 Mi hi, ydych yn bwysig ar draws i'w fflog, ydych yn fwy o'ch ffordd i'n gwneud. Ond yma yma yma yma yma yma ffostor. Y dywed y byddai llyfr yn ysgrifennu, felly mae'n gobeithio bod 8-12 ym 10. Ffostor yn ysgrifennu a'r llyfr. A'r ffordd i'r cyffredinol a'r tyfn o'r bwysig yn ysgrifennu, fel y proses yma, a'r llyfr yn llyfr yma, leiwch, sefydlu'r Cymru ac mae'r perthynau ychydiguaeth, rhai yw'r gweithfeydd ddeligatio. Ond ydych chi'n gwybod allwch y deallu a'r ddechrau i chi'r wneud wnaeth yn rhoi gweithio i'ch gweithi i'w再见o. Rhyw wneud i'w gweithio hyn ymlaen nhw yn ein cyfrwyr, darna chi'n gweithio. Ond mae e chymu hefyd i efallai, mae gennym ni ddwy i'w ddosticiatio. Mae'n gallu i ni i'w ddysgu eich bod yn gwneud fwyaf gwam. I just need to practice my bit and then we have to come together as a team and practice together and make sure our group are ready for the poster and to be honest I'm not going to have time to do that until Thursday morning before the poster presentation because today and tomorrow so Tuesday Wednesday I am off and I have got a very exciting GP nursing student ambassador workshop programme with a shiny minds coaching it's going to be amazing, we have to go to York for it and I think it's sort of to build your confidence around like public speaking, leadership, management skills, all of that, that's going to be absolutely amazing and I will try and do some vlogs for it and let you all know how that goes and I might do a separate vlog for that one actually because it's going to be too long winded in this one I think and on other news so as you know I've been doing this dissertation not dissertation ACP for those of you that watch all of my videos I've been doing this since December since Christmas when we had our cat period which is a period that were off but they set us work to do at home or revision workbooks and things to do, things online to do from home and the comfort of your own home don't have to go to lectures don't have to go to placement we have the whole of December to do this and our ACP was launched so I had a look at that I knew my topic I just had to work out my question and find the articles I've been really stressed with this one I've been really struggling with research I'm good at database searching research in that way like finding things normally but this has been tearing my hair out because my topic is so basically I want to look into pre-exposure prophylaxis for the prevention of HIV in gay men but I specifically want to look at when they're taking it does it result in them having a reduction in condom use because they think they're safe from HIV so they don't worry as much about condoms if that makes sense and I think there's going to be a rise in other STIs this is just my presumption I think personally there's going to be other rise in STIs with the use of this and possibly more promiscuous behaviour that's just my own opinion my own sort of clinical judgements from working in sexual health one of the clinics we work at is the LGBT centre and just hearing the comments and concerns and things that patients say in that setting is something I did pick up on was these patients aren't worried about sort of chlamydia, gonorrhea because you can just have some tablets it's done it's gone but HIV back in the day it was a life sentence it's not anymore yes we are overcoming HIV guys this is amazing but there is a preventative treatment for HIV now so you take this daily tablet every single day and if you have any risky sort of behaviours or if you have sex with somebody that is infected with HIV it just reduces that risk massively that risk of transmission and people are not getting HIV anymore and it works there's trials out there there's research out there on the effectiveness of it the research is really good into it have a look it's really good reading if you want to have a look at that but yes so for my specific topic of condom use with it there's not much out there and I was really struggling with this I kept finding other researchers there'll be prep for HIV in sort of African women there'll be prep for HIV in pregnant women there'll be prep for HIV in sex workers everything but gay men and condom use and how it affects or if it affects sort of sexual behaviours that's what I want to look into and I was just tearing my hair out I couldn't find it I was really struggling but then somebody made this comment I mean I found some research so I found I think six or seven articles initially and I thought okay yeah I could possibly use these so I found those but I was struggling to find the final four and it was really tearing my hair out so I was having an interesting conversation with somebody yesterday who said you are physically allowed, legally allowed to look at people's research and look at the reference list and sort of look through their reference list to get more articles for your paper it's a thing called the snowballing or snowballing effect something like that and I was like what they said well obviously you have to put it into your writing so when you write up your method section this is what you did you searched on cockrain library blah blah blah you used the snowballing effect so just write it in because it is an actual term that you use in research so I did that yesterday Last night I spent hours searching and searching and searching and then I remembered what they said and I was like let me just check the references and I found some really good articles specific to sexual behaviours, condom use, gay men and prep I've got my ten articles guys Oh that's a relief, six months, six months it's taken me and there within a few hours it's done I've got my ten articles but now my next step is I need to critically appraise every single article which is the long winded bit I think because there's different tools to use for different types of research so I've now sectioned my research into sections so the randomised control trials I think I've got four of, I've got a couple of cohort studies, I've got ones that use surveys I can't remember cross sectional studies slash questionnaire surveys studies or something like that I can't remember oh my god I'm really bad at research, don't ask me anything about dissertation please I'm sure I'll get there though, so yeah I've sectioned them off, I've printed off the tools for each one and I've put the tool with each one so that I can critically appraise every single one, I've done one so far because I thought while I'm on a roll let's just do one, get it out of the way and I'll feel so much better about myself and I did, I feel so much better like a little weight has lifted from my shoulders from my head and I think yes maybe it's going to be okay I don't know but yeah just so you know I hate research I really really sorry guys there's just no I just I can't enjoy it and I know we need it it's really important for clinical practice it's really important that we know where we're getting our evidence from which is fine I can do that I like that I like going out there and finding the evidence I don't like writing about it I don't like writing a systematic review I don't want to be a researcher and I don't want to do that as a job compose yourself so yeah I don't like research we have discovered from these three years well done but I have to do it I have to get through it I'm not bagging myself any good grade on this one I don't think I'm going to guess possibly a C at a push with this one because my heart and soul is just not in it but I am going to do it I'm hopefully going to do it some justice to pass that's the main thing I need to pass and hopefully it'll be okay so today I have a train journey I'm going on my train at 12 o'clock I think I've taken all of my research with me and I'm going to do it on the train journey there yeah two birds one stone that's how to do it guys so yeah so I'm going to do that today and hopefully it's going to be okay once I've done that I can update you on my next stage of dissertation and yeah so that is it for now I shall let you know how it goes with the week and I'll post a presentation on Thursday and hopefully it's going to be alright and a much better presentation and hopefully we get really good feedback to improve and build on a real presentation on September see the 16th or the 23rd week one of those something like that but that's when our real poster presentation is this is just practice ones so yeah so I'll see you for now and I shall see you on Thursday so today is Thursday and I just did not get a chance to do a before and an after vlog with my group for the poster which is a shame but I'm just going to do a little talk through so don't worry so the past couple of days I've had two days off and I had a workshop for the general practice nursing ambassador leadership program and to be honest we didn't know what to expect we weren't sure what we were getting ourselves into we didn't really know what was going to happen we knew that we had sort of a challenge and we had to go there with something we wanted to improve and build on and public speaking was my thing this was what I wanted to gain from this and it's actually what everyone in that room wanted to gain from this was be confident be confident in public speaking and presenting and getting that impact out there so we went in and we it was I don't even know where to start because the past two days well it was a day and a little bit in the evening before and these were just workshops to sort of build ourselves and deal with the emotions that we have whilst public speaking like the anxieties of fears the little voices in the head and how to control those and lower them so that we can concentrate on our presentation and not let it affect us and before I went to this workshop I think I said this before in previous vlogs but I have a massive fear of public speaking I really dread it I don't look forward to it but it's something I physically want to do it's something I want to do I want to be able to stand in a room full of people and inspire them and motivate them and get my message across to those people in those seats listening to me it's something I really wanted to do I have a massive fear of it and people think oh my god but your vlog and stuff like that and you seem quite confident but actually I'm not this is just me at home with my camera in my own comfort in my own skin but put me out on a stage talking in front of millions of eyes looking at me no it was a massive fear of mine I dreaded it but I wanted to do it and I wanted changing myself to be able to do that and guess what the impossible became possible I had no idea I mean I thought I was just going to go and get the skills and tools to help me be able to sort of like body language and things like that to make me look confident but I never expected for the fear to be removed like I am cured that's really strange that is like massive I am cured and I have no fear and this is weird this is weird I don't know what they did to me in those workshops I don't know what happened but I'm not scared anymore I've turned it into excitement I'm really really excited to get up and talk in front of a room of people that fear's gone and I don't know how but it's magic and it's just the best feeling thinking you know what I can do this I can do this and I can do it well now now that fear's gone I can do it well so bring me back to the room today we had our poster presentations and instead of fear in it and instead of the dreading thing another poster presentation I was excited I thought I'm going to stand up and I'm going to present in front of the class and it's going to be amazing because I'm not going to have that fear holding me back anymore and yeah the nerves are still there obviously and that I think nerves are now a really good thing for me and it just shows that I care about what I'm talking about and that's okay but the fear that I had that was really holding me back has gone and I was able to stand today and present properly like I should and I think next week next post presentation next week again I'm going to be able to do the same thing and it was just amazing and I said to my friend did you notice a difference between last week and this week the way I was talking and things and she said there was like a massive difference so that's really really good that's a really positive so it just shows that the workshop and everything helped it's not just in myself in my head but actually other people can see it as well which isn't big and it's going to be amazing and just on the back of all of this we have me and Kate have been asked to do a talk at a GPN conference I know next month on the third of July I'm going to be hitting the doctors the qualified nurses I'm going to show how amazing student nurses are and I'm going to get the minds thinking and I'm going to make an impact so that they leave that room taking something away from what I say at that day on that day and I'm really really excited I can't wait I'm not scared I'm not nervous I'm going to go up there and smash it so next week just to save me doing a post a presentation vlog again I'm going to do a different type of log next Sunday so I know I was having a conversation with somebody on my channel in the comments on one of the last videos about placements and how to manage a placement that you don't particularly like don't particularly get on with and if you're really really struggling and I think that's a really really good vlog to do because a lot of us have this I've had this in my very very first placement and I really want to talk about it because it's massive and really important so I'm going to talk about that next week and hopefully it'll help you but that's it from me for this week I hope you have an amazing week go out there smash it face those fears like I have and I'll see you next week