 Something that a lot of us are really good at, which isn't really a virtue, but we're really good at holding on to grudges. And what I want to talk about today is all of us want forgiveness. All of us want people to give us a second chance, but how good are we at forgiving others and giving other people a second chance? What is up, everybody? This is Chris from the Rewired Soul, where we talk about the problem, but focus on the solution. And if you're new to my channel, my channel is all about mental health. So if you would like to join me on this journey of improving our mental and emotional well-being, make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell, and you can follow me over on Instagram and Twitter over at the Rewired Soul, all right? But yeah, so let's talk real quick. Like, I'm not good at many things, all right? But something that I've been really good at since I was young is cutting people out of my life, just Thanos snap, you know what I mean? And for me personally, I recognize this about myself and I'll start it when I was a kid because as many of you out there have experienced as well, I'm the son of an alcoholic mom. She is coming up on 14 years sober, but she didn't get sober until I was 20 years old. And as a kid, when I grew up, I became like a teenager. Like, I just, I was done with it and I stopped talking to her. And that pretty much set this kind of like set point of who I can cut out of my life. Like pretty much just growing up. It's like, if I can cut my own mother out of my life, I can sure as hell cut you out of my life. You know what I mean? And this isn't necessarily always a good thing. Like, yes, sometimes we need to get certain toxic people out of our lives and set boundaries, but I've gotten too good at cutting people out of my life. So with part of my journey that you guys are coming along with me on, I hope we can learn and grow together because when everything happened to me earlier this year, I became very sensitive to cutting people off again. And obviously I was getting a bunch of hate comments and everything like that. But yeah, like I started just blocking people all willy-nilly and I've been doing that for the last six months. Just you leave a comment, just talking crap, just boop, gone, boop, gone, right? And don't get me wrong. Like I'm gonna be 100% honest with all of you. Like a lot, a lot of those comments were saying awful, nasty, terrible things, right? Like, oh, you're a narcissist and delete your channel and calling me fat and just all these other things, right? But, and you might be able to relate to this, on certain days when I was having a bad day, my sensitivity to this stuff was so much lower, right? So somebody might not have even said anything that bad to me or really attacked me or anything like that. But because of my emotional state that day, I just didn't want any of it. So I blocked them. You know what I mean? And that's not fair, you know? And yeah, like I said, like something I wanna do, I wanna have this fresh start for, so for anybody out there who I blocked, it's not really blocking, but you hide them from the channel so they can't comment, but I can still watch all the videos, right? Like I want to move forward and start improving myself again. And yeah, like part of that is giving others a second chance. So as you can see right here, this is my block list, okay? Was my block list. And I was going to do like a whole screen record of me removing everybody, but I was like, does anybody really wanna watch me just click all of these Xs, right? But I promise you I counted every single one of them. Here's my post-it note. Can you see that? Is that focused? I don't even know if that's focused. But anyways, I was doing batches of 100, right? And then I got to 94. So eight 100s and a 94, 894. So I unblocked 894 people from my channel. That is literally everybody. So here's a screenshot of it. And yes, it could be Photoshop. So just please give me the benefit of the doubt. It is completely empty now. Everybody has been unblocked from my channel. As you can see up in the corner, that is my little icon. So this is my account. All right, but, but here's a bonus for you. So one of the misconceptions is, and I know a lot of you are viewers and not creators, and I have no problem answering you guys questions about how this stuff works. But anyways, YouTube actually filters different words. It has a certain set of words. I don't know what they are. They're not the nerd city words, they're different words. Or if people say them, it automatically puts you into filtered comments, right? In the back end. So we as creators have to go through and manually approve them. Well, when everything happened to me, there were certain things that people were saying that were really getting on my nerves. So this became my banned word list. All right, and some of it was ridiculous. Some of it, I don't even remember the reasons behind it and all of that. But what I'm going to do too, I'm gonna completely wipe this clean as well. So the YouTube will stop censoring so much of the stuff, but it still does, okay? Like one of the reasons I wanna be honest with you guys about that is sometimes people believe that us creators are deleting comments and don't get me wrong, like I've just been honest with you, like I do remove quite a few comments, all right? But sometimes YouTube just automatically filters them and then we just have to go in and approve them and everything like that. So this will let more comments come through. So now that I've started with this fresh start with all of you, here's my request, okay? I know there are going to be people who disagree, you know, with my opinions or views on mental health and something I wanna make clear is, what works for me might not work for you, okay? And I'm all about having these discussions. I wanna have more discussions about this stuff, but check it out. If you have beef with me or if you just disagree with something that I said and you wanna have more of an in-depth conversation, like reach out to me. You can email me at therewiredsoul at gmail.com. You can DM me on Instagram or Twitter at therewiredsoul. But here's the thing, something that I promised all of you in my last video, which I'm really, really working on, is I want to rebuild this community, all right? I wanna rebuild this community of rewired soldiers where we're here to help each other with our mental health and have conversations and support one another and share our experience in the comments. So, for everybody out there, know this, okay? Because I am working on getting rid of, you know, the selfishness and self-centeredness, but I have to protect my rewired soldiers out there, all right? I want the comment section to be a place for them to talk and have discussions without having to defend me, all right? So, here's what I'm gonna do, all right? Since I'm trying to rebuild this community and I want a more community aspect, and I also think it's good to get second opinions on things. Over on Instagram, what I'm gonna do is if my brain tells me that this person should be blocked, what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna post it up on Instagram, all right? I'll try to block out the name and I'll put up a poll and my followers can let me know, do they want this person in the community? Do they not? And you guys can vote on it, all right? So I think that is the safest way to do it because, you know, like I still have to set boundaries, right? Like something when we talk about boundaries, it's accept it, change it, eliminate it, right? Like I am not going to be, you know, stepped all over or be a doormat, but like I said, sometimes I get a little sensitive. So I'm not saying that I'm never gonna block anybody again, but I wanted to have a fresh start. But for instances where I think it's debatable and maybe this person shouldn't be blocked or I want another opinion, I'm gonna post it up on Instagram. But like just so you know, like it's common sense stuff, like there's certain things that I'm just not gonna tolerate, like racism and things like that, like if that goes in my comments, like I don't need to vote on that, that is just gone so, all right? But for all of you out there, like I said, my commitment to all of you is I want you to leave each one of my videos with some value, all right? And something that I try to work on and I hope you try to work on it as well is asking yourself with everything that we're doing, like is this useful to me, right? So for example, is holding onto a grudge useful to me, right, is not forgiving this person, is this useful to me, right? Like if we just regularly ask ourselves that question, is this useful to me, right? We can start navigating our life in a better way, right? Like keeping everybody blocked and everything like that and cutting people out, that's not helping me grow in any way. So I want you to take a look at your own situations and ask yourself, like are there people that you're holding grudges against or you've removed from your life and it's not helping you in any way, shape or form? And you know, in the coming weeks or months or anything like that, I will be, you know, discussing more of this, because sometimes what's gonna happen is we give people another chance and they screw us over again. Like that's part of life. That's just gonna happen. You know, maybe people are gonna give me another chance and I'm gonna, you know, upset them again. You know, it's part of life, right? But we're gonna do this thing together, okay? So anyways, don't forget, follow me over on Instagram and Twitter at The Rewired Soul and over on Instagram. You guys are gonna help me moving forward with this. All right, now I have a bunch of exciting news coming up so make sure that you stay tuned, okay? Anyways, that's all I got for this video. If you like this video, please give it a thumbs up. If you're new, make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell. 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