 It is officially 2022 it's the first Monday of the new year I got back from my trip last night and wow I am tired I think I'm past the point of ice rolling helping me welcome to another weekly vlog I promise I'm not gonna vlog as I actually know it's annoying I say that as I'm doing it my tree is still up that's going down this week I have my coffee and my creamer actually really like this stuff today is Monday I got back last night from our New Year's Eve trip which we were just booked and busy let me tell you look at this beautiful I'm just really tired and then Friday I live again and I go to LA for the week this week and it's Dawn's birthday and then I'm recording I think like 15 episodes so I have a lot to prep this week I have a lot to do I'm getting into my new year routine with all of my goals and I'm so excited for if you guys have not already go listen to my two last podcast episodes the one with Doug it's really motivating the one with Molly is very healing and we're talking about like shooting yourself in the new year and expecting too much and whatever I definitely want to get back on an early morning routine because that makes me feel really good my recording weeks in LA are like so exhausting and I don't want to overdo it this week and then go to a birthday weekend or whatever so anyways back I'm gonna get some stuff done this morning and then I love Pilates 1130 because all of the classes are booked and wait listed and that's what happens in the new year which is great love that people are joining but I want my classes back you know I just got to Pilates I'm about to walk in most of the time when I'm traveling just because I travel so often I forced myself to like book an early morning workout the next morning and just kind of get back into my routine it has been a crazy few weeks and now I'm back like I might fall asleep in the middle of this workout class I gotta shine hoplates you guys can use code join kenzie for your first class free really fun I'm showered gone back my workout I ran a few errands I just need a really cozy lazy day well not lazy but like working for my laptop I just ordered a sandwich off door to actual have my door not linked below but yeah I just got a harvest salad which is pretty much always my go-to and then I'm going to get my laptop out do a few things probably take an espresso shot and I just like so looking forward to a cozy night and reading a book like that is all I want right now good morning guys it is now Tuesday I just got coffee with my dad we normally go every Monday morning but this we went on Tuesday I didn't really vlog yesterday because I was so exhausted I think just the holidays in general like I'm having such a hard time even waking up like I woke up at like 645 and you would have thought it was I hadn't stopped in seven days one of my goals and things I wanted to do in the near is make my house like the downstairs area is something that I actually really want to be in I actually hate all the furniture I'm never happy with it it's 30 degrees right now in Texas I'm not doing well okay so I don't like my furniture and I want my house I feel like it's just such a waste to like have this house that I own and not actually like the downstairs and like spend time there I already got new bar stools and they're like brown dark brown velvet I'm not obsessed with them like they're so cute so I love those and then yesterday I was looking on CB2 and Crate and Barrel and I found a bunch of stuff that I really like and rug-able for a rug and I think I'm just going to pull the trigger but I do need to go see these things in person today and then I also need to measure and just to make sure so today we are furniture shopping I'm gonna work out later it's really cold so now I'm like I was gonna go on a run I'm considering starting listen to this I'm considering starting couch to 5k again I'm not a runner I don't like running if you're trying to get into a workout routine you need to do a workout that you absolutely love I absolutely love hot pilates it's not a pain to me to go I look forward to it it's like favorite workout it's the hardest workout and I just love it and I'm not a big runner but recently I've been feeling like running and also I think I also just want to challenge in doing couch to 5k I'm like training for something I grew up playing sports so I think I just want the like feeling like I'm going to practice like getting better at something I don't know so I've been considering becoming a runner again um I did it last year doing 2020 that's not even last year anymore that's insane and I don't love running but maybe this is the time that I love it I think I'm just gonna start the app and do it if you guys don't know it's an app and you can like it gives you like a running plan to be able to run a 5k which by the way like that's my point like I can run a mile maybe I am not a runner um and also Fitz can do it with me and I feel like that would be fun so I think I am going to do that today especially because I'm not going to pilates whoo I am cold okay I am not going to shame myself for being the first year week of the year and me not having a good ton of energy I am only in town four days this week and I have been busy busy and next week is my busiest week we are prioritizing rest I'm taking care of myself I'm having a lot of alone time because I'll be very over simulated and I just need to get some stuff done I am going to see my friends like tomorrow the next day I think all right so this is a vibe um when I walk in I don't have all the accessories or anything but I would like a little gallery wall I think that would be cute I would do all black and white and just get photos from like friends and stuff so I feel like this is what you do when you're married but like I still want that I think it would be cute I like this little um is it a credenza this little entry table I need something to like set my bags on and you know have a candle burning whatever so when you walk on my stairs where that white mirror is that's where this would go and then how do I get to okay so this is the Creighton Barrel couch it's an 88 inch which the problem with like most of the couches that I want just in general is the fact that they're always too big so 88 inch might be a little bit too big I need to um actually measure that today I believe mine right now is 80 but like what's eight more inches you know I have this cute rug from ruggable that I really like and then I love these chairs I believe they're actually CB2 and I like that they're beige instead of white I feel like it just makes the place warmer I want it to be like chocolate brown creams beige like that's kind of my vibe maybe I'll add in some color here and there I like that rug I'm not positive about it I obviously have like my white table I'm gonna eventually replace all those chairs and then I have my custom art so it's gonna be fun I actually don't think this rug is gonna fit the vibe now that I'm really considering it I did think about like a black and white checkered one I don't know honestly guys rugs are so difficult I also need to get lighting replaced finally so this is what I have that I'm looking for and oh a coffee table also I need to get a new one so hopefully I find one at CB2 all right let's go shopping at CB2 together this was before I decided I was gonna voice over these clips I apologize for the shaky camera work anyways this is the best CB2 Nox Henderson absolutely love it um some pillows love that I walked in I found the couch this is the couch of my dreams I've always wanted a sectional I'll talk about that in this vlog but I've never found one that would fit and this one actually seems like it would fit it's a game changer this is the couch um Audrey Peters gave a raving review when I DMed her once I realized on her Instagram story because I'm creepy that that was the same couch um and she gave me a raving review here I am trying out different pillows um we love a good chocolate brown I love that it's really in everywhere another couch I wouldn't get this couch ever but I think it's nice it's a cute one um I love this lamp and I love this lamp for so long I have nowhere for this lamp but I love it here I am going to you know my favorite place the kitchen dining area I found some plates I'm doing a whole table placement thing it's on its way I found some you know napkin what was that napkin holders um we'll get to that in future vlogs found joy of cooking I said yep me too I get that looked at this little napkin holder and it made me think I need a two million dollar home to fit everything that I want by the way um the chocolate brown counter height vessels those are the ones I got they're coming they're being delivered in February here's some more kitchen stuff I love a good like darker marble moment I actually think I want these for my dinner parties what do we think about these I think they're really cute okay very classic if you will um these chairs considering for the kitchen just maybe like a more traditional vibe I don't know I'm all over the place this is more of a coffee table that I want because it's darker and I want more dark this isn't exactly what I want but I want something darker I also love these chairs potentially for the kitchen but I think it's too much like cloth we'll see I also love this chair I love green it's not my story for this house but I love it I also love this vibe can someone tell me where to get a fake fireplace like this like the mantle where do I get that like I need that actually exactly from my house more chair options for the kitchen table this is the entry table that I'm getting that I am very excited for I think it's just gonna be a great thing this was kind of cool until I noticed that it was um $2,000 so it wasn't cool anymore here are some bookshelves um this is nothing that I'm gonna get I was just kind of looking around and here I am saying hello um moving over I love a good poof I don't have a space for what I don't think but I love one different kind of coffee table here I am back with the couch that I feel spiritually drawn to okay don't I look like I belong on that couch and then I saw some other chairs so give me some ideas for kitchen chairs actually last minute gonna go get chilies for lunch but I came back to measure and so one of those pieces is 60 inches back story I really want a sectional sectionals are my favorite couches I actually spend time on them I don't like the sofa like I'm not gonna sit there you know and I just knew that I kind of had to have a sofa so it's like I mean it'll be okay I'll survive but it's not what I wanted anyway so one of those like arms is 60 inches I'm just doing the measuring it's a little bit bigger but like I think I can make it work and I'm just gonna treat this as a window and just close this off because that's what's really causing problems hi girl that's what's really causing problems for me hi he uh lived the camera Coco it is no longer Christmas now and we've got to take this off really stick with the times oh my gosh um so I would have that here I would potentially keep the coffee table for the time being because I haven't found what I obsessed with I do want darker ones these chairs are going to be darker the ones that I showed you guys in the vlog and then I hate the ghost chairs all those are going I just haven't decided what I wanted and I think I need to have everything in the house that I like oh you know what I do need to measure it forward that so I think the kitchen chair is going to be the last things that I replace just because it's I just want to see everything in here I make sure it's not like too many like browns or too many whatever I am going to also replace this chair um but the couch really is the main thing I want to get in here first if I really wanted to I could just move the couch down I could keep the love sock there I don't know we're going to figure it out that fireplace is really just too small honestly for the space so I don't think I'm going to keep it but the thing is we're going to have office space with the okine and my family has like obviously a huge you only see a lot of houses right now so I can always just like move into someone else's house for the time being um so what do you think girl you're so good you never cross problems with my furniture you are so good it is so hot I have heat on so anyways I need to get ready I just moved some laundry over I have like I'm packing to do tonight things I just don't want to do I am for this being the first thing of the new year when I am normally like queen of motivation I'm not feeling naturally motivated so we're just gonna we're gonna push through I'm my first laser appointment today and I'm terrified so we're gonna measure for this so it's 52 inches that was kind of perfect 52 inches that's fine like it's a little bit thick but it feels fine and honestly I just want to be able to put like bags like obviously these things did not be here but like things there and then it's 30 inches tall all right so I actually did my makeup a little bit it took about two minutes but I did something changed in to sweatpants and then I'm gonna throw my coat on I'm actually gonna get chilies for lunch with a new friend that I made on TikTok guys I'm just so exhausted throughout the day and then come 9 p.m when I'm like alright I'll go to bed I'm wide awake and I don't know how to fix it I mean look at how cute right I'm gonna hit the doggo and then I'm heading to chilies for lunch just got some work done answering emails just doing boring stuff this week like all of my work this week is episode prep and emails so I'm sorry I'm trying to make things a little bit more snazzy maybe I'll cook from home tonight I really don't feel like doing that honestly like I'm telling you guys everyone else's vlog this week is gonna be so productive and mine is like I am dying so also it is my time of the month coming up soon before anyone tries to say I have COVID I don't I just had COVID um but this happens to me like every month so guys absolutely no one will be surprised I'm at chilies for lunch all right some people aren't as lucky to live the life that I do going to chilies all right thank you my outfit right now is atrocious okay first off my bedding still isn't dry so here we are second my sweats are real like kind of short for max I throw on a different crew they don't match nothing matches and here we are okay um I did remember that I need to take my vitamins because I am iron deficient which would explain the energy levels all that for nothing because I still had leftover spray tan on so I could have just stayed home all right we are turning today around I'm still tired but we're at Sprout I'm gonna get food to make dinner I'm gonna go take a nice hot bath change into pajamas get things together my lip gloss is messed up and then I'm going to read or on the next day I'll be more exciting because I'll see people but it looks like I've been crying the most beautiful place in the whole wide world I have tonight and then two more days and then I leave and I feel like I got a lot of food um I'm making a soup tonight that I found online so I'm excited kale chicken oh I got one of these meals pre-made just for whatever meal I wanted carrot cantaloupe for snack that just looks really good salmon which I just put on the air fryer hummus avocado celery I had to get long green rice I got candy which I never get they just looked so good and then these are dried California pears annies super cheesy cheddar bunnies and pretzel crisp for a snack and then also these little immunity shots okay I made dinner I did a big I did a quick clean of the house it's feeling incredible this is a soup that I made it's a chicken and rice soup it looks absolutely incredible onions garlic obviously saute those add in water chicken stock and then chicken let the chicken boil take the chicken out add in carrot celery a few other things I think shred the chicken put the chicken back in and then you add spinach I added kale because I just prefer kale but anyways it looks so good I'm glad I did it though because if I didn't dinner was so freaking good I have my little um recess drink I got another one I'm feeling better it is just so crazy like how effective about my cycle I am we are organizing vitamins this is what happens so much look forward to in life you know like okay but okay last night I finished the book which is my first book of 2021 good morning monster it was really good jockey austere I think is who recommended it but it was really good it's definitely heavy definitely trigger warning the therapist is just sharing five different cases that she had very fascinating again it's kind of really sad at the same time so anyways if you're kind of in the mood for that kind of read it's nonfiction I really good morning guys I am in an incredible mood because I actually fit energy today you know I packed my vitamins and I just took an iron supplement last night and I feel incredible I just made some coffee it's currently 7 30 I'm about to take the dogs out and then go to Pilates you need to get gas and I'm last night I was like it's okay I'll get in the morning why would you ever leave that to your morning self like why I should have just gone guys it's also 30 degrees here um so I don't want to get gas I don't want to get gas at all anyways before today's workout I'm doing Pilates the hip hop themed class which I love it's all about the music okay if it's good music it's a good class and I stand by that so that's too close I was so good you want me to make it the way if it sleeps on my bed is he sleeps like he gets about 75 percent of the bed and I get about 25 percent and I'm just stuck there and he seriously has it I'm not kidding with the entire bed I got out of bed this morning I looked at where he was sleeping I this much so maybe that's my sleeping problem dude no I don't have a sleeping problem I just a ritzy and crew and then I'm wearing a satin underneath finish my coffee and we're going to Pilates bye they can seem sometimes waiting because all right I just got out of the shower I was gonna blow dry my hair this morning into like a blowout but I'm gonna style it tonight I feel like less heat air drying I don't know changed into my outfit for today doing a really easy little little bit of makeup for a little get ready with me but I wanted to talk to you guys about something this is something I talk about with friends all the time especially lately regardless of like having a following of any sort people can relate to this but I'm like I'm so tired of walking on eggshells all of the time I feel like in the past year or so I have just become kind of like a shell of myself like I never cared what people thought about me before and it's not necessarily that I care what people think about me as much as it's like oh my god you can get cancer for anything these days like you make one rock stuff you make one wrong move you say you like apples instead of oranges like something so small and people literally pick apart and attack everything you do so I think I just became afraid of that and then also of like getting canceled or whatever that I just like stopped like fully being me or like I just watch everything that I say like way too much I am not talking about controversial things but I'm referring to this I mean anything that you can't do anything these days without someone ripping you apart for example and this girl is not even trying to be rude I don't think but it's like can I just enjoy my life I posted a post about like being if you want to start reading in 2022 here's some rucks here's some books to like get you started I made the list based on books that I give to people who are not big readers because I think if they're gonna like them also my audience is a bunch of people who are like me there are a lot of girls who have similar interests read similar books whatever it's not that deep and I get this message from this girl again like she's being so nice like it's honestly not even about her it's just the principle of like I cannot have anything and she was like hey girl I love your videos again so nice not an attack for turtle but she's like are you sure you don't want to read these books like this is very anti-feminist and reading romance novels are very anti-feminist and reinforces all these stereotypes and like blah blah blah so you can here's a book a list of books you should read and I'm like can I not even have like my number one favorite hobby to do but it's basically just like every single thing that anyone does is picked apart whether you're on the internet or not people are just so hyper sensitive and it's not even the people who should be the ones who are hyper sensitive 9 out of 10 ways I'm just done walking on eggshells I'm getting myself if you don't like me that's fine if you if I say something that offends you or that you don't agree with you know what when someone says something I don't agree with on the internet you know what I do nothing because we are all supposed to have different opinions and different things that we like and different interests like I don't care if you don't like Taylor Jenkins read as like a novelist like I'm just giving the book example because that's the most recent it is so exhausting I just lost I think I just had lost myself and at the end of the day I had this big revelation of like I'm doing and not doing and not just being myself losing myself so many things like to appease internet trolls because it's normally not people who like really follow along but it's like I'm doing so much to appease these internet trolls and nothing to like appease myself like my new gauge is I am only doing things to make myself proud no one else my opinion of myself is the only one that I really care about obviously I'm going to mess up like if a friend calls me and is a kid that wasn't cool that's different than people on the internet but this like culture that we have created in the past year is so unhealthy it's so bad I'm putting on more makeup than I expected what's now like I want to be at tables all the time with people who don't think exactly the same way that I do one because if you just surround yourself with people that think the exact same way as you similarly we are all going to be wrong in ways so how are you ever going to grow how are you ever going to learn how are you ever going to be an interesting person if you can't talk to someone that you don't agree with like that's crazy but also like just to grow anyways with that being said like I'm done trying to like please everyone on the internet I have my people and I love you all and again the girl hosted the comment it wasn't about her at all like that is like such a small example but it's like again of like I can't do anything but again it's like I have a hobby I like doing this I'm so tired of people like telling you what I shouldn't should like and I think it's a good life lesson that I've learned in the past year because I wasn't always like this and my barometer from now on is if I'm proud of myself I'm proud of myself and that's good I'm not doing it for the internet trolls I'm doing it to make me proud and obviously I make mistakes and that's okay so I can't really handle anymore anyways again I'm not talking about controversial things I'm not talking about like crazy intense things I'm talking about the day-to-day of like every single thing and you know what I'm like these people who are picking people apart like do they have jobs genuinely like you have a life anything I don't know and also I just could never imagine it like watching someone on the internet and thinking that like my opinion of them and what I see that's like one percent of their life is like the truth or like what's happening or like my opinion of someone you know it's always kind of a red flag with people with me and I have friends who say this all the time but like people who are like well I just have a really good judgment of character and it's like well maybe you and that person just don't vibe that doesn't mean that that person is like a bad person and I find more often than not people who say that are actually just like really like socially insecure and I said like I we've all said it but it's like I don't know if that's true like we all can get along with different people and like just because you don't like someone doesn't mean that they're a bad person um so yeah in this year I just want to be doing things that are like making myself proud um and not trying to please people on the internet and losing myself in the process uh you're also gonna like attract your people in that um I'm gonna put mascara on now and then we're gonna go downstairs and get to work I'm gonna measure again for that couch and get it I talked to Audrey Peters who has the same couch I realized on Instagram today she gave me a raving review with dogs because her um best one stock comes over a lot anyways that is the couch I want so I just didn't make sure again measuring wise that it works and then I need to order the entry table too I ordered these from my mom's and mom's an interior designer but gotta get that done all right I'm working I have Texas country playing it's what I always have update on my home situation these two things I'm gonna have the time being I'm not gonna keep them eventually things go to my garage I'm sure eventually we'll move some stuff to the O'Kine office so I'm gonna have this couch minus this piece it's gonna be a little bit smaller I love this rug from Ruggable unfortunately it's on back order um and then I'm gonna have like this is my this coming basically I want to get some pieces figure out what I'd like see it all together and then I'll eventually replace the coffee table and then I'll probably get a chair here and then I'll replace these chairs right here so this area will be a sectional that will all go all the Christmas decor obviously we got and it's just gonna be really cozy also on boba bar last night I ordered this rug but it's it says KEP on it my initials um if you guys have a nickname like Kenzie's technically nicknamed so I never know what to do like MEP or KEP but anyways um I got that and then I'm just deciding like pillows and things like that so anyways I don't love this right now just because I'm gonna get rid of this stuff but once I have more of it I'll be able to like understand better I did love this but at the end of the day I will just use a sectional 3 000 times more like I am such a sectional girl so I need that just order this I love this little candle light match thing from CB2 I love this entry table it might be too big for my space but I'm gonna try to make it work so I'll keep you all posted update getting a little bit tired today again heated up some soup for lunch I'm gonna be on my laptop for the next probably four hours I also am ordering all my stuff from CB2 today today is a very boring day on my laptop so I will talk to you guys later tonight I'm going to a bone house with Peyton so I'm just getting stuff booked I'm sorry I feel bad that this vlog is like not crazy exciting I just have been off this week um also if you have PMDD you know this like I feel like every few months I have a really bad one but like the week before like your cycle essentially you just are like so out of it so down so tired and here we are just happened to be the first week of the year when I was really excited for you know my first week of the year where I'm really like in my routine and doing my stuff will be when I get back to my life so you know whatever I know I've talked a bit about like my goals on this channel recently and like Google I'm trying to film like she's your home you have a joining okay come here you can just sit right here and you're gonna be fine this dog is crazy because can you believe she's six now isn't that wild does anyone else's dog has have this much attitude so I know I shared like some goals and some things that I just want to do in the new year Coco I swear to God such as I really like my dream is to collaborate with a brand and come out with a cowboy boot don't know a brand I don't know what line but like that isn't my dream obviously launching my clothing line this year which is really exciting we got our first samples back a few weeks ago um which is really well I guess two weeks ago that is exciting I just have like a lot of things that I want to do then I gotta be thinking about how intentional you have to be like almost like curating your dream life and how so often people find themselves and I have found myself this way when I'm not like intentional with what I'm doing and who I'm with and like how it's any more time who I'm even following like whatever who I'm consuming content from I I think it's just really easy to like let life go by really passively and then look at other people and be really jealous or like oh my god well they get through this or like oh well I mean people look at influencers all the time and don't realize how much work it is and think like oh musty and I was taking a scream photo whatever but they don't see like obviously like the 10 years before it took or like you know in any other industry what it might be but just on curating my dream life I think I did create or like I'm not creating this but like I did achieve or get to like my dream career I built my dream career um and then I looked around and I was like this is not my dream life at all like I really didn't like what I was doing where I was at how I was spending all my time whatever so then in 2021 I feel like I really built my dream life and I was just thinking about overall like obviously I love career stuff and I love achievements I'm an enneagram three I'm an overachiever okay love that stuff but also I think it's really important to like be intentional with like creating your dream life and not just the career the career is very important I think that's what you spend most of your time doing but also like curating your dream life and like where do you want to spend your time what kind of people do you want to be around what kind of person do you want to be um what relationships do you want do you want your relationships to look like what do you want your family left to look like like things like that I think just being really intentional and like if you want to do something too this is a conversation I have with friends all the time who are in a career and they're already unhappy they're unhappy and that's not ultimately what they want to do but essentially it's like the safer option or you know there's more stability or whatever it is and while on one hand I totally get that and I understand like it's a privilege to even be able to try to do something else or you know have the something to back you like a savings account or something but I will just say I think in your 20s it's only going to be harder for the most part to start what you want to do because you're gonna have added responsibilities you're gonna have your life is gonna get bigger things you're gonna get crazier like you'll probably get married have kids maybe you won't but like as time goes on you gain more responsibility like right now this is something I say all the time I'm like we have the least amount of responsibility that we probably ever will have right now unless like you don't want kids and have a family which is fine um but even then like as you even then though when you grow in your career you get more responsibility so now I just think like really think about how you want to live your life and what you want to do in the relationships that you want to do nothing in my life has really happened like fully by accident guess you'll meet someone and they'll change so much of your life or you'll meet this group of friends or you'll get you know uh promotion or like something crazy happen career wise and a lot of that is up to chance but it's also up to a lot of work on the career end it's a lot of preparation and then on the life and it's a lot of like I think just knowing what you want and at the end of the day something I'm really trying to live by is I am here to make myself proud and that is kind of my barometer not in a way that is like super self-serving or like selfish it's not even that way it's just that like if I am doing things for other people then I'm not being true to myself and at the end of the day the number one thing I care about is being authentic and I want to be myself proud at the end of the day along with like obviously my family and things like that but we're like similar so yeah think about the dream life you want to curate and figure that out like right now I'm not living my dream life this week okay and sometimes you have off weeks sometimes you're really struggling and you're just not feeling your best and that is okay all right um yeah I could do an entire podcast episode even on like curating my dream life my dream career exactly what I did um I did it though because my actually Keenan psychic is calling me all right we're in my closet the light bulbs are out those are gonna be replaced this week I need to pick an outfit for tonight but I think I'm also while I'm here gonna just like throw together some things for LA I'm packing tomorrow I have been deep in episode prep also it's Dom's birthday this weekend so I'm flying there Friday early um so I'm flying in early for the weekend and I just booked so many reservations and things for next week so anyways gonna get some outfits together the fact that I like have any of my suitcase really I did unpack but like I don't know why I do this to myself my travel schedule also I did buy this guys for my newly subscription and another jacket and it's the cutest little pink puffer vest thing I think I actually will maybe bring that to LA I honestly love this blazer because I love the fit however I've already worn it for recordings okay maybe I will just stick to my classic I kind of want to do a video where I style all my outfits on Sunday and then I wear them throughout the week or even just like an entire styling my outfits for the week video sometimes I'll save outfits just to get inspo all right guys I'm ready to go we paint and finally and sure enough I'm finally getting my energy back but I first off have had this coat in my closet probably a year and a half it's one my favorite color two it's like western there's French here it's from revolve it's House of Harlow and it was in the back of my closet and I guess I just forgot about it I saw it today when I was planning outfits and now I'm like I cannot believe I don't wear this every day it's my new favorite thing that I own jeans are Princess Polly boots are vintage Harley Davidson just cowboy boots shirt is unfortunately brandy and then this bag is at Balenciaga so we are off we're going to Bowen house tonight which I've actually never been to it's like a Dallas fave everyone tells me how much I love it and I looked it up and it looks perfect and I am starting a new series on Instagram where I try different espresso martinis around Dallas and write them with different guests so we're going to do Peyton tonight and then when I get back from LA we're doing sipping cat from sipping in Dallas I just call her sipping because I think I'm funny and then I'm just going to ask other like Dallas friends to do it so if you guys know any Dallas creators request them on the IGTB I'm also going to do like TikToks and stuff pretty soon my Starbucks will be gone I only could drink this much I also cleaned a little bit just now I'm feeling good okay I just made coffee with my new mug it's a Texas mug how cute so Peyton and I went to get dinner last night and then we ended up staying we we didn't leave until 10 so they probably hate us but we were just catching up when we kept ordering things I just made some coffee I am getting ready for the day I decided not to work out so I only did two workouts this week I was going to go on a walk but it's 30 degrees outside so that just didn't happen I'm so looking forward to the week I get back from LA and I can just have like my routine back and honestly I'm just looking forward to being in Texas with a normal schedule and just staying here also I'm just making a lot of Dallas content lately like that's what I really want to like focus in a lot on this year anyways my coffee I'm going on a podcast today my Christmas decor is going down I have to do on my laundry just a lot going on you know I'm going on busy blooming in 30 minutes cheers guys my decor is gone it feels so empty in my house right now like just throughout I mean no more garland oh my god so I'm it's just so bare and boring which is why I'm so excited because eventually that mirror will look very cute in an office for the oh kind right we can use this chair for like whatever we need just the problem is that like it doesn't it just stained so easily like I'm talking obviously that's like dirt but the other stuff like it could be water and it stains so like I did really like this like the couch from home threads if you don't have dogs but I just wouldn't recommend it even though like I love it incredible price it just like didn't wear well gallery wall here of me and my friends which is kind of weird because people really do that when they're like you know married and have families so you know it's fine I'm in my 20s and then I'm gonna have a cute little entry table there which might be a little bit big for the space but um you know we'll see it'll be okay the thing that's so odd is this level is just like really annoying because there's so much space here and it's like what do you even do with this you know look I could do a bark right there but then it feels cluttered especially if I have something there um it just I don't know it's like a very odd space I don't know if I showed you guys this yet but I got this in New York from Zara it is like the most perfect cardigan sweater thing I mean it's so cute I'm gonna like live in it when I go to LA tomorrow how cute I just got a tax for a John and Betty's reservation and it feels right look I'm not gonna lie me in LA these days look at my spray tan or myself tan me in LA these days it doesn't feel right like when I'm there I feel like I still live there obviously I have a life there still all my friends like I love going I love LA I'm not an LA hater at all but it's just not me anymore like I don't know how to describe it the city I don't know I love going I would rather be in Texas though I love seeing my friends obviously I'm getting so much work done for the next week but I will say like I don't know how to describe it it's just I don't know the thing that does feel right my tax from my John and Betty's reservations all right I also have been meaning to show you guys these new journals that I got from Miss Hannah Ashton herself she's been on the podcast if you guys like productive vlogs entrepreneur college I mean like whatever it is she's your girl but she has the dream achieve line basically which has like a planner and just like a bunch of stationery stuff really great stuff if you guys are trying to get into journaling sorry that my dog will not stop this is great they have a daydreaming thing a little positive words journal prompts which I love if you are new to journaling I mean this dog is trying to ruin my life if you need prompts that's really helpful journaling is something that really positively benefits my life whenever I'm continuously doing it anyways it's a really beautiful journal so be sure to check it out check out her channel she's the greatest I love both of them love the colors you know what maybe I'll give one away while we're here since I have two I'll give this one away to you guys so all you have to do is follow me on instagram and then tick talk and then comment below your instagram handle and something you're looking forward to in 2022 and then you're entered to win this beautiful journal which I did already took out of the wrapping about five minutes ago so I'm sorry but I will give you a beautiful journal 2022 always set a timer when you are putting away laundry because it makes me go by so much faster and you stick to it but I just threw a bunch of stuff over here that I'm putting on packing my hair looks crazy I look crazy it's actually the most productive day I have this week and I have so much energy I actually just got so much packing done I think this is the dress I'm gonna wear for Dawn's birthday it is my only outfit option it's going to be cold there I know that's pretty much my only option so I'm bringing my blue sweater my brown coat that I found this week that I'm now obsessed with I have my vest I'm wearing another vest on the plane I need to pack the rest of my shoes I actually think I'm gonna wear that my sneakers that I work out with um on the plane I kind of want to get new ones too I have my pajamas under here coffee number two I'm gonna make some salmon as well I just had therapy and I just got a lot of packing done and I'm feeling on top of it I'm feeling good I have this meeting in two minutes with Geneva surprise I'm bringing back book clubs so I'm actually just gonna have you guys read along with whatever book I think I'm doing in my real life book club because every time I post about it you guys are like I want to read that so we're gonna read calling Hoover's new book it's starting on January 19th so we'll do it mid February it'll be the middle of the month but it's in the Geneva chat which is an app and then we have a room so just like click the link below um and then in the bookshelves well I'll make the book club room and there's like the bookshelves okay and then I'm recording for mood and then I need to record this week's intro outro ads send it in and then shower off my tan get ready and I'm going to Barcelona wine bar with some friends that I haven't been able to see in probably like two months so I'm actually really excited to see them tonight okay speaking of books the simple wild I read that I just listening to the Red House today and I know it was a 50-50 split I will tell you guys I am team Margot I'm always team Margot but I am team Margot a thousand percent I read all three of those books and three days the new one I already pre-ordered it I mean I loved that series let me know what you guys think I was absolutely obsessed this is what I was going to say I can't take myself seriously until I take this self tan off but for those of you guys who have been requesting an episode with someone who like worked some more traditional like nine to five corporate path next week we have Kim Johnson on who works at Geneva she's like head of community I think is her title but she worked as head of community at Glossier and like community is essentially what built up rent anyways corporate we're doing resume tips we're doing I mean we're talking a lot about building it all my community and just a digital community in general and branding and things like that but we're also going in to more of like a nine to five workplace kind of that so if you guys have been requesting that I did it and I can do more just let me know who you want to mean to record but all right guys I showered I waited a full eight hours for my tan to develop and I swear to God like I have no color from it I this has happened one other time I use the Ashley Graham Sandra pay Tanner which is my favorite Tanner but I have to sleep in it overnight and then when I showered off in the morning basically just do an action over eight hours I'm like so tan but I did eight hours in I like I barely have any tan so anyways gonna have to re-sell tan today after looking my bad all day sweater I don't remember where it's from it's very cool so I just wanted to be warm I do not remember where it's from at all coat is my favorite one from H&M I have these jeans on that are not jeans these pants on that are Princess Bali they have a slit on them and then just ug so this is the look I'm like living for it it's very me I would definitely do a different top if it wasn't so cold um but I just I love it okay my new shoes have arrived I ordered these when I was in New York last weekend and I mean they're perfect Dom said they were ugly and I just don't care she also wore bunny ears one time as a fashion statement like exactly the ones in anything bunny ears yeah that's what that was that was so anyways um I love these I think they're perfect and I'm very excited I'm gonna wear them every day as actual shoes I don't know how these get delivered so quickly I ordered new Nespresso pods maybe four hours ago this just came in the mail it's a new capari ultra restored body butter I love capari lip glosses and their body products so I'm so excited it looks like it's gonna like my new favorite product ever so I'll keep you guys posted good morning guys I'm off to LA today Coco um I just ordered Chick-fil-A for breakfast here we go I'm excited because I feel like I'm actually gonna get you back in the vlog swing of things so next week's vlog is going to be so good anyways I'm flying to LA today and then I'm there this weekend for Donald's birthday and then all next week I'm working who is I will see you guys at the airport and then when we lay in LA tonight we're going to John and Vinnie's I mean love this for me look who it is guys and look what shoes I'm wearing awesome girly no I'm just kidding don't lie and just now and tell me that she liked them because everyone else said they were cool you know all of my comments said that they were cool do I look like how everyone did their makeup in 2016 no but look who it palette she's using they're back to this while the lighting on this camera right now it's really messed up it's be it's because the lighting in here's um I'm in LA you can film this way when I have to film stuff I film this way oh oh all right so we're in LA tomorrow's song's birthday I'm getting ready for prom you guys we're going to John and Vinnie's with some friends we're not going to prom yeah that's what's happening today um god here I've been editing this vlog pretty much all day so actually I've been going to prom you guys like John's hair these shoes are literally the best okay by the way John said they were ugly before if you guys didn't touch that no but she was also no like sugar sugar sick mouth I like how you wear it secondly you guys okay right now I look like I played professional woman's basketball with this headband but in a second I'm about to wow the crowd you're so dumb guys I thought about this and I was thinking about like my justification for buying these shoes because I was like well Tom did wear a bunny ear so like it's fine I like them like but they're mighty we do want to tell the story of when a boy came over that liked me at my house and Dom was like playing tricks on him she's oh you guys this is a beautiful thing when a guy likes Kenzie I don't know what she does or what it is I've never had this effect on the real species they are like in love not even the only guys I give the time of day not even in love like obsessed and I and I knew as soon like day one we met this fool I was like oh it's it's over so he comes over to the house and I at this point it's a prank to me like when I know guys are in this mindset I could get them to climb the Eiffel Tower and they'll do it just for the sake of impressing Kenzie so I'd order these bunny ears that are quite trendy if you know then you know anyways I order these bunny ears he comes to the house and I have them on and I'm like oh my gosh you should put these on to her man I was like oh my gosh you should put these on but like we were just friends at this point like it wasn't yeah she was testing I was testing I was like if he puts on these bunny ears he's like all in like he's all the way sold out for Kenzie this man barely any fight pretends almost pretends that there's a fight to get these bunny ears on and put where's walking around the house the only reason we don't have a picture is because when he called me taking a picture that's when he took them off wait you should try that next time we're going around no I think that's the new 10 that's actually a new test guys try now get the bunny ears just order bunny ears from amazon they're about 14 dollars it's very they're very they're actually very hard to get because they're very trendy oh I can only imagine how they're very very hard to get wow so hard she's wearing with a fashion statement yeah no I'm not wearing this for Halloween it's for fun she did actually end up wearing them for Halloween though so it did come in handy and I looked about the boys house too oh you did I did I had to leave that era behind you know what I wonder you know I promise you know I promise you I promise you I promise you he's seen them with that house he's seen them not only seen them at that house probably put them on you put them on okay well I think that you I think they would have told me if that was the case well we're gonna join event is I don't really know how much more I'll play it all vlog today because the vlog is already at like 50 minutes but uh next week's vlog is gonna be so good hope you're really up it up people are really requesting some birthday footage I didn't know I think we should have birthday footage um and I just want to say you guys it's really I feel really cool when I meet you guys because I don't have my own youtube channel but I'm you have been meeting a lot of people recently I've met like the majority of people that I've met have been like don't I love you in Kenzie's video and I'm like that means a lot to me that's sweet it really does so I didn't leave my keys at home so it just means a lot because I just love hanging out with you guys and it's been a long time so we're ready for some debauchery we're ready for some debauchery we're ready for some debauchery this weekend hey hey if you've got your I've turned down into a wild girl you've got your bag ready to go out ranch why I'm out every night ranch water to the air ranch water to the air we're talking about actually this is another good example um like an hour ago we were saying how dominant I actually have absolutely nothing in common so it's actually insane that we are best friends do everything together um but but there are certain I mean maybe a lot of things you'd like to mine but country music she listens to on her own I never did that that was her she doesn't she sends me all the time that girl that girl that grew on you it really did and then honestly it's drinking which I don't I'm proud of the country music I'm not really proud of what you've done with drinking but it is something the drinking is like now I'm like why aren't we going to drink yeah like normal I like it's my norm to just go out every night and like Dom will be like once every month and now it's like gosh well I'm so now every weekend I'm like you guys what's the move in everyone I was like what I texted people I was like should we go to on the rocks tonight they're like and your birthday tomorrow and I was like yeah we're going back to back are we really doing all the rocks today you keep saying no if you guys want to be sick I was like me I have a lot of am okay you have two choices you can either be a man or you can be a bitch he was like you could be a man and look yourself in the mirror and say although that your circumstances were tough and although you're in here now it's up to you to change if anybody's going to change it's going to be you and no one's coming to save you and that's like an important message for people