 I feel really lost right now. I don't know where to turn. I feel lost, lost in my thoughts, lost in my words, lost in everything I'm feeling right now. It's terrifying to think of a few things I've lost by all of them, even though I thought for a minute that things were going away. Recovery is scary, especially when you realise you're right at the start. After years of thinking, you're on the right path. Only to realise you're essentially spinning in circles. Recovery is certainly not linear. I don't know how I feel right now. And you know what, that's totally fine.