 Hey what's up you guys welcome back to my channel are you new here? Hi hello I'm Lydia and if you aren't in here make sure you hit the subscribe button to join the growing family. Today we're only doing a mini Q&A. I asked for questions on Instagram and I got some so let's answer them. First one is how are you doing honestly? Honestly I'm doing fine I think I'm not suicidal I'm not self-harming. I'm honestly doing fine I'm going to my grandparents tomorrow by the time you watch this I'm back in London but I'm just going to spend nearly enough two weeks with them and we're going to the caravan for my mom's birthday so all in all everything's going pretty well for me. Me and Alana video called yesterday which was lovely if you don't know who Alana is I'll link it on the i-card right now. Alana is an amazing we was on the phone for two hours yesterday and it was amazing. So having someone who understands what you go through means the world. The next question is what helps you when you're feeling low? My emotional support unicorn. I like how my emotional support unicorn with me is currently in a suitcase ready to go tomorrow morning. Honestly what I do when I'm feeling low is I tend to nap and I do feel better afterwards. I also use Netflix as a distraction in Disney. If anything can get me out of a negative spiral it's really low on stitch. As you can see I'm stitch obsessed. I have three pads of pajamas with stitch on. I have two jumpers with stitch on and on Tuesday we're going shopping and we'll see my next one stitch t-shirts. Advice on dipping in and out of hypomania and depression. I go hypomanic and then really down so I don't have hypomania I have mania and depression at the web servers. At the two I don't really go into mania that often anymore because I'm medicated. When I was on medication I was always depressed. My first ever diagnosis was depression and anxiety but my medication has helped so much with my mental health because I take haloperidol, lithium, clonazepam, tracidone, 40-oxygen. Now these empty depressants that I take haven't triggered any mania in me which I'm so glad about. My advice would be make sure you stay. Don't keep things you can hear yourself with around. Oh it's gone dark. Wonderful. I think it's important to remember that everyone is true as differently. I don't really know how to advise how to stop switching between the two because I don't do that. Before the lithium I did but the mania would present itself very differently to the people. I'll do a whole video on this question. Favourite singer songs at the moment. Oh that's a good one. Let's go to Spotify. Spotify. Oh Muddy Waters by LP. Yeah that's my favourite. I love that song. I put it on repeat. Not a question but you're amazing and would love to meet you one day. Oh I'd like to meet you too. What is your go-to distraction at the moment? Probably my phone and talking to my grandparents. I talk to my grandma every day but my biggest distraction probably filming videos. That's what I've been doing. And lastly we've got what is your favourite TV show? My favourite TV show at the minute is Manifest and on season four after buying season two and three. I could just put it on that but I could though. So I paid for that. Oh my camera's about to run out of storage. Shit. Really I'm prying because that's why they wouldn't pay so I can find that. I do have some saved questions actually. Let me go to my photos. First question we've got is have you ever been on close opinion? So the answer to that is yes I have been. However it didn't react well with me. I was in the on it for two months because my results kept coming back red when I had the test done every week. I decided it wasn't the best job for me to be on so I got taken off. The next question is what are staff like in your care home? Most of them are okay. There's one I don't go on. Not brilliant. But the other stuff are nice. I got them as well. God I hope they sort of made an indication out in time tomorrow. I'm leaving here at 10 tomorrow. But I'm bigging it off my meds at half-line. So yeah that's all I've got for this video. Thank you for watching and if you're new subscribe during the growing family. We want you here. And yeah I hope you did enjoy this video. I like doing Q&As. If you've got any questions ask them in the comments down below and I will answer.