handle bullies well. I Said then how about we do something about the kids trying to provoke her He said look when she's older you won't be there to force her to toughen up Do you want to coddle your daughter all your life or let her build character? Half an hour of smiling and nodding later. I took a photo out of my wallet Said it was of penny at her baptism The photo was of a narcissist class visual cognitive hazard that had just been decommissioned Seeing the foam come from his mouth was one of the finer points of my life as a father and Well worth the rep for man from the o5 council mr. Glassman still healthy, of course Only difference is he believes that if penny ever cries a seven foot tall eel man lurking outside his peripheral vision will eat his eyeballs 6 p.m. Penny and I watched a movie that introduced her to swear words. She laughed hard enough to start wheezing 8 p.m. Penny's in bed early contented 8 30 p.m Pretty sure I can't go into detail on a foundation email server But roses still got it after 10 years My pelvis still hurts thinking about it God bless America You want happy endings? Fuck you You want sad endings? Again, fuck you There were only endings if 15 years of service to a shadow fascist organization bent on locking up all our demons and boxes Taught me anything. It's that good and bad are completely subjective One man zk class reality failure is another man's orgasm so Why bother? because sometimes temporarily Everything goes right Whatever your situation however bad things get as long as you're alive. There can always be a great day You got this Lyle you're making penny and rose a proud And dr. Henderson to wherever he is Don't let the nihilist and quitter seduce you There will be more may 12 2016's if you can keep the bastards locked up And if you can help it don't detonate the onsite nuke until you finish the Tom Baker episodes Love dr. Lyle Naismeth psych director foundation site 59