 After her, you can come. Namaskaram. My question is about being here the last two months and that transition back to it almost feels like there's a density or a blanket of the western consciousness or thinking that I'll be flying back to. And not only that, I'm having a sangha of many, many people that are most of them professional seekers themselves and wanting so much to know what's next and what now. I feel so much for them because I am one of them and have held a space of sort of a sanctuary for that. Now I feel the tremendous... Take your time. We have lots of time. I don't know if I can express the feeling of how precious this teaching is and how absolutely imperfection its timing is. Having held that space of professional seeker for every 69 years, the longing for it is tremendous on the planet and when I am speaking of it and sharing it just to give due respect to its source. My question is, I need a bit of confirmation for myself in terms of how much porosity or conformity or poor reality has happened for me during this time because when I think to go back in France, in family and in the people I serve in the community, there's so much suffering. I remember talking about being porous in Tiru, the novel I, and it really piqued my interest because my girlfriends in particular who are very, what they call, empathic and what I think it has been is a porosity because they're not really present in the body so they're taking on so much energy from people and so I want to kind of have a confirmation, yes there is a shift in myself and my own body to be able to face when I'm going home to face. Wherever you go actually, whether you're here in Rishikesh you're in your home country, wherever you are in the world the soul is the soul, is the soul, is the soul, is the soul is the soul, you know, it is the antar atman it is the antar guru, you can't run away from it you can't leave it behind here and go so it's going to be with you the point is to remember the living presence at all times but it's not about identifying it is not about I am it's about I am here and I am this and in that to bring yourself to this state of I am here I am this even to go so far as to say I am this in surrender to the soul here and this posture is your absolute let's say it's a spiritual guarantee and it doesn't have a limit so it is like a real solid thing when I look at you now and I see how you were a year ago that progress and that strengthening it's very solid, it's very real and it's very much a more solid present person no question about it I feel there is a lot of strength there you yourself have been a seeker as we say a professional seeker almost all your life and you've seen all kinds of satsangs and you've been to pretty much whatever there is on this planet and teachers and groups and all of that what you will have seen is that when there is any ambition attached to that experience the experience will delude you so there cannot be an ambition attached to it of bringing it to anybody else first it has to be concretized in your system because otherwise it will start to dissipate which is why I said take some time even if it is a year or two it doesn't matter to consolidate within yourself to consolidate through the practice of reminding yourself in every moment of the living presence of the soul and being in surrender to it not identifying with it it's a very fundamental difference and that realization that you have now after an emasive after coming to practically every single satsang in Tiruvannamalai single satsang here in Rishikesh it's quite a body of knowledge that has you can say materially entered into you and a body of experience as well now it's about consolidating actually solidifying actually being present because you've been spaced out in a moon suit for a large part of your adult life you also have to settle in and take residence in the system be here solidly present now, here, each moment, this moment, this moment give it a bit of time so that it solidifies here let the others be first it's about you when you solidify when this system is entirely coherent you will be able to actually let's say materially influence the matter of the other through a transmission of coherence and solidity as in the emotional the more you are present and in surrender surrender is your big magic word surrender and love these are the two words and in that surrendered state the emotional being will deepen it will widen and it will be mastery in place these are things which need some time to settle and the suffering around you will reduce if you go into that state of surrender it is about the sadhana first and it needs some time the details of how you will handle that big sangha that is around you because you've got many, many, many hundreds I think of people that are your students that is the next step to address we will address that no question about it there are also many spiritual masters who have spoken about their sanghas and how to take this teaching to their sanghas because they realize especially the spiritual masters they realize it they really do because finally it's about reducing the suffering of others it's not about which master is bigger than the other who cares I mean when you're dealing with that kind of suffering you don't really care about anything you just want to get rid of the suffering around you, right? so now it's about what means are there first step is the spiritual masters themselves now have to because it is a new teaching you know that you've been there and done that and one has to first live it oneself for a while at least give it a little bit of time and when there is a shaking and you don't feel that you can connect with the soul bend down, bend down and it'll come if it still doesn't come try to imagine you're sitting in this satsang here it will come this is the way forward now so many spiritual masters are asking how to take this forward what to do with their students because they're seeing that their students are all floating away and they understand that it's not the way forward we will find a way we will all sit together in fact even with you and we will find ways and means by which we can actually transmit this teaching so that it reaches a larger section of the as you know in 18 years I didn't even allow a website like in today's day and age and I'm very tech savvy I did not want this to go anywhere until we were sure and clear and had the solidity of the experience now we know that it's solid it's clearly not something which is going to be quiet no question also you know being here in India I've had to I'm saying a lot of things that are ruffling a lot of feathers what I say about kundalini shakti what I say about niyo advaita there are lots of gurus that are furious with me there are not just niyo advaita gurus there are also kundalini gurus they are furious who does she think she is? what does she have to say? so all of that has got to be contained also and I know that this teaching brings relief finally it brings the soul back it brings you back to your master to your divinity yes after him you can come