 It's very relaxing to think that you are really not responsible for the end or for the means that if God has given you this end of forgiving and waking up from this dream that God would not give you the end, God would not give you a plan without the means. So it's like it's all part of a package. It's so different from the human condition where whenever we think of things in the world personal goals or things we want to happen and trying to make happen then we have to come up with the means. That's just how it works in the world. You decide the end and you have to make the means happen and spiritual awakening is just the opposite of that. You don't have to be concerned about how the means will arrive. That was probably one of the hardest things for me to loosen from because I was raised with the Protestant work ethic and I was raised very, it was very conditioned that you go after things, you have pursuits, you have goals, you have ambitions and then you work very hard and you work hard and you have to really work hard to get the means to line up and sometimes you succeed and sometimes you fail. That was just the formula. Then on the spiritual journey, when I first made it available I said to the Spirit I'm available, I'm yours now and everything then it would show up very spontaneously but like my first trip, so to speak, out of the United States and Canada area was down to Argentina and frequent flower miles were donated. First class, Hecativa business class and I was just sipping wine, flying in first class going, wow, I don't know how this happened and three people with me because in some of the stories a man named David was walking with me in a park in like January and I was just beginning a tour and with Resta and he just said you should go to other countries and I said, oh I've never considered that and he said you should, then he started talking about Argentina after I mentioned somebody had written saying they wanted some Resta CDs and yeah, a few weeks, several weeks later I was on my way with three others this man had won a frequent flyer contest he won a million frequent flyer miles from the South American contest that he entered but go stay at these hotels and with a bunch of other people that were doing that was the grand prize, a million so he had so many frequent flyer miles he didn't even know what to do with them so he flew himself, me, Kerry and Resta all four of us down to South America and everything was taken care of places to stay 19 consecutive gatherings like this on 19 consecutive days, it was just a whirlwind but I had no hand in it it just was all dropped in my lap including the flyer miles and everything so that's what I mean by the means are handled if you really give yourself over to this purpose you can count on the means being there not that you personally will have a hand in arranging the means but it's very much, it's more like a fairy tale it has a real strong fairy tale quality that everything just shows up and shows up and shows up it's really like Michael's Balloon last night, the desire if your desire is really strong for peace and love and God and everything it's amazing, if you focus your mind on that then absolutely everything will just completely line up the mind is that powerful so if you put your mind in that way then debts will get taken care of if you need plane tickets, if you need anything it used to be I had a time in my life where I lived really on the edge where I really never had much money at all in my bank account and I didn't pay much attention to it either because it was so low it was so small anyway it would just go up and down a little bit but it was very close to zero most of the time but then I got more and more into the miracles and it's like, yeah, that doesn't even matter I didn't have to pay attention to my checking account I knew there was a time where we went to Lisa's and she had always pushed it off and had other people manage her money so she hadn't balanced the checkbook for years but it was more out of a sense of fear and denial, for me there wasn't much in there anyway and I didn't really care much about it it just seemed to be whatever I needed was there but that's an important thing to keep in mind because the ego uses the fear and the scarcity and the lack to try to scare you from even taking the steps and following your prompts it's going to try to throw everything to turn a tiny little worry into like a mountain so that it will shut you down it doesn't want you to even make a move towards God because it's very afraid it will be gone if that happens so it throws up all kinds of obstacles but we've come to really see how beautifully everything is orchestrated and whatever you need it's also asking if you're on this journey and you deeply loved and you know you have loved ones that care for you and are just praying and hoping for you to take every step on this great journey to experience God it's good to let go of the pride around asking sometimes there's pride of asking for help and it doesn't matter we're not just talking about friends or family but even amongst ourselves that's how it works we say our doors are open call, write, Skype, text Facebook, Facebook message just send something through in some way and just say I want to pray on my next step and I'm feeling this I'm feeling that and then we just go into prayer together and if we can help out in any way at all we will because it's such a glorious purpose it's the only purpose that it's worth giving your heart to so we just go into that prayer and miracles are natural when they do not occur something has gone wrong we just expect lots of miracles every day and if there seems to be a glitch it's like let's take a moment to pray and let's join together on that and have a meeting of the minds and beautiful it's just given