 Hey, y'all welcome back to my I'm really waving Welcome back to my channel sugar car for today's video. We're gonna be doing a chit-chat get ready with me Ready with me Chitcha get ready with me cuz y'all love those videos and I love making these for you So I'm gonna probably have to give y'all one like once a week turn on that post notification Bells to be notified every time your girl post videos cuz you don't want to miss out on me cuz I don't want to miss out Okay, oh my god, we are at 4,000 subscribers y'all I'm so good like I Never thought anybody would watch me or I would be entertaining 4,000 people like and I hope all 4,000 even though That's like, you know a small number. I still fuck with all 4,000 of y'all I don't even care. I just want y'all to fuck with me like I can I don't want to say I got a 100,000 subscribers just to be saying I got a hundred thousand subscribers like I want to really genuinely fuck with my subscribers and I want them to fuck with me. You know what I'm saying Okay, you already know you you know So let's just get right into it Hey, y'all welcome back to my channel. It's your girl Cara for today's video. We're gonna be doing a chit-chat get ready with me Um, it's been a minute Since I actually sat down and did my makeup and talk to y'all Y'all always love my chit chat. So we about to talk it up today sis. We're gonna talk it up But um Yeah, don't mind these last extensions. They look like fucking spider fucking legs And they're looking crazy as fuck. I'm so over long extensions Only got them because I went on a trip. I went to Atlanta and I wanted some long Lashes and I had got them like done a week before and they turned out to be ugly I'm gonna just stay with my little natural short ones because Honey, this is not working for your girl But anyways, we're just gonna jump right into it. So let's okay. So I'm just gonna talk. Um, I'm really not gonna explain makeup or anything like that. I'm just gonna talk so, um So recently I just got back from a trip I went to Atlanta And I went to go visit my friend as you can see in the blog yesterday. I posted it yesterday I went to Atlanta just to get away and just to get motivated Because my friend that lives out there. She's an successful makeup artist and she's been doing good things big things and you know, I've been to Atlanta like Like how many like that was my fourth time and I love in Atlanta. I love the vibe. I damn near want to move out there like soon and um Like all her friends that she hangs out with out there Um, they're doing big things too. So I'm like, I need to go out there. I need to go Get motivated because the where I'm from like this state or whatever Like you don't see a lot of like people doing big things Like you don't see it on a daily basis. Like you're not around it to like feel it like and like to get inspired So I'm like, you know, I'm gonna fucking get the fuck out of here. So that's what I did And I'm so happy I went on that trip. Like everybody is like looking at that vlog like, oh my god, like I want to know what, um That they do or whatever because they just like, I don't know. They're just doing like boss things and stuff like that And as you can see in the vlog like, um, Gina, one of the girls she had paid for everybody's meal. Um, and the um, restaurant, it was like $700 And like that is just like damn like and and that's nothing to you like that's nothing like to just spend All that money like On some food for people and that was my first day meeting her And like you barely knew me and you offered to pay for my meal like I would um, if I had if I had it like that, I definitely would do it for people that I would I would know that would do it for me and I would definitely do that for her like just not meeting her and just going off her vibe um Yeah, I would definitely do shit like that for people That I know that would do shit for me, but I don't know just being around that is just really motivating and Yeah, all the murder and boss things like they have all this shit going on and I'm like damn like That could be me like I need to go back home And get to work on youtube and just get focused like I'm so focused right now I'm really just want to be so productive um I'm in a productive mindset right now And I just don't want to stop this shit like yesterday. I just made 4,000 subscribers. He ain't me Um, even though that doesn't seem like a big number, but I feel like all those 4,000 subscribers I really fuck with me like I don't want to just say I got like This many subscribers and none of them fuck with me Like I got 5,000 subscribers, but I got 400 views like that's lame as fuck And I don't and they're barely in my comments like talking to me like I don't want to be like that I don't want my channel to be like that. I want to really have a connection with my subscribers. I really want to Like, you know grow with everybody that's watching me And I want to just to motivate everybody and just to be a better person And have self confidence because me everybody thinks I just have like self confidence Like just like that in a snap of fingers or something. No For me to have self confidence like it took a while like it took a long time for me to have self confidence Like I didn't just wake up one day and like oh, I'm about to be a bad bitch like Slate like no, it was never like that. But yeah, like I said, um Like being confident is not an overnight process Like I just want people to love themselves and find self love within yourself because it does take a long time but Yeah, I just want my channel to be super genuine And I want to be and I am 100 real. I'm not faking like I'm not living a glitz and glimmer life like it everything is not glitz and glimmer like That instagram shit y'all see is fake as fuck. Like that shit is not real Like I want to be relatable to my subscribers. I don't want to be like Oh, I'm this bitch like no Oh, I didn't want that on my 48 Being in Atlanta like really helped me get motivated because Like and you are who you surround yourself around because like I don't really remove myself from a lot of people in my life because um They just didn't want nothing out of life and that's not wrong like I grew up in a small City And the girls I was kicking in with like they didn't want to do shit Like they didn't want to do nothing and I don't want to be around people like that. I don't want to be like I'm sorry. Like I want to Do shit like I'm gonna get inspired or motivated by my friend or whoever I'm around like I don't want to just Fucking go to the club every fucking weekend and Know the latest gossip like no that shit is lame as fuck and No, I don't want to do that Every and I'm not saying like I'm better than whoever Feels that way that wants to do that. That's fine. You can do that, but I'm not gonna do that I have um, I'm put on this earth for a purpose and I want to do Fulfill that purpose. I want to Do what I need to do. I don't want to waste my life away Like I don't want to stay In this small as fucking state like when everybody knows every fucking body Like I don't want to stay here Like I'm so like ready to work and Fucking do whatever I can to get the fuck out of here I'm about to make today because it's fucking hot. It's like 90 degrees. I don't fuck inside I want to be relatable. I want y'all to grow with me. I want y'all to really fuck with me. Like I don't want to say Like gain all these subscribers and none of them like really fucking me like I want y'all to really fuck with me like on a really Like personal level. I don't want y'all to be fake Like don't subscribe to me if you don't like me or nothing like that but Yeah, I want all my subscribers to be real. I love communicating with y'all I literally have replied to every comment like every comment like it ain't nobody that ever gets a response People write me on instagram and they be like, oh, I didn't think you would reply girl I'm always gonna reply like I'm not like that. But yeah, like I was saying I did not Wake up one day and was like, oh, I'm gonna be this bad ass bitch Like everybody thinks that I am that I think that I am that I don't think that I am If that makes sense, but um Yeah, I'm um Like this time last year like um This time last year Like I was so like unsure of myself. I was literally like I was broken. Like honestly, you're like, I'm not gonna lie I was broken. Like I didn't know Like what the fuck I was gonna do Like with my life I was in a situation where somebody was putting me down like every day like Who fucking cries on camera? I didn't I think I was gonna do this What the fuck But yeah, I didn't know I was gonna break down like that, sorry, but um Uh, I was in a situation When somebody was trying to bring me down every day And be like why why can't you be like this like or why can't you be like this? It's just like damn like you don't like anything about me like And I wanted to start a youtube Like last year around this time And I didn't and I wasn't like I was just like Non-motivated. I was fucking gaining weight. I was like kind of depressed and um Why I'm crying right now. I think it's just because um Think about Like everything that I had to overcome My makeup is fucked. I probably I I would restart my foundation, but I'm not really going anywhere But um Yeah, I just got I don't know why I even I don't even intend to get emotional like that, but um, I just Overcame a lot of things like people don't really know what I go through Um People don't really know what I go through um Or they just see like a pretty face and just think I'm just overly confident And sometimes I'm just I regroup like I had to redo my whole fucking foundation But yeah So I just overcame a lot um Of things it's I just get emotional when I think about everything that I overcame It's not like I'm getting emotional. I don't know. It's just like I just like overcome a lot And I really just wasn't in the right state of mind last year Yeah, I wasn't in the right state of mind last year like Like how I am in this year like this year. I'm really like will leave it on to this year. Um I'm really just all about me and like my future and like youtube like because I've been wanted to do YouTube for like the longest like this camera recording on was I got it like a year ago And um, I just never fucking I waited a year to use it And I'm like, you know, it's 2018 like I'm not about to keep putting this off Like this is really what I want to do. So I need to just fucking do it and that's what I did Focus right now like especially after this trip like I just want To Inspire I want to create content. I want to Connect with my subscribers like y'all when y'all be like When y'all tell me y'all love like whatever I post I'll be like, yes Like when y'all comment like that makes my heart so fucking happy Because it's like damn like I really thought nobody would watch my shit And but now I have a 4000 subscriber count and that's what's up and all of them fuck with me. Hopefully What most of them do that I see most of most of them show love And I really appreciate that I see all the comments like everything like Nothing bypasses me. I see it all So I don't even care if I don't have a large problem right now Like as long as my subscribers fuck with me like genuinely that little that little number is this means everything to me So that's okay like Whatever you want to do in your life that you just fucking just be like lucky I'm just I'm just gonna fucking do it like I'm gonna do it like people ask me all the time like How did you like get into youtube like how did you um? Start making videos like I just like I just had to do it like I was just like I'm just about to do it like fucking Like I couldn't keep putting it off any longer Like I would be wasting my life for type shape if I would do that Oh, I can't believe I got emotional. Yeah, I'm a sensitive person. I'm a Pisces I'm sensitive coming down below if you're a Pisces too but yeah Yeah overcoming battles is a fucking struggle But once when you get out of it is like and then you look back on it like them Like when you're in it, you just like damn am I ever going like overcome this or am I ever going to like be better than life Or am I ever it's life still it's going to be the same way like In the next some years Like how how can I change like how Can I overcome this like and you want to like I ask God like what why the fuck is this happening to me like Sometimes I feel like my like I love YouTube Like I always wanted to do YouTube and all this shit was happening to me and I'm like damn maybe Maybe you like, you know, maybe my purpose is to like help girls overcome Battles of what I went through or shit like that, but I don't know But I'm just talking Honestly But yeah do whatever you have to do To get focused like if you gotta go take a trip Go take a trip Like if you need to do you need to do whatever you need to do To get motivated so you can get to work if you don't work you don't fucking eat And never get discouraged like sometimes I do get discouraged. I'm not even like I do get discouraged on YouTube I'm like damn like My numbers I'll be looking at the numbers But then I see all the comments and I'll be like, okay They fuck on me, but You gotta think about it like everybody gets discouraged or comes across a storm and Not really know what the fuck it's been a fucking happen Like look at Kylie Jenner like she's about to be a fucking billionaire But a lot of people was bashing her stuff in the beginning and I'm pretty sure she got discouraged But she never gave up like and I'm not about to give up on the shit Because this is what I wanted to do for the fucking longest like even before Like everybody started doing it like I was watching YouTube For like fucking ever like do y'all know those those those say candy like I was watching her When she was putting on like remember when like the fucking triangle scars was in I was watching her like she was like And it's orange ass lighting It was orange and um What the fuck no The first day when the leader j came out with that story time If it wasn't an ugly she wasn't ugly, but she wasn't me that first day. I was watching it I remember I was in the backseat of my mama's car Music on our way to Chicago, I think And I was watching that shit And I don't know why I just never started one until now, but It's better late than never, you know what I mean Like I love making videos like I love like editing like I love learning new ways to edit and new like Things to put in my videos Like I studied it And stuff like that a lot of people ask me and they'll be like, oh, can you help me like edit my video? But at the same time I'm doing all this research myself and like I'm taking my time out to help people But you have to be self driven like it's not easy to have self drive Like you have to be like born with it or you have to like fucking You have to want it like you gotta want it like I want this shit bad as fuck And don't get discouraged like just keep fucking going just keep going Just keep pushing it's always a light at the end of the tunnel Even though I may not um Have 100,000 subscribers or even 20k subscribers. I have subscribers and I'm not fucking stopping at all I'm not there yet But I'm gonna get there So if you want to make a youtube channel go ahead and make a fucking youtube channel Everybody fucking doing that shit, but is everybody being consistent? Is everybody putting their all into it like just because everybody's doing it. Don't mean it's dumb, right? You know what I'm saying But here boutiques like boutiques are all out here or whatever. That's fine. They all have the same um products But are they all marketing it the same like no is one being marketed better than the other one is Am I gonna feel like I want to buy from this person rather than this person? It's all about like the time and effort and what you put into what you want to sell what you want to do Like it's all about time and effort and it's it's not an overnight process You gotta want it for yourself like it took me a long time to have self drive like The past two years. I was not motivated at all. I was like just fucking Going through in Atlanta. I was around successful people So that just made me want to just go hard Like you'll see the shit on instagram or whatever But I mean I love the clear mom twiz But They just went to jail for fraud like y'all being fraud And y'all acting like y'all just have all this fucking money What you gotta fucking swipe a card in a dead man's name like no Like getting motivation from instagram is not um Real because all that shit is fake What is this? No Hell I just fucking cried on camera doesn't fucking embarrass me Please don't fucking judge me like it's not even like that. It's just A girl been through it So yeah, I just popped on my lashes. I'm right on top of my sanctions Being able to do what I want to do when I want to do it um Is what matters the most to me right now being even being able to do what I want to do How I want to do it when I want to do it is what matters most to me right now I don't care About no relationship nothing like Where I'm going is my only focus this year I mean if I meet somebody that's cool But if I don't like I don't care I'm not pressed over it like I don't need No nigga and you don't need that It was so funny is my my Uber driver that was taking me to the airport He was from Wisconsin And he's been in Atlanta for like 15 years and he was like, yeah, Atlanta. Just a different vibe like And I'm like, yes, exactly you understand you understand. I don't understand. No Yeah, girl, just Do what you got to do to get motivated get started today on what you want to focus on And where you want your life to go. Don't let anything or anybody to fucking distract you like You fucking got this No, but for Oh Because sometimes like some people just don't have friends or like associates to help them like they have that Probably that friend that wouldn't always go out or whatever But they don't have somebody to be there to be like, yeah, bitch Hurry up do that do that do this like you got this friend You got this like and I didn't have that for a long time And I'm just like dependent on my Little relationship I had And then my mom but I mean like your mom wants what's best for you and your mom is gonna help you like be like, yeah Yeah, do that do that But I don't know. It's what you really surround yourself by If that makes sense and I just you know It's my hair or what is it or whatever So I hope you guys enjoyed this video. Don't forget to like comment and subscribe And I hope you get something from this video. I'm so emotional. I'm so sorry, but And you already know I'm fucked with y'all Because y'all my Crew I don't I want to say bitches y'all my bitches y'all my bitches. I fucking love y'all. Okay